moon illusion

Before Qi Fengyao could speak again, Yun Zaiye turned around and walked towards his community.

"you……"

After a pause, Qi Fengyao still swallowed that sentence, and followed quickly.

He really wanted to hold Yun Zaiye back and ask him, what exactly does he want?

This is not the first time they have walked at night, but it is the first time that the distance between them is half a road away.

One person walks on the far right side of the sidewalk, and one person walks on the far left side of the sidewalk.

No one spoke, only the occasional engine sound of passing cars.

Yun Zaiye walked ahead with his pockets in his pockets, his head down, unable to see the expression on his face clearly.

He was very puzzled, why Qi Fengyao didn't answer the "truth" in that round.

Yes, Yun Zaiye didn't care whether he was his first love or not.But Qi Fengyao once told him personally that he never fell in love with anyone except Yun Zaiye.

This is the indirect approval of Qi Fengyao himself, he can openly disclose it to the public, and there is nothing worth hiding.

But in order to hide this answer, Qi Fengyao, who has never touched alcohol, willingly swallowed a glass of strong wine.

Why is he unwilling to say?

If he was hiding something, what was he hiding?And why hide it?

He couldn't figure it out.

His rationality told him that what he did tonight was extremely naive, and there was no point in dwelling on this issue.

But his emotional reaction prompted him to cling to this matter.It seems that something has been forgotten by him.

Qi Fengyao, who was three or four steps behind Yun Zaye, was holding his coat on his shoulder with one hand, and the other hand was hanging by his side, shaking frequently with the advancing pace.

Her thin lips were pursed into a straight line, and her questioning eyes poked straight at the back of the person in front of her.It was as if he wanted to penetrate his clothes and skin, and see his inner and soul clearly.

During this period of time, the cloud is in the wild, which is abnormal.

No, not right.

To be precise, after returning to China, Yun Zaiye has always been abnormal.

He forgot himself, the first meeting in the library, the encounter in the supermarket, the name he told him, and himself at the same time.He forgot all the few shared memories between the two of them.

He wasn't pretending, he really forgot.

That's why when he heard Qi Fengyao calling out his name in the bar, he showed a puzzled expression.That's why he was duped by Mo Xun without knowing it, and added Qi Fengyao's WeChat by mistake.That's why he will have some emotions that are different from before, and only under such circumstances, Qi Fengyao can take advantage of the emptiness and become his lover.

But it was strange, Mingming Yun Zaiye was the one who took the initiative, but in the development of the following story, especially two days ago, he showed extreme distrust of himself, even a little...fear.

In addition, just now, he did something completely inconsistent with his character.He understood Yun Zainye, at least in this respect.Yun Jae-ye will not be forced to do something he doesn't want because many people are booing.

So, if he did any one thing, it must have been his own will.

But just now, even though he was still there, he completely ignored it...

Yun Jae-ye is not quite right.

Just like that, they were silent all the way, and the two had already reached the gate of the community.

Qi Fengyao thought that Yun Zaiye would stop and wait for him, say goodbye before turning and leaving.

But Yun Zaiye didn't, he didn't intend to stop at the entrance of the community, but went straight to the building where Qi Fengyao was.

Qi Fengyao was stunned for a moment, then quickly took two steps to catch up with Shang Yun Zaiye.

At this time, Qi Fengyao's footsteps were already unsteady, and his alcohol capacity was not good. The bottle of wine just now had no reaction after drinking it, but it had a lot of stamina.

Coupled with the mind full of questions and the slightly cool evening wind, Qi Fengyao's consciousness became even more blurred.

"That...why are you going?"

Yun Zaiye didn't answer, and didn't intend to stop, he still walked forward quickly.

"Hey...hey, wait for me...Yun Zaiye!!!"

Qi Fengyao grabbed Yun Zaiye's wrist, and pulled that hand out of his pocket along the way.

Yun Zaiye was forced to stand where he was, and turned to look at Qi Fengyao.

Qi Fengyao is taller than him, probably due to drunkenness, his feet have been unsteady, his back is slightly tilted forward, and his line of sight is just level with Yun Zaiye.

"Why are you ignoring me?"

"Why are you going?"

"You...why don't you go home?"

"Why...why didn't you speak?"

"Do you...don't want me anymore?"

Suddenly, Qi Fengyao staggered and rushed forward, crashing straight into Yun Zaiye's arms.

"Hee hee, I got you."

At the end of his line of sight was Yun Zaye's slightly shocked expression.Afterwards, Qi Fengyao closed his eyes, rested his chin on Yun Zaiye's shoulder, and fell asleep.

Feeling the person in his arms slipping a little, Yun Zaiye held Qi Fengyao's shoulders and waist, lifted him up, and then hugged him tightly in his arms.

Under the street lamp, there are figures of two people hugging.

Yun Zaiye said slowly: "Then you must hold on to me."

The next morning, Qi Fengyao woke up very early.

There was no other reason, the severe headache and nausea after the hangover forced him to wake up from sleep again and again, until he was fully awake at last, and trotted all the way to the bathroom.

Standing in front of the sink, Qi Fengyao splashed several handfuls of ice water on his face, and then the memories of yesterday slowly came to life.

He followed Yun Zaiye all the way to the downstairs of his own house, his memory was a little fuzzy, he only knew vaguely that Yun Zaiye seemed to say something to him.

Later, when he had memories again, he was already lying on his own bed.In the blurred vision, it seems that a figure walked into the bedroom, put a warm towel on his forehead, and brought this comfort to his neck and palms.

He couldn't remember what happened after that.

As for whether Yun Zaiye spent the night here... he woke up so early and didn't meet him, it is very likely that he left last night.

Subconsciously, Qi Fengyao was about to touch the phone and contact Yun Zaiye.

But in the next second, the footsteps that had just turned to the bathroom door stopped in place again.

Although his memory after being drunk is not very clear, he clearly remembered that the two of them had a conflict yesterday.

Although, the reason is unknown.

After thinking about it again and again, Qi Fengyao still didn't send a message.

He has too many things that he doesn't understand, and he has too many worries.

But most importantly, based on what he knew about Yun Jae-ye, there was no particular reason for Yun Jae-ye to act so out of control.Among the people present yesterday, except for himself, it seemed that no one could make Yun Zaiye lose control.

But what did he do?

Qi Fengyao sat by the bed, carefully recalling his words and deeds yesterday, trying to find out the node.

Wait, Yun Zaiye knew he didn't drink, but he took a bottle of wine and drank it down.The reason he did this was out of anger.Because Yun Zaiye accepted that "big adventure", he also seemed to be angry.

But what is he betting on?

Going forward, there is a picture of him picking up the wine glass in front of him and drinking it with his head up.He drank to avoid a "truth" answer.

What is "truth"?

When was your first love?

Well, the truth is out.

Yun Zaiye must be angry with himself because of this incident.

He must think that Qi Fengyao's sentence "I have never fallen in love with anyone except you" is a complete lie.

But how should I explain myself, I have never fallen in love with anyone again, but the time I fell in love with you was four years ago.

I missed four years of your life. For the first three years, you were still in China.I can also be like a voyeur, knowing about your life through various channels.But then you left and went abroad completely cut off the only chance for us to connect with you, and I missed half a year of your life again.

Half a year is really short, but it is enough to change a person.

After you came back, the few connections I had worked so hard to establish were broken and collapsed in an instant.

you forgot me.

Even after hundreds of thousands of times, we still meet.But I am more cautious than before, I am too afraid of losing you.So I am cautious and follow suit.

I dare not open my mouth to ask you, dare not mention the past, even the love I once had for you must be suppressed in my heart and finally return to peace.

A person who has not embraced prosperity will not feel devastated.

Yun Zaiye, how can I explain it to you?

When I love you without hesitation, the fear is also boundless.

He just sat on the edge of the bed, lowered his head and kept flipping the phone in his hand.The screen was turned on again and again, but the message was never sent.

Would Yun Zaiye feel that his actions yesterday were too abrupt and disappointed in himself?

But he really couldn't explain it, he didn't want to admit that he was wrong, the situation at that time didn't allow him to have other choices.

Young people's minds are always entangled, countless thoughts are fighting in their minds, and they are exhausted and dying, but they still can't tell the winner.

Just when Qi Fengyao was about to give up and get up to go to the kitchen to look for food, the phone vibrated.

Inexplicably, Qi Fengyao was a little nervous.

He hoped that it was Yun Zaiye, but he didn't want it to be Yun Zaiye.

He wanted to have him so much, but he couldn't guarantee that he could always have it.

He paused, and opened the phone.

Master Yun Jingui: Are you awake?

Qi Fengyao thought for a while, but decided not to play dead.

Qi Fengyao: Wake up.

After a while, Yun Zaiye's message came back.

Master Yun Jingui: A hangover will cause a headache. There is hangover soup in the kitchen for you. You can warm it up and drink it.

Qi Fengyao looked at this text message, and suddenly his nasal cavity felt a little sore.

Yun Zaiye will accept all his unreasonable troubles and childish emotions.

Although she might be a little angry for a while, she couldn't bear to neglect him for too long.

So I always pack up those emotions silently, and then turn around and hug my lonely self.