From now on in the entertainment industry, I have you in my heart

In the underground rehearsal room, it was the rehearsal time stipulated every day, and Zhuo Duxian found that Li Youyan hadn't come yet.

"I said what's wrong with Xiaoyan, I was late for more than an hour yesterday, and I didn't come today at all. Shall we practice if we don't have everyone here?" You can make an appointment with friends.

Seeing that Cao Chenghan didn't respond, Zhuo Duxian asked again, "Old Cao, do I still practice today? You call and ask if you are still coming, and if you haven't asked for leave yet."

"Oh, Youyan, she has something to do." Cao Chenghan didn't know if it was because of himself, or if she was delayed by something.He didn't dare to call her to ask her why she was late and why she didn't come to the rehearsal room. Since he made his choice yesterday, he has lost his qualifications.

He didn't dare to tell others because he was afraid. He took on everyone's dream of the band and made a promise, but now the first person to break this promise is himself.He didn't even dare to say it, as if this would allow him to stay for a while longer, to keep what he was going to lose in his life for a while longer.

"Yo, it's the first time. I found that you are very tolerant towards Youyan. How long has it been since Youyan broke up with everyone. Why, have you ever thought about breaking the team rules?" Zhuo Duxian raised his eyebrows, seemingly true or false asked him.

"Don't make jokes, Youyan and Lizhen are both younger sisters."

Seeing that his face was downcast, Zhuo Duxian stopped his curiosity.This old Cao can really scare people when he doesn't speak. "Okay, okay, I won't talk, don't be so serious. It's not like you don't know that my mouth likes to make jokes."

He sighed softly, hey, there is one person missing, someone is not punctual in rehearsal, and the captain is still worried, how can this rehearsal go on.Come to clean the guitar every day, tune it, practice one or two songs, and then go home.

"I'm here." Li Youyan came in before he could complain in his heart.It's just that he came empty-handed, and he didn't carry her wherever he went, a guitar that couldn't be put down.

"Yo, where's your guitar, are you playing the air today?" It's also a bit annoying to wait, and she hasn't come on time for two consecutive days, so Zhuo Duxian couldn't help but tease her when he saw her.

Li Youyan didn't answer him, just stood at the door with his hands in his pockets.His gaze was fixed on Cao Chenghan, and he said three words in a small but loud voice, "I won't play anymore."

Cao Chenghan tightened his grip on the handle of the guitar, and the strings made his palms ache.It must not be the meaning he understood, he looked at her firmly, and shook his head slightly in disapproval.

Of the three people present, Zhuo Duxian was the only one who didn't know why, and thought that Li Youyan was saying that he would not practice today.

"Okay, since Youyan won't practice today, let's end it early, anyway, I have an appointment today..."

"I mean, I quit." Interrupting him, Li Youyan spoke more clearly.

"What? Are you kidding me?" Zhuo Duxian smiled in disbelief, and felt that Li Youyan was not a person who knew how to joke, so the corners of his mouth twitched.

"Youyan, don't be impulsive, come out with me." Cao Chenghan went to pull her out, but Li Youyan avoided him.

"I'm serious, how long has it been like this, the former rooftop room, the current underground rehearsal room, isn't it enough for us to recognize it for more than four years? I'm tired, and the future of the band with no end in sight, I don't want to go on like this anymore." She tried her best not to waver, not to avoid their eyes, and even persuaded herself to believe.

"Youyan, that's enough!" Cao Chenghan stopped her, "Stop talking."

"I'm sorry, I gave up first." Li Youyan walked to the cabinet on the right, on which was a Polaroid photo of four people, she turned her eyes away and sniffed. "I just came to talk to you, and take my things away by the way."

He took out an old roll of strings wrapped in red string from the cabinet, where there were items representing the instruments of the four of them.Hers were a spool of old and broken guitar strings, a bass keychain, taped drum sticks, and tuners.

"Since we are leaving, I will also take this with me." This is quite meaningful. It was the first time to rehearse with everyone with broken strings. At the beginning, each other solemnly put these objects into the cabinet. It's like a formal connection ceremony.

Zhuo Duxian was still under constant shock, he couldn't believe that these words were spoken by Li Youyan.Although she usually doesn't talk much, she shares what she sees, her enthusiasm and drive for the band and music.

"Why are you crazy, you are stimulated by saying this all of a sudden?"

"It's not exciting, but thinking clearly. My uncle wanted to promote a girl group, and he said that I was quite suitable and they needed me there, so I made a choice. Lemon's is so unpopular, how long will it take for more People hear our music and like our music. If they have the opportunity to debut, I think they are all singing, and it would be better to choose the side with more opportunities." This is an excuse she thought up temporarily, in order to make her departure more persuasive.

"I told you to stop talking, don't I understand you?" Cao Chenghan felt more and more uncomfortable when he heard it, what was it all about, "It's me..."

Before he could say what he was going to be honest with, Li Youyan immediately interrupted him.

"Yes, you don't know me well, so this is the choice I will make. People change, and it doesn't matter if it's you." After she finished speaking, she turned to look at Xiao Duxian, "I'm here today, just If I tell you about this, just treat me as selfish and naive, okay?"

"The last time your uncle came to see you, that's why he told you this? Okay, you two." Zhuo Duxian resisted the urge to throw things, and pointed at them, "That guy Quan Lizhen went to the United States for more than one year." It's been a month since I didn't come back, I thought she went to the United States to inherit hundreds of millions of property, and you," he pointed at Cao Chenghan, "I was often absent-minded a while ago, and now there is another one who says he wants to quit, Li Youyan, do you think that everyone will debut? You still remain unknown, feel very wronged? I think our Lemon's can be disbanded in place today, and Quan Lizhen doesn't have to come back if he continues to stay in the United States."

He has a bad temper. At the beginning, whoever said to make his own music, regardless of success or failure, no matter whether he became famous or not, insisted on making a band with his own style. Now it seems that those before were a fart.

"Duxian, please calm down." This was the last result he wanted to see. He thought that even if he left, Lemon's could continue to exist with a new lead singer and guitarist, not what it is now.

"If you make it clear, I will leave first." Li Youyan stepped out of the door, took a step and then stopped, she said without looking back: "When we meet again in the future, I hope we can still be friends."

The moment she just stepped out the door, there was a sound of a heavy object hitting behind her.

"What else are you playing!"

The sound of broken instruments seemed to surround infinitely. Li Youyan felt uncomfortable, but he didn't dare to stop. He continued to walk, and he didn't dare to take another look at the rehearsal room. It carried everything about the band, and now there was no turning back.

"Youyan, wait." Cao Chenghan chased after him.

After catching up with her, he still couldn't make her stop, so Cao Chenghan had to hold her back and prevent her from taking another step. Now they need to have a good talk.

"Youyan, are you..."

"No, what I just said is true. Just like you have difficulty speaking because of family affairs, so do I. Even if you didn't say it first, I would make such a decision. So, don't act like it's all wrong Look at you, isn’t Juo Duxian also looking for other bands to recruit him, and a bar looking for him to be a resident? I also have a better choice, and I think Lizhen will live well if she doesn’t come back in the United States.”

But the truth is, without him, Lemon's seems to have lost a soul, how can it exist.

When Li Youyan left the hospital that night, she looked back at Cao Chenghan, such a proud person, she seemed to see a cloud of mist on him, something evaporated and slowly disappeared from him.

He gave up on what he said first, and in Li Youyan's ears, there was no room for turning back or starting over.She knew Cao Chenghan, the one who organized Lemon's single-handedly, if Lemon's disbanded because of his own reasons, then for him, giving up music would be a lifetime thing, and there would be no possibility of it coming back.

She took a little effort to pull Cao Chenghan's hand holding her arm, and left after saying one last sentence.

"You said that music is everywhere, and I hope you remember what you said."

I can’t remember where I saw the words: what goes farther and farther is time, what goes farther and farther is the dream, and what goes farther and farther is the direction...

In the past, I still thought it was a great thing to have a dream. Different from the well-behaved and obedient people of my age, I knew very early on that I liked music and wanted to make music.But looking back on this road, time has passed, the college entrance examination is coming, and the dream is now lost.

Put on the earphones, press the MP3 player in your hand, the bus you want to go to stops at the platform, and only three or two get on the bus, because there are many people getting off this way, but few people getting on.Li Youyan turned his head to look out of the car window. The road seemed a little too deserted. At this time, the office workers were working overtime to make a living, and the students were still studying hard.And she, a quasi-high school examinee who had been demoted by one level and now skipped class, bid farewell to her dream on this day.

It is said that the world is too big to accommodate extravagant dreams.She also has a real feeling now that the repeated lyrics and melody in the earphones are the band's first studio album, and she is familiar with it even when she closes her eyes.

The mobile phone received a new text message from my father: Your class teacher called to say that you skipped class today, Xiaoyan, what happened?

She went from Seoul to Daegu with her father because she missed her mother, and she went back to Seoul from Daegu alone because of her ideal rebellion.The father, on the other hand, was good at preaching and worrying, but he never blamed her for being willful after getting angry.

It was only at this time of night that I sent her to ask her, and I think my father hesitated for a while before asking himself.I don't want her to feel that the management is too strict, and I don't want to guess and blame it casually.

Before the bus arrived at the platform, I hurriedly replied to the text message: It's all settled, and I will finish the college entrance examination well.

The door opened and she got out of the car.

Li Youyan didn't have the idea to go home right away, and slowed down, walking to the bench in the yard of the community step by step and sitting down.

Rather than staying in the house, she would rather breathe outside, the four solid walls sometimes feel depressing, and the unrestricted surroundings outside seem to hold more, especially when she is in a bad mood.

She didn't answer several calls from Cao Chenghan, and the other party didn't give up changing to text messages, as if trying to make her change her mind or explain things clearly.

Lao Cao: Youyan, can we talk?

Lao Cao: Duxian doesn't answer the phone either, so let's talk about it, okay?I don't want you to give up.

Li Youyan's eyes were sore, she didn't want her to give up, did she just want him to give up?But why did it become like this, why did their Lemon's become like this?

Band spirit, rock spirit.Freedom does not compromise, does not bow to fate, does not bow to reality, but ultimately loses.

Dazed, he could vaguely hear weak sobs, Li Youyan came back to his senses, and turned his head to look around.No one, did you hear me wrong?

When she got up, she was about to go home, but she heard the sound again after taking two steps.

She had always trusted her sense of hearing, and this time she clearly judged the direction of the sound.Looking for the sound, Li Youyan found a little white cat under the bushes.

"It's the little guy, are you barking?" He stretched out his hand and touched the kitten's head tentatively. At first it just dodged for a while, but after realizing that she was not malicious, it didn't dodge.The kittens are not that big, as if they were just born.

"Have you been abandoned? It's so pitiful. If your uncle finds out, you won't even be able to stay here."

There are often a few stray cats wandering around looking for food in the courtyard of the community. If Li Youyan encounters them at home, he will occasionally feed them some food. However, after some owners were bitten, the property management uncle also drove away the stray cats after complaining.

I don't know if it understood her words, or lingered on the warm temperature of her palm, the kitten even took the initiative to rub against her palm.

"Yeah, it's cold at night when the season changes, what do you do?"

After talking to himself, Li Youyan kept looking at it and struggled with it for a long time, and finally picked it up and went home.

Raising an animal is not a simple task in a day or two. She has no experience in taking care of small animals before, but fortunately she has someone she can turn to for help.

Li Youyan's elementary school classmate, Cui Yuanzhen, who has maintained a good friendship since childhood, runs a pet shop at home, she thinks she should know.

But in fact, after returning home, she realized that the situation was more serious than she had imagined.It was too dark outside to see clearly, the kitten's paw was injured and was already bleeding pus, and she had no idea what to do with the animal.

"Hey, Yuanzhen..."

I took a car to the pet hospital of Cui Yuanzhen's family. Fortunately, her store was open until [-] pm.Cui's father was also seen by Li Youyan, and he was relieved after entrusting the kitten to him.

"I said you, why did you pick up a cat?" When Cui Yuanzhen first received her call, she was startled by her anxious tone, and it turned out that the injured was a kitten.

"I just picked it up." Li Youyan saw through the glass window that Uncle Cui was treating the cat's wound.

Cui Yuanzhen also looked inside, and then said: "This is lucky, the little white cat with different-colored pupils, probably some family doesn't like cats with different colors, so they abandoned it."

"When I decided to bring it home, I thought about it, I want to raise it."

"Yes, you raise it. I think some family members thought it was heterochromia and abandoned it. After all, heterochromia in cats is also a disease called heterochromia, which is likely to affect the cat's hearing. Poor kitten. I think my dad will check it out later."

"Really? Then I have to take better care of it." Seeing the kitten whimpering with its mouth open because of the pain, Li Youyan put his finger on the glass window and tapped it, matching its eyes. It seemed like He narrowed his eyes in response, as if begging for comfort. ", I think it may be sent by God to comfort me, and we comfort each other."

Any encounter in life seems to have a certain reason.

"mo?" What comfort?Cui Yuanzhen turned her head to look at her suspiciously. It came from a friend's impression that Li Youyan at this moment is not the Li Youyan I met this morning, "You were found out for skipping class today, do you know?"

"I know, I aba also texted me."

"I think you won't be able to escape from the troublesome teacher in your class." However, judging from her flat tone, this shouldn't be the case. Cui Yuanzhen asked again: "Is there something you didn't tell me?"

Facing her question, Li Youyan didn't answer right away, and even felt that it would be uncomfortable for him to tell the fact again.

"I quit, quit Lemon's."

"What!" Cui Yuanzhen was stunned, with a look of disbelief.

"Well, I quit, maybe...it will be disbanded." What she said was possible, did she still have luck in her heart?Fortunately, without Cao Chenghan, without Li Youyan, Lemon's will continue?

"OMG~ What did I hear, are you kidding me?" Cui Yuanzhen couldn't believe it. As a friend, she knew how Lemon's was established, and also knew Li Youyan's dream. "How can you say disbandment to me, a loyal fan?"

But it has already become a fact, Li Youyan thought.

"So, what should I say about you? Take everything on yourself." After hearing her talk about what happened before and after, Cui Yuanzhen didn't know what to say, and sighed silently, "There is no way to do this." Things, Lemon's, you have been on and off for almost three years. You have been active underground, and few people pay attention. Some companies want to sign you, and you don't want to be bound by a contract. You have to fight for contacts when you run commercial shows. Let me tell you about you The song is pretty good too, maybe I just have to stick to it a little longer.”

"How can you persist? If one person is missing, there is no reason to persist. How can an incomplete band continue." At the beginning, it was four people, and now it is still four people. One less person will lose a touch of music.

"Hey, it's also luck. If there is no fire, it is also a bad luck. Look at that..." She muted the sound of that surname, paused, and looked at Li Youyan's face.

"Who do you want to talk about? It doesn't matter if you want to talk about it, let's talk about it. We broke up and said that we are friends." Although the definition of this friend needs to be considered, after all, no one has greeted before breaking the freezing point.

Well, the person involved seemed to be fine, and it seemed that she did not have any fluctuations on her face, unlike ordinary couples who were very concerned after breaking up.But thinking about it, Li Youyan's character is really not such a fussy person. Although he is sensitive, he is actually very free and easy, but the worst thing is that he values ​​friendship.

"I'll just say that, their popularity was good once they debuted, but it's different for big companies. Then, what do you plan to do next? Stop being a band?"

"What can I do? The college entrance examination first, I promised my aba, I can't do too badly in the exam." To be honest, she really didn't think about what to do next. On the way back just now, she really felt that there was something wrong. A feeling of stopping here.

"Actually, I think you can participate in the selection of trainees. Do you want to think about it? For example, JYP, SM?"

"Not going."

"Which one won't go?"

"No, besides, my uncle doesn't like SM"

At this time, Cui's father came out with the cat in his arms, "It's taken care of, the wound is not particularly serious, I will get some medicine later, you can just apply it on time according to the dosage when you go back to Xiaoyan. I also vaccinated it, it is very fast Fortunately, although this little guy has heterochromia iris, he should not have any serious hearing problems."

"Thank you, Uncle." Li Youyan took it gently from Uncle Cui's hand, and hugged it in his arms.

It was so late, and Cui Yuanzhen's father finally drove her home after closing the store.

In the back seat, Cui Yuanzhen saw Li Youyan holding the cat with a gentle and distressed expression on her face, and patted her chest to reassure, "Don't worry, if you have any problems, you can bring it to my pet shop. If you don't say anything else, I will ask you to keep it. I will also give this poor little guy a canned food every month for your sake. There is also a discount for sickness, forget it, no money."

"Ah, Cui Yuanzhen, have you asked me?" Papa Cui, who was driving ahead, heard his daughter's prodigal gift and asked jokingly.

"aba~ Anyway, I will inherit the pet hospital in the future, as the future boss, please give me some face."

Li Youyan couldn't help laughing, she knew that Uncle Cui was also joking, and the friendship between her and Yuanzhen from elementary school to the present is the kind of existence that the other's family members are familiar with.She wanted to give money today, but Uncle Cui still refused to accept it.

After returning home, Li Youyan used one of his old winter clothes to make a temporary nest for the kitten.

The little guy lay weakly on the sofa, Li Youyan said: "Soon you will have your own nest, and when I am free, I will make you a better looking and more comfortable nest."

"However, I have to give you a name first." She tilted her head and thought for a while, first thinking of the fact that it was discarded, "If you call it Diudiu, will it leave a psychological shadow on you when you grow up?" , It’s really difficult to name it.”

She thought about it for a long time, and when the cat bed was sewn, she picked up the kitten and put it on, but she didn't think about it.Follow it one by one, "It's hard for me to come here today, you are also sad, because I was abandoned by someone, and I, I lost Lemon's. Brother Cheng Han is also sad, I still It made it harder for him."

The little guy seemed to feel her depression, and gently stretched out his little tongue to lick her.

"I think we all need hope or miracles. Otherwise, do you want to be called Hope or Qiqi or Miracle? Which one do you like?" Li Youyan decided to choose one of these three, since he was not good at naming himself, "I'll call it again. Ah, if you like a name, can you give me a hint?"

"Hope... Qiqi..." When Qiqi was first called, the little guy licked her again, and Li Youyan automatically regarded this action as its choice, "Then I will call you Qiqi, which is also very good. Qiqi is cute. From now on, your name will be Qiqi, and your English name will be Miracle.”

The author has something to say:

Hehehe, I gave Maomao this name out of selfishness, and it will definitely become a powerful assist in the future.