Tentative

"morning."

"Morning!"

"Good morning!"

"morning!"

The weather suddenly dropped again, successfully reaching below zero.There will be more people arriving late on Monday morning than usual. It is almost time for class, and there are still many empty seats in the classroom.Qu Zhe rubbed his hands and entered the classroom one minute before the bell rang.The front table was empty, and Shen Yizhuo hadn't come yet.

This is quite a strange thing.As a top student praised by everyone, Shen Yizhuo has no record of being late or leaving early, and he has never even asked for leave.The class bell rang quickly, and the sparse sound of morning reading was mixed with the sound of chatting. From time to time, latecomers came in panting through the back door, and the classroom gradually filled up.

Qu Zhe kept looking at the back door of the classroom, and did not see Shen Yizhuo until after the morning reading.Of course, Qu Zhe was not the only one who discovered this. Shen Yizhuo spent the entire morning reading, and anyone who read it would find it strange.

"Why didn't Shen Yizhuo come today?" Qu Zhe asked when someone was throwing trash.

He wasn't quite sure if this was asking himself, he raised his head and said blankly, "Ah?"

"I said, why didn't Shen Yizhuo come today?"

"I am not sure……"

"Didn't you have a good time with Shen Yizhuo?"

"I……"

The other party kept asking questions, with an aggressive air.Qu Zhe didn't know how to answer the conversation in the future. Jiang Yuzhao, who was woken up next to him, said impatiently, "Are conjoined twins on a good relationship? If you didn't come, you didn't come. Why bother?"

"cut."

The boy walked away, Jiang Yuzhao continued to bury his head in his sleep, Qu Zhe looked at the empty seat in front of him in a daze, and couldn't think of a reason to make Shen Yizhuo skip class today.

After the class bell rang again, the physics teacher came in with a stack of test papers from last week's test: "Your test results this time," she said, throwing the thick test papers on the podium, instantly raising a lot of chalk dust , "The average grade is second to last!"

Those who were still whispering also realized that the situation was not good, so they closed their mouths, and the classroom suddenly fell silent.

"The class representative came up and handed out the papers!" After she finished speaking, she picked up a test paper from the top of the test paper, with her left and right hands respectively, and raised it up for the people below to read: "Let me show you why the average score is so low."

"That's because someone handed in a blank paper!" She said, stretching out her left hand, shaking the paper with her hand, and then slapped the podium hard, "Jiang Yuzhao!"

The person who was called was still sleeping on the table.Hearing this loud noise, Jiang Yuzhao raised his head bluntly, then leaned back in the chair, his eyes still not fully opened.

"Still sleeping! Start sleeping when you come here in the morning! Why don't you just sleep at home and don't come to class! Stand up for me!" She was so angry that the loose flesh on her face was shaking, and the students in the front row didn't dare to breathe, waiting for her Continue to scold.She raised the test paper in her right hand again: "Student Shen Yizhuo's grades have always been very good, and this time he also got full marks, but you, Jiang Yuzhao's average score on a blank test paper directly dropped half of it! Do you still have any shame?!"

Jiang Yuzhao really stood up, rubbed his eyes impatiently, and replied in a voice just enough for everyone to hear: "No."

"Come here, come here, come here..." The physics teacher waved to him holding the paper.

Qu Zhe turned his head and glanced at him, taking it for granted that Jiang Yuzhao would not cooperate.But he just gave a "tsk" and really walked to the podium.After he stopped and stood on the edge of the podium, the physics teacher angrily threw the blank paper on him: "Go out and stand!"

"Oh."

He let the test paper fall to the ground and walked outside.

Probably out of sight, out of sight, after Jiang Yuzhao completely left the classroom, the physics teacher looked a little better.She took a couple of deep breaths, calmed down her emotions, and said, "If you don't do well in the exam, try harder. If you do well in the exam, you should praise him. Student Shen Yizhuo gets full marks every time. I hope all the students can actively learn from him..."

"Then Qu Zhe must be the most active." A boy in the back row added in a low voice, and immediately someone laughed in a low voice.But these people on the podium didn't see it. She searched the classroom and asked, "Where is Shen Yizhuo? Why isn't Shen Yizhuo here?"

"Teacher!" The class monitor stood up abruptly, "Shen Yizhuo has a fever, please take sick leave today."

"Did I tell you?"

"He and Li Tu... Teacher Li asked for leave!"

It turned out that Shen Yizhuo was ill.

Qu Zhe looked at the empty seat in front of him and realized that it would be empty all day long.The temperature dropped drastically on the weekend, and Shen Yizhuo was so thin, it's normal to catch a cold.

After the physics teacher named and criticized several students at the end of the crane, he finally began to explain the test papers.

As usual, with a little difference.Because of Shen Yizhuo's absence, Qu Zhe kept biting his thumb nails - he didn't have such a habit at first, but now the anxiety in his heart is hard to suppress, this action occurs naturally without thinking.

While biting his nails, he shook his legs anxiously until the end of self-study that night.Qu Zhe hurriedly picked up his bag, took away the books spread out on the table, and walked out of the classroom in a hurry.

What is this feeling?

He wanted to see Shen Yizhuo, but he didn't do anything, as long as he saw Shen Yizhuo.

The restless impulse in his heart kept reminding him to see Shen Yizhuo, to see Shen Yizhuo... Qu Zhe knew the road leading to Shen Yizhuo's house very well, so he walked quickly to the nearby 24-hour pharmacy and bought some Antipyretics, went to the convenience store to buy some food, and finally arrived downstairs at Shen Yizhuo's house.He walked very fast all the way here, but when he stood at the entrance of the dark corridor, he suddenly hesitated.

"Why do you like me so much?"

In the dream, Shen Yizhuo kept asking, but the meaning in the words was so certain.

If he must see Shen Yizhuo now, does that mean that he cares about Shen Yizhuo and misses Shen Yizhuo, even if it's just a day away.

Boom, boom, boom...

The surrounding was eerily quiet, and he could hear his own heartbeat, strong and powerful.

Shen Yizhuo is gay.

If he likes Shen Yizhuo, then——

He is gay.

The teenager never realizes that what he does to another person actually represents another emotion.The people he thought he hated and disgusted actually became an integral part of him as he kept approaching.Thinking through this, things became extremely scary.

Qu Zhe's legs trembled slightly, and it became extremely difficult to take a step forward—even so, he still didn't think about stepping back.The options obviously include "Go up" and "Go back", but in his subconscious mind, the latter has been crossed out.

It's like he can continue to drink porridge in the morning, but he has to endure nausea and regurgitation, and force himself to eat it.

He crossed out both the way of retreat and the way of survival.

A few minutes later, Qu Zhe gasped slightly and stood at the door of Shen Yizhuo's house.During the time he stood still, the voice-activated lights went out, and the surroundings were pitch black, with a suffocating silence.After thinking for a long time, Qu Zhe finally knocked lightly on the door of Shen Yizhuo's house.

The moment the voice sounded, the lights came on.

Occasionally, this kind of scene makes Qu Zhe feel that it contains some kind of philosophical meaning.If he just stood there, the world would be dark; but if he knocked on the door or said a word, the world would be lit up.

It was just such a light tap with the finger bones, the sound was very low, and no one came to open the door for a long time.

Qu Zhe kept the rhythm of knocking three times and stopping, and repeated it many times, but there was still no movement in the room, as if no one was at home.

He knocked tenaciously, again and again.

"Dong dong dong."

"Dong dong dong."

"Dong dong dong."

……

"Boom!"

"Boom!"

……

"Clap! Clap!"

"Clap! Clap!"

……

The knock on the door gradually became louder, and he became more and more impatient. From the initial light knock, it turned into a vigorous knock on the door.The sound of slapping on the door panel was like a strong urging, urging him to break in quickly.

He's never been in that mood.

In the beginning, Qu Zhe was an extremely ordinary person, following the life trajectory of most people, obediently finishing elementary school and entering junior high school.At that time, he already knew that he would finish junior high school in a mediocre way, and then go to high school... Anyway, everything is known and foreseeable, the most boring and ordinary life.

The reason why he was isolated for the first time was that Qu Zhe didn't like to talk.

Maybe that wasn't isolation, it's just that no one wanted to play with him, and even when he was, he couldn't say anything interesting.Standing in the crowd, he would be obviously isolated.After graduating from junior high school and putting on thick glasses, it became the current situation.

Everyone has two attitudes towards timid people, one is to stay away, and the other is to hate them.

Like plants instinctively thirst for sunshine and water, people prefer to stay with bright and sunny types, and don't want to be dragged into the abyss by gloomy people.

"Crack——" the heavy anti-theft door made an unpleasant sound, and a light suddenly lit up behind Qu Zhe.The middle-aged woman scolded angrily in dialect: "What are you knocking on at night!! Do you want to rest!! Crazy!!!"

She didn't seem to want to argue, but just wanted to vent her anger at being interrupted by the knock on the door. Before Qu Zhe could reply, she continued to curse endlessly: "Don't knock if no one is around. If you want to do this again, I will call the police. I tell you, I'm suing you for disturbing the people! I don't even look at what time it is! It's past ten o'clock! It's uneducated!"

The woman's swearing continued, but Qu Zhe acted as if he didn't hear it. He still maintained the previous rhythm steadily and slammed on the door panel vigorously.Under the light, he could see the security door vibrate slightly with his movements.

"Clap! Clap!"

"I told you not to knock, don't you understand..."

"Clap! Clap!"

"Oh, are you insane!!!"

"Clap! Clap!"

He just knocked on the door mechanically, thinking stagnantly.

Suddenly, the door in front of him opened amidst loud cursing and knocking.Qu Zhe took two steps back, raised his head and saw Shen Yizhuo's blushing face.

The other party was only wearing pajamas, his lips were pale, but his cheeks were red.

"Shen..." Qu Zhe was about to speak when he was blocked by Shen Yizhuo's movements.He reached out and grabbed Qu Zhe's wrist, and after pulling him into the room, he slammed the door shut with a "slap".

The woman also scolded some words she couldn't hear clearly, probably knowing that she was bored, so she finally shut up.

Shen Yizhuo panted, narrowed his eyes slightly, stared at him and asked:

"Qu Zhe, are you a bitch?"