hold back the merman

"It's because of a long-term habit that you suddenly lost the illusion of the other party, or because you want to make up for it because of guilt, so that you can feel better. Ask your own sincerity, please understand your feelings first, and then come to pester my students. You If you really love him a little bit, how can you turn a blind eye to him and abandon him for so many years."

Nan Gongze was silent, he didn't know how to refute Su Muyuan.Jinnian also told him the same thing, in order to prove that he really loved Jinnian and it was not a habit, he even searched for the word love on the Internet.

what is love?Love is a habit, unpredictable and unspoken, but when it comes to love, it is a kind of selfless giving without expecting anything in return, and it is also a career with a clear purpose.It is also said that love is tolerance and caring, love is mutual blending and mixed flavors, and love is silently giving for the other party.Cherish when you love, know how to let go when you don't love.He thinks that Qianmian has done all of these things, but he has not done any of them. Now he is willing to do anything for Qianmian. This should be love, right?

But at the same time, he thought of Ye Zixin, the person who made him crazy, but hated him all the time.He couldn't help but ask himself, is his love for Ye Zixin really an illusion?If you love him, why is your heart thinking about Qianmian now? If you don't love him for so many years, how could he would rather be hurt by both sides, torturing each other and stubbornly trapping a person he doesn't like.

Nan Gongze felt that he really didn't understand the 'love' in other people's mouth. Is love like that?Can there be a different kind of love?He just wants to follow his heart, hold on tightly to those who want to hold on, and treat them well with everything. If this is not love, how can it be considered love?

Ye Zixin feels that the people around her are looking at her strangely recently. There are sarcasm, disdain, and gloating, but the original friendship, enthusiasm, and faint envy and jealousy are no longer there. Didn't do it why the people around always look like they are watching the show.

"Liangchen, what happened? Why did their attitude change so much?" After finding out that the boss who was a little too enthusiastic towards her had given her a cold face inexplicably, Ye Zixin, who was upset, couldn't help but find out. Liang Chen, a colleague who is still talking, wants to know what happened.

"It's nothing." Liangchen glanced at Ye Zixin hesitantly, and Ye Zixin, who was smiling like a big boy, could not hide the worry in her eyes, "Zixin, you should ask your husband to pick you up from get off work today, otherwise your future It's going to be hard."

"My husband?" Ye Zixin's heart sank when she heard this, "Liang Chen, what are you talking about? I don't have a husband at all? What does this have to do with their strange attitude towards me recently? I don't know what happened thing?"

"You are really divorced, so it is true that the master of the killer of the Nangong family has a new favorite?! The outside world is rumored that you have been abandoned, and the new favorite that the master of the killer is now pursuing can be said to be the best of heaven. The proud son, whether it is appearance or personality, is not comparable to ordinary people. Of course, these words are not from me, but from outsiders." Liang Chen couldn't help but looked at Ye Zixin in surprise, and there was no sympathy in his eyes Or something else, "Forget it, such a person is not what we ordinary people should dream of. Zixin, don't be too sad, he is a high-ranking master of killers, how could he really fall in love with us small ordinary people? .”

Ye Zixin: "..." Ye Zixin felt mixed feelings in his heart, even he himself couldn't figure out whether it was because the man had a new favorite, the conflict was bigger, or he was 'abandoned' by the man he hated so much. The impact of this matter is relatively large.

In fact, he really wanted to refute Liangchen, what is the gentleness of the master of killers, the man who used to want to please him by looking at his face.But now when he became that 'old favorite', even if he said these words, it would only increase the jokes, and Ye Zixin felt very uncomfortable for no reason.It is obviously something that I don't want, why do others think it is something that I want extravagantly, and I can't get it?

"What does this have to do with the boss and the others being so indifferent to me?"

"Zixin, are you really stupid or fake? It's not normal for the boss to nod and bow to you every day, ask you about your health, and take good care of you. Besides, you have only been here for a long time, and your colleagues treat you so warmly. Do you think those are all Is it your personal charm? It's because of your husband... Oh no, it's not that there was no news of your divorce at that time, and they sold you favors because of the Nangong family's face. "

The inexplicable Ye Zixin felt dumbfounded, "It wasn't my effort..."

"What's the use of working hard? I've been here for three years. Am I not working hard enough? You became our superior as soon as you came here. These preferential treatments can't be obtained by working hard. This is the real world. You are so old. Why haven't you figured it out yet?"

As expected, the Lord of Killers has protected you so well, Zi Xin will never realize that ordinary people like them, many of them are jealous of the one who was once treated with all the tenderness by the Lord of Killers, and didn't appreciate the blessings. Fu Zixin.

Ye Zixin: "..." Ye Zixin finally understood why, no matter where she went in the past two years, she would meet kind-hearted people, and even if she encountered any troubles, there would always be kind-hearted people who would help her out.It turns out that everything is based on the Nangong family's face, so that he has always been at ease?That man's influence was really great. It turned out that the ordinary life he thought was so comfortable was also because of that man.Even if the man didn't say anything, someone below would take care of him for the sake of the Lord of Killers, so was the wedding actually a disguised form of protection?

Ye Zixin felt that he should be disgusted, this feeling of being shrouded in the shadow of Nangong Ze all the time, but inexplicably, this time it was not only disgusted, but also touched a little bit.After thinking about the original divorce agreement, Ye Zixin's only touch was instantly reduced to zero.The inexplicable Ye Zixin wanted to meet that man's new favorite this time. If even she who was so cared for by that man could be easily abandoned, he wanted to see how attractive that newcomer was, and how long he could attract that cold-blooded man.

"It's him!" Ye Zixin couldn't help laughing when she saw the boy who wanted to forget but couldn't forget in the newspaper.It seems that not only did he feel that the young man was similar to that orc, but even the master of the killer regarded him as the shadow of that man. How would you feel.

Ye Zixin felt that since he knew the truth and had a relationship with the young man, he should tell the young man the truth.He didn't think that a character like the luckiest darling of heaven would be willing to be someone else's substitute.

The night rendered the sky dark blue, and after nightfall, the central city was flickering with colorful lights, and it was very lively. Contrary to the wild and lively night, a room of Mo’s house turned off the lights prematurely, as if no one was there. generally.However, the owner of the room did not fall asleep. Instead, he nestled barefoot in a dark corner, huddled into a ball and hugged himself tightly as if trying to comfort himself, silently watching the night without moving.

Xia Jinnian still remembers the fear when he was locked up in a small black room for the first time. He cried and called Brother Ze that he was wrong, and he couldn't get back the other party's forgiveness after countless apologies.The door was not opened, and he was still locked in the dark room.

At that time, when he was little, he felt that the night was like a ferocious devil, as if he would be swallowed by it if he was not careful. He couldn't feel anything except fear.Until he shouted hoarsely, until he cried until he could no longer shed tears, he finally found the way he thought was the safest.That is to huddle tightly in the corner of the wall with the back against the wall, with both hands folded and huddled together, like a frightened little animal trembling and staring at the dark night that can't be seen.

He didn't know how long he was locked up, he only knew that every minute and every second was hard, and maybe he was too sleepy later, so he curled up in a corner and fell asleep wearily.At that time, the feeling was that although the wall behind was cold, it was also a support and safety to rely on, so every time Xia Jinnian was injured, confused, helpless and afraid, he would quietly huddle like this, hugging himself tightly to encourage and comfort himself .

Xia Jinnian knew that what he was doing was wrong, he was trying to escape, that is to say, he never got out of Nan Gongze's shadow.But he just wanted to ignore everything and look at nothing, nestled in his shell and hugged himself quietly like a turtle.

Xia Jinnian thought that he might be wrong, that man didn't know anything about him, but understood his fatal weakness.Otherwise, every time why Nangongze makes such an easy move, it can cause such huge waves.Being treated gently by Nan Gongze again, Xia Jinnian didn't feel any joy or emotion, and he didn't have any longing. He only felt that he wanted to run away from that man, so that he wouldn't feel pain, hurt, or hurt. There is that dying despair.

Where can I escape?The central city is that big, no matter where the land of Atlantis goes, as long as the man wants to find it, but no matter where he goes, he has to leave, at least now he can't face the man who said 'love' him .

Until a pair of bright eyes appeared in the darkness, Xia Jinnian came back to his senses and stared at Fanyin's emotional eyes and couldn't help being stunned for a second, "Don't worry, I'm fine." Sanskrit.