after breaking up

But in the days after Shen Ming, he didn't completely become a person who was drunk and dreamed every day as Cheng Qiwen thought, degrading himself to an unimaginable level.

He lives as before, and he only understates the emotional problems that others occasionally mention, with a natural posture.

At a certain age, even if there are thoughts of suicide, it is definitely no longer the reason for love. The more emotionally hurt, the more calm and indifferent in front of others, the more invincible.

Whether it is in the adult world or in this circle, it has always been like this, any bloody things are swallowed into the body along with it, with a look of indifference written all over his face.

Shen Ming sorted out the application materials, picked up his leather bag, and went out. The room he left was full of cigarette butts, which didn't seem to have much to do with him.

"Are you going to be a teacher again?" Cheng Qiwen was a little surprised looking at the lesson plan in his hand.

"I used to avoid suspicion. In fact, there is nothing wrong with being a teacher." Shen Ming wore the suit he applied for before, and the gold-rimmed glasses from many years ago hung back on his face. The hand joints of the pen are distinct, and the flowing characters are also pleasing to the eye.

"Why is your handwriting so beautiful?"

"If you vomit during practice, you can do it too." Shen Ming gave him a look of encouragement.

"……forget it"

Looking at the busy Shen Ming, Cheng Qiwen suddenly felt that everything was back again, and nothing had changed.

"I don't know if the teachers who taught me are dead or not." Cheng Qiwen sighed with nostalgia.

"..." Shen Ming suddenly felt that it was almost time for him to go back.

When he returned home, Shen Ming bought some vegetables habitually, this is also a good rule and there is no need to break it.

Divide the bought vegetables according to one person's food intake, pack the excess and put it in the refrigerator, and then prepare to start making dinner.After cleaning the room, he turned on the record, and soothing music flowed into every corner.This is a good start, Shen Ming smiled inwardly, and started to go into the kitchen to wash vegetables.

After Shen Ming, who has some obsessive-compulsive disorder, spent a lot of time cutting the vegetables roughly and evenly, he felt a strong cramping pain in his abdomen. There was cold sweat on his face.So he could only go back to the bed and pour two pills into his mouth, and tried to swallow a few times. After a while, his stiff body relaxed, and his lips regained some blood.The record was still playing outside, and the food on the chopping board was ready to go.

Let's eat instant noodles today, Shen Ming thought.

Just as he was about to get up to look for instant noodles, his cell phone rang: "Shen Ming, how about I treat you to dinner? After you left, I found a new restaurant. It's embarrassing for me to sit here alone, anyway. Not far from you."

"..." So Shen Ming stood up, picked up his coat, locked the door and left.

Seeing Shen Ming sitting at his desk, Cheng Qiwen himself felt a little funny.How should I put it, he feels that he should be a good person, although he may be sick in the eyes of others.

Shen Ming has always been an existence that no one needs to worry about. No matter how bad the situation was in the past, as long as it happened to him, others would tactfully ignore it, because he is Shen Ming, and he has long been used to it. so.

He also really seemed to be indifferent to everything, as if everything was empty.

"Why?" Shen Ming raised his eyebrows, the person in front of him didn't seem to have heard what he said just now.

"Ah, what?" Cheng Qiwen smiled at him apologetically.

"I asked what do you want to eat?" Shen Ming handed him the menu in his hand.

It was only when Cheng Qiwen took it that he noticed that the pursed mouth of the person in front of him was a little pale. At that moment, something suddenly strengthened his previous doubts.

Shen Ming doesn't love himself, Cheng Qiwen thought, some things, he still can't do it alone.

"I asked you to come out just now because I wanted to discuss something with you." Cheng Qiwen didn't know that when he said this, he had an expression of the radiance of the Virgin Mary shining on the earth.

"……you say"

"My cousin told you before, he also studied in the school you went to recently, I want to—"

"No." Shen Ming quickly interrupted, "Whether you want to entrust me with his study or accommodation." He raised his head and raised his glasses, "I refuse."

"..." It turns out that it is such a fucking thing to refuse without letting people finish speaking. "Why are you also his future teacher, is it necessary to be so cold?"

"Your reason is not valid." Shen Ming smiled lightly, "Also, as his cousin, do you treat yourself as a dead person?"

This matter ended in failure in the end, and there was no room for reversal.So after eating this meal with Cheng Qiwen, when Shen Ming saw a dead child standing at the door of his house that night, he didn't realize that sometimes his IQ would lose to Shameless.