Little mortals' dreams come true

About 10 minutes later, Han Sheng saw Fang Qing smoking in the hospital lobby.

Seeing Han Sheng, Fang Qing stubbed out the cigarette in her hand, and greeted him with a nod, her voice was very calm, without any emotion:

"You are here, very fast."

Fang Qing's surroundings seemed to be coated with a layer of cold air. Han Sheng inexplicably felt a pressure, and asked hesitantly:

"Lefan, he..."

"Acute gastroenteritis, I fell to the ground during the meeting. Now I have a fever and I haven't woken up yet."

When Fang Qing was speaking, she kept looking steadily into Han Sheng's eyes. Her sharp eyes pierced through the glasses on the bridge of her nose, and fell straight into Han Sheng's eyes, giving Han Sheng the illusion of being peeped into her heart.

"Then I, let me see him. Which ward is he in?"

"Wait, I have something to tell you, go over there."

Fang Qing stopped Han Sheng who was about to go upstairs, tilted her head and pointed to the small garden outside the hospital, her tone was very firm.

The two walked into the small garden one after the other. It is early spring and the weather is still a bit cold. There is no one else except the two of them.

The two sat down beside a small flower bed facing the wind, and the cold wind poured into their nostrils, as if carrying broken glass.Fang Qing took out the cigarette case, took out a cigarette, and handed the cigarette case to Han Sheng. Han Sheng didn't smoke, so he waved his hand and refused.Fang Qing put the cigarette case back into her pocket, squeezed the cigarette in her hand and did not light it.

"There are some things that I should not have said, and I am not qualified to do so. Today, you can just chat casually with your old classmates. If you can listen to it, listen to it. If you don't want to listen, just pretend that I am talking to myself."

In Han Sheng's impression, Fang Qing was a technical geek who was not very good at talking and didn't like to deal with people. The two of them didn't have many opportunities to meet each other, and when they did, they would only say hello out of politeness.This was the first time the two talked alone, and Han Sheng suddenly realized that Fang Qing might not be as unreasonable as he appeared.

"You said."

"I have always regarded Li Fan as my own brother, and watched him suffer all the way. I will not talk about the nonsense of the bystanders. Only you know the things about the two of you. There are some things that he doesn't talk about, and I shouldn't say anything. Said. It's just that people are not grass and trees, so there is no reason for being hurt all the time but not hurting. I don't know if you really can't see it, or if you see it but don't care...Of course, his lack of heart and stupidity can really I've lied to a lot of people."

Speaking of this, Fang Qing lowered her head and smiled silently, lightly rubbed the cigarette on her fingertips a few times, and continued:

"In everyone's eyes, you have always been an excellent person, self-disciplined, mature, have your own reasons for everything you do, and absolutely have the ability to sort out your feelings. Of course, I am just one of this 'everyone', if It's not because of Li Fan, we will probably never talk like today. I don't quite understand your thoughts, all I can see is the surface. It's just that drawing the ground as a prison can't save anything except trapping yourself. People like this In life, one should always look forward. If you don’t leave, the person waiting for you will not stay forever. It is indeed a bit hasty to call you here today. I can stay in the hospital by myself to take care of him, and there are absolute Confidence takes better care of you than you, but what he needs at this time is not me. That's all I've said... I've said too much. Ward 312, go and see him."

The cigarette in Fang Qing's hand was deformed and he didn't light it. He didn't look at Han Sheng, but just turned towards a tree sprouting new buds, and finished talking on his own.Han Sheng was silent for a moment, then got up and walked towards the hospital building.After walking a few steps, he heard Fang Qing's voice again:

"Li Fan, something is wrong recently, you... Forget it, it's nothing, you can go up."

Han Sheng turned his head and glanced at Fang Qing. Fang Qing still maintained his original posture, unable to see his expression clearly.Seeing that he stopped talking, Han Sheng quickly walked towards Li Fan's ward.

Li Fan hadn't woken up yet, his face was abnormally red due to the fever, his eyebrows were congealed together, his forehead was covered with cold sweat, and a few strands of sweaty hair stuck to his ears.Perhaps it was because of the uncomfortable sweat on his face, Li Fan unconsciously rubbed against the pillow, his brows were tightened, his dry lips were slightly parted, his breathing was not smooth, and he was panting heavily.

Han Sheng took out a tissue and wiped the sweat off Li Fan's forehead, and Li Fan obediently followed the movements of his hands.A strange feeling suddenly surged in Han Sheng's heart. The touch on his hand reminded him of a stray cat he picked up near the rental house when he was a child, with a small soft head, seeking caress pitifully.

This was the first time he saw such a Li Fan, it was a little strange.In his memory, Li Fan never seemed to get sick, never showed a fragile appearance, always acted silly like a child, unaware of other people's likes and dislikes, and lived on his own.

"Well……"

Li Fan seemed to be caught in a nightmare, and suddenly writhed uncomfortably, saying something vaguely in his mouth.Han Sheng was afraid that Li Fan would touch the needle in his hand, so he got up and held down his clenched fist.Li Fan struggled hard, Han Sheng didn't dare to use his strength, and cried a few times anxiously:

"Li Fan? Don't move! Li Fan! Be obedient, don't move..."

I don't know if he really heard it, Han Sheng felt Li Fan's body froze for a moment, and then his hand that had been exerting so much loosened, and he gradually regained his composure, but his mouth was still whispering, the voice was very small, Hardly audible.

Seeing that Li Fan was no longer struggling, Han Sheng let go of his hand.However, before he could withdraw his hand, Li Fan immediately reached out, grabbed Han Sheng's wrist, and pulled it towards his chest.Because he was still very weak, Li Fan only moved a lot, but he didn't have much strength. Han Sheng was afraid that he would miss the needle if he moved too hard, so he didn't dare to exert strength, so he could only follow Li Fan's movements.

With this movement, the quilt was lifted a little, and Han Sheng's hand was pressed against Li Fan's chest. The body temperature was printed on the palm of his hand through the clothes, and Han Sheng felt his palm was sweaty and a little sticky.Li Fan was panting heavily, his chest heaving and falling under Han Sheng's hands, accompanied by the beating of his heart, Han Sheng had the illusion that he directly touched his heart.

"Ah Cheng..."

Li Fan suddenly called him loudly, and then lowered the volume coquettishly.Han Sheng thought he was awake, and asked him what he needed, but Li Fan's voice became smaller and smaller, so he had to move closer.

"Ah Cheng, don't look for them, don't look for them, okay... If you want, I can give it to you, really, I can..."

Li Fan spoke intermittently, some with a crying tone, Han Sheng saw that he kept his eyes tightly closed, and knew that he was just talking in his sleep.He tried his best to listen, but he didn't quite understand what Li Fan wanted to express.

"I really... don't look for them, do it with me, do it with me..."

Although Li Fan said this sentence very quietly, it was very clear. Han Sheng naturally understood it, but he froze in place as if he couldn't react for a long time.

After an unknown amount of time, Li Fan let go of his hand, breathed a little calmer, and stopped talking, a tear hung from the corner of his eye, and gently slipped into the pillow.Han Sheng withdrew his hand and covered Li Fan with the quilt again.

His thoughts were in a mess, Fang Qing's words and Li Fan's nonsense were all circling in his mind in a mess.

He knew that Li Fan would say such a thing, probably because of the rumors about Lu Qiu in the company, and he always followed Lu Qiu in and out of those strange places, so it was inevitable that he would also be infected with some rumors.Or, maybe it has something to do with Lin Dong?That smile was so obvious that even Lu Qiu could see it, not to mention Li Fan who was always following behind at that time?

Actually, it's not that Han Sheng didn't think about explaining.Those rumors are the same, and so is Lin Dong's matter. He knows that Li Fan may have misunderstood.But Li Fan's smiling face didn't seem to change, Han Sheng took it for granted that he didn't mind.It's just that Han Sheng now knows that Li Fan doesn't mind, and that's right, how could he not mind, after all, he likes him.

Yes, he likes me.

Han Sheng pressed the center of his eyebrows, and suddenly he didn't understand what he was doing.He became more and more aware of how impulsive his initial decision was.At that time, he was overwhelmed by the matter of Wansheng. On the one hand, he deeply realized that his abilities were limited, and on the other hand, he was conceited and refused to give in to reality, thinking that he could do anything.But in the end he still had to rely on Li Fan's help, which made him very uncomfortable. He always relied on himself, and only wanted to rely on himself. The feeling of walking on his legs and feet, he didn't know when others would withdraw, and was afraid of the tragedy of a sudden fall.

Therefore, he wants to repay, the sooner the better, the more the better.

The more Li Fan behaved lightly, the more uneasy Han Sheng became.

But he couldn't afford the money, but he also knew that what Li Fan wanted was not money, but him.Han Sheng was tormented by the uneasiness in his heart and was about to collapse, but Wan Sheng was at a critical moment, and he couldn't fall down, so that night, he decided to use himself to pay off the debt first.

After saying that, the burden in Han Sheng's heart finally disappeared.During the days when he was pestered by Li Fan all day, Han Sheng even had the illusion that he had sacrificed a lot.He only needs to make a trivial compromise with Li Fan from time to time, and Li Fan will show a ecstatic look, which makes him feel that he has paid more.

But looking back, he seemed to have done nothing except agreeing to a title.

He thought, is he really repaying his favor?Has Li Fan really benefited for so long?

The more I think about it, the more I realize that everything I have done seems to be an excuse for my self-conceit that has no place to rest.

Han Sheng looked at Li Fan who was lying quietly on the bed with a rare smirk on his face, a certain part of his heart seemed to be scratched lightly by a feather, and he couldn't tell what it felt like.He suddenly realized that he couldn't recall what Li Fan was like when he was suffering.Whether it was because I forgot my date at the beginning, or I was injured in the car accident, or there were all kinds of big and small things, every time I was hesitating whether I should apologize, Li Fan seemed to be smiling. Without a trace of trouble, people unknowingly forget all the harm they brought.

But Fang Qing is right, people are not grass and trees.

For the first time, Han Sheng felt ridiculous for his conceit.

"Ah Cheng, do you still hate me?"

Han Sheng suddenly saw the scene of the two on the Ferris wheel on Li Fan's birthday. On that day, when the Ferris wheel was about to rise to the top, Li Fan suddenly asked this sentence.At that time, Li Fan seemed to be smiling as well, but his eyes were bottomless, and he couldn't see his emotions when he laughed.

At that time, he was very sad.

So, do you hate it or not?

Han Sheng asked himself again in his heart.In fact, he understood that Song Tiandong's death was an accident.However, as soon as he recalled that late night, when he frantically ran to the hospital, all he got was "I'm sorry" from Li Fan, the blood vessels in Han Sheng's whole body immediately felt like they were about to explode. all reason.

Dongdong went out with Li Fan, but only Li Fan came back...

Dongdong has been lying alone in the cold cemetery since then, he is still so young, he is so gentle...

Li Fan said sorry, that he failed to save Dongdong...

why why……

If I was here, I would try my best to save him...

What is fear of heights, can't it be overcome?Why don't you try your best, why...

However, Dongdong did fall by himself, and it has nothing to do with Li Fan...

But Dongdong died, just like that, leaving nothing behind...

Two opposite thoughts kept colliding in Han Sheng's mind, and the huge impact made Han Sheng's headache feel like it would explode.But throughout the whole night, Han Sheng still couldn't find the answer in his heart.A new idea suddenly popped up in his heart: he found the answer, and then what?

Hate, what should I do?

Don't hate, if you don't hate... A vague possibility made Han Sheng's blood freeze instantly.He shivered, and immediately cut off his train of thought, not daring to think about it any further, his hands trembling uncontrollably.

Regarding love, no one gave him enlightenment, he just established his own concept by instinct.He advocates loyal and dedicated feelings. When he likes someone, he must always like him. No matter whether that person is dead or not, his heart will never change, and he is absolutely loyal.

Along the way, this has almost become his belief, but now, he is startled by the vague betrayal in his heart, like a believer facing the collapse of his faith, an unprecedented fear spreads in his heart.