Tentative

This day, Shen Yizhuo suddenly had a leisurely mood, and kissed him slowly and gently, not as violently as before.The tenderness woven into a lingering net, Qu Zhe almost drowned in it, feeling every touch he gave me obsessively.When he woke up naturally the next day, Shen Yizhuo had already gone out. He dazedly took out his cell phone from under the pillow, and there was a text message from Shen Yizhuo.

From Shen Yizhuo: You don't need to clean up when you get up, tell me when you will move.

Looking at the words on the screen, he always felt like a dream, not like reality.He stared at it for a long time before he fully woke up and got up from the bed.The bed was still a mess, although Shen Yizhuo had greeted him, he was still the same as usual, changing and washing all the sheets and quilts.

Even doing the same thing, the state of mind now is slightly different from before.Even if Shen Yizhuo's gentleness was only given to him a little bit, he would be happy with it.

It was still early, and Qu Zhe went back to the store first. Guan Tian had customers, and they were chirping in the workshop.

He walked in and greeted: "Sister Tian..."

"Yo, are you back?" Guan Tian was smoking a cigarette, holding something in his hand, and looked like he hadn't started yet.A sweet and lovely little girl was half lying on the special chair, looking at Qu Zhe and smiling.

"You go ahead, I'll go up and change." Qu Zhe said.

"Yes." Guan Tian responded, and chatted with the guest again.

That small storage room took him in during his most difficult time, and now he and Guan Tian take care of it in an orderly manner. He didn't even notice when Guan Tian installed plain curtains for him. He smoked a cigarette on the bed and lit some of his own things—except for the new sets of clothes he bought, his things can still be packed in a mountaineering bag.

He read the books wrapped in newspaper one by one, put them all in the bag, and put the clothes in it too.

It took quite a while for Qu Zhe to go downstairs, and the voice of the girl crying for pain came from the work room, and if he said to leave now, it seemed that he would disturb Guan Tian's work.He sat in the lobby and waited for a while, seeing that it was almost four o'clock, and it was time for him to go to work, so he said, "Sister Tian, ​​I'm going to work first."

"it is good--"

Buckwheat coffee is still the same as before, business is bleak. When Qu Zhe went to take over, Aunt Zheng sat at the front desk with a sad face. When she heard the wind chime when the door opened, she subconsciously said, "Welcome to visit!"

"Aunt Zheng is me, I'm here to take over," Qu Zhe said.

Aunt Zheng smiled lightly: "It's about this time..."

"Aunt Zheng...do you have something to do today?"

Qu Zhe glanced at the store, and now there was no one there, and the whole store was empty.

"Fortunately, it's just business," Aunt Zheng sighed, "If it gets worse...then it might be closed."

"..." Qu Zhe didn't know what to say, so he could only put on his apron and go inside to work as usual.Aunt Zheng looked at the store and sighed a few more times, took off her apron to greet him, and left in a low voice.

As far as being busy inside, there is actually nothing to be busy with.Because of the sluggish business, when Aunt Zheng had nothing to do, she cleaned almost everything inside, and the warehouse was also meticulous.

He sat at the front desk and waited. After thinking for a while, he still sent a message to Jiang Yuzhao.

[Qu Zhe]: How are you doing recently? I haven't seen you much.

The other party immediately replied: Very good, what's the matter?

[Qu Zhe]: I want to ask you something...is there any time when your store is not doing well?How to solve it?

[Jiang Yuzhao]: This... there must be some, let's do activities.

[Jiang Yuzhao]: What's wrong?

[Qu Zhe]: The business of the milk tea shop I am working in is very bad. Is there any way to improve it...

It took Jiang Yuzhao a long time to reply this time, and when Qu Zhe put down his phone, thinking that he might be too busy to reply, the phone rang suddenly.He picked it up and saw that it was Jiang Yuzhao's phone: "Hello?"

"There is a projector in your coffee shop, right? I remember the effect is okay?"

"Yes."

"Do you know the game that is very popular recently? The season league has just started these few days. I checked the time, and it's all in the evening. You can discuss it with the shopkeeper, let the league play, and then book the game for students... For example, 15 yuan per person , promotions like drink all you want.”

Qu Zhe's eyes lit up when he heard this, it sounds like this is indeed a good idea.

Before he answered, a girl's voice suddenly came from the phone: "Brother Zhao! What a coincidence!"

"Ah, coincidence." Jiang Yuzhao coped with it, and said again, "I met an acquaintance, so I won't tell you first, if it doesn't work, you can tell me, and I will help you."

"Thank you...well, are you busy recently?"

"... a bit." Jiang Yuzhao hesitated for a few seconds before answering. I don't know if it was his illusion, but he always felt that Jiang Yuzhao was hesitant to speak.Qu Zhe didn't think too much, just said: "Let's have a meal together in a few days, then you should do your work first."

"OK Bye Bye."

A large piano room.

Qu Xiaoyu was sitting in front of the piano, while her roommate was drinking milk tea and watching her practice.A song that she could distinguish correctly with her eyes closed before, but now it is full of mistakes.Although the roommate is not very good at the piano, she can still hear the wrong notes in the chords. She looked at Qu Xiaoyu's back with a worried face, and seemed to have something to say, but she couldn't say it.

From a few days before the start of school, Qu Xiaoyu was bored at home and did nothing. He was depressed and lost his previous vigor.And at the beginning of the new semester, this phenomenon has not improved. The roommates get along with her day and night, and they all see it.

thump!thump!

Suddenly, Qu Xiaoyu slapped his hands on the piano fiercely, the dissonant sound was harsh, and his roommate frowned and said hurriedly, "What's wrong."

"...I won't practice anymore." She said so, put away the score, and covered the piano.

In less than a month, Qu Xiaoyu lost a lot of weight, his complexion was not good-looking, he didn't even bother to put on makeup when he went out, and he didn't have any energy at all.She picked up her bag and opened the door of the piano room: "Let's go."

"Oh..." The roommate quickly followed.

The two of them were walking aimlessly on the campus of University A. Although Qu Xiaoyu didn't talk to her too much at ordinary times, he wasn't as quiet as he is now. Some roommates couldn't bear the atmosphere, and they were very worried. He leaned closer to her and said, "Xiaoyu..."

"Ok?"

"Are you broken in love..." the roommate asked cautiously.

Qu Xiaoyu was slightly taken aback, then turned his head and smiled at her: "No."

"...Ah, yes." The roommate said shyly, "You are so cute, if anyone can fall in love with you, he will definitely treasure you."

Qu Xiaoyu didn't want to guess how much of what she said was true or not. She felt tired and bored, and her smile drooped suddenly: "No one likes me, and you don't have to pretend to like me."

"...Ah?" The roommate was at a loss, "What?"

"Okay, stop pretending." Qu Xiaoyu stopped, turned around and looked at her directly, the bruises under her eyes made her look a little scary, "Do you like me? You like my beautiful clothes , I like those brand-name bags, you like them, right? Take them all, don’t follow me, don’t bother me, and play some good friend games with me as if you are pretending to like me very much!”

After she finished speaking, she turned around and strode away, leaving her roommate standing there alone in a daze.Holding the remaining half cup of milk tea, she lowered her head in low self-esteem, not knowing if she should chase after her or if she should do what she said and stop bothering her.

Qu Xiaoyu went home alone and sat on the sofa without turning on the light.

In such a dark environment, people will always become extremely vulnerable.She didn't do anything, and she couldn't get rid of Lin Youqi's disappearance again in her mind, especially the little things about the time they got along, and she couldn't find it.When she came back to her senses, she had already cried unknowingly, tears dripping down her chin.

"... Xiaoyu."

Just at this time, the sound of opening the door broke the silence in the room, and the roommate came in with two big plastic bags, and called out to her awkwardly.Qu Xiaoyu didn't speak or even move, so the roommate had no choice but to change his shoes, walk into the kitchen in the dark, and turn on the kitchen light.

She didn't care about what her roommate was doing, she didn't want to care about anything at the moment.

There was tinkling in the kitchen, and more than an hour later, the roommate suddenly said, "I'm turning on the light."

Qu Xiaoyu still didn't speak, the light in the living room was turned on, and the room suddenly brightened up.She hastily wiped away the tears that were about to dry up on her face, as if she was afraid of being seen.The roommate carefully found the induction cooker, put it on the coffee table, and put away all the miscellaneous sundries, and then brought out a large pot of steaming hot soup from the kitchen, with a charming aroma.

Qu Xiaoyu's gaze unconsciously followed, and he saw that there were various spices in the soup base of the red soup, white scallions, yellow ginger slices, entangled with the red soup, and the color was beautiful.The roommate saw that she seemed to be interested, and said while going to the kitchen to serve dishes: "...you want to sing, I'm afraid it will hurt your voice if you eat spicy food, I made the sour soup from my hometown, it's not spicy, you can try it. "

All kinds of vegetarian dishes and meat dishes have been prepared and arranged neatly on the plates, and the plates are placed around the pot one by one.Qu Xiaoyu still didn't move, looking at those dishes, she was a little annoyed and said: "Why do you still come to cook, don't you understand what I said..."

"...I, hey." The roommate took out the bowls and chopsticks and put them in front of her. He turned up the temperature of the induction cooker, and soon the red soup boiled, and the aroma became more intense, making Qu Xiaoyu a little greedy.

The roommate said again: "Actually... I want to explain to you."

Qu Xiaoyu looked at her, waiting for the next sentence.

"As for me, it was purely a coincidence that I got into A University... My grades are not good, and my major is also very average. I just want to be an instrument teacher in the future, so I can make a living." There was a bit of sadness in her words, but she smiled , looked at Qu Xiaoyu seriously, "But Xiaoyu, you are different. You are born like a big star. You look good, you have good taste, you sing well, and you are good at playing the piano... I really envy you for having those beautiful Clothes, beautiful bags...but you are the one I envy the most..."

"..."

"I really like you, and there must be many people who like you." The roommate said, lowering his head sadly, "I don't know what's wrong with you. I feel bad that you misunderstood me, but I still like you very much. I want to explain to you... If you don't believe me, I will move back to the dormitory after this meal."

Qu Xiaoyu sighed and didn't speak for a while.Just when the roommate was downcast and thought it was useless to say these words, Qu Xiaoyu suddenly picked up the chopsticks: "...how do you eat this?"

Her eyes lit up, and she said enthusiastically: "It's hot pot, what do you want to eat, I'll heat it for you!"

"I'm going to get a beer from the fridge, beer?"

"I don't drink well..." the roommate said, "But I can drink with you!"

Qu Xiaoyu was in a bad mood, although the sour soup tasted good, but she couldn't taste it, so she kept drinking.There were only a few cans in the refrigerator, and my roommate hadn't finished one bottle, and the rest had all gone into Qu Xiaoyu's stomach.She began to talk more, stuttering, and the roommate couldn't figure out what to do from it, only vaguely knew that she was really broken in love.

"Does she know how much I paid for liking her...why I just leave...then I don't care..." Qu Xiaoyu said affectionately, tears streaming out uncontrollably.

The roommate hurriedly handed over a tissue to wipe her tears, and she held it in her hand indiscriminately, and continued to cry: "...what is going on with her... No one likes me, no one loves me..." Hearing this, the roommate thought it was a broken love After the reaction, I couldn't help comforting: "Yes! There are! There are many, as long as you are willing, the boys in the school will like you... Don't think so!"

But Qu Xiaoyu didn't just focus on this matter—the past tragedies are still vivid in my mind. If she and Qu Zhe hadn't been known by the family to like the same sex, the parents would not have any accidents.

These things are entangled, Qu Xiaoyu can't find the source, can't find the root cause, everything can only be blamed on fate - she doesn't deserve to be loved, and everyone she loves will leave.

That night Qu Xiaoyu had a dream. In the dream, Lin Youqi was with another girl. The two were talking and laughing, and they were very close.

That person is not her.