Jian An Kee

I will no longer inquire into what they will do, how what they will do will hurt my body and even my soul.

How much have I lost along the way?

May I ask what is the greatest suffering in this world?

Can't get it, tossing and turning, sleepy and thinking about clothes, all because of that not being able to get it.

It was a rainy night.It was the rainy season in South China, and the rain poured down like mercury, drenching my whole body densely.I asked myself: Zhou Guanglan, if you can't get what you want, why don't you simply destroy him so that the world will be clean?

I replied again: If he gets something, I will be happy.I beseech his love, but his heart is always above it.So I didn't sacrifice my life for him, because he would be unstable if he knew about it. I wanted him to be stable and happy all the time, just because I was not worthy of his guilt.

What's more, there is another person in this world who has paid more for him than me, even more than words.They know each other and accompany each other tacitly.

Only this time, when I knew he was going to die soon, and that person was still refusing to help, if I continued to keep silent, I would lose my heart—but what qualifications do I have to intervene in the affairs between these two people?Stupid, stupid!

But I still knelt in front of my husband and begged him to help.The unspeakable shame replaced the joy of giving everything to my lover, occupying my heart and biting my poor self-esteem.From the moment I knelt down, I understood that I, who have always reserved my dignity only for myself, valued myself the most, dignity and freedom, ideals and beliefs, not the person I love.Everything else is just false excuses.

I love him but refuse to give up my dignity for him.For a moment I felt callous and hypocritical.If I love him enough, like a lover who lives and dies, maybe I will have a different mentality.

I was very calm and even said goodbye to Mr. with a smile.He sent me to the eaves of the corridor, blue lightning drew hideous lines in the corner of the house, and the only sound of raindrops hitting the ground was the only silence in the world.

"Sir," I turned around and found my voice trembling, "please be well. I'll be going back now."

A flash of lightning flashed across the sky in the northwest, making his face pale, and there seemed to be light dancing in his eyes."Don't worry," he said.

The rain stopped in less than half an hour at night, and I randomly found an empty house in the south of the city to make ends meet for the night. After getting up early, I felt sour all over my body.The weather is so hot, and the clothes are crumpled up, which is really unsightly. Fortunately, I am dressed as a man, otherwise it would be really shameful.

On the way back, there will be a heavy rain in the evening or night, and the embarrassment is needless to mention.With the coming of the rainy season, the water in Yunmengze Lake in Jiangbei is overflowing, and it is difficult for people and horses to walk. Therefore, I want to cross the river first, and then go back to Chaisang via Baqiu. rather.

With no one around to help me, I was more than panicked.I'm just afraid that Jiangnan or Jiangbei will be chased and intercepted by the spy of one side. If I meet a powerful character like last year on the top of Xishan again, I'm afraid my time to go is not far away.

Unexpectedly, it was really hit by my own crow's mouth.At noon, I went to a small town to buy fodder for the horses. Because I went too late, I only found some leftover corners.I squatted down and fed the horse with the finely crushed straw in my front pocket. Unexpectedly, a gleaming sword in the slanted stab "swiped" and pierced straight out from the nearby wheat straw pile.

At that time, the morning market was gone, and there were very few vendors in the city. Some people screamed in fright and fled out.Don't say that they have no intention of saving me, even if there is someone who sees injustice on that road, I'm afraid they won't be able to match this gangster's complete killing move.

I dodged his first blow with a short body, rolled on the spot to melt away the impact, and drew out the sword hanging on the horse with my backhand to catch his second blow. At that moment, my wrist felt numb.

The assailant's sword and sword killing move wanted to take people's lives, and his own door was wide open, so he came here with the determination to die.I tried my best to cut off a strand of hair on the left side, and stabbed him hard under the right flank.Unfortunately, this person seemed to have cultivated the indestructible body of a diamond, and the tip of the sword was everywhere, and it bounced away with a "thump".To make matters worse, another person sprang out from behind to pinch me.God is sorry to see, the later one was not as bad as I thought, I scratched my cheek with a sword.

Therefore, I have to thank Laiyan's nasty horse. Under the scene of dust and grass flying together, the light of the knife and the blood, it did not avoid or dodge, and it chewed the scraps bought for two copper coins extremely calmly .

I quickly got on the horse, and before I could shake off the rein, the assassin from earlier slashed at my mount.Because I had a place to rely on when I was riding a horse, I turned around and resolved them one by one. Unfortunately, I was not good at learning, and I still cut a sword straight to the horse's buttocks. Countless stalls and chicken coops were kicked over.

It is said that people can infinitely stimulate their potential (and horses!) when their lives are threatened. I ran for two counties in one afternoon until the horse was tired and foamed and stopped.

At night, he sneaked to a village far away from the official road to rest.The family I was staying with was an old woman with a seven or eight-year-old child, who was too hungry to tell whether I was a villain or not.

When I entered the room, I was almost knocked down by the stench of animal fur. I could only hold my nose to comfort myself. At least if it rains tonight, I won’t get drenched all over my body; The strange-flavored pancakes bought on Zhang Lu were given to the grandpa and grandson.

She seemed unable to get up from the broken mat, and the little girl in ragged clothes beside her kept crying.

I tentatively talked to her a few words, but I couldn't understand the language; when I handed over the pancake, she closed her yellow eyes, screaming for something.

The water tank under the eaves had been fouled for a long time. Not only that, even a container for scooping water could not be found anywhere in the house.

Fortunately, the old woman finally came to her senses. After finding out my intentions, she tremblingly took out a bowl from the broken mat and handed it to me, then pointed to a corner of the outer courtyard.

I hesitated for a moment, came to the courtyard, and reluctantly walked towards the ancient well that looked very suitable as a tool for destroying corpses and traces. What I thought in my mind was that if I was hunted down successfully today, the killers would put my body in Throwing it in the well would cost a fortune!

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but hesitate in my steps, and the image of the ghost I saw a long time ago appeared and disappeared in my mind.I think that on the way to Jingzhou, I rode fast and fearlessly with high spirits. When I came back, I got a set of vague statements from my husband, and I thought of something else as soon as I relaxed.

But there is indeed someone who assassinated me.Judging by their appearance at noon, they must have been entangled endlessly. After following Mr. and Zhou Yu for so many years, I still have a little understanding of this.

But logically speaking, I can't get rid of this kind of people chasing me, why haven't I seen them catch up?Could it be that they planned to catch a turtle in a jar tonight... Bah, is it a scheme to catch someone?It is absolutely impossible to escape overnight, not to mention that I am exhausted now, if I go into the wilderness and be injured by sharp arrows, I would not feel as happy as jumping into the well by myself at this moment!

It's useless to think too much, so I decided to get some food to save my energy.I took the old man’s nose to carry the bucket of water to the house. I fed a bowl of water to the little girl and another bowl to the old woman. Then I half-kneeled on the ground and soaked the pancakes in the water. Take it out and put it on the lid of the tank.

I handed the soaked cake to the old woman, she just shook her head and looked at the little girl.I had no choice, I took out a large stack of pancakes from my bag and showed them to her: "Grandma, I still have some pancakes here, eat them quickly!"

She understood what I meant, nodded, broke off a finger-sized cake, and chewed it quietly with her toothless mouth.

I took the little girl's arms around my neck again, and hugged her into my arms: "Eat something?"

She quickly took the food from my palm and put both hands to her mouth.The girl ate a little slowly, and suddenly cried out with a "wow".

I was taken aback and quickly asked, "What's wrong?"

The little girl whimpered and said something, but I couldn't understand it, so I had to scratch my head.

Seeing that they were fine for the time being, although I lost my appetite in every possible way, I forced myself to take a few bites of a piece of cake with cold water.

It should be about seven o'clock at night, and there is still a glimmer of light in the sky.I sat sluggishly on the threshold, worrying for my life, thinking about things in my mind.

"Brother Assassin, I have admired your great name for a long time, you see that the younger one has a mother and a child, please spare the younger one, the younger one will never dare again... You just treat the younger one as a fart, Let the little one go..." Is this classic line useful after all?

Then you have to run away.And I can't run very far with just two legs, and tonight the horse really can't run anymore—going alone, maybe I have a little chance of winning, if they all go together, then I will definitely be defeated Grasp.

Living in such an era, I know that the most worthless thing is human life. After a large-scale battle, there are often corpses strewn all over the field, and the bones of the dead are thousands of miles away.However, man-made disasters are linked with natural disasters. There is no rain in April and May when rice is transplanted, and there are continuous rainstorms after three consecutive months of drought.Once the rice and wheat production is reduced, I don’t know how many people will starve to death and expose their corpses to the wilderness.

In Wang Can's "Poetry of Seven Sorrows", there is a line "There is a hungry woman on the road, and her son is abandoned in the grass. Gu Wen's weeping, and I will not return my tears." This time, because I was walking alone on land, the poem described I met this scene more than once, and once even heard the rumor that "the mother killed the youngest child and cooked soup to feed the older child".

So what if he died here?My life is not worth more than other people's lives, and I asked for it all, and I have to bear the consequences for what I did.But this time it can be regarded as giving up in the middle of starting a business. Alas, I hope they don't hurt you when the time comes.I heard that the old horse knows the way, you should go back and report a letter so that your uncle can come to collect the body... Zhou Yu, I just said that I would not risk my life to save you. Look, God thinks that I am not selfless enough and sent someone to punish me.

The reasoning is good, but when I think of the cold blade resting on my neck, I don't feel sleepy at all.

It was late at night, and the old woman and the little girl in the house rolled up the straw mats and fell asleep. The old man coughed and panted from time to time in his sleep.Without sleepiness, I groped up to the roof with my sword in hand.

The night wind was blowing from afar with dry heat, and the big yellow horse kicked its hooves in the yard, occasionally purring and snorting.

Come to someone to save the beauty!There is no need for a hero, even if it looks like a flower.I could barely make out the surrounding terrain by starlight, and figured out how I should break through and escape after those two people (or more?) found this place.

"Lord, Jesus Christ! I beg Your mercy."

---- Nothing happened.

"Brahma, I implore your coming!"

----no response.

"Taiyi God, please manifest yourself quickly!"

---- Nothing happened.

"Sir, save me!"

The night was silent, and I was the only one on the roof silently acting insane.Tired from tossing and tossing for a while, I sat down and fell asleep with my head down.

Suddenly, I felt heavy eyes staring at my head and face, and I lifted my bangs hesitantly, and there was a tall figure in front of me who was only a foot away from me.

"Wow!!" I yelled in fright, and leaned back as if my limbs were spread out on the ground.

Under normal circumstances, no matter how good your kung fu is, there should always be some movement when you get close to someone, but there is no sound under this person's feet, and his clothes will automatically move without wind.

"Hush, don't disturb the tranquility." The man actually spoke, and he spoke with a pure Luoyang accent.

"You, you, you," I hastily pulled the sword guard in front of me, "Who are you?"

He has waist-length hair loose, and he only uses a hair tie to tie around his right ear like a lady.Under the starlight, I can only tell that he is wearing soft, light-colored clothes.

Seeing that he was harmless for the time being, I got up and patted the ashes off my clothes.

A man of his age suddenly knelt down on one knee, and said softly: "I have met Miss."