Jian An Kee

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I was about to bite someone with resentment, but my husband stopped far away.

"Come here, Guanglan." I couldn't see his face clearly in the darkness, but I could feel the melancholy in his tone.

The way he led me was not the way home. What did your husband bring me to the river?In the dark night, I can vaguely tell that this is the end of a fork in the way home. I remember that there is a waterfall here, and people often wash clothes in the pool under the waterfall.

Sure enough, a few steps forward, the sound of rushing water came to my ears along with the night wind.

Does sir want to take me to admire this frozen waterfall?I couldn't help being puzzled, the moon is dark and the wind is high tonight, and I can't see anything.I stood still hesitantly, watching Mr. leaning over with one hand and gently touching the cold pool water. Soon, fluorescent stars in all directions floated from the pool water to the mid-air, and clustered one after another.The snow firefly summoned by the master, the life of a mayfly insect, just disappears when the snow melts.

After finishing all this, Mr. turned to look at me again, the fluorescent light faintly illuminated his side face, and his eyes were burning like fire in the darkness: "Just now, did you feel wronged?"

I realized that I was very worthless, and my nose was so sore all of a sudden, I reluctantly replied: "No."

"Are you feeling homesick?"

I shook my head hastily.

But Mr. didn't say anything anymore, he stood with his back to me and his hands behind his back, and countless snowflies merged his figure into the light blue light wheel.

The mountain wind was icy cold, and I subconsciously wrapped my cloak tightly, but my husband didn't care about it and let the wind blow away his long hair.

Neither of us would speak.

silence.

The waterfall rushes.

The mountain wind is like a song.

The gentleman waved his hand and signaled me to go back with him. The dark night outlined his face very softly.For a long time, we didn't say a word, we just walked side by side on the way back.

When he saw the warm yellow light of the thatched cottage from a distance, the husband finally spoke.I will never forget this snowy night for the rest of my life: the clouds cleared and the mist cleared, there were faint stars in the sky, our steps made a clear "creak" sound when we stepped into the soft snow, and only black silhouettes remained on the fence beside the road.

Everything in the world was silent, and only the words of my husband echoed in my ears: "Guanglan, do you know what balance is? Balance is a law of nature, and it cannot be manipulated by people. Once it is broken, everything will be in disaster. We——I And my friends, including you now - all you have to do is to try to maintain the balance. You must understand that the so-called creation of history is to break through the limit, but what is the price of breaking through the limit? It is a challenge to balance. This legendary In the era, someone is destined to create history, and because of this, the balance break is inevitable, and we will maintain it at all costs. I will not stop you or interfere with your decision, but Guanglan, when you decide Get involved and there is no turning back. You will remain true to our cause, our faith, until death."

Everything is gone, and there are only a few words echoing in my heart: You must be loyal to our cause, our beliefs, until death...

"You will go to Jiangdong and start a new life with a new identity.

"Recognize your own abilities, and don't be blinded by mundane things.

"Wait for the time, I will pass the news to you.

"Go to him, Jingzhou will no longer be safe soon.

"We'll see you again, take it easy."

The teacher exhorted him sentence by sentence, and behind the smile was the silent exhaustion.

My throat was dry and dry, and I opened my mouth with difficulty, and finally answered the word "yes".

There is an inexplicable force in my heart that is resisting the truth revealed by my husband.This truth was something that I couldn't figure out, and I couldn't find it after all the hard work, but now that Mr. Gently and delicately put it in front of me, I was too frightened to speak.Probably this is the cowardly side of my heart: I asked myself, what am I afraid of?

Mediate between heaven and earth, mend the universe.How can you not be afraid when such a heavy burden falls on your shoulders? I am afraid that countless people will be implicated if I miss it.How can I not be afraid...

On the third night after the conversation, I was told to take a long trip with Cui Jun.In order not to be eye-catching, several people hastily changed into the clothes of the poor, rode to Yiyang County overnight, abandoned their horses and walked into the city to visit the residence of the Wei family in the city.

The Wei family is a big family in Yiyang. Its mansion is tall and luxurious, and its road is planted with Tong Yang.The trees have lost their leaves this season, and the remaining branches are twisted and intertwined.

Cui Jun sent his wife's uncle Wang Hu's name card to the mansion.Wang Hu is a local businessman in Yiyang, and he is not welcomed by the Wei family. We waited for an hour, and a small servant boy walked out of the corner door, lazily returning the name card to us, saying that the master has gone on a long journey, and the date of return Not sure, please wait for me.

Cui Jun pursed his thin lips and sneered: "So, thank you very much."

He walked down the steps expressionlessly, stroking a patch on his sleeve: "It's too snobby to behave like a poor family."

I peeked at his face from the side, thought for a while, and asked in a low voice: "Then what should we do?"

"I haven't seen a surname that dares to reject me, hum! Go find their old lady." He narrowed his eyes, "Miss Zhou Guanglan, your relatives are not kind people."

I muttered, "I don't know them."

Cui Jun accompanied me to climb the mountain road for another day.After leaving the border of Zaoyang, we were led by Wang Hu to a small village in the mountains. This village at the source of the Huaihe River seemed to have not been affected by the war, and it was peaceful and quiet.

Wang Hu took us straight to a family at the end of the village.Wang Hu went to knock on the door. I stood in the courtyard and looked around. The wall made of loess had peeled off, revealing the supporting bamboo strips inside; There is still snow.

I couldn't help but wonder: The Wei family is rich and powerful, why does the old lady live in such a place, isn't the younger generation in their family afraid of taking the reputation of being unfilial?

I was lost in thought, and then I heard: "Alan?" An old man in shabby clothes staggered towards me from the house.I didn't dare to dodge it, I was afraid that she would fall in the air if I dodged.

She held me tightly with her old and skinny hands, crying so hard that she couldn't speak.I had no choice but to coax her to let go of me anyway, and followed her into the room full of mud smell.

Wang Hu clarified his purpose in a few words, and the old lady of the Wei family choked up several times. She held onto my wrist tightly as if she was afraid that I would run away, and finally showed a smile: "Grandma can be regarded as seeing you, thanks to all the hardships you have suffered. Still grow up in peace!"

The full name of Alan in the old lady's mouth was Zhou Lan, and she was her only direct granddaughter; her father was from Lujiang Shu County and the cousin of Zhou Yu, a famous Jiangdong general; her mother was the daughter of the Wei family in Yiyang.Due to his father's identity as a concubine and some family disputes, the family finally lived in seclusion in this small village called Wuguodi.When she was seven years old, the old lady's only daughter, Zhou Lan's mother, unfortunately fell ill and died.On the way back from the funeral, bandits attacked the funeral procession, her father was killed, and she was taken away at the age of seven.

It wasn't until half a year ago that someone from the Wei family found out that the little girl was rescued by the master of the White Horse Cave and became a little Taoist nun there. (Half a year ago? What a coincidence, I thought to myself.)

The little girl's life was so full of twists and turns, that those who heard it were sad and those who saw it shed tears. I only felt mixed feelings when I heard it.The arrangement of the sir and the others can be described as painstaking and exquisite to the extreme, which deserves to be praised by others.

My grandma had only one child left by my mother in her later years. After my disappearance, the Wei family searched for it but found nothing. The old lady was hurt and blamed herself.The family's persuasion was ineffective, so they had to follow the old man's wish.The heir of the Wei family, that is, my cousin, sent his eldest son to take care of the elderly.There are also various inside stories that cannot be repeated.

My "grandmother" took my hand to reminisce about the past ten years ago. When it comes to Zhou Lan's parents, I naturally have a lot of answers. It's not nonsense.

I was directed by the old lady to pay homage to the tomb of my "parents".What an irony, I didn't expect the girl I pretended to have lost her parents just like me.

After my grandma heard me tell about all the encounters the day before yesterday, she immediately decided to take me back: "Your grandma will live here for a day, and my old lady will have the final say in the Wei Mansion for a day! I want to see, who dares to treat my grandson slowly!"

The cousin Wei Shu who lives with the grandmother, the future heir of the Wei family, watched quietly from the sidelines from the beginning to the end, as if everything had nothing to do with him.

The carriage stopped at the gate of the mansion, and Cui Jun knocked on the carriage, I opened the curtain a little, and I heard him ask: "Old lady Wei, the threshold of your Wei mansion is not easy, who should I vote for this time?" What about your name post?"

Wei Shu walked forward silently, and saluted the old lady: "Auntie, I'll go and tell them."

"Go." The old lady changed her clothes, her whole person became different, her words and deeds were full of murderous air.

Uncle Wei Ju, whose return date is uncertain, is back today.We met him at the second gate, he was walking in a hurry with the hem of his robe in his hands, and when he saw my grandmother and I appeared at the same time, he hurriedly bowed and said, "Auntie, you are back."

Grandma said flatly: "You uncle is not often at home, so my wife has to send Alan home in person."

Wei Ju's face was a little pale, he squeezed out a smile, and said: "There are a lot of banquets and chores in the first month, so I ask my aunt and niece to be considerate."

"Don't dare. Alan came here without warning. It's fine if uncle doesn't blame him."

A woman who heard the sound saw a group of us standing on the door blowing the cold wind, and immediately showed a warm smile: "Ah, my aunt is back, everyone come in and sit down, there is tea in the room, everyone sit down Let's have some tea and chat."

I glanced back, Wang Hu was still there, it didn't matter that he was a local, but Cui Jun left at some point.

Everyone in the living room was talking about the etiquette, and when the ceremony was over, my cousin immediately said:

"Alan should have made it clear to the servants at that time. If they knew you were coming back, they would definitely report to me on a flying horse, and I would be back right away. Why would you want your little girl to go to the mountains? It's so hard. Oh, uncle I'm sorry." The cousin obviously said this to me, but he looked at grandma frequently.

Grandma was still indifferent, and several elders greeted me warmly, and invited the younger generation of the family to come out to greet each other.

My cousin asked me how I got back, and I got up and walked to Wang Hu, and bowed in front of Wang Hu: "The temple master asked Uncle Wang to help me, thank you Uncle Wang."

The cousin hurriedly said that he would prepare some small gifts to express his gratitude.

I lived in the mansion for a few days.One day after dinner, my grandma asked me to stay in front of the whole family, so I took out the letter I had prepared and handed it to my uncle, and said respectfully: "Uncle, you are an elder, you should take care of this matter." know."

This is a letter from my uncle Zhou Yu's family.After reading the contents of the letter, the cousin sighed softly: "Yes, the news about Alan. Uncle mentioned it to your uncle during the Mid-Autumn Festival visit. I never thought that they had already made arrangements. Alan, after all, you are Zhou Family, it's good that brother Gong Jin has a personal relationship with your father, but now he says he wants to take you to take care of him, it's good after all."

Then he turned to his grandmother and said, "Auntie, let's listen to Alan's opinion on this matter."

The uncle's eagerness was evident, and I could understand him.

The fierce battle in the north is in full swing, and all the clan members along the way, those with a little ability, are preparing or have already fled south.My cousin bought farm land in Kuaiji County last year, and he will be moving south soon.This is also the reason why my husband is eager to let me go home and recognize my relatives.

And the Wei family has already fallen, if I am willing to meet Zhou Yu, his life in Jiangdong will undoubtedly be much easier.Grandma knew this very well, so she didn't say a word.

I stayed with my grandma for a few more days, even though she was very reluctant to let go, she still let me go to Jiangdong for my own good reasons.

The parting grandmother took my hand, put a hairpin inlaid with gold and jade wrapped in silk into the dowry box, and handed it to me, "This is your mother's relic, and Alan will keep it. Lan Ah, you need to keep your eyes open and find a good family. Grandma can see you again, and I hope you have a good home in this life! Don't suffer like your mother for half a lifetime."

I am not afraid of suffering, I am only afraid that I am not capable enough, and I am afraid that I will make mistakes and ruin the overall situation.Thinking of this, I can't help but feel a kind of fear and confusion about the future road.And as I wished, the overall situation has been decided, and now I am in the game, there is no way to retreat.