hold back the merman

The night renders the sky dark blue, and the villas located in the outskirts of the city far away from the brightly lit central city appear more and more lonely in the night.The black shadows cast by the verdant trees under the moonlight projected on the huge European-style gorgeous manor, casting a black shadow over the retro, beautiful and extremely luxurious manor. The apparently very beautiful manor revealed an inexplicable danger.

"Today is your birthday, I wish you a happy birthday here." In the brightly lit living room, only Nan Gongzawa sat quietly and looked at the one-meter-high cake in front of him in a daze. Nan Gongze, who was unstoppable like an unsheathed sword, was covered with a layer of loneliness and fragility that shouldn't be there. "I haven't had a birthday with you for so many years. You must be blaming me. I don't know if this cake suits your taste."

Nan Gongze thought that if Gui Qianmian was in front of him now, that person would laugh very happily, and would definitely say that he was not to blame.Maybe you will be so happy and moved that your eyes are red.Because that person is always satisfied so easily, as long as you treat him a little better, he will be moved for a long time.And pay more for it, wishing to put the best in the world in front of him.So no matter what he did to that person, no matter how outrageous and rude demands he made, even if he asked that person to die, he thought that person would obey without blinking an eye.

That person always puts himself first, and always thinks of himself in everything. He may not say a lot, but he will silently pay for himself without reservation.It's like he used to just frown and drank an unpalatable nutrient, the kind of insignificant thing that even he himself forgot.The man kept it in his heart silently, and even developed a fruit-flavored nutritional supplement.

Just like when he used to be picky about his taste and felt that the new chef's skills were not good enough, so he couldn't eat.The person who never cooks, but when he doesn't know it, silently starts cooking according to his taste.He didn't invite himself to taste until he could make a table full of delicious dishes he liked.

Just like when he was so tired that he fell asleep on the sofa, that person would silently adjust the temperature of the room for him, and cover himself with a thin quilt thoughtfully, so he never worried that he would catch a cold because of sleeping on the sofa.That person always puts his wishes first, just like his own shadow that follows everywhere, shining brightly in other places is an existence that countless people desire and fear.When he came to him, he silently hid his brilliance, and never competed for his limelight.He always solves those troubles one by one for himself indifferently when he is in a state of desperation. He has done a lot for himself, so many that he knows what he doesn't know, and he can't count them.

But at that time, Nangong Ze had long been numb. He would be moved and remembered by that person once or twice, and it became like a habit over time.It seems that the person treats him well and always puts himself first, and it is only natural that the whole world revolves around him.Occasionally, the other party fails to meet their high expectations, and instead complains that the other party is not doing well enough.He is such a greedy and dissatisfied person, when he is used to that person's kindness to him, and he is determined that the other person will not leave, this shadow seems to become less important.

In the coffee shop after the rain, Ye Zixin, who was as clean and beautiful as an angel who strayed into the mortal world, occupied his whole being as soon as he entered his sight.The piano prince who smiled as brightly as the sun, without the slightest shadow, reminded him of a song "Paradise" that he heard a long time ago and completely saved him.It was a long, long time ago. The child who was so desperate that he wanted to commit suicide was also forgotten by him along with the song as he grew up, to the bottom of his heart.But that day, when he met Ye Zixin, the warmth, cleanliness and beauty revealed on his body opened up his dusty childhood memories.

At that moment, he almost didn't need to confirm, he knew that the person who could play such a warm dreamy, clean and hopeful song must be the young man in front of him who couldn't see the slightest haze like an angel.Like a demon, he wanted to put this dreamy young man in a place where only he could see it, and he wanted to bring all the best things in the world to this young man.He thought he had the ability to let the boy live in the fairy tale world he created without being stained with any filth.He didn't try to understand the young man's past, just relying on this startling glance, he broke off Zi Xin's wings with forceful means, and trapped him stubbornly under his wings.

From then on, he ignored that person more and more as a matter of course, because he met his true destiny, and he wanted to hold all the good things in the world in front of Zixin, making him the happiest person in the world.At that time, Nangongze could not see anyone except Ye Zixin. At that time, Nangongze felt that ghosts had thousands of faces, and Ye Zixin was the extreme of cloud and mud, light and shadow.Zixin is a clean and dreamy white cloud floating in the sky, the light that illuminates his dark life, even if it hurts, he is unwilling to let go.And Gui Qianmian is just a dispensable shadow, who becomes one with the darkness in the darkness, he can't discover his goodness of course, and he will choose the former as a matter of course.

But after Gui Qianmian completely left this world, Nan Gongze realized how wrong he was.Perhaps Zi Xin was really a ray of light illuminating his dark life, but that ray was like refraction of glass, once he got close to it, not only would he not be able to feel the warmth, but it would stab him with cuts and bruises and blood dripping all over his body.But the man with ghost face is not a shadow like he thought, that man is air... penetrates into the bone marrow, penetrates into the soul, because of long-term habits he ignored that person, but now he understands his world, can There is no light but no air.

Countless times in the dead of night, Nangong Ze would wake up from his sleep.He would dream that Gui Qianmian, covered in blood and with a pale face, asked him heartbroken, "Why did you lie to me? You promised to be together when I came back, why did you marry someone else?"

At that time, Ouyang Mingyue's words would also ring out, "Why is your heart so cruel! You can't respond to his love, so you can break up with him and let him stop thinking completely, so what if you let others love him?! Playing with others' sincerity is Is it so interesting?!"

Then the scene that Nan Gongze feared most would appear. He saw the man smiling sadly and laughing at himself when he saw the man looking at him. There was no longer the hot longing he was familiar with in his eyes, only the indifference of looking at strangers.Then he looked away indifferently, unwilling to look at himself any more, turned his head and looked directly at Ouyang Mingyue tenderly, "Mingyue, I'm finally free, you should be happy for me."

At that time, Nangong Ze could only be afraid, unable to move as he watched the two of them leave hand in hand.Leaving behind a back that was getting farther and farther away, becoming more and more blurred, every time he would wake up from the dream.It's just that after waking up, he was even more horrified to find that whether in a dream or in reality, he had completely lost the person who should have been by his side all the time.At that time, the emotion of remorse, the heart-wrenching pain that seemed to be breaking his heart, would accompany him through the sleepless second half of the night.

Nan Gongze knew that Ouyang Mingyue would spare no effort to see death every time he had a decisive battle with him, because in addition to his hatred for him, he also had the love of wanting to accompany Gui Qianmian.Therefore, after he disappeared after losing both sides again, Nan Gongze was completely panicked. He was afraid that Ouyang Mingyue would really go after Gui Qianmian.In that case, Gui Qianmian, who was closest to Ouyang Mingyue besides himself, would definitely leave with Ouyang Mingyue's arm as in a dream after he completely broke his heart.

As long as he thought of that possibility, Nan Gongze would panic and go crazy.This time, he didn't even know how to stop the rescue. Just when his heart was about to collapse, he unexpectedly ran into Xia Jinnian who looked like but didn't look like him. He thought he was just another Qianmian stand-in. The result made him ecstatic.Nan Gongze didn't expect that just when he thought it was irreversible, the person he used to appear in front of him in another form.

At that moment, because of Ouyang Mingyue's missing whereabouts, his heart finally settled down, and he thought maybe this was fate.That person belonged to him from the very beginning.If Ouyang Mingyue died, he could only blame his fate. At that moment, Nan Gongze finally stopped being jealous of Ouyang Mingyue, that's right... Jealousy, Nan Gongze had always been jealous of Ouyang Mingyue when he didn't understand this kind of feeling .

Perhaps Ouyang Mingyue and Gui Qianmian have never discovered it, but Nan Gongze deeply knows that as long as those two people stand together, they will form a world of their own, harmonious and tacit to make people jealous.Other people are like a gray background in their eyes, as if no one can come between them and distract the two of them.

And Nangong Ze knew about this when he was very young. He will always remember the day when he came back from the underground castle. living room.On that day, he saw a scene that he would never forget in his life. When he looked at Qian Mian, who had a stern face and was extremely cute, and let Ouyang gently wipe the toothpaste on his face, the mixed and natural look on both of them The harmonious and tacit atmosphere, the kind of atmosphere where there is only harmony and warmth in the eyes, made the little Nan Gongze feel an inexplicable panic and anger in his heart.At that time, Nangong Ze didn't know what he was afraid and angry about, but that strong sense of fear completely occupied his little heart.So he clenched his trembling fists and asked with a cold face, "What are you doing?!"

"Brother Ze."

Nan Gongze didn't know what Ouyang said at that time, his eyes were all occupied by Qianmian who found him coming.When Qianmian happily pushed Ouyang away, ignoring the little face that was still stained with toothpaste, and ran over eagerly with only himself in his eyes, Nan Gongze's extremely angry and frightened heart calmed down inconceivably.At that time, although he didn't understand what was going on with this emotional change, he knew that Ouyang must never be allowed to get close to Qian Mian again, they could not be left alone and they could not get close, as long as he was alone in Qian Mian's eyes.

"Come here, why are there some white spots on the eyebrows?" When Qianmian obediently came over, Nan Gongze reached out to wipe off the unsightly white spots.

"Brother Ze, Mingyue is good or bad. He actually lied to me to eat a cake covered in toothpaste, and even put the cake on my face. Brother Ze, stop being friends with him." Humph o(￣ヘ￣o#) called If you bully me, I will tell Brother Ze to ignore you again.