What to do if you are followed by a man

It can be said that Ye Siyu and Ji Xiao grew up watching Ji Fanke grow up.

He met Ji Xiao in elementary school, and the two have been like-minded since then. They are not playing with sand or pinching rubber like other children.

I don't remember when, there was a little doll behind Ji Xiao, with delicate eyebrows and eyes, carved in pink and jade, cuter than all the children he had ever seen.

From then on, the surrounding became more and more lively, the three of them, Qin Zhuang also joined in not long after.Ye Siyu witnessed how Ji Fanke grows older and taller year after year, and treats him like a younger brother, which is better than his cousins ​​at home.

It is precisely because of this friendship that he is worried about the entanglement between Fan Ke and Ji Xiao, and has even funded and supported the doctor's in-depth research on memory and psychology for many years.

Zhang Yanmo was mentally disturbed by recovering the memory of being Ji Fanke, and he was one of the last people who didn't want to see this kind of situation.

Thinking about the past, Ye Siyu couldn't help but smile wryly and reflect on whether it was wrong to take the risk of fabricating another memory for him...

Tossing and turning hard at night, I suddenly heard a sudden knock on the door.

Ye Siyu was worried that something had happened to Fan Ke, so he hurriedly got up to open the door, but he was the person outside the door.I didn't see Ji Xiao's figure, and it was unusual to find him in the middle of the night.

Ye Siyu noticed that he was barefoot, and after bringing him into the house, he asked warmly, "What's the rush? You don't even wear shoes." The weather is almost November now, and the night is still very cold. Be careful not to catch a cold.

Zhang Yanmo followed behind him, "Brother Ye, take me out of here..." It sounded very pitiful.

Ye Siyu paused, stopped and asked, "Fanke, have you recovered your memory?" When he was Zhang Yanmo, he wouldn't call himself that.

Zhang Yanmo immediately shook his head in denial: "No!"

"I don't want to remember, you help me...why do you decide everything for me without authorization!" He scratched his hair in pain.

Ye Siyu turned around, and gently grabbed him to prevent her from tearing his hair: "You know that you are Fanke, right? I'm sorry, you must not want to hear words like 'for your own good', it's all about me and your brother fault."

"I'm not, and I don't want to be him. Are you willing to help me?" Zhang Yanmo waved his hand away with red eyes, and the clothes he put on indiscriminately were even more messy now, revealing a few red marks under his neck.

It's not hard to guess what happened.Ye Siyu twisted his collar in silence, and said with a good temper: "It's useless to escape."

"Why?" Zhang Yanmo almost collapsed.

"The doctor once told me that memory is like the writing left by a pencil on white paper. Even if the color is erased with an eraser, there is still an imprint on the paper. Maybe it can be seen, maybe it can't be seen, but it is always there .”

"He conducted experiments to help people clear painful memories and relieve pain by forgetting. But once a memory is produced, it exists. You can't remember what happened in the past, but fear and anxiety follow you, lurking somewhere for a long time. Disappear." He watched the young man stepping on his feet restlessly, and continued with pity: "Think about it, have you been afraid of anything in the past few years? It's because the subconscious will not forget the fear..."

"Not only the brain, but the body also has memory, even deeper...Maybe sometimes you don't understand why you are afraid." Ye Siyu recalled some words the doctor once said, "So it is useless to escape."

Every sentence hits the center point, how can Zhang Yanmo ignore the inexplicable panic in his heart these years, the negative emotions hidden in his body, which can't come out of nowhere and can't go away, always tormenting him in the dead of night.So I like the warmth of the light, and I can sleep with peace of mind when I have a light.

Zhang Yanmo bit his fingers nervously, tears streaming down his face, and he huddled up on the ground, pitifully miserable.

"I don't know... I can't remember..." The memory that he was most afraid of and he didn't want to recall was always blurred. Zhang Yanmo's mind was very confused, and he instinctively resisted touching that ball.

Ye Siyu squatted down, couldn't bear it, but still had to say: "Fanke, you have to face it. We were wrong. There is no perfect way to erase memory in the world. One day you will slowly recover."

"Escape, the things you are afraid of are always behind you, and you can only get rid of them by facing them." Reaching out to wipe away the tears on his face, "I understand that it is difficult for you..."

People who have not experienced it cannot understand the pain, and he is not qualified to say that he feels the same.

Looking up and seeing the man at the door, Ye Siyu was silent for a long time, "Take him to rest, it's getting late."

Ji Xiao pushed open the half-closed door, walked in and surrounded Zhang Yanmo, lovingly covering his hair with his hands.

"I will contact the doctor as soon as possible."

Ye Siyu sent the man to the door, with a serious face: "Don't provoke him anymore. Also, he is not in good health, bear with it..."

Being treated as a beast by friends.Ji Xiao's face remained unchanged, and he walked towards his room without looking back while holding the young man's head.

Afraid of falling, Zhang Yanmo wrapped his arms around Ji Xiao's back like a child. This posture made him feel very safe.

When my head was confused, I subconsciously felt that it would be fine to stay close to my brother.

There was no movement in his arms, Ji Xiao wasn't sure if he was tired and fell asleep, and carefully put him on the soft bed.

As soon as they separated, they found that Yan Mo had grabbed his clothes, and simply followed him to sleep next to him.

"I won't go, you go to sleep."

I don't know where the energy came from to get up and toss in the middle of the night, obviously it took so much energy before... Ji Xiao tucked him in the quilt, took a tissue from the bedside to wipe away his tears and nose, and left the light on.

Zhang Yanmo vaguely remembered something.Not wanting to think about it, he got into the quilt, buried his head in front of Ji Xiao, hugged his brother and continued to sleep as if he was woken up by a nightmare when he was a child.

It was three or four o'clock in the morning, and it was still pitch black outside, just right for sleeping in bed.

The body was too exhausted, Zhang Yanmo fell into a deep sleep in a short while, and fell into a deep dark dream...

……

The empty body floated above the operating room, looking down from a height, he and Ji Xiao were surrounded by a group of medical staff, and the two hospital beds were separated by a green curtain.

Zhang Yanmo saw that his face was still very immature, he closed his eyes lifelessly, the youthful vigor on his body was about to be eroded by the lifelessness, and the large blood stains on his clothes looked shocking.

On the contrary, Ji Xiao's bed on the other side was much better, and two doctors wearing masks kept drawing his blood.

"Hurry up, this bag is about to be lost!" said the doctor who performed the operation over there.

The sound was distorted, and it seemed like another world in the distance.

On the other side of the curtain, the doctor pulled the needle out of Ji Xiao's arm, shook his head and said, "I can't take any more, it's already more than 600ml."

Ji Xiao is also very young, with short and sharp hair.He still stretched out his hand, speaking coldly and firmly: "Continue."

"Mr. Ji, if you smoke again, your life will be in danger..."

"continue."

The doctor had no choice but to bite the bullet and change the syringe.

Zhang Yanmo watched helplessly as another bag of blood was taken out from behind the curtain and put on the operating table...

The machine issued a warning sound, and a muffled medical report came out from the doctor's mask: "The spleen is ruptured, bleeding profusely, and the condition is critical."

"Blood transfusion guaranteed."

The only source of blood was Ji Xiao... The doctor who drew blood was sweating on his forehead, but his hands still didn't stop.

Ji Xiao's face was as pale as a piece of paper, and he kept breaking out in cold sweat, showing no sign of putting his hands away.He turned his head to look in the direction of Ji Fanke, and there was only a curtain in sight.

If you can't live, then die together... His eyes said so.

Zhang Yanmo felt anxious and uncomfortable watching, and couldn't help shouting at him: Stop!Stop smoking, you are going to die!

No one can hear him, everything is going according to track.The machine continued to issue warnings, Ji Xiao became weaker and weaker, and his eyes could only be opened halfway...

How does it feel to see someone you love approaching death step by step?

If he could shed tears, Zhang Yanmo would have burst into tears by now.Perhaps only when facing desperation and stepping into the abyss can we realize what we really care about.

The heart was in pain, and the rhythm of the beating strangely coincided with that of the operated self.The machine stopped beeping, and the doctors and nurses breathed a sigh of relief.

On the operating table, the unconscious young man suddenly opened his eyes.The simple movements seemed to be strenuous for him, and then he turned his head slightly with difficulty, squinting to look over there.

He probably didn't know that the other side belonged to his brother.

At this moment, the eyes of the two people met through an opaque curtain.

Zhang Yanmo didn't know if they saw each other, but looking from above, their eyes did meet, maybe there was indeed a force pulling them together.

Still feeling nervous, Zhang Yanmo saw himself naked/naked sleeping with Ji Xiao when the scene changed.

I almost thought that I had returned to reality, but soon realized that it was not, because what I saw was myself a few years ago, or Ji Fanke.

Ji Fanke woke up and hugged the quilt shaking all the time, the traces left on his body told him that he slept with someone.And this person is my own brother in front of me, that's incest!

Just yesterday, my brother held a grand birthday party for him, and he drank wine... I can't remember what happened afterwards, I only felt happiness and joy, and I couldn't stop even if I didn't want to, until I fell asleep crying.

Just when Ji Fanke was remorseful and at a loss, Ji Xiao hugged him and said, "Don't be afraid, Fanke. My parents never told you that you and I are not real brothers."

How could it not be?Ji Fan was dumbfounded.

The author has something to say: about the surgery section:

Artistic processing!Don't take it seriously!Never!

Unless the blood bank can't adjust the bleeding, it can't be used directly. It's dangerous to do so.