The minister raised His Majesty in a wrong way [Rebirth]

Gao Yu still didn't dare to touch Lou Chen in the end, his words before he passed out were like a heavy punch, crushing the last trace of luck left in Gao Yu's heart.

It was inconvenient to say anything, so he could only ask for a silver needle from the imperial physician and take his own blood in the palace alone.

The silver needle pierced the flesh, drawing essence into the blood, cold sweat broke out on Gao Yu's aching forehead instantly, but compared to the bone-biting pain of the Gu worm, compared to the sadness and despair in his heart, this pain is nothing.

After feeding the blood essence to the Gu worms, the restless Zi Gu finally calmed down. Lou Chen's brows, which were tightly frowned because of the pain, relaxed, and fell into a deep sleep.

Looking at Lou Chen's pale face and bleeding lips, Gao Yu was heartbroken. It was the same situation when he first discovered his feelings for Lou Chen.

It was his fourth year on the throne.

Lou Chen was ordered to go to Hebei East Road to investigate the matter of the fourth prince. On the way, he happened to meet a Northern Qi soldier who secretly went south to check on the situation.

Lou Chen reacted quickly and quickly caught him, but when he found Bei Qi's stronghold on the border of Nanliang, he was ambushed on the way and lost contact with the large army.

Gao Yu was calm at first, believing that Lou Chen would never fail easily, but after news of the death of the lieutenant who disappeared with Lou Chen came, he could no longer calm down.

When instructing others to bring the corpse back, he couldn't help but think, what would happen if Lou Chen never came back?

Posthumous title, gift, let him enter the imperial mausoleum in the name of a virtuous minister?

When he thought that Lou Chen might be like those soldiers who returned from the battle, wrapped in a straw mat and carried back to Beijing, and then the flesh and blood dissipated, leaving only bones, a huge panic enveloped him instantly.

That period was the most difficult time in Gao Yu's last life. He was anxious and restless every day, and couldn't sleep at night. In less than three days, he lost a lot of weight. It is not an exaggeration to say that he is a walking dead.

Everyone thought that he was afraid that Lou Chen would have nothing to rely on after his death. After all, compared to the Song family, Lou Chen was the only subordinate who was completely loyal to him and had no half-disagreement. But no one knew the real truth in Gao Yu's heart. idea.

Four or five days later, when the news of Lou Chen's safety came, Gao Yu finally seemed to come back to life, with life in his eyes.

But he was still restless in his heart, he had to see news from Lou Chen every day to sleep peacefully.

Such restlessness and uneasiness made Gao Yu panic, he didn't know what was wrong with him, why he was so full of that person in his heart, until Lou Chen returned to Beijing seven days later, all this finally had an explanation.

Sitting on the golden throne, seeing Lou Chen returning safely and appearing in the hall with a straight back, Gao Yu knew that he was finished, and he could no longer deceive himself. I never took Lou Chen seriously.

The spring breeze turns into rain, the red maple thaws, moistens things silently, and the ice and snow melt.

Those who are kings and emperors are most afraid of being emotional, but Lou Chen has already entered his heart unknowingly.

But to Gao Yu's despair, it was already too late.

There has been an irreparable rift between the two of them, and there has been no response for a long time. Lou Chen's sincerity has been worn away by him. The fiery eyes looked at him back then.

He panicked, he was confused, he went to the doctor in a hurry, and chose the most desperate method - he sent someone to find the Gu worm, and planted the sub Gu on Lou Chen's body.

Seeing the moment when the Gu worm mixed with his own blood entered Lou Chen's body, Gao Yu almost shed tears. He finally found a way to keep Lou Chen by his side forever, and finally he no longer had to be afraid of Lou Chen leaving.

But in his thousands of calculations, he missed the most irresistible thing in this world, apart from life and separation, there is also death.

A groan sounded, and Gao Yu suddenly woke up from the memory, only to realize that Lou Chen had dreamed something, and his lips were pursed.

Didn't sleep well?

Gao Yu approached, and wanted to reach out to wipe away the blood on Lou Chen's lips, but stopped the moment he was about to touch it - Lou Chen was avoiding him, even in a coma, when he felt his breath approaching, Lou Chen subconsciously I hid for a while.

This subconscious behavior is like instinct, he resists Gao Yu's touch, just like a cub instinctively avoids danger.

This realization crushed Gao Yu's heart, which had already collapsed into gravel due to despair, at this moment. He seemed to have fallen into an abyss. Fear and guilt were like two mountains weighing him down. , The waves of remorse have even reached his neck. He has been a human being in two lives, and he has never been in such pain and despair like this moment.

At this time, there was a knock on the door of the outer hall.

Gao Yu had already told anyone not to enter unless he summoned him, so if he dared to disturb him now, there must be something important.

"Achen, you rest first, I'll come back to accompany you later." Gao Yu suppressed the soreness in his heart, glanced at Lou Chen who was asleep, got up and walked towards the outer hall.

Gao Yuyuan thought it would be some important political event, but he didn't know that after the door opened, it was his mother who was waiting outside the door.

After Gao Yu succeeded to the throne, Emperor Shande abdicated as Supreme Emperor, and Concubine Shu was promoted to Empress Dowager.

Gao Yu was a little strange when he saw his mother at first, but when he saw Gao Xian who was hiding behind him, he immediately understood.

Welcoming the two into the house, Gao Yu saluted and greeted him. There was no outsider in the house. He simply didn't use the honorific title, and asked calmly, "I don't know why mother came here today?"

"It's nothing, I just heard that the emperor is not feeling well today, so I came to have a look." Scanning the Zhezi all over the floor, the Empress Dowager Shu asked worriedly, "What's bothering the emperor recently?"

Gao Yu glanced at Gao Xian who was trying to hide back, then at his mother who looked worried, nodded and said, "There are a few, but the child will take care of it."

The Empress Dowager Shu sighed when she heard the words, and said softly: "My mother doesn't understand government affairs, but she also knows that there are some things that can't be rushed. The emperor is now the emperor, and every word and deed determines the safety of the people. You should know how to think twice. And do it, don't be reckless."

Gao Yu is always a well-behaved and sensible child in front of his mother, even if he knew what he was referring to, he didn't ask much, just nodded and said: "I know."

Gao Yu didn't mention it, but it doesn't mean that other people don't care, after sending Gao Xian out with a wink, Empress Dowager Shu stopped talking nonsense, looked at the position in the back hall, and asked, "Is Master Lou in the hall? "

As soon as Gao Yu heard it, he knew that his mother had come prepared, but he didn't know what that guy Gao Xian said, so he thought for a while and said honestly: "It's true...but he's not feeling well, and he's sleeping in the bedroom. Now, if mother has something to do, you can wait until later when he wakes up."

He wanted to find a reason to prevaricate, but he didn't think that Empress Dowager Shu asked directly: "Is it because of Lord Lou that Yu'er is angry?"

Gao Yu was startled, and before he could answer, he heard the Empress Dowager Shu say again: "Mother is not trying to interfere with you, but good generals are easy to get, loyal ministers are hard to find, you must save my child."

"Mother..." Gao Yu felt uncomfortable in his heart, but he couldn't speak. He just pursed his lips and repeated what he said before, "Mother, don't worry, the child can handle it freely."

If he is really a foolish king, really disregarding the world, he can do whatever he wants, but he can't.He has too many people to protect, even if he sits in this supreme position, he still needs to be vigilant all the time, and he must not let up.

But he is also a human being, and when he is tired, he also has his own small wishes, and also has his own expectations and prayers.

As a human being in two lifetimes, he is willing to spend the rest of his life trapped in this world, without freedom or hope, all he wants is to keep the one he loves by his side, isn't that all right?

Empress Dowager Shu saw that Gao Yu had not let go, and finally stopped hesitating, as if making an important decision, she took a deep breath and asked, "Does Yu'er remember what happened in Gyeongju when I was a child?"

The sudden change of topic made Gao Yu a little confused. He was stunned for a second before hesitating and said: "I only remember some small fragments, so much that I can't remember it."

This sentence Gao Yu is not perfunctory. After returning to the memories of the previous life, many past events in Gyeongju when I was young also came back to my mind, but maybe because I was too young at that time, my memory ability was not complete. It's so fragmented that it can't even connect a complete story.

Gao Yu felt that the trivial things in his childhood didn't have much influence, so he didn't think about it any more.

Concubine Shu tentatively asked: "Then do you still remember your childhood nickname?"

"Baby name..." Gao Yu tried hard to remember, but in the end it was all in vain, "I'm sorry mother, I really don't remember."

Empress Dowager Shu was a little disappointed, but she didn't give up, she just said softly: "It's 'Yi', Yi Yi, you were very naughty when you were young, and you really couldn't be at peace for a moment, fortunately you have him by your side." She said After a pause, he asked cautiously, "Yu'er still remembers the family who lived next door."

"The family next door?" Gao Yu couldn't bear to let his mother down, so he could only concentrate on remembering.

Unexpectedly, just as he closed his eyes, a childish voice rang in his mind, and the memories that had been chaotic before were gradually connected together under the concatenation of the word "Xiaoyi".

"Xiao Yi, run slowly, run slowly..."

"Xiao Yi, brother will catch fish for you..."

"Xiao Yi, when my brother makes money in the future, he will definitely buy you a lot of delicious food."

"Xiao Yi, don't be afraid, brother will protect you."

"Xiao Yi, run away, run away!"

"Little Yi..."

……

Who ran all over the mountains and plains with him on his back, who took him up trees to hunt birds, went down rivers to fish for fish, who fanned him in the summer night while coaxing him to sleep...

Who is it, who is it!

Those tiny memories suddenly seemed to come alive, converging into a pair of vivid pictures, and the original memories were finally awakened.

There was a thunder in his mind, and there was a bang, Gao Yu suddenly opened his eyes, and looked at his mother in disbelief.

Empress Dowager Shu nodded, confirming his guess.

"No, no... Didn't Ah Chen say that he had never been to the Northwest?" Gao Yu still remembers Lou Chen's words at that time. When he was young, he just wanted to get closer, but Lou Chen was very ungrateful. The cold rejection almost made him unable to step down, "No, why did you never mention it, mother?"

"Xiaochen didn't let me talk about it." Concubine Shu frowned slightly, "He didn't want you to be distressed because of your different positions, but he didn't expect that after going around, you two brothers still stood in the same camp."

"So this is fate. The two of you are destined to meet again even if you are separated by thousands of mountains and rivers." Looking at Gao Yu who was still in panic, Empress Dowager Shu sighed quietly: "Yu Er, Xiaochen, even if you There are thousands of mistakes, but my heart is always toward you. Now that you are the Ninth Five-Year Honorable, you hold a lot of money, if Xiaochen really did something that displeased you, Yu Er, it would be due to the past love , let's wait a little longer..."

"Mother... Achen, he is right, the child is wrong!" Gao Yu heard the words, and a line of tears rolled down his face. He was like a child who made a mistake, frustrated, flustered, and crying, "The child didn't know until today, I did a lot of things wrong..."

It turned out that their fate was doomed many years ago. No wonder Lou Chen's eyes were so hot when he first saw him in the last life. At that time, Ah Chen's eyes were not the desire for power, not flattery, but the joy of reunion...

It wasn't that he chose Lou Chen, but Lou Chen chose him.

From the very beginning, the young man who came all the way didn't come for the emperor's order, but to fulfill the promise he made many years ago.

Lou Chen had long given him his most sincere heart, but he himself missed it.

He was wrong, outrageously wrong, is there still time to correct it now?

The author has something to say: Whoever said Gao Yu couldn't cry, didn't he just cry anyway, haha.

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