Jian An Kee

Note 1: "Han Nao Song? Ibis", author Pei Xianbo

I fought with other people's children when I was young, but I couldn't beat him and pushed him into a small ditch by the side of the road, making him covered in mud. With a slap, a loose baby tooth fell directly to the floor.

I lay on the ground and cried loudly. The parents of that family originally came to ask for an explanation, but they couldn't stand it anymore and helped me up from the ground.I have always been deeply ashamed of this incident, and vowed never to be in such a predicament again.

Based on my life experience, don't do things like swearing casually, because now I seem to be about to repeat the same mistakes.

I don’t know when Sun Quan entered the room. When I climbed back to the bedroom through the window, he was holding the bedpost with one hand and holding some clothes with the other—it was clear that he had just exposed the illusion that I was on a “lunch break”.

"You are sick, where are you going?"

I was so flustered that I couldn't speak, and stared at the floor: "General, you... are back."

"come over."

I walked over barefoot, but his tone remained calm, and nothing unusual could be heard.

I tried to look up at him, but he threw down the robe in his hand and said, "My son's fever is gone."

"Well."

My reaction irritated him, he stretched out a hand and squeezed my wrist fiercely, I lost my ability to resist at this moment, I couldn't help but gasp: "It hurts so much, let me go!"

"You still feel pain?! Ah? Zhou Lan, I think you don't have a heart, do you? Your son is sick, and you still have the heart to pretend to be sick and disappear, right? You still run to other men Go there, right? What do you think I am, huh?"

"Let go!" I violently shook off his hand.I've never seen such an emotional Sun Quan, he's never been like this, the way he expresses his emotions always matches his identity, today is just crazy.

"I do not have."

"No, do you want to tie him in front of you, huh? You are hiding it, why are you hiding it?"

I was a little dumbfounded and flustered as he flicked out his string of words.

"Don't talk, don't talk this time, it's good."

"Sun Quan, you're crazy, you should drink." There was a faint smell of alcohol on his body, and I smelled this smell, and a glimmer of hope rose in my heart.Don't panic, don't panic, he knows that I went to find Laiyan, what reason should I make up?

I was so anxious that he suddenly laughed loudly: "You still have to pretend. That's enough. Really, Zhou Lan, because of your illness, I haven't been safe for several nights, but you have the ability. Pretending to be like this. You are so capable..."

I bite the bullet and replied: "General, listen to me, Alan went to see the Laiyan, but I just went to ask him some things, nothing else."

"Ha, hahaha." He shook his head, sat on the edge of the bed and pointed to the pile of clothes he had ripped apart: "You think I'm stupid, so I will love you and pamper you foolishly. What about you, put me in a mess?" Playing like a fool."

"I do not have!"

"You didn't? You ran to the residence of the army soldiers in broad daylight. Do you understand the difference between inside and outside? Do you still want to be ashamed?" He growled.

My anger also came up: "You said that I treated you as a fool, didn't you? You kept saying you were good for me, and you kept saying you loved me, but when I wanted to see a guard that my uncle gave me, I could only do so in private. You say you love me, but you still restrict me..."

"Shut up, shut up!" He was furious: "How dare you say such a thing? Are you still my woman? Do you still know how to obey your husband? What do you ask of me?! "

I am afraid that my legs are weak, if I am a few years younger, I will really succumb to this, right?But I am not the 21-year-old delicate girl Zhou Lan, I am the 28-year-old Zhou Guanglan, and my life experience is not inferior to the man in front of me.

I just cried, lying on the ground and bursting into tears.

At that time, he sat at the end of the bed without saying a word.

After a long time, he stood up and asked coldly, "What are you doing with that person?"

I sobbed a bit: "I asked him, did uncle leave any message..." Before I finished speaking, I felt a pain in my hair, and he grabbed my hair bun and dragged me up.

"Let go! Bastard!" I cursed.

He stared at me with wide eyes, as if he wanted to chew me up and swallow me in his stomach: "Okay, okay. Zhou Lan, you finally told the truth today, didn't you? You take your uncle one by one, and your uncle one by one. Your uncle He's dead long ago! He's been lying in his coffin for a year! You're still thinking about him!"

"You're talking nonsense." I was caught by what he said, and I became angry with embarrassment: "Sun Quan, don't talk nonsense."

"I was right, right? After all these years, I finally understand why Gongjin wants to bring you, a relative from the Zhou family, into the mansion, not because of your face." He squeezed My lower jaw is hard.

My painful eyes were full of tears: "You madman, what are you talking about? He is my uncle, I love him, I respect him, he likes me like his child. Can you stop your naive slander?"

He held my shoulder blades with his hands and pinched my face, "Don't quibble! When you look at him, do you have the slightest respect? That look, that look... I think you are young and ignorant, slow down Slow to teach you, but you will not restrain yourself! You have no shame!"

I screamed: "You make me so disgusting! Then what are you going to do to save me? Just let me die in childbirth in the countryside of Shangyu! Am I so dirty in your heart? Can't you see that I love you? You, can't you see that I'm the only one?"

"I've waited too long for you to say this, but now, this lie sounds like it's making me sick."

There was a dead silence.It's over, it's all over.I think.I messed things up.

"What are you doing!" He stretched out his hand suddenly, and I fell back in shock.

He viciously grabbed the unicorn jade pendant that leaked from my skirt when the two of them were pulling from his neck: "What is this?"

I bit my lower lip: "You don't care."

"This tassel in the color of nine palaces... belongs to my eldest brother." His face changed completely: "This is made by my mother for my eldest brother. He never leaves his body all year round. Tell me! Where did you get it?"

This harsh questioning tone disgusted me for a while, so I naturally chose to refuse to answer.

"I will investigate the matter between you and that guard. As for Ah Li, I don't think you have the heart to take care of him. I will take him back to the General's Mansion today."

"You don't trust me." I whisper bitterly behind his back.

"Trust? You don't need this kind of thing." The hem of his robe brushed against my cheek, and his footsteps were hurried and flustered, as if something important was lost here.

I sat on the floor blankly, crying in a daze, time passed for a long time, someone walked gently beside me.

I woke up with a start: "Why are you here? What time is it?"

Le Ling crouched beside me tremblingly: "Little Miss, it's about time. General Sun took you away."

I gritted my teeth: "Understood. What about Dr. Dong?"

"He, he will follow."

"Well... why is it only you, Pearl?"

Le Ling squeaked, and my scalp exploded: "He took her away too? He's too godly...he..." Instinctively reached into my bosom and touched it, my heart couldn't be colder anymore, "Are you even taking the jade pendant away from me? Sure enough, killing everything like this, and even acting a show of breaking with me...Actually, it's not necessary."

When I got up in the morning, I opened the mirror, took out the rouge, wiped my cheeks, and hummed softly:

"In autumn, one fears the strength of cold, but in old age one fears the strength of ice.

The group flew to Jiaxia, and their feathers wanted to move south.

Temporarily play on the side of Longchi, and sometimes go to the front of Fenglou.

The sigh of kindness rests, not for a long time.

The sigh of kindness rests, not for a long time. "(Note 1)

Le Ling cried: "Miss, don't do this."

I sighed: "Go and get something to eat."

"promise."

I covered the bruises on my face with thick rouge and white powder. I drew my eyebrows with green snails, pursed my red lips, carefully braided my hair into a bun, and finally smiled sadly at the mirror.

After getting up again, due to the change of light, I found a puddle of brown liquid on the wooden floor in front of the bed.

What's this?I didn't pay attention when I quarreled with him yesterday.I frowned, knelt down and touched a little with my hand and put it on the tip of my nose. It was slippery and had a strong smell of medicine.Following these traces, there was a broken medicine bowl lying under the window sill.

Is this what he brought to me?We were fine less than a day ago when things got this bad.

My tears did not stop, rolling down.

In the evening, I asked Le Ling to bring a pen and paper, and wrote letters to Zhou Yu, who I knew in detail, and prepared to inquire about the news slowly.I know that Sun Quan got angry this time, he replaced most of the guards and maids, and now all the people standing inside and outside the house are strangers, and the only people I know in the whole house are Le Ling and that man named Wen Gong Just guards.

Although I am very grateful that he never cut off my communication with the outside world, it is probably because he left a little space so as not to push me into a hurry.This is also one aspect of him that I hate the most: using the tricks of controlling courtiers to deal with family members, isn't An Neng jaw-dropping?

The letter was like a stone sinking into the sea, and I still didn't get any reply after three days, but a blister grew on the corner of my mouth because of getting angry.

Originally, when husband and wife quarreled, both parties had the right to speak, but Sun Quan and I could not.Usually I can talk freely in front of him, but once he doesn't want to listen to me, I will be so embarrassed that seeing him is a luxury.

I lit the handwriting left by Zhou Yu on the lamp earlier, leaving only a handful of ashes under the lamp post.I reached out and touched a little bit on my finger, rubbed the ash with both fingers, and opened my eyes.

Someone knocked on the door hastily, and I frowned: "Which one is outside?"

An unmasculine voice said: "Ma'am, are you there?"

The dog slave dared to check my post!I said coolly: "Otherwise, do you think it was the incense burner in the room that answered you?"

The man paused at the door and left quietly.

His tone is very rude - this is the so-called "snobbery", but most of the time, when I get angry, there is nothing I can do about them. Even the garrulous butler that Sun Quan promised to pay for when he was in confinement is now said to be messing around in the general's mansion. of wind and water.

When he loves me, I can do harm to the country and the people, but when he no longer loves me, I am like a fluffy grass in the autumn wind, with nothing to think about except trembling and spinning.And whether my husband dotes on me, is it predictable?Besides, I'm not good at saving a relationship.My tenet is: what has passed can never go back to the past.If we fail to go on in the end, it is undoubtedly because we are not suitable.

Thinking of the boy I met when I was 19 years old, his appearance was very different from my normal aesthetic orientation, with green eyes, pale skin and red freckles, and a head of blond hair that was neglected and looked like grass.

I still don’t understand why I like such a big Russian boy. He doesn’t speak Russian well, stumbles in German, and especially can’t understand Mandarin. He always sings “beautiful girl” with his tongue out. Habits: I like to eat takeaway pizza, I like to watch movies with beautiful women, I like to participate in parties, I don’t like to wash socks, I don’t like to listen to advice, I don’t like to travel far.

And why does he attract me?Is it his chic attitude and handsome appearance?No, I just like such a person, will tolerate all his shortcomings, and try my best to make him quit bad habits.When I am in vain, I will choose to turn a blind eye and close one eye, and laugh at him.We are friends, and we are even more equal. We can have different views on any aspect. Even if we fail to continue in the end, our hearts will not lose peace because of resentment.He is an important person that will always be in my memory.

So what about Sun Quan?Now I have basically lost the ability to look at him rationally. When I think of this person, my head starts to throb and my mouth becomes bitter.What a cruel person!He even refused to tell me about his son's condition, leaving me trapped in this small corner, with anxiety, longing, and guilt filling my chest.

On the morning of the fourth day, there was still no reply.Just when I was about to take the risk, a new-faced maid came in and reported: a guest is visiting.