[Black Basket] Cherish words

I was depressed, very depressed.

Ever since I was molested by Ah Zheng, I have started to be in a state of low pressure like a ghost leaning over.

Why?Of course it's because I haven't thought about Brother Yuchen for two whole weeks. If it wasn't for Ah Zheng molesting me, I haven't thought about it yet, can I not feel bad?I thought I loved Brother Yuchen deeply enough that I would never change my heart even if we couldn't be together, I would always love him alone, but it's only been less than a year, and I've been able to forget about Brother Yuchen for two weeks.No wonder it is said that time can smooth everything out. The eternity I swear by is so fragile that it can be broken at the touch of a finger.

I know I still love Brother Yuchen and have not moved on, cough, okay, Ah Zheng.Although the age difference is only less than three years old, Ah Zheng is dissatisfied that he is still a minor and it is against the law for a child to shoot at him (although I am a criminal and do not need to consider breaking the law).

I love Brother Yuchen, but my feelings have been blunted by not seeing him for a long time. I am used to the quiet life here so I don't think of him often, and it has nothing to do with Ah Zheng.At the beginning, I was so self-comforting, until I suddenly realized, why did I get involved with Ah Zheng?

It's normal for time to blunt the relationship. Take a step back and say that even if I really lose interest in brother Yuchen, it's just my problem. Why should I emphasize to myself that it has nothing to do with Ah Zheng?Do I really have thoughts about Ah Zheng subconsciously?

As soon as this idea popped up, I immediately suppressed it, but it appeared like a ghost from time to time to haunt me.In the end, when I saw A Zheng, I felt ashamed and dared not face him as if I really missed him. A Zheng was fine, I didn't take it seriously after teasing me, and continued to do what I should do.

But seeing Ah Zheng leisurely, I became even more irritable, and I couldn’t stop thinking about Brother Yuchen, like there is something I want to eat, as long as I can eat it, you don’t mind how much it costs to travel far , But you clearly know that there is nothing you can't buy, so you can only think about it even more.

I was depressed, seeing Ah Zheng, the culprit, getting away with it, I always confronted him unconsciously, regretting and apologizing when I said something serious, and added some guilt.If it continues like this, my displeasure towards Ah Zheng for doing what he wants and the guilt of innocently involving him will sooner or later pinch each other, it depends on which side wins and how to treat Ah Zheng.

Seeing that I was in a bad mood, Ah Zheng said he would give me a vacation and let me go out to relax. Although I was not interested, it was better to go out and play than to face Ah Zheng, so I picked a day with good weather to go out and wander.

Although the cherry blossom viewing season is over, I still went to Nijo Castle admiringly.Then drifted along the scenic spots and historical sites all the way, passed the gate without entering, and finally wandered to Gion.The geishas dressed in gorgeous kimonos painted their faces pale white, which made me ashamed like the white ash that painted the walls.Just when I was thinking that I couldn't understand how to applaud a man with such a face, I was accosted.

I was accosted!What a rubbish unfolding, two 40-year-old men in loose suits who were drunk approached me, even if this is Gion, at least it is a scenic spot and not a red-light district!Is it time for Sakata Gintoki to make an appearance after blocking the way during the day?

Looking at those two disgusting men, I was very calm, very calm, walked to the souvenir shop by the side of the road, picked up the wooden knife placed at the door, and stabbed each of the two scum who followed closely.I have been with the second grandpa with brother Yuchen for several years. No matter how you say it, the second grandpa will teach me some self-defense methods if you don’t teach me tomb robbery. Right now, this wooden knife is being used as a stick by me, hitting the key to coordinating the body position, they will not be able to get up for a while.

I wanted to put the wooden knife back to its original place, but the boss sold it to me because of his nonsense, and I was upset. The boss was so shocked that he didn't dare to talk anymore.I simply broke off the wooden knife that was broken in the middle and threw it on the ground, clapped my toes and walked away arrogantly.

I feel much more comfortable.

When I was approached, I thought of Brother Yuchen; when I started, I thought of Brother Yuchen; I love Brother Yuchen, what can I shake?

I happily went back with the oil-paper umbrella I bought in Gion.

Ah Zheng didn't express curiosity about my sudden enlightenment, and I wouldn't tell him that I thought I was swayed by Brother Yuchen at one time and was tempted by him.Even if Ah Zheng teases me again, I won't take it seriously.

Sorry I was wrong, can I take back that sentence above!

I think I can not take Ah Zheng's molesting seriously, which is completely different from Ah Zheng really not taking his own molesting me seriously!Is he determined that I won't turn my face, or does he think that if I don't care once, I won't care every time, does he think that I don't understand his thoughts at all?

Ah Zheng likes me, although it's not an unforgettable love, at least it's a love that wants to develop, he's so straightforward, no matter how dull I am, I should have noticed it after living together for so long.

He followed me to Beijing and Changsha almost every step of the way and took care of me like a child for fear of losing me. He used both soft and hard methods to bring me back to Kyoto, so he never felt that he needed me as a nanny.

I was sad because of his indifferent "thank you", and he succumbed to me; he immediately noticed that I was in a bad mood, and he also judged the situation when he teased me, and he knew that there was a point in molesting me before he reached my bottom line...

Etc., etc!Did Ah Zheng do it on purpose?The first time was to test me. Seeing that I didn't care about him, I adjusted my mood, so I gradually increased the intensity. First, to confirm my attitude towards Brother Yuchen and him, and second, to remind me slowly, let me perceive his mind.Ah Zheng provoked the ambiguity, so he gave me the initiative; no matter when I wake up, it's up to me to immediately reject him or think carefully about letting the status quo go.

Ah Zheng will use this way of accumulating and subtlety because he knows that I love Brother Yuchen. If it is too direct, I will definitely reject it reflexively.However, Ah Zheng’s time-consuming and labor-intensive method, in addition to giving me the initiative, probably also moved me to let me see his sincerity; don’t ruthlessly refuse, even if you just acquiesce in the status quo, think for him for a while, and at the same time Also give him a period of time where he can win over me without being rejected immediately.

I will not underestimate myself and say that I am worthless. I took care of Ah Zheng very carefully. ", "Those who disobey me will die even if they are parents", I also understand that he is a student and tolerate him, and I believe that after he grows up, I will understand and not preach to him; my appearance is also considered Gentle and delicate.Ah Zheng has reasons to like me.

The problem is that I am obviously not the only person with these conditions, but I just happened to be picked up by Ah Zheng and brought home.In addition, I am an ordinary person with no quality and talent, and Ah Zheng, he is too good.He is very handsome and a genius. He is a humble and polite boy on weekdays. He is not lacking in arrogance and can hold the field like a general; such an excellent man will be admired by a lot of people, and there are naturally many outstanding women among them. Zheng just turned a blind eye to those girls at school, and fell in love with me who was three years older than him and had someone else in my heart.It's not that I don't think I'm not good enough for Ah Zheng. If I love each other, there won't be a problem of whether I'm good enough or not. I've never felt that I'm not good enough for Brother Yuchen, right?

Anyway, Ah Zheng fell in love with me, I thought about it and thought it was a very strange thing.Could it be that Ah Zheng just likes a big sister who can take care of others?No, forget it. Thinking about it like this makes my skin crawl. Someone as strong as Ah Zheng must be accompanied by an obedient one.

Later, when I remembered this matter and asked A Zheng, A Zheng said that he never thought I was an adult, and that I must be a child in my mental age, who is easy to discipline and train/teach, so I locked him out of the bedroom in a moment of anger. Then, then Ah Zheng proved to me that he was right.

Keke, that's another story.The key right now is whether I should give Ah Zheng a chance, which can be regarded as giving myself a chance.I used to think that I couldn't be with Brother Yuchen because of the pressure from Xie's family and my wishful thinking towards Brother Yuchen, but I always had a little bit of extravagant hope for a miracle in my heart, hoping that one day Brother Yuchen said he loved me, I hope that Xie's family will succumb to the pace of social progress.But these are not important now, I can't be with Brother Yuchen, because we are not in the same world, where Brother Yuchen exists, there is no Xie Tianyu, and where I exist, there is no Brother Yuchen.

One day I need to let Brother Yuchen go, like when I was still in that world, I was prepared to marry someone I didn't love, but giving Ah Zheng a chance with such thoughts is too much for Ah Zheng.Besides, before that, I just want to keep as long as possible, the pure love I started as a girl.

Sorry, Ah Zheng, let me pretend not to know for the time being.

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