unattainable cuteness

The light bulbs in the living room hadn't been replaced for a long time, and the light was a bit dim.

Shen Mu lay on the edge of the sofa, looking at the man in front of him who was swayed by desire, deeply felt that everything was a dream.

However, this dream was different from any other night.

There are colors, sounds, and temperatures.

Qin Shen's action of forgetting his feelings appears to be greedy, but in fact, all things lost and found in the world are so embarrassing.

Under the fierce impact, Shen Mu gradually lost his strength, his pain revealed an indescribable softness, and he frowned uncomfortably because his injured leg was lifted up.

Panting, Qin Shen held his wet face and asked, "Was it Bai Jinbo who made you like this?"

Shen Mu closed his eyes, his breathing was really messy: "...why...why do you...ask this..."

Qin Shen slowly leveled his legs, leaned over to kiss his forehead and the tip of his nose, but accelerated the speed of his waist.

The impatient Shen Mu grabbed the pillow under his head, and the pleasure that was on the brink finally exploded with a drop of scorching sweat dripping onto his chest.

-

An inexplicable smell spread in the old house after the lingering past, as if an irrational animal had visited.

Knowing that Shen Mu likes to be clean, Qin Shen quickly put on his trousers and stood up, intending to go to the bathroom to get a wet towel.

When he passed by the refrigerator, he found that there was only a single Polaroid on it.

In the photo, Shen Mu hugged a young boy who was [-]% similar to him, smiling softly.

"Your brother has grown up so much." Qin Shen couldn't help feeling emotional.

Shen Mu, who gradually regained his composure, took the towel, wiped it silently for a few times, then helped himself up unbearably, "I'm going to take a shower, it's all over the place."

The lines of his body are still as smooth as when he just graduated from university, but it is a pity that he is covered with some old scars that cannot be erased, and their severity is not the same as that of Qin Shen.

A few clean cotton pajamas were thrown onto the sofa.

Shen Mu lowered his eyes and said, "It's all wet, don't you know how to change it?"

After speaking, he walked towards the bathroom, and stopped at the door to answer what he just said: "Actually, Shen Ge is about the same age as you. Of course you have grown up, after all, I am already old."

Qin Shen picked up the donated clothes, and couldn't wait to know how Shen Mu lived these past few years.

Too many questions to ask, but no way to ask.

On the contrary, some unbearable loneliness fermented in my heart.

-

A few handfuls of snow-white vermicelli that were barely picked out were blanched in boiling water until soft, and then drained and replaced with chicken broth. Added shiitake mushrooms and green leafy vegetables and simmered for a while. The pan fried poached eggs were cooked on the stove next to them. When they were golden and crispy, they were served at the same time. Chili oil instantly became a warm comfort in this rainy night.

Qin Shen stood at the door of the kitchen all the time and watched Shen Mu busy. He felt that his work was pleasing to the eye, so he couldn't help saying: "The craftsmanship is not unfamiliar at all, and you can open a shop."

"It was already open, and I rented a shop in the nearby snack street." Shen Mu turned off the range hood, put the black noodle bowl on the dining table, and poured another cup of iced oolong tea.

Qin Shen sat down, looked up in surprise, "Really?"

"With a broken leg, I really can't do my old job, but I have to find a way to survive, right?" Shen Mu sat quietly opposite him, staring at the striped tablecloth and said, "Even if I don't care, my brother needs money to study, I don't want him to suffer. "

Qin Shen had already picked up the chopsticks, but lost his appetite because of these few words.

Shen Mu raised his eyes and asked, "When did you get out of prison?"

"Yesterday." Qin Shen replied.

Shen Mu hesitated to speak, his slender fingers clenched into fists.

Qin Shen said: "I know, you want to know, didn't my mother not allow us to meet? How did I come here... I have no human rights inside, and no one can control me when I come out. Besides, my father is seriously ill in the hospital. That There is no difference between a family and a broken home, and the family surnamed Qin is almost finished."

Shen Mu propped his chin, the initial excitement and anger of the reunion in his heart had gradually drained away, he couldn't help persuading: "You are still young, you should ask your family to help you go out to study and adapt to this world, so why come to me."

"I said, I came to live with you." Qin Shen said, "I have nothing to do in prison except hard work, but I have studied for several degrees."

Shen Mu still remembered his playful appearance, and once again felt that this person had really changed a lot.

Qin Shen picked up the poached egg and took a bite, as if tasting it.

Shen Mu felt a little pain in his heart: "Happy birthday."

"I think I was born quite well. August [-]th is the day of reunion." Qin Shen raised his head and smiled, showing his snow-white teeth, and then swallowed heavily.

Shen Mu pushed the oolong tea to his hand, listening to the roaring thunder and rain outside the window, he couldn't help but catch a long-lost calm.

-

The flat single bed has a clean scent of soap, and the limited size is too crowded for two big men to lie on.

But Qin Shen, who finally came back, insisted on staying here and refused to leave, hugging Shen Mu's waist tightly, like a cage to imprison him.

The touching body was so hot, Shen Mu leaned on his arm, felt the hard desire rising behind him again, couldn't help turning off the night light and complaining: "Haven't the animal desire vented enough?"

"This is love." Qin Shen's cheeky skills remained the same as before.

Shen Mu frowned and closed his eyes, showing unmoved indifference, he opened his hand forcefully and said, "Don't pretend to be okay, I can't understand your choice."

Qin Shen hugged him again without hesitation, and said softly: "A lot has happened to us in these years, some good and some bad, so many that we almost become strangers, but can we at least not ask anything today? , even if it’s a dream I’ve been looking forward to for so long?”

Hearing these words, Shen Mu once again felt sour in his eyes.

The raindrops hitting the glass window close at hand became the only sound in the bedroom.

Qin Shen sighed: "Remember, the first time we met was also on a rainy day. The rain that day was even more terrifying than now. You appeared on the hillside in mountaineering clothes and looked at me, it was like falling from the sky."

Shen Mu pulled the quilt tightly: "I don't remember."

Qin Shen kissed the back of his neck: "I hope you don't remember."

Shen Mu chose to remain silent.

Qin Shen touched his bare and slender hand, and couldn't help but said, "Did you throw away the ring?"

Shen Mu's brows became tighter: "Didn't you ask questions just now?"

Qin Shen stared speechlessly in the dark.

Shen Mu finally said: "They snatched it away and threw it away. I also broke my finger. After recovering from the injury, I went there to look for the ring several times but couldn't find it. I can't keep the one that doesn't belong to me."

Qin Shen's mood remained stable that night, but when he heard this, his body trembled unconsciously.

Not fear, but unquenchable anger.

Shen Mu couldn't bear it, and said lightly: "It's already passed, you also said it, Bai Jinbo is dead, so why bother?"

Qin Shen's voice became a little hoarse: "If you knew today, would you think it would be easier not to save me when we meet?"

Is this question out of the ordinary?

In fact, Shen Mu himself thought about it many times during the tossing and turning night.

So he knew the answer, and he answered calmly: "I will still save you."

Qin Shen tightened his arms instantly.

The crazy and out-of-control rain seemed to bring the two of them back to that night seven years ago, to the dark and terrifying deep mountain.

But no matter how crazy it is, it is not as crazy as this unknown relationship.

No one wants to put all their eggs in one basket.

But Shen Mu not only released it, but also said that he would release it again, no matter how many times he would release it.

It turns out...he doesn't regret it.

The author has something to say: I will insert some memories, but I will focus on reality