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After sleeping and getting up to eat, Zhang Yanmo looked much better, so he went to the cemetery before it was too late.

The evening glow dyes half of the sky red, and the empty cemetery is full of tombstones at a glance. The chill brings a little chill, and few people choose this time to come.

The two walked side by side through the criss-crossing paths, turned a few corners and came to a tombstone—the two parents were buried together.

The small table is very clean, and it can be seen that people often come to clean it.The short tomb does not make people afraid, but there is a trace of entanglement in the dark, which is the brand of family affection that melts into the flesh and blood.

Zhang Yanmo bent down to put down the bouquet, and there were so many lilies overflowing the edge of the wrapping paper. "Tell me, did my parents blame me for not coming to see them?" He slowly sat down against the small table with a long voice.

Ji Xiao also sat on the other side, resting his arms on his knees casually, and said calmly: "They never blame you."

This is a fact, his parents have always treated him gently, so he has no doubts about his blood relationship with them.

"Yeah... Otherwise, how come I haven't dreamed of them once in all these years." Zhang Yanmo pulled up the corner of his clothes to wipe the little mud spots on his mother's photo, that smile was so familiar, gentle and touching, and warmed his entire childhood.

Without warning, tears flowed down my cheeks, and when I lowered my head, big drops fell onto the clean marble slab.

"I miss them very much." Sniffing, Zhang Yanmo gently pressed his forehead against the side of the tombstone, and slowly closed his eyes, "When the doctor guided me out, I saw them, standing on the side of the road and smiling at me... "

"Dad, Mom." Even when he just regained consciousness, he didn't really feel that he was Ji Fanke. He couldn't help hugging him, "I miss you very much."

Ji Xiao didn't expect him to have such a reaction, it seemed to be expected and reasonable, which made people especially unbearable.But in fact, they have passed away for many years, and to Yan Mo, it still seems like yesterday.

Ji Xiao couldn't help wrapping his arms around his shoulders, raised his chin with his fingers, and comforted him: "I didn't dream about my parents, because they have already left in peace."

It's good if you can cry, but if you hold it in your heart, your depression will get worse. Ji Xiao doesn't want to see him have any more problems at all.

"They know you and me, so there's nothing to worry about."

"Really?" Zhang Yanmo looked at him with tears in his eyes, and then put his legs in front of him and hugged him with both hands, and took a deep breath: "Last year, after I fell asleep next to you, I saw a lot of things from the past in my dream .”

Ji Xiao listened to him quietly and didn't bother.

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For the first time, he confessed his feeling of confusion, his voice was not painful, and he seemed to be relieved: "It was like watching flowers on a horse, and I went through scene after scene again. Later... I didn't seem to realize that I was dreaming. At that time The situation is the same as the day when the incident happened, it is too painful, and I really want to save my parents."

"But it's useless at all. I can't do anything except open my eyes and watch. My heart is beating faster and faster here as if it is about to explode." With his hands covering his chest, he still has lingering fears about the feeling of suffocation, " Then suddenly the ground under my feet sank into a black abyss with no end in sight, and I fell into it."

"It's dark and there is no way. It's really dark. I can't see my fingers. I don't know where I should go. I was very scared at first, and then I gradually felt nothing. It seemed that I was integrated with the darkness, light and light." , empty."

Ji Xiao walked over and sat down next to him, and the two held hands tightly.

Zhang Yanmo smiled shyly: "Don't worry, I... accept everything now. Then I heard your voice for some reason, and found a way out, but I still couldn't let go.

I didn’t dare to face my parents. Every day, I could see many small people flying up and down in the house, or buzzing and making noises, showing the symptoms of eating poisonous mushrooms. Sometimes the world is spinning, I know very well It was an illusion, but I didn't want to pay attention to it at all.

There is one thing in my mind, they are dead, who should avenge their relatives?Who returned the parents?Hey... I was circling this thought all the time, it was very painful, and I suddenly thought: just like this, sink into the deep black water like a stone, no matter how big the waves are. "

But suddenly a mysterious voice appeared and said to him: "Forgive."

"Why forgive?" he asked coldly.

The voice said again, "Because forgiveness is salvation, don't you want it?"

"Those people are the murderers who killed their parents, and I will not forgive them."

Sighing like an ancient time, the vicissitudes of life replied: "My child, you should forgive yourself."

"I can understand your inner resistance, isn't it very subtle? Are you wondering: Why should I forgive myself, or whether I deserve forgiveness at all. Most ordinary people live under the shadow of responsibility all day long, and can really realize Very little self-forgiveness is needed; self-loathing is deep within, and it often causes people to do things that hurt themselves.

You want to avoid the darkness, but you are trapped in the darkness.The shadow always chases the sunshine, it is everywhere, if you can accept the dark side of yourself, then it will not bother you anymore.The darkness is frightening precisely because it cannot be brought into the light of day. Try to face it bravely, and you will find that what frightens you is not so terrible, and you will not need to forgive. "

……

"Forget it."

There was a gentle touch on his forehead, and Zhang Yanmo came back to his senses, smiled, and kissed back: "I don't want to, I want to cherish you."

Ji Xiao was so warmed by his sudden love words that his heart almost melted, as if dipped in honey.I didn't know where to put my hands, so I had to hug him tightly: "I remember what you said." I also took it seriously.

The two sat in front of their parents' home, chatting with Xu Xu, and said some things from their hearts to them.Unable to guess whether their parents would object to their being together if they could really see, Zhang Yanmo and Ji Xiao kowtowed three times.

The sunset glow adorns the sky with brilliance, and the purple and red clouds are coated with a layer of gold, crowding the horizon.

Just after returning home, a figure and the big dog rushed over at the same time, miraculously synchronized their movements.

Zhang Yanmo didn't know which one to pick up, so Ji Ze hugged his upper body tightly, and Lily bit his trouser legs below.

"Second brother! Big brother! Why didn't you notify me immediately when you came back!" Ji Ze's face flushed with excitement.

As soon as Ji Xiao raised his hand to lift the person away, he frowned tightly: "I haven't seen you for half a year, and you've grown up like this?" He's no longer young, and he can't learn to be steady at all, so how decent is it to hug and hug at every turn.

Ji Ze was trained to lower his head, and quietly stared at Ye Siyu who was "gloating" and smiling, always unhappy and wronged.

In Zhang Yanmo's memory, his younger brother was still a monkey's age, but Ji Ze had a very cheerful personality, so they couldn't get along.He patted his younger brother on the shoulder: "I just came back today to avoid disturbing you, and it's not a big deal. My elder brother and I brought you a gift, so we went upstairs to have a look."

He didn't know what Ji Ze liked at his age, and he and his elder brother didn't have any references, so Zhang Yanmo bought almost all the things that teenagers would like, the most being signed basketballs and various sneakers.

So many things were shipped over earlier, and they almost filled Ji Ze's room.

"Thank you, second brother... and eldest brother!" Ji Ze's eyes flickered. After the small treasury was confiscated by Ye Siyu in the past six months, he couldn't buy and buy as he wanted. Once the two brothers come back, his spring will come!

Hearing the boy's excited cry from upstairs, he must be very satisfied.

"Congratulations on going home." Ye Siyu congratulated sincerely.

Zhang Yanmo and Ji Xiao clasped their fingers together, nodded: "Go home."

At night, Ji Ze didn't want to go back with Ye Siyu no matter what he said, he insisted on sleeping surrounded by basketballs signed by idols. He said that he felt overwhelmed with happiness.

Ye Siyu didn't go back at all, thinking that tomorrow everyone will have a formal meal together, and it will be a cleansing for Ji Xiao and the others.

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