Qianfan

The conversation from a day ago exploded in his ears, those two sentences seemed to have been processed, repeated in Qianfan’s ears, there was an echo, and it was like sandpaper rubbing against metal, Qianfan’s head was blank, and following inertia, he put his hands on the cold Rinse under the water, scrub numbly, and then dig at the back of the hand with the nails, trying to dig out the dense fear, and soon there are shocking red marks.A surge of grief without warning surged in his heart and overwhelmed him.He breathed heavily in the turbulent grief, stretched out his hand for help, and saw Lu Zhengfan standing on the shore, looking at him eagerly, he took off his clothes and wanted to jump off to die with him.

He is my brother.

Qianfan's tears flowed down like this, after admitting the fact with difficulty.

He is my brother!Why is he my brother? !Why? !

There is a desperate roar in his heart, which is deafening, but his face is strangely calm, or it is no longer a kind of calm, but an expression close to death.His chest was stuffy and he couldn't vomit out, and he choked back a stream of tears.Cold sadness flowed from the internal organs, as if to freeze his heart completely.

Why him?What should I do?

The stability and happiness during this period are like a fish exposed to the sun on the beach, lingering on its last breath, and will soon die.He felt that a wave came and swept all the dead fish into the dark abyss, and there was no future for them.

Qian Fan didn't know how long he stayed there before returning to the bed. As soon as he lay down with his body covered in cold air, Lu Zhengfan instinctively hugged him. hold on.

He lay himself down like a coffin board, and let Lu Zhengfan remain motionless, his brother hugged him, opened his eyes and waited for the dawn, his head was empty.

He has a lot of experience in being helpless, but no time is better than this time, that is his elder brother who is connected by blood!

He fell asleep at four o'clock in the morning, like a dream but not a dream, he went back to the scene where his brother was carrying him, I don't know if it was because everything corresponded, this time he saw the boy who was carrying him turn around head--

That face was clearly the juvenile version of Lu Zhengfan.

He watched his elder brother carry him home like a bystander, moved a stool by himself, and sat at the stone table at the gate to teach him to write. He wrote with a smooth stone, while his elder brother sat on the squeaky stool, He sits on his brother's lap.The young man taught solemnly: "This is Lu-Qian, your name has too many strokes, it's hard work." He raised his head in his brother's arms to look at his brother, Lu Zhengfan pushed his face away: "Brother teaches you What do you look at when you write? I have no words on my face."

"Brother looks good." He turned his head and said again.

"I don't know how good-looking is before my arms are long? Judging someone by their appearance is bad."

Qian Fan replied honestly: "It was the neighbor's aunt who said that my brother's appearance followed my mother's."

Lu Zhengfan seemed to frowned, he didn't like people saying that he looked like his mother.

The dream is so natural, as if all kinds of things emerged one by one yesterday.

When Qian Fan opened his eyes, Lu Zhengfan had already put the things he needed to take away and moved them to the door, and thoughtfully warmed the breakfast he bought downstairs early in the morning in hot water.

Qianfan leaned against the wall and watched Lu Zhengfan confirming his luggage. Every time he looked at him, his heart ached, as if a knife had cut his heart out. Picking up his face and kissing: "Didn't sleep well? The dark circles under the eyes are exaggerated—"

Qian Fan poked there stiffly, allowing him to kiss him before hugging him, and finally, when Lu Zhengfan looked over, he could only pull out a failed smile with difficulty.

"Did I do it hard last night?" Lu Zhengfan pressed his forehead against Qian Fan's, a little anxious and nervous, "What's wrong with Fan'er?"

"No, I'm a bit reluctant to leave." Qian Fan lowered his eyes and said.He didn't dare to look at Lu Zhengfan. After knowing that it was his own brother, he felt a strong sense of immorality in his heart. He dared to go against the rules of ethics, but the other party was the big brother he had thought about for many years...

Lu Zhengfan hugged him tenderly and said, "It's my fault. I will treat you well in the future."

He had never said a few pleasant words in his life, and gave them all to Qianfan, but he still said so palely, so he thought to himself, what a shame.

The whole night passed, and he didn't think of any countermeasures. Qianfan didn't worry about his gray hair, but his heart seemed to be a few years older, with wrinkles on it. Every wrinkle contained sadness and pain, and he harbored an unbearable secret in his heart. , it is impossible to face Lu Zhengfan so openly.He went to get breakfast, and while eating, he watched Lu Zhengfan check his luggage for the last time, and then called Liang Sheng.He waited for Lu Zhengfan to hang up the phone and asked, "Tell me about your brother."

Lu Zhengfan seemed in such a good mood that he didn't even realize that Qian Fan was talking about his younger brother.He never mentioned to Qian Fan that the family he was looking for was his younger brother, how did Qian Fan know?

He had no doubts.

So Lu Zhengfan pulled a confiscated chair and held Qian Fan's hand on his lap, because he met Qian Fan's gaze so he didn't see the red scratches on it.He laughed and said, "Why are you suddenly interested in my brother? His name is Lu Qian, and he is about your age. He only said a word or two when he was taken away. The kid with long arms is very clingy to me. He is a troublemaker, but sometimes he is very obedient. At such a young age, he is heartless and only knows how to roll in the dirt, but because the adults in the family are rarely at home, he knows what can and cannot be touched prematurely. After school, I went to pick him up from the neighbor's aunt's house, and the aunt said, my brother is very quiet, not noisy, so I occasionally asked if my brother is back." Lu Zhengfan showed a very faint smile, and looked at his brother. All my thoughts disappeared in a short smile.

Seeing Lu Zhengfan remembering his younger brother's beaming expression, Qianfan's urge to tell the truth was squeezed into his throat, but he was pressed back one after another, falling back into his lungs, making him difficult to breathe, and his face was solemn.

"Fan'er, you're a little strange today." Lu Zhengfan stared at Qian Fan and said.

Qian Fan sighed, put the other hand on his, and thought resignedly: Let me hold his hand for the last time, for the last time.He squeezed his brother's hand tightly and said, "Brother Fan, do you want to...Lu Qian?"

"I can no longer distinguish between wanting and not wanting, just like people have to eat and breathe. Do you think it is wanting or not?"

Does this still need an answer?This haunting miss.

Lu Zhengfan got up slightly, and kissed his forehead: "Damn child suddenly became deep today—the car is here, come, let's go."

Let's go, where are we going?In what capacity do you stay by your side?Qian Fan looked at his back as he went to carry his luggage, and he thought, if he doesn't bark again, will he lose his chance?So he yelled "Brother" in Lu Zhengfan's direction.

Lu Zhengfan turned his head and said "ah", and replied: "I just waited for your brother to be a coolie and didn't know how to come up to help? I spoil you like a grandfather."

Qian Fan smiled, as if all the entanglements and struggles of the night had disappeared with a smile.He said in his heart: "I can't say it, at least not at this time." He took the small luggage that Lu Zhengfan stuffed in his arms, it was not heavy at all, knowing that Lu Zhengfan was afraid of tiring him.Such a man who is reluctant to hold even heavy things, why can't he always say gentle words, he has to shout and scold?

Liang Sheng moved all the things into the car with his hands and feet neatly, and what Qian Fan didn't take away was thrown to Yu Xiaoyu to clean up.The rent is due at the end of the month, and Yu Xiaoyu will do the check-out, so the two of them really don't have much to bring.

Liang Sheng was very discerning, he knew what relationship he had with his boss when Qian Fan came out, so he nodded and took the things from Qian Fan's hand.

The three got into the car, and Liang Sheng said, "Boss, I was followed yesterday. Be careful today."

Knowing the relationship between Qian Fan and Lu Zhengfan, Liang Sheng will not deliberately avoid talking to him.

"Who is the other party? From Xin'an or from there?"

Liang Sheng: "I'm not sure, I suspect it's from there."

Lu Zhengfan: "Have you seen the other party's appearance?"

"Not tall, more than 1.6 meters, very thin, walking with a little limp."

"I see." Lu Zhengfan squeezed Qianfan's fingers, "You have to be careful when you go back, and pay attention to the safety of my twin nephews. They won't look for you again once I leave. You wait for me to contact you, and there is no need to give my phone."

Liang Sheng responded and stopped talking.

Qian Fan asked who it was.

"Limp Six, Ye Lao's youngest, is also the last personal chess piece. Because of his cruelty, he is regarded as a dangerous double-edged sword, and he will not be dispatched unless he has to." Ye Lao is also anxious, a little panicked.

Qianfan let him caress his fingers, he misses the last bit of temperature and touch, after today——

What will happen after today, who knows.

When Liang Sheng sent them to the airport, he disappeared into the noisy crowd at the airport like an invisible man, like a drop of water melting into the sea. Qian Fan found that Liang Sheng was probably an expert in anti-stalking.

Lu Zhengfan took his carry-on luggage and stored the rest, so he sat with Qian Fan in the waiting hall.

Qian Fan looked at the swaying legs in front of him, the wheels of the suitcase rolled by, and the floor reflected the dazzling lights above his head. He was a little dazed for a moment, and held Lu Zhengfan's hand, as if confirming something.He held it and let go, and said in a low voice: "Brother, I can't go with you."

Lu Zhengfan didn't hear what he said clearly, the voice in his ears was noisy, as if he had strayed into the kingdom of flies, and the flight information was broadcast from time to time, he leaned closer and asked, "What?"

"It's nothing, the time hasn't come anyway, tell me about your... parents?"

Lu Zhengfan looked at him with his chest folded, his chin hidden in his turned up collar.Lu Zhengfan raised his finger at him, meaning to get closer, and Qian Fan moved closer, only to hear Lu Big Bad Wolf baring his teeth and asking: "I can't wait to enter my house to find out what's going on!"

I knew he wouldn't be serious!Qianfan pushed him away with his fist, focusing on looking at the shoelaces.

"There's nothing to say." Lu Zhengfan rested his hands on the back of his head, his voice was not high, it was strange, but Qian Fan was able to block out other noises, and only heard his voice.Lu Zhengfan said: "My father is a bad alcoholic. My mother kicked my brother shortly after giving birth. Later, my alcoholic father borrowed money from outside and couldn't pay it back, so he sold my brother. From then on, I Started a hard journey to find my younger brother." After speaking, he laughed softly, as if this was a funny experience for others.

Didn't run away, it's my brother.Before Qian Fan, there was still a one-ten-thousandth fluke mentality, thinking that there would be someone who suffered similarly to him.His heart had long been blurred by the bloody truth, and he didn't know whether his heart was hurting or his whole body was hurting. Anyway, he didn't feel strong pain because the pain was even.

Despair is evenly matched with death.

"Brother, I'll go over there to buy a drink, I'll be back soon." He pointed to a hot drink shop 20 meters away.

"Go, the time is almost up." Lu Zhengfan raised his hand to look at his watch.

Qian Fan stood up, looked down at Lu Zhengfan, he had nowhere to vent his grievances and sadness.At the moment when he reconfirmed the truth, the unforgettable feelings seemed less real to him.That is the only person he has blood relationship with in this world, once he wandered and fled just to find that destination.He stood upright in front of Lu Zhengfan, while the man was sitting, looking up at him.He felt that Lu Zhengfan's gaze almost hurt his eyes, otherwise why did his eyes suddenly feel sore?

"Brother, I'm leaving."

"Well, come back quickly." Lu Zhengfan patted his thigh.

Qian Fan quickly walked away.He said as he walked, I want to engrave this person in my mind.

He couldn't think of what to do, and he couldn't accept the blood relationship calmly, so he decided to be a coward once and take a heart.

Qianfan walked towards that shop alone, he seemed to hear a door closing behind him, a huge loneliness surrounded him, he walked blankly, thinking of nothing, his eyes looked ahead without focus, The figures are blurred, and the facial features are blurred, and the dazzling lights make his loneliness nowhere to hide.The little happiness left in his heart is still leaking away bit by bit, the last bit is like a horse stepping on a swallow, quickly passing by his eyes, and he can barely see the shadow of the horse's tail raised.

The blood relationship is like a big bulldozer coming aggressively, overthrowing everything in an instant.

Gone, gone.

Once the volume is over, a thousand sails are not finished

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