hold back the merman

"As Mr. Nangong said, there is no comparison between me and Ye Zixin, because we are two completely opposite people. Using the trick against Ye Zixin is useless to me. No one in this world can force me to do what I don't want to do. Otherwise, the consequences will be nothing but death and death!"

He will not be like Ye Zixin, cowardly and unwilling to compromise, so he uses Nan Gongze's feelings for him to vent his anger and unwillingness.Ye Zixin might not want to admit it, but he dared to make trouble so presumptuously and unreasonably because Nan Gongze loved him, pampered him and pampered him.

It's a pity that the two of them are willing to fight and the other is willing to suffer. It's the fact that I, the little supporting role who has been worthless for Nan Gongze, can't see clearly and don't want to see clearly.Now that he finally sees clearly, he is far away from the two of them, so why bother him again?He no longer wants to go back and continue to be that unknown little supporting role.

"No...it's still light."

"What?" Nan Gongze's words were too soft, and Xia Jinnian, who wanted to break free from the other party's shackles, couldn't hear clearly even at such a close distance.

"I said I didn't pay it back, you are not allowed to leave me!" Finally, when Xia Jinnian broke free, he was afraid of losing Gui Qianmian again, so Nan Gongze hugged the slender and beautiful boy tightly, "I finally found out The one I love has always been you, and you still owe me your whole life, so don't leave me!"

"I'm sorry, I was not good before. Don't leave me, I swear I will treat you well in the future."

Xia Jinnian's struggle was overwhelmed by Nan Gongze's words, "I found that the person I love has always been you", and it took a while for Xia Jinnian to calm down. Xia Jinnian looked at the cold and strange man in front of him in disbelief. Say a sentence, "You said that the person you have always loved is me?"

Xia Jinnian felt that he had heard the funniest joke in the world. This man loved Ye Zixin so much that he couldn't tolerate anyone. He loved Ye Zixin so painfully and humblely, but now this man told himself that he had always loved himself.Xia Jinnian thought this was a cruel joke, if Nan Gongze loved him even the slightest bit, why couldn't he feel it?

"Yes, since you left, I found out..."

"Mr. Nangong, although I have always liked you before, but now I have given up. Don't force yourself to say these things against your will. Your love is given to a person named Ye Zixin. I have been watching you and I understand it very well."

Nan Gongze felt a dull pain in his heart when he gave up, "You don't believe me, I have always loved you, but I found out too late. Qianmian..."

"Mr. Nangong, think back to everything before, what do you want me to believe in your love for me? Do you know me? Do you know my hobbies? Do you know what I like to eat? You...you don't have anything I know, I don’t understand anything. If you love me all the time, what is Ye Zixin who is being pampered by you? If you get your 'love', it will be so painful, I'm sorry...Mr. Nangong, your love, I suffer Sorry!"

"Mr. Nangong, maybe you are just too used to my existence, and you are not used to the sudden death of Gui Qianmian. It will be fine after a while. It is not love, but a habit cultivated for a long time."

The moment Xia Jinnian pushed him away, Nan Gongze instinctively wanted to pull back that decisive figure, but what Xia Jinnian said made him lose the strength to pull him back, and finally he could only look bitterly at Xia Jinnian's stubbornly leaving back .The gloomy sky finally began to rain cats and dogs, and the biting cold rainwater hit the face and ran down the cheeks, which did not attract Nan Gongzawa's attention at all.He just stared straight at the direction Xia Jinnian left without blinking. He couldn't see the other party's figure in that direction for a long time, but he still stubbornly refused to look away.

Nan Gongze thought that he had done too many wrong things before, and must have broken Qianmian's heart.Qianmian, who has always felt sorry for him and cared about him, would let him get wet here. If it was Qianmian before, he would definitely buy an umbrella to protect him from the wind and rain.Just like that day when there was only one umbrella, Qianmian would rather get himself in the rain than let him get wet when sharing the umbrella.

But it is such a person who treats himself well wholeheartedly, but he used to never see his kindness, and always thought that his dedication was taken for granted.So much so that when Qian Mian asked himself if he knew him, Nan Gongze realized that he knew almost zero about that person.Being together under the same roof for so many years, since he doesn't know what the other party likes to eat, what color clothes he likes, and he doesn't know Qian Mian at all, but he knows how much Qian Mian cares about him.

If you like Nangong Ze, you can be sure, no matter what you do, he will never leave him.In the past, Nan Gongze always thought that he liked Ye Zixin. He knew Gui Qianmian's feelings, but he always only regarded him as a trustworthy brother and a good partner, but he didn't think he could be his lover.Thinking back to Xia Jinnian's words before he left, Nan Gongze knew that it was not a habit, otherwise why after almost two years, he still only missed Qian Mian, but not Zi Xin at all.But just like what Xia Jinnian said, he couldn't give strong proof to make Xia Jinnian feel his love, feelings?right!Just feel!

A gleam of light flashed across Nangong Ze's empty pupils, and then the light in his eyes became more and more determined as if suddenly enlightened, "Jin Nian, I will do everything to make you feel my love and make you fall in love with me again. By my side!" This time, I will definitely love you and never hurt you again.

"Fanyin, he said he loves me, he said he found out that he has always loved me, and I finally got that person's love, why am I not happy at all, why can't I feel anything?" Xia Jinnian walked aimlessly in the rain , the people around were in a hurry, the passing cars stopped and then left, but Xia Jinnian's vision was still blurred.His heart was in a mess. He could not hear what he tried so hard before, but now he got it so easily. That person finally said he loved him, but he was not happy at all.On the contrary, I feel inexplicably chilled, as if I have spent my whole life trying to pursue something persistent, and when it comes out of that person's mouth, it seems like a flimsy joke.

Xia Jinnian still remembers the look in Nangong Ze's eyes when he first saw Ye Zixin, it was the adoring eyes he is most familiar with.It was also the look in the eyes of the ignorant Gui Qianmian when he looked at Nangong Ze.Therefore, just relying on Nangongzawa's eyes when hiding from the rain, Gui Qianmian followed Nangongzawa's line of sight and looked at the figure playing beside the piano. He himself couldn't explain his disgust, and his incomprehensible restlessness.

Soon his premonition was confirmed, and it didn't take long for the clean man who seemed to have strayed into the mortal world at that time to appear in Nangong's house.The housekeeper said that he was the pianist newly invited by Nangong Ze, and Gui Qianmian knew that Nangong Ze had never had the habit of listening to the pianist before that, presumably this was just an excuse to keep him.

In the days to come, although Nan Gongze rarely listened to the piano, every time they entered the piano practice room, Gui Qianmian would see Nan Gongze's fiery eyes on Ye Zixin.The eyes of the two casually intertwined were always silent and ambiguous. At that time, Gui Qianmian felt a tightness in his chest, mixed with anger and sourness, so he hated those two people staying together.

No... To be precise, he hates Ye Zixin who suddenly appeared, and he doesn't hate his brother Ze, so many times he will deliberately use work to separate the two of them.It's just that no matter how busy Nan Gongze is, there are always times when he doesn't work, and every time Nan Gongze is not busy, he will go to see Ye Zixin, or chat or listen to each other playing the piano, every time the two of them talk very happily and look happy appearance.Gui Qianmian, who has been dull for a long time, finally understands his own feelings.He thought he must have fallen in love with his brother Ze, otherwise he wouldn't be jealous of Ye Zixin who was close to brother Ze, and he wouldn't always be hostile towards that person as if he didn't like it no matter what.

Gui Qianmian, who understands his own mind, works harder and harder in order to get more Nangong Ze's attention.Just like when he was a child, in order to get that person's praise, he used to spend ten times and a hundred times more time than others, trying his best to do everything perfectly.This is what he has been doing all these years, and he doesn't think it is too difficult.

But Gui Qianmian was soon disappointed, because he found that he had done everything perfectly, and he couldn't get Nan Gongze's attention.And that person's small cough can also make Nan Gongze panic and worry, and even do a lot of things that Gui Qianmian feels fussed about.But that's not all, Gui Qianmian found that the longer Ye Zixin stayed at Nangong's house, the less and less Nangongze looked at him, and sometimes he would be dazed when talking about serious business with him.

But the gaze that looked at Ye Zixin was as focused and serious as if she was staring at a world, and became more and more warm and gentle. She was also very concerned about Ye Zixin's basic necessities of life, and she did it without doing it herself.One time, Gui Qianmian unexpectedly discovered that when Nan Gongze was discussing business, he said to the passing housekeeper: "Zi Xin doesn't like to eat tomatoes, so I don't want to make tomatoes at home in the future. He can't eat spicy food, so if he doesn't want to put chili in his dishes Don't let it go."

Such a short sentence has already surprised Gui Qianmian.But later Nangong Ze, who looked like a wife and slave, let Gui Qianmian realize that he was surprised too early, and also found that Brother Ze, who turned out to be cold on the outside, would melt people when he was gentle.But the object of his tenderness is not Gui Qianmian, so whenever the two of them are in a warm country, Gui Qianmian feels like an outsider standing in the snow, watching the warmth with the cold wind blowing alone.