Qianfan

During the remaining two days of the holiday, Qian Fan walked around and gave gifts, and was held in Lu Zhengfan's arms when he returned home, very intimate and clingy.

Just like when Lu Zhengfan got up early for a run and got ready for an early morning, when he saw him brushing his teeth, he squeezed in, hugged him, and sometimes rubbed behind him, letting Qian Fan brush his teeth for an hour, and then Qian Fan was hugged After leaving the bathroom, he sat on Lu Zhengfan's lap to eat.

Sometimes, Qian Fan is looking at the subjects to be tested - he likes to sit on the floor, leaning against the door frame to read, with his legs on the door frame, and after a while, he finds that there is an annoying ghost blocking the light, and this annoying ghost is Lu Zhengfan.

Lu Zhengfan sat unceremoniously on his leg that was kicking off the door frame, and even hugged Qian Fan's head, kissed him lightly, and said something to him that only the two of them could hear.

This happiness is more beautiful than a dream, Qianfan sometimes worries.Because the last time I left, I was in a similar happiness.

Is it true that people who have been unlucky for too long will doubt everything, even if the present happiness is in their arms, Kari has considerable savings, has a little status, and has a lover who loves him very much, he will still feel uneasy.

This has nothing to do with Lu Zhengfan, this kind of uneasiness and uncertainty was not brought to Qian Fan by him, it was ambushed in Qian Fan's flesh and blood.

Qian Fan sometimes leans against the door frame to watch Lu Zhengfan cook and see his busy figure, thinking, this time will be a long time, right?

Muse's "Unintended" was playing on the stereo. He had played this song the most in the past two years. At that time, when he listened to it, he could only hear the soulful desperation in his ears. It was all about regret and guilt. Relevant; listening to it now, only very tender and affectionate.

People are most afraid of understanding a love song in this life, but it is still a sad love song.

Qian Fan indulged in sex for a week and then went back to work in the company.

Lu Zhengfan moved all his few things into Qianfan's house, and stood there with his hips akimbo, thinking, I'm going to buy a house, it's not enough.There must be at least one study room for Qian Fan to study and work.The living room is not big enough, Qianfan doesn't like going downstairs to exercise, so let him do some noise-free physical training indoors.

He is tall and has long legs, thin waist and broad shoulders. His majestic talent and greatness in his arms are all contributed to the planning of the future life of the two of them. Looking at his back makes people have the urge to hug.

Qian Fan likes him for being serious, the former elite boss, cool and cool, much like the male lead in the novel.

Qian Fan didn't understand how he could make such a shocking decision to become a physical education teacher.He felt that Lu Zhengfan had a lot of playfulness in his heart, but he was too restrained before.

Before sending Qian Fan out, Lu Zhengfan helped Qian Fan put on the jade brave that had been left on the bedside table—every time the two of them exercised on the bed, Qian Fan took off the jade brave carefully.

Lu Zhengfan understands this, but every time he forgets to wear it, Lu Zhengfan is quite helpless.

While helping Qian Fan adjust his tie, Lu Zhengfan heard Qian Fan say: "The New Year's gift for you is in the locked drawer of the closet. You know where to put the key. I'll go first." Then, he turned his head to him a kiss.

Lu Zhengfan carefully observed Qian Fan's back, thinking: "My recent performance, except for being a beast in bed, is it considered excellent at other times?"

Really nervous.

There were several notebooks lying in the drawer, Lu Zhengfan guessed something, and his heart skipped a beat——

Sure enough, it was Qianfan's diary, which was written from the day he left.

Lu Zhengfan sat on the ground, reading page by page. After leaving that day, Qian Fan wrote a lot, writing about his impression of his elder brother, his life and death in wandering these years, the kind people and bad people he met, and the first time he fell in love with someone Sadness, joy, courage and finally giving up.

Lu Zhengfan's eyes were wet.

Qianfan didn't turn off the stereo before going to work, and the song "Unintended" was still playing in a loop:

"You could be the one I'll always love

You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions

You could be the one I'll always love

I'llbethereassoonasIcanbutI'mbusymendingbrokenpiecesofthelifeIhadbefore

First there was the one who challenged all my dreams and all my balance

......"

"You could have..."

I made up my mind that I only want to love you in my life.

I planned to do my best to treat you well, I planned to give you everything I can do, I planned to cut my heart open and welcome everything, whether it is love or hurt, the beast will not shrink back, I will go through fire and water No hesitation.Give whatever you want, never give the moon if you want the stars, never regret that I want to grow old with you, and let you be the one who sorts out my remains.

However, however...

What follows is Qianfan's short-term confusion, smoking and drinking every night, a brief anesthesia, and a moment of freedom, without pain and sorrow.

He wrote that he cried, he didn't know what to do, he didn't know what was going on, it seemed like he had a dream, and it seemed that he hadn't met that person, he was half asleep and half awake, often sitting alone in a backlit room and weeping.

Listen to other people's music and shed your own tears.

He never knew that he could shed so many tears. He thought he would not cry. Since he could remember, he had never shed tears, because crying seemed cowardly, incompetent and meaningless to him.

But until this moment he knew that every drop of tears after adulthood is a feeling with profound meaning and heartache. The most transparent and purest tears.

Either suffer to death or cry with joy.

Lu Zhengfan raised his hand to wipe away his tears.Those were what he was willing to do. Ever since he met Qianfan, he had an instinctive urge to treat him well.He never thought that his little fan would really grow up, rushing to be nice to his brother.

There was a frozen sadness in the music, heavy and invisible, that locked him in it, stuck him deep in it.He put the diary on his lap, and there was a long silence, silence.

The most recent diary was written by Qian Fan when he was recuperating at home. In his diary, he stated that he knew that Lu Zhengfan was "Chen Lu", from the time he saw those five characters.

At that time, if I liked someone, I could secretly copy his fonts, and at a glance, I felt as if I could trace them in my heart, and then the words that flowed out from the tip of my pen had the same shape.

You see, I like you so much, I will keep it in my heart once I see it, for a long, long time... I can't even control the pen in my hand, and it follows your words like a shadow.

Maybe the imitation of the strength of character is far from enough, but fortunately, the shape is similar.

So Lu Zhengfan's handwriting, even if he deliberately changed his writing habits, still has a strong character, and Qian Fan can tell it at a glance.

He kept his composure, he waited for the opportunity to move, he was expecting and panicking at the same time, he didn't know his elder brother Lu Zhengfan, when they really met each other, in what capacity did the two of them say they hadn't seen each other for a long time.

Lu Zhengfan never knew that Qian Fan still had so many small thoughts, he rubbed his face, exhaled slowly, turned a page and wrote:

"I won't say too much promise.

I want to cook for you every day and take care of you.

I want to hug you to sleep at night, I want to squeeze toothpaste for you in the morning, I think our clothes are always in the same closet.

I think you can see me pinching your shoulders when you turn your head when you are tired. I think I can take care of you, and I love to serve you, although I have no status.I think there is only you in my will.

I love you no matter what our relationship is.

I love you till the day I die. "

"Unintended" sings the line in a loop: "I'llbethereassoonasIcanbutI'mbusymendingbrokenpiecesofthelifeIhadbefore

Before you. "

That night, the two did it again like crazy.Lu Zhengfan changed from being gentle, and Qian Fan changed from being passive, they were so anxious to touch each other's body, no matter how hard they tried, it was not enough, no matter how deep they went, Qian Fan shouted "Keep harder", Lu Zhengfan hugged him from behind, Lifting his waist, hitting his hip with his crotch, quickly and forcefully, digging into Qianfan's body.

Neither of the two said that it would be like this in the future, as if "how long will you love me" and "how long will we be together" are usually things that students would want to confirm. They hugged each other and spent the rest of their lives together, and that was enough.

City G has a huge order, and Boss Wang asked for a very generous ex-factory price. Qian Fan took advantage of this order to gain momentum, intending to spread the business and spread its branches to other cities.

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