unrecognizable

"I feel much better, now I can tell you whatever you want to know." Shen Fang said.

Wang Xiaoxu sat on the edge of the bed in a little daze. He originally planned to watch Shen Fang go home after taking the medicine, but for some reason, when Shen Fang beckoned him in the corridor, he happily entered the door.How to say?With Shen Fang's icy muscles and bones, and her waist-length hair, a slight twist of her hips while walking can overturn the barrier in his heart.

"I checked, and there is a disease called gender cognitive impairment, do you have this kind of disease?" he asked.

Shen Fang smiled, "Let's put it this way, I was diagnosed with gender cognitive impairment in junior high school and received three years of psychological treatment. Later, my father threw me into a so-called "gender cognitive disorder" set up by a group of perverts and violent maniacs. 'Healing Center', it was hell on earth, it nearly drove me nuts... well, the first 20 years of my life were like a runaway car with no driver, full of pain and madness."

Wang Xiaoxu didn't expect to hear such a tragic story, "...how could this happen, is this kind of... born?"

"This matter... probably started when I was dressed as a girl since I was born..."

"Dressed up as a girl from birth..." Wang Xiaoxu couldn't understand, "Why?"

Shen Fang glanced at him, "What's so strange about this? Check out the mother and baby website. There are many women who like to dress up their sons as daughters, and even take photos of girls for him as souvenirs. I was like this when I was a child."

Shen Fang is a boy, but since he was a child, he was dressed like a girl by his mother who wanted a little padded jacket. With his male and female appearance, he was praised and loved wherever he went. As time passed, little Shen Fang became I like it and think of myself as a girl.

He realized that he was out of place after entering kindergarten.

He found out that real girls squatted down to pee, and they didn't have birds, and he was confused.But looking down at the dress on his body, and looking up at the little face in the mirror that was cuter than them all, he was relieved again.

Forget it, I'm a girl anyway, he thought.

But kindergarten is also a small society, which is different from home.Shen Fang thinks so, others don't think so.Gradually, Shen Fang found herself isolated. He was pushed out when he went to the women's restroom, and he was pushed out when he went to the men's restroom... He was rejected when he played games, and he was rejected by the children around him when he took a nap...

This situation intensified after elementary school. Although Shen Fang didn't wear a skirt to school, but only wore a women's shirt or sweater, it still aroused criticism from many people.The school teacher made several home visits and asked Shen Fang to "dress normally" and "cut her hair short".

At this time, Shen Fang's parents finally began to realize that something was wrong. Under the suggestion and suggestion of a certain teacher, they took Shen Fang to the hospital to see the psychology department, and got the result of "gender cognitive impairment".

The mother of the Shen family broke down first. She used to think that she was a child. When she was a child, wearing a skirt or putting on makeup was very common. When it was time to go to school, she would naturally turn around.She really didn't expect that her son would think that she was a girl, but the heavens didn't open her eyes, and her soul was reincarnated in the wrong fetus.

The husband and wife calmed down after a big quarrel, and they wanted to change their son's concept with the same goal, but Shen Fang was desperately unwilling to return to the role of a boy.After several family battles, he finally reluctantly accepted to wear school uniforms, because there is nothing to say about the same style for men and women, but he would change into women's clothes on weekends.

Because he is forbidden to wear women's clothing to go out, he can only walk around in his own beautiful clothes. He feels very depressed and will secretly go shopping while the adults are not at home.

At that time, Shen's mother's attitude was relatively gentle, but Shen's father was very agitated after hearing some gossip outside, and once came back, he rushed into Shen Fang's room and threw away all his women's clothes.This practice angered Shen Fang, who was only 13 years old at the time, and he simply announced that he only wanted to be a girl and that he would undergo sex reassignment surgery in the future. This greatly shocked the entire Shen family.

No matter where he got this knowledge, the whole family cannot accept the possibility that Shen's eldest son will become a real woman through sex reassignment surgery, even if it is a one-ten-thousandth possibility!

The father of the Shen family took extreme measures. He beat Shen Fang until his nose was bruised and his face was swollen. The relationship between husband and wife has also been greatly impacted.

To say that Shen Fang's character is soft but strong, and she has a hard core, otherwise she would not have insisted on women's clothing for more than ten years amidst the opposition.And when he was young, he was tougher than now, and he did things regardless of the consequences, which made him anxious and he would break everything.There was a lot of quarrels in the family for three days and a small quarrel for two days. It was not until the Shen family gave birth to their second child, Shen Fang's younger brother, that they got a moment of peace.

But also because of the second child, the idea of ​​"Tuba is useless, why not practice trumpet" quietly sprouted in the hearts of Shen's parents.So about three years after the birth of Shen Fang's younger brother, they treated Shen Fang coldly and laissez-faire.

Shen Fang took the opportunity to return to women's clothing.

At that time, it happened to be around the time when junior high school was promoted to high school, and everyone of the same age was in a period of restlessness and ignorance. At such a critical time, Shen Fang let herself go and went to school dressed up beautifully.Think about it, there is such an evildoer beside me who seduces me all day long (Fog), who has a good appearance and a slender figure, with long and white legs! !At that time, the existence of Shen Fang caused so many troubles among the boys, and the number of boys in a certain high school class was the most!

Of course, Shen Fang didn't get any benefit by doing this. How many times he was called by the school leaders to lecture and warn...and how many times he encountered harassment on the way to and from school...but he still didn't change his original intention!

I don't know how many major and minor faults she suffered, and she stayed in school for probation... At least because of her excellent grades, she barely left a layer of skin on her neck.

In her third year of high school, something happened that directly caused Shen Fang to break up with her parents.

Shen Fang is in love.

He fell in love with a junior, but the two were not from the same school. The junior tried to escape from the all-boys boarding school in the middle of the night to see him climbing the wall, but broke his leg. The parents of the school hospital jointly interrogated and brought out the "Shen Fang" The culprit".

Shen Fang who "had trouble with men" was thrown into a notorious "treatment center" by the angry Shen's father, where she was treated inhumanely.One night, he stabbed a male paramedic who tried to assault him with a sharp object made from a toothbrush handle, set the curtains on the entire floor with a stolen lighter, and managed to escape in chaotic conditions when ambulances and fire engines intervened.

He had a crazy plan in his mind at the time. He rushed home overnight, kidnapped his four-year-old brother, forced his parents to return his ID card, and took away 2 yuan of lucky money that he had saved since he was a child. Yuan, just left the hometown where he was born and raised him, and went directly to Thailand, the "paradise for Asians with gender cognitive impairments" without looking back.

He has been in Thailand for five years. During these five years, he worked hard, worked as a housekeeper, waiter, cleaner, bar gigolo, theater lead dancer, and graphic model. A rich man who was cheated by a woman... He saved a sum of money and planned to undergo sex reassignment surgery through an intermediary he met in a gogo bar.

Hearing this, Wang Xiaoxu made an ah, and immediately stopped her, "Don't do that, Shen Fang. You are...you are fine now. I heard that sex reassignment surgery is very dangerous. Those transsexuals are actually very pitiful. Their life expectancy It’s not long. You’re living a good life, why are you so obsessed with being a woman, you...you just keep the way you are now, I feel..." He scratched the back of his head, "Health is the most important thing, the body is the revolution This is what my mother often said, nothing else is as important as health. You must think clearly."

Shen Fang raised her eyebrows and said deliberately: "But I feel lonely living alone, and I want to find a partner to live with. If I don't have the operation, I'm afraid I won't find a man who accepts me."

Wang Xiaoxu: "How could that be? The society is very enlightened now. Let me tell you the truth. In fact, as I mentioned to you before, the family named Bai who wanted Dean Weishengyao to perform the operation, they are a couple. !"

"Oh?" Shen Fang was surprised, "The family where your father is the driver?"

"Yes, they are not only pure men, but..." Wang Xiaoxu hesitated for a moment, and out of encouragement to Shen Fang, he revealed, "They have a big age difference, 21 years apart. You see, as long as two Personally, I am right. No gender or age will be an obstacle. Why do you use the method of harming your body to pursue happiness? Happiness is not a convention. Even if you have undergone sex reassignment surgery, it does not mean that you will find the right one. man."

"I didn't know you were so good at talking before." Shen Fang smiled. He looked up at the ceiling, sighed long, his eyes were empty, "Looking back now, I was really naive and stupid in the past. Incomparable."

Before lying down on the operating table, Shen Fang was vaguely aware of the difference between herself and "those people".

When he kissed a man for the first time, the desire in his heart was full of aggressiveness. The other man was taller and stronger than him, but he wanted to completely suppress the man and then ride on him, instead of talking about it like "those people" "As soon as that handsome guy touched me, I melted, so soft that I couldn't even lift him up..."

Shen Fang thought it was because he was too competitive. When he was a student, he insisted on being the first in grade to piss them off when he was rejected; His father forced him to change himself, so he deliberately wore a miniskirt to his work unit and shouted "Long live freedom!"

He has always been like this, he has long hair fluttering and has a charming figure, he likes to make up, wear skirts and only loves men, but his heart is still in a tight spot!

The moment the anesthetist announced the start of anesthesia injections, he jumped off the operating table and ran.

The unlicensed black doctor from the underground hospital took off his mask and shouted at him, "Don't run away, I won't refund the money!"

Shen Fang turned around wrapped in a green surgical gown, "I'm not going to have surgery anymore, give me back half of it."

The doctor flashed a pair of peach blossom eyes, "It's the first time I've encountered such a good blade, I'll refund all the expenses to you, you give yourself to me, I promise you will get the most perfect body in the world! Afraid, I am the best doctor, after my hands, you will be amazing in the future, you will have great achievements. Believe me, come on... I will make you completely unrecognizable!"