hold back the merman

Xia Jinnian never thought that one day he would meet these three people in this way.When Xia Jinnian noticed the arrival of several people at the first time, the wine in the glass trembled a little. If he hadn't reflected that he was Xia Jinnian now, and he was no longer the person he used to be, he might lose his composure again.I don't know what attitude I should use to face Nangong Ze, even though my heart is dead, I still feel a faint throbbing pain when I see the other party, and I still can't face the other party calmly.

Xia Jinnian thought that there were some wounds, and if he didn't touch them and let the time fade away, he always thought that the pain would not hurt. Only when he saw that person did he realize that he was just neglected but not healed.That is a scar engraved on my heart that cannot heal, and when I meet that person, I will always use pain to remind it of its existence.

Xia Jinnian, who diverted his attention, focused all his attention on Mingyue who had disappeared some time ago.Mingyue, who thought she should have lost a lot of weight after suffering a lot, is completely different from what she saw on the optical brain.When the pair of dark green pupils met him with special meaning, that guy actually showed a smug, sunny and wicked, provocative smile.Almost instinctively, Xia Jinnian raised his chin and snorted coldly, turning his head away, then Xia Jinnian felt in a bad mood.

"Amorous flower peacock."

Seeing the other party's instinctive movements, Ouyang Mingyue couldn't help laughing in a good mood, and stopped smiling in the surprised eyes of the people around her.Ouyang Mingyue thinks his little angel is too cute. He still remembers that every time he shows this smile on purpose to others, the little angel will feel that he is hooking up with people.In fact, Ouyang Mingyue didn't care at all when others looked at him stupidly. He only knew that his little angel would always be annoyed and mocked himself at that time: "You must not know what you look like now, just like a bird with a beautiful tail Begging for the flower peacock, I really should take a picture of you, so that you can see the appearance of your peacock opening its tail."

At that time, Ouyang Mingyue would look at Xiao Qianmian with that kind of eyes that seemed to be smiling but not smiling, and also showed a flirtatious smile, "Why is Xiao Qianmian jealous? Don't worry, if I want to hook up, I will only hook up with you. I don’t care about others at all.”

"Hmph—" At that time, his little angel replied with a cold snort and raised his chin and turned his head away.So much later, it was like instinct, as long as he met his gaze and saw his provocative smile, he would snort and turn his head away.His little angel must not have known at the time that the reason why he showed such a funny smile to those outsiders who couldn't even remember their faces was to attract the little angel's attention besides the cuteness of the little angel's reaction .

Whenever the little angel couldn't help but satirize herself, Ouyang Mingyue would have a kind of little angel who actually cared about her illusion.Even the illusion made him obsessed and happy.

Thinking of Mingyue seducing herself with that kind of smile just now, Xia Jinnian felt inexplicably depressed.But Xia Jinnian couldn't think of why he was angry. He had no reason to be angry at all, but his heart felt like a big stone was pressed down, and he couldn't breathe because of the heavy pain.Just like every time he saw Mingyue hooking up with others before, he couldn't control his sudden temper, but now that Mingyue was still hooking up with 'Xia Jinnian', he felt that his annoyance would double.

Xia Jinnian felt that he was really strange. Not long ago, the bright moon on his brain was still so haggard. At that time, Xia Jinnian felt heartbroken but still felt an inexplicable sense of relief. He thought that at least there was a bright moon in this world who remembered him after so long .But now Mingyue can't see any signs of haggardness and thinness at all. Xia Jinnian thinks that he should be happy for Mingyue to get out of the shadows, but this feeling as if Mingyue has forgotten him makes him unhappy.Pain is temporary, no matter how painful it is, we still have to move forward.Xia Jinnian knew that even if Mingyue really forgot about herself, Mingyue had done nothing wrong. On the contrary, it was him now... even he felt strange.

"Why are you in a daze, don't you mind having a drink with me?" Su Muyuan shook the tempting red wine in the glass, and before Xia Jinnian looked up, an almost invisible bitterness flashed in his eyes.It's been so long, and it's been several months since I arrived at Yunying. It stands to reason that I get along with his fallen angel every day, so there should be some progress in the relationship.

But Su Muyuan found that his fallen angel respected and alienated him, and even the resentment that he could occasionally see in his eyes before could not be seen now.Everything seemed to be back to the beginning. At that time, he felt that he could not tolerate being without him in the eyes of his fallen angels compared to being hated and hated, so he chose to let the fallen angels remember him severely.He used strong means to imprison the fallen angel by his side, and stubbornly broke off the opponent's wings to keep the warmth, but found that when he was physically and mentally exhausted, the warmth that was originally saved by him was cooling down little by little.

He panicked and was at a loss. He wondered if it should be like this. He wanted his fallen angel to belong only to him and stay by his side forever.But it's not just leaving a cold and soulless body.He wanted to make amends but didn't know how to make amends. The fallen angel who had forgotten him at the beginning always said: "He provoked me first, and he had nothing to say when it fell into my hands." But he was venting his anger on him, At the same time, she was also deeply jealous of Nangong Ze, because every time that man was mentioned, the eyes of the fallen angel would have wavering longing.

Su Muyuan actually envied that cold-blooded man to be so supported and loved.But even though he was suffering so much, even knowing that he had done something wrong, he still couldn't bear to let go of his fallen angel. He even told himself that when hate comes as long as love, it is another kind of caring that goes deep into the soul.

But his fallen angel still escaped, in order to meet the man who married someone else, and finally died in the palace where they got married.Su Muyuan, who knew the news, was completely fooled. He really hated why he didn't catch the fallen angel back then, and hated why he didn't treat him harder so that he couldn't escape, so that he wouldn't die! It's been a long time He lived in a daze, as if something had forcibly pulled out of his body with the departure of the fallen angel.

He can only drink non-stop every day, trying to numb himself with alcohol.In less than a month, due to alcoholism, he went to the hospital to have his stomach washed twice, and the second time he had stomach bleeding.Both times were discovered by Duanmu. He thought that if Duanmu hadn't come to see him at that time, he must have died of drunkenness alone in the room.

Later, Duanmu moved to Su's house for half a year because he was worried about him.Even if he leaves half a year later, he will often find time to visit him. He thinks that if Duanmu was not there to accompany him during that time, he might not be able to stand and commit suicide.But living is also like a walking dead, and sometimes Su Muyuan feels that he might as well be dead.Until he was dragged out again by Duan Muqiang to relax, until he saw the pair of eyes of the auction object that were exactly like those of the fallen angel. If he hadn't known that his fallen angel was dead, he would have recognized it as the fallen angel.

Until he knew that the other party was completely different from what was written in the information, and that he was proficient in gambling and was brilliant.Su Muyuan, who was once planted in the hands of the fallen angel who was in charge of Nangong Ze, was not sure whether this was his fallen angel.

Although I wanted to take off the mask to see the other party, I didn't expect the other party to leave first.From now on, Su Muyuan has been sending people to watch the fallen angels secretly, but the person he sent to follow the fallen angels was easily thrown off by him. This is the only time he was not angry when faced with a subordinate's dereliction of duty, but became happier.

It wasn't until later that he was finally able to confirm the identity of the fallen angel, so he couldn't wait to rush to Yunying, wanting to capture the fallen angel directly, but he didn't expect to hear the song of crushing love.Therefore, even though Su Muyuan was jealous and annoyed, he still felt relieved.He thought of the wedding between Nangong Ze and Ye Zixin, and his fallen angel died because of it. He thought that even if the fallen angel's affection for Nan Gongze was deep, it would definitely be completely hopeless that time.

As he said: "Death is another new birth." He thought that this time he might slow down and approach his fallen angel in a more gentle way, not to mention falling in love with himself immediately...at least let the fallen angel Angels forget their past badness, and no longer hate or loathe themselves.It's like boiling a frog in warm water, making him inseparable from himself little by little without knowing it.

Su Muyuan thought his idea was very good, but he missed Ouyang Mingyue after all calculations.That black-bellied lion who boiled the frog in warm water to soften the fallen angel in the pot, and the fallen angel didn't know it, broke into the fallen angel's heart gently and forcefully with the most harmless posture, occupying a lot of weight .Su Muyuan, who thought that guy was dead long ago, never expected that he would be so lucky to be picked up by the fallen angel.

Seeing their blending nature together, Su Muyuan's heart couldn't stop sinking.Even though he was reluctant to give up, Su Muyuan still understood that compared with those two people, his Su Muyuan's existence was too insignificant.When he met the Fallen Angel, those two people occupied all the positions in the Fallen Angel's heart. Even if he didn't want to admit it to Su Muyuan, he knew in his heart that even if the Fallen Angel didn't belong to Nan Gongze, it wouldn't be Su Muyuan's turn either.

How wonderful it would be if life was just the first meeting, when everything was so beautiful.If you don't see him again, you won't be greedy, and you won't long for what doesn't belong to you. If you don't see him again, you won't hurt the most important person in your heart. If you don't see him again, you won't be so painful if you give up to fulfill the other party.

"Teacher Su." Xia Jinnian, who was not in a good mood, took the wine from Su Muyuan's hand and clinked glasses with him, "Thank you."