Raiders of Bai Yueguang actor

"Where do you live?"

Wen Zhengyan, who was in the driver's seat, had a sharp side face on his handsome face. He didn't even look at him since he got in the car, but simply asked a question, holding the steering wheel tightly with both hands, as if he would do something otherwise. Things you shouldn't do.

Su Jingci didn't realize until now that Wen Zhengyan actually kidnapped herself into the car in front of Meng Mei and Meng Mei, her face turned pale with anger, and said angrily, "Wen Zhengyan, why are you so crazy!"

Just in time for a red light, Wen Zhengyan slammed on the brakes. Due to inertia, Su Jingci leaned forward suddenly, but her forehead was protected by Ji's extended hand, which immediately pinched him With his chin rubbing his thumb against his lips, Su Jingci dodged and turned her head, but was forcefully pulled back.

Wen Zhengyan's attention at this moment was on Su Jingci's lips, the thin lips were soft to the touch, and they would be even softer if they were kissed.

He gritted his teeth and said, "Even if I'm crazy, it's because of you. Su Jingci, don't you like to avoid me? Try hiding again?"

Su Jingci's lips turned white from his rubbing, and her chin was painfully pinched. At this moment, the green light came on, finally freeing him from Wen Zhengyan's shackles.

Wen Zhengyan started the car again, and said, "Your house or mine?"

Seeing Su Jingci resisting him with silence, Wen Zhengyan smiled evilly, "If you don't tell me, I'll take you back to my place, but I can't guarantee what happens in my place."

"you!"

Su Jingci was speechless at Wen Zhengyan's words, but Wen Zhengyan didn't insist on him answering, and said in a manner of negotiating, "Okay, then my house."

Su Jingci took a look at Wen Zhengyan, and felt that what he said just now did not sound like a joke, so she gave up an address on her own.

Wen Zhengyan smiled, turned around and drove towards the address given by Su Jingci.

Su Jingci pressed his stomach, and there was a dull pain there. He knew before that Wen Zhengyan would occasionally get muddy, but he didn't expect him to be so muddy!

Arriving at the neighborhood where Su Jingci's home is located, Wen Zhengyan parked the car, pulled Su Jingci into the elevator, and came to the door of the house, Su Jingci gave him a cold look, "Let go, I want to open the door. "

Wen Zhengyan stretched out his hand in front of his eyes, palm facing up, "I'm here, what if you run away?"

Su Jingci was almost angry, and threw the key into Wen Zhengyan's hand. He leisurely opened the door, brought Su Jingci into the room, and closed the door with a "bang".

However, before the door was completely closed, Wen Zhengyan directly pressed Su Jingci against the wall of the entrance, held his face and kissed him.

His kiss was not gentle, but with a strong desire to confirm something, and a frenzy that had been suppressed for a long time and was finally released, he kissed Su Jingci as if venting his anger.

Su Jingci struggled very violently at first, but the more he resisted, the more tyrannical Wen Zhengyan's suppression became, and then she simply gave up and let Wen Zhengyan do whatever she wanted to him.

Just when he thought that the last breath of air in his mouth would be snatched away by Wen Zhengyan, Wen Zhengyan suddenly stopped, staring at the person in front of him with fiery eyes in the dark, and finally his head slowly moved It fell on Su Jingci's shoulder, rubbed it there, and said in a low voice: "Su Jingci, you obviously like me, why do you keep pushing me away, why do you torture me and yourself so much, are you so at ease?"

After finishing speaking, he kissed Su Jingci's neck again, seeing that the other party didn't respond, he immediately began to bite gently.

Su Jingci took a breath, pushed him away from her body, raised her hand with lingering anger, Wen Zhengyan closed her eyes, but did not feel the expected pain, so she opened them, Seeing Su Jingci slowly put her hand down, pressing her fingers fiercely between her brows, she was helpless: "Wen Zhengyan, what exactly do you want to do?"

Wen Zhengyan pulled off the hand that was blocking his eyes, and let him look at himself, "I want you to face me and yourself, I only have one request, is it so difficult?"

The corners of his eyes were a little red, and the shadow of Su Jingci was reflected in his eyes, "Su Jingci, do you know that you went abroad without saying a word, I was going crazy looking for you, do you know the news of the press conference?" When I saw you that day, what was in my mind?"

He continued on his own, "I can't wait to tie you up, and you won't be able to leave my side even an inch from now on, and you can only see me every day."

Seeing Su Jingci's expression, he laughed at himself again, "But don't worry, I won't do this. You know me, so I don't want to."

"But you have to tell me today, why do you push me away again and again, what's wrong with me?"

Wen Zhengyan pressed every step of the way, not giving Su Jingci any leeway, and made it clear that if Su Jingci didn't give him a satisfactory explanation today, he would be able to do anything.

"Okay," Su Jingci closed her eyes, and there was no trace of blood on her pale face. He said weakly, "I'll tell you why, come with me."

After speaking, he bypassed Wen Zhengyan and walked towards the bedroom.

Wen Zhengyan only had the opportunity to take a closer look at Su Jingci's house at this time. As a celebrity's residence, this house is not very big, but it is unusually clean and tidy, so clean that there is no trace of popularity. Almost nothing.

He could hardly imagine that Su Jingci lived here.

In just a short while, Su Jingci had come out of the bedroom with a box in her arms. She only glanced at him, then put the box on the high table between the living room and the dining room, and then sat on the high table beside the table. chair.

He motioned for Wen Zhengyan to sit down too, and Wen Zhengyan sat opposite him, seeing Su Jingci take out many large and small medicine bottles and boxes from the box, and put them in front of him, the box closest to him , the casing reads: Escitalopram.

Wen Zhengyan felt that the name of this medicine was somewhat familiar, but he couldn't remember it for a while, but Su Jingci gave him the answer first, "This medicine mainly treats depression."

Wen Zhengyan's heart sank, but Su Jingci said calmly, "I was diagnosed with severe depression three years ago."

He suddenly remembered why he saw this medicine so familiarly, because there used to be an actress in the same group as him who had depression and had been taking this medicine. The actress was indeed in a bad mood and often hid and secretly Weeping, and he accidentally bumped into her.

But Wen Zhengyan didn't expect that Su Jingci would have this kind of disease. The appearance of him in front of others, he has always been gentle and polite. Although he is alienated in nature, he has never seen any haze. The facts suddenly appeared before his eyes. It's unbelievable.

"This..." Wen Zhengyan's mouth moved, and his tone was soft, "I know that depression is painful, but it's not a terminal illness. I can..."

Before he could finish speaking, Su Jingci untied the watch on her left wrist. This watch was very familiar to Wen Zhengyan. As long as there was no play, Su Jingci always wore it, even in the play, He also often wears a watch, but in order not to conflict with the role positioning, he replaced it with a more common brand.

Su Jingci handed the uncovered wrist to his eyes. He saw a hideous scar on Su Jingci's thin wrist. He could imagine how deep the wound was at that time, and how determined the person who caused the scar was. .

"Maybe you will think it is hypocritical, but I have had suicidal tendencies for a long time, and I put it into practice. Fortunately, I was rescued."

"Is not likely to……"

It was too late for him to feel distressed.

Wen Zhengyan tentatively touched the wound on Su Jingci's wrist, his fingers trembling uncontrollably.

Su Jingci pulled down the sleeve of his shirt to cover the wound, as if he had been trying to cover up the unbearable memories of the past with a gentle attitude.

He went on, in a detached tone, "At the worst, I was thinking about suicide every day, thinking about how to end this."

"After the attempted wrist-cutting attempt, I was sent by Uncle Meng to a nursing home abroad and handed over to a psychiatrist he knew. Although after treatment, my symptoms turned to moderate, and I no longer thought about killing myself every day, but..."

Su Jingci looked at him, and Wen Zhengyan saw such a strong and undisguised sadness in those eyes for the first time, "I don't know when my illness will be completely cured, and I don't know if I will be cured after I am cured." Will relapse, in fact, the chance of relapse of this disease is very high, and I don't know if I will become like the one who wanted to die before, how can I be with you. "

"Aren't you afraid that one day you will go home and see me die in front of you?"

When Su Jingci said these words, Wen Zhengyan listened without saying a word, and at the end of hearing, his heart was almost empty of pain.

He has been working hard to love this person in front of him, but at this moment, he knows that no matter how hard he tries, he can't personally touch his dark past.

Wen Zhengyan finally plucked up the courage to hold Su Jingci's hand, his eyes were full of distress and earnestness, "I will not watch you slip into the abyss, I will hold you back, you have to trust me, I am willing..."

"I don't want to!" Su Jingci slammed his hand away, and said in pain: "You just haven't seen my dark appearance. If you get along with that me for a long time, you will get tired of it sooner or later. This is me alone. It’s enough for me to sink into the quagmire by myself, I don’t want to drag you in too!”

Wen Zhengyan stood up from the chair and said loudly: "Then have you ever thought about how sad I would be if I watched you sink deeper and deeper? I might as well die! Su Jingci, you can't just do this Give up on me! Are you going to watch me go crazy for you?"

Su Jingci buried her face in her palm, her voice almost choked up, "Zhengyan, don't force me like this."

He shook his head, "I've said everything clearly, let's go."

"it is good."

Wen Zhengyan wiped his face fiercely, "You are very good, I can't hold you back, but Su Jingci, remember, either you will be alone all your life, then I will accompany you until you die alone, as long as you decide Whoever I'm with, that person can only be me."

He said hysterically: "I'll spend my whole fucking life with you, and I'll see how long you can harden your heart!"

After saying this, he turned and left, slamming the door heavily.

After Wen Zhengyan left, Su Jingci sat alone at the table for a long time before raising her face. There was no one in the room, so he didn't have to clean up his expression, his face was full of paleness after a breakdown Lost.

He didn't put away the watch, but went to the window and opened the curtains. It started raining outside at some point, and the huge raindrops hit the glass window, forming puddles of water and sliding down the glass. , Diluting the shadow of the lamp into a blurred point of light, he thought: "Why did I forget to bring him an umbrella?"

Together with such thoughts, Su Jingci couldn't get rid of them anymore. Su Jingci stood alone in front of the window, watching the lightning bolts split the silent night sky and reflected on his face.

This is the first rain in early spring.

After Wen Zhengyan left Su Jingci's house, regardless of the rain outside, he walked directly into the dense rain curtain, letting the cold rain hit his face, as if this could relieve the already numb pain heart.

Five minutes later, he got into the car, when the phone rang, it was Meng Xiaochun, his voice was accompanied by the sound of rain outside the car window, "Zhengyan, it's raining today, would you like to have a drink with me?"

His invitation was somewhat inexplicable, and the excuse was even more inexplicable, but Wen Zhengyan really needed alcohol, so he agreed, and drove directly to the place Meng Xiaochun said.

When he arrived, Meng Xiaochun was already waiting by the bar, pouring himself a drink. Wen Zhengyan asked for whiskey as soon as he came up, Meng Xiaochun glanced at him and didn't stop him.

After getting the wine, Wen Zhengyan took a big sip before asking Meng Xiaochun, "Why did the director suddenly ask me to come out for a drink?"

Meng Xiaochun smiled, "I just called Jingci, and he said that you had already left. I guess, you ran into trouble with Jingci, so I specially asked you out to help you relieve your depression."

He patted Wen Zhengyan on the back, "What, are you disheartened?"

Wen Zhengyan shook his head, "It's not enough to be discouraged, it's just a little bit frustrated. I really couldn't think about it two days ago and wanted to give up, but when I calm down, I'm still not reconciled."

If he was angry and discouraged by Su Jingci's actions two days ago, he became more determined today.

As Su Jingci said, of course he was afraid that Su Jingci would commit an old disease due to some incidents in the future, and even die in front of him, but what he was even more afraid of was that Su Jingci would quietly hide in a place he didn't know. Painful, even died silently, and he could only face his cold tombstone.

He raised his head slightly and exhaled, "I just don't know how to continue."

Meng Xiaochun clinked glasses with him knowingly, Wen Zhengyan looked at Meng Xiaochun, hesitantly said: "He told me about his suicide before."

Meng Xiaochun was obviously a little surprised, and immediately nodded, "Yes, because of that incident, Jingci was far less calm than the outside world. In fact, when the accident just happened, he spent almost half a year in the office regardless of day and night. He drank heavily and smoked heavily until he got to that point."

That memory is not only unbearable for Su Jingci, but also for him.

"If Xiaochen didn't find something was wrong after talking with him that day, and asked me to go to his house to confirm his safety, Jingci," he paused, "I think he would really die on that day."

"At that time, he probably really wanted to die. He cut his wrist with a razor blade in the bathtub and injured an artery. Can't be saved."

When listening to the doctor say these words, Meng Xiaochun and Mei Xiaochen, who are used to the wind and waves, were a little dazed. No one thought that this young man, who has always been called a genius, would intend to end his life in such a violent way. .

After hearing this, Wen Zhengyan could hardly even hold the wine glass, and finally put the glass heavily on the table.

Meng Xiaochun couldn't bear to see him like this, so he changed the subject: "But it's all over. I later sent Jingci to a nursing home abroad for treatment, and his condition gradually improved. Otherwise, I wouldn't have asked him to come back to filming. He recovered. Work is also a doctor's recommendation."

"Actually, Jingci went abroad not only to hide from you, but mainly to go for reexamination and receive psychological intervention treatment."

He comforted Wen Zhengyan, "So he will get better, and the only thing I can assure you is that he really needs you and really likes you. I also know that what he has done during this time makes people sad. It's really annoying, but you just treat him as a patient and take more care of him."

Wen Zhengyan nodded, "I know, I don't blame him at all."

Meng Xiaochun smiled, "I knew that you are the most suitable person for him."

In exchange for Wen Zhengyan's wry smile, "If only he thought so too."

He couldn't help being disappointed, "I always feel that there is always a wall between me and him. No matter how hard I try, even crazy, I can't cross it."

He used to think that it was just Su Jingci's self-protection, but it turned out that behind this wall was a long painful struggle and an unavoidable disease.

"It takes a lot of hard work to like someone too deeply, but it's also a lot of fun." Meng Xiaochun stretched out his index finger and shook it. "It's not enough for outsiders."

Wen Zhengyan looked at his expression, and suddenly said in a low voice: "Director Meng, can I also ask you a question?"

"Aren't you, Mr. Aimee..."

Meng Xiaochun was taken aback for a moment, and then laughed loudly, "You brat, you're still gossiping about me!"

Wen Zhengyan was a little embarrassed, and said, "It's not gossip, it's just a little curious..."

Meng Xiaochun nodded, "Yes."

"Of course I love him, but he loves me too, and the time we've been together is almost longer than your age. Don't think that you and I are in the same sympathy."

Wen Zhengyan curled his lips, feeling as sour as a lemon. Seeing this, Meng Xiaochun laughed again, and said, "But since you've already asked, I won't hide it. I can share our experience with you, a junior. Satisfy your curiosity too."

He said slowly: "Actually, the two of us did not get to today smoothly. Xiaochen and I are the same university as you and Jingci. I am luckier than you in that we are classmates of the same class. , During the study period, we met and cooperated because of rehearsing dramas, and we got together later.”

"After graduating from university, it was logical to continue to cooperate. Although we were very consistent in creative ideas, our tempers were not very compatible in the early years. Even now, there are occasional times when we get mad at each other. At that time, we often quarreled. Even the entire production crew could quarrel, and once they quarreled, the quarrel turned upside down, and no one would give in, and the emotional rift became deeper and deeper, and finally the quarrel reached the point of breaking up."

Even now, when Meng Xiaochun brought up the matter of breaking up, he still seemed unbearable. He took a sip of wine before continuing: "He left overseas in a fit of anger. He left for four or five years. After Xiaochen left, I and many others Excellent screenwriters have worked together, but I can no longer find the feeling when I worked with him at that time, the longer the time, the deeper the feeling, and I began to reflect and realized how precious I had lost.”

"There are really very few people in this world who can understand you and match you spiritually. Some people may never meet in their lives. What's more, emotionally, I love him so deeply, even Knowing all his flaws, I still love him dearly."

"Later, I happened to meet him when I went abroad to shoot a scene. It was on the streets of London after the rain. He changed a lot than I remembered, and nothing seemed to change. We were both in our thirties at that time. There are wrinkles at the corners of his eyes, Xiaochen just glanced at me, turned around and left, I thought he didn't want to see me, and he didn't have the heart to shoot the scene, unexpectedly, he appeared again after a while, walking from the corner of the street Come here and pass me a few stacks of papers, all of which are scripts written by him."

"At that time, Xiao Chen's hair was wet from the rain, and so was his clothes. He stood there, handed me the script, and said, 'This is not specially written for you, but I haven't found anyone who can shoot the feeling in my heart. I want to come It’s still suitable for you if you want to go, you can pay the copyright fee, or you don’t have to pay it, just treat it as the youth loss fee I gave you.”

Meng Xiaochun laughed so hard that tears came out, "Listen to this, it's so irritating, another person could pass out on the spot, how stubborn he is, proud and stubborn, and his mouth is so poisonous, but I almost didn't cry at that time. I thought, even if I hold his thigh and beg him, I can't let this person leave me again."

"I told him, I said you don't go, you must not go, you wait for me for a while, I have something to tell you, if you go, I will show you to death, I guess he was trying to say 'then You just die and show me' But I still held back, just stood aside and waited for me, without saying a word, when I finished filming the scenes of the day, I went home with him, we chatted all night, who I didn’t even talk about the reunion. I stayed in London for more than a month and lived at his place, but every time I wanted to mention reunion, he changed the topic. On the day of the finale, I invited him to the set, in front of everyone. The human face proposed to him, and then brought him back to the country."

He sighed for a long time, "When you are mad and discouraged these years, just think about it, if you can have the person you love by your side for decades of your life, everything else is nothing."

Wen Zhengyan nodded thoughtfully, then clinked glasses with Meng Xiaochun, "I respect your love with Mr. Mei."

Meng Xiaochun also touched him, "I respect the love of you young people."

He and Mei Xiaochen have already gone through youth and frivolity, and will soon pass through the prime of life and enter the twilight. Their story will end with plainness and steadfastness. With the mark of each film made with their joint efforts, they There are regrets, but there is also a future.

Love cannot stop the years from getting old, but it is endless in the hearts of every generation.