Little mortals' dreams come true

Li Fan rarely slept very deeply, and when he woke up, he couldn't tell where he was.However, after waking up for a while under the quilt, the sense of relaxation brought by sufficient sleep swept away the chaos in my heart.

Looking at the phone, it was almost ten o'clock, and he had slept for eleven hours. It seemed that the medicine prescribed by Dr. Wu this time worked well.

I had an appointment with Dr. Wu at eleven o'clock today, so I didn't have time to have a good breakfast. Fortunately, there was still a bag of unfinished bread in the refrigerator.The milk was a bit cold, Li Fan hesitated for a moment, and honestly took out the milk pot.

During this time, he has been learning to take care of himself as he used to take care of others.

Warm milk always makes people feel better. Li Fan put the empty cup into the sink, and checked the time. It was almost time to go out.

The weather is not very good today, it is drowsy, the gray clouds are very low, it looks like it is going to rain, Li Fan took an umbrella and put it in the bag.

The kitten downstairs was still sleeping in a small cardboard box, its small body curled up in a ball, with one paw drooping on its head, and it also looked defensive in its sleep, which made Li Fan feel a little distressed.

The kitten was picked up by Li Fan not long after he arrived near the garbage dump. His ear was injured, and he lay dying in a corner.Li Fan took it to the pet hospital for treatment. He originally thought that he could keep the little guy as a companion, but the landlord did not allow pets. Li Fan couldn't find any other place for a while, so he had to compromise and stay upstairs. I built a nest with old clothes.

When kittens are not very close to people, they are not allowed to be touched, and even when they eat, Li Fan always puts the cat food in a small bowl and leaves.Occasionally when I come back late, I will find snacks from other residents in the bowl.

Counting it, Li Fan has lived here for almost a month, and the kitten has gained a lot of weight.While the kitten was still sleeping, after putting away the cat food, Li Fan squatted aside and touched the kitten's furry head secretly.

It turns out that I have been away for more than a month.

In fact, he didn't plan to come here at the beginning. His original destination was Mingchuan City. Although they are all S cities, Mingchuan City is not as prosperous as this place. There are many small towns nearby with beautiful mountains and rivers, which are suitable for one's quiet thinking.

He originally thought that if he could take nothing with him, and if he left alone in the middle of the night, he would definitely be able to live alone, recall calmly, or forget.

However, he still overestimated himself.

He deliberately chose the slowest green leather train, hoping that he could be mentally prepared for the long journey.However, when the train arrived at the station, his heart, which had been calm all along, suddenly became unbearably painful.He frantically wanted to go back, desperately remembering the short-term tenderness before leaving in his head, wondering whether he could really stay and live a good life.

But at the same time, those scars were still hurting, and he knew that there were some knots in his heart that could never be untied.The secret in the iron box that had accompanied him for many years, he only took away one thing, a button - the button that fell off Han Sheng's shirt the night Han Sheng hit him for the first time.

He threaded the button up and hung it on his chest.

For the first two days after getting off the train, he stayed in a small hotel nearby.When he couldn't help but wanted to go back, he would pinch the button. Looking at the button, he could think of the thorn-shaped earring that Han Sheng had never taken off on his chest, and the slap that was caught off guard.

In the early morning of the third day, he finally made up his mind and checked out early in the morning. He left in such a hurry that he even forgot his coat at the front desk.

He rented a small apartment in a very remote neighborhood in the East District of Mingchuan City. He had thought about finding a job that didn't require much good treatment, just something a little more relaxed, just to pass the time.However, after thinking about it for a while, he decided to walk around first.

The mountains on the outskirts of Mingchuan City are very beautiful, and there are many scenic spots, but they are relatively unpopular. There are only some literary youths with SLRs walking in the morning breeze. Many of them are alone like him, but they don’t look lonely, as if the little The small lens is full of interesting life.

Looking at them, Li Fan suddenly realized that one does not have to live for another.

Li Fan likes the feeling of walking in the mountains, because there are few tourists, the development is not very thorough, there are no traces of deliberate repairs everywhere, only a lot of concrete steps, connected to the long path, quiet but not lonely, nowhere No one disturbs you, but you don't worry about getting lost.

It is obviously summer, but there is always wind in the forest, passing through the layers of leaves, gently brushing against the cheeks.There will be bugs in the mountains, and Li Fan always carries a bottle of mint-flavored mosquito repellent, and for a long time afterwards, whenever he smells mint, he always thinks of the wind in the woods.

He tried not to think about anything.

After his mood stabilized a bit, he contacted Fang Qing and sent the fruit from Mingchuan City back.

He thought he could stay like this forever.

But after all, it was so deep once, the process of pulling away is like cutting blood from the heart bit by bit, it is impossible not to be painless.Although I can't help but want to go back like I did at the beginning, I always suffer from insomnia at night and can't eat much.

What really worried him was that after several days of loss of appetite, the vengeful spicy desire faintly showed signs of relapse.

By chance, he learned that Wu Nian, the psychiatrist whom he had met in his freshman year, had left City A and reopened a private clinic, which happened to be in City S too, but not in Mingchuan City, but in a distance closer to the center. Yuen City.

Dr. Wu was the first and only psychiatrist he saw, and the only one who knew what he had experienced during that winter vacation. He has always trusted Dr. Wu.

He knew that his state was a bit dangerous, and he had to seek help from professionals if he wanted to recover completely.Therefore, on the night when he couldn't control the spicy food for the third time, he decided to leave Mingchuan City and go to Dr. Wu's clinic to receive systematic treatment.

It is said that the road from Mingchuan City to Liyuan City has beautiful scenery, and the distance is not too far. Anyway, there is enough time, so Li Fan decided to take the bus.

The bus station is not far from the train station. On the day of leaving, Le Fan tried to go back to the small hotel where he rented before, and wanted to ask if the coat was still there.The girl at the front desk yawned and searched the lost and found records for him, and told him that the coat was taken away by a Mr. Han a week ago.

Li Fan said thank you, and walked out of the hotel door calmly, but his palms were wet with sweat.He stood on the side of the road with people coming and going for a long time with his bag on his back, and couldn't help repeating in his heart:

He came to me, he came...

After a while, he looked down at the slightly open neckline, where the warm button was hidden inside, sticking to his collarbone.

Then he told himself:

I've been here, so what?

At most, it's just that I'm not used to leaving suddenly by myself...

It was a week ago anyway.

Things you are not used to, you will get used to one day.

A person who does not love can never be loved.

He took a deep look in the direction of the train station, then turned and walked towards the bus station.

It's a pity that the girl stayed up late last night with her best friend to watch dramas, and she was not very energetic today. She didn't remember until Li Fan went out for a while. She forgot to tell him that the Mr. Han who took the coat only checked out this morning. of.

So, no one knows that when the bus that Li Fan was on left the station and sped towards a road shaded by green branches, a bus bound for City A was on the rails next to Platform 3 of the railway station. The moving car started slowly, accelerated, and then left.

Someone was leaning against the window, rubbing the buttons on his chest.

Someone lowered his head and hugged the coat in his arms tightly.

For a moment, the same silence, in the opposite direction.