after breaking up

On Monday morning, Shen Ming saw a strange call. He knew who it was but thought for a long time whether to answer it.

"Hello" the voice on the other end of the phone was extremely dry, "You... have you gone back?"

"Ah."

"Really." The speaker said after a long silence, "Come back, okay?"

"No." Shen Ming took out a lighter and lit it up. This time, it was not the scene where he had to be relentless and bloody. After all, they were still eight years apart, so when Xu Sheng grew up to be mature enough, Shen Ming was already old. He is no longer a suitable enough person, so Xu Sheng is used to holding him in his hands, but he is full of complaints and resentment, so that he recklessly wears down the trust and patience of the other party, as if thinking that it will never be exhausted, Can get the other party's forgiveness again and again.As a result, in the end, Shen Ming didn't even show his natural anger, what was left was only disappointment and a small amount of tenderness.He found that he was old and his strength was not enough, so he decided not to love.

"Can't you give me another chance?"

"No, it's time for you to learn to bear the consequences." Shen Ming smiled, his mind was a little slack for some reason.

It is difficult for us to imagine losing anything based on habit.

"...It seems ugly to be entangled like this again?" Xu Sheng smiled hastily.

"Let's do this first. It's time for me to go to work. Please don't call me when there is nothing else to do." Shen Ming gently cut off the phone. Now it doesn't matter whether they spend the rest of their lives together or whether they love or hate each other. This is an unsatisfactory adult world, so why bother about these things.

That night Shen Ming had a nightmare, but he couldn't remember what it was. When he woke up, his eyes were bloodshot, he adjusted his breathing, and sweat oozed from his face.

He took out a cigarette and lit it on the bed, and the fingertips he was pinching felt a little cold, and bursts of pain started in his stomach again, which spread and pulled to his back with a slight nausea, and he let his body work hard to relieve this strong pain Uncomfortable, close your eyes as if you have fallen asleep.

"Teacher" someone walked into him in the dark, and then the light was turned on, and Yu Yan handed the pills and water to his eyes, "Take the medicine, don't hold on."

Shen Ming, who hasn't been quiet at home for a while, still went out to wander. He has never been able to become a healthy person. He clearly understands this in his consciousness, and can only survive in the world sickly.The extremely morbid thoughts instigated him to slowly degenerate, and he gave up saving himself with despair in countless painful days, suppressing his distorted soul.

Stepping on the accelerator and speeding at an extremely fast speed, Shen Ming seemed to be very satisfied with the current speed. Shen Ming gradually calmed down, smiled briefly, and circled up the mountain following the signs. He opened the window of the car, and the cold wind and rain quickly poured in. It was bitingly cold, and lightning flashed in the clouds.

It was almost dawn when he returned, and the smell on his body was covered by the strong smell of tobacco and alcohol, and the gray light shone in, making him look like a building that was about to collapse.He planned to take a shower before going to school, and those who couldn't stop could only hurry until one day he would disappear without a sound.

When he was about to go in, he saw that Yu Yan had come out of the shower, Shen Ming subconsciously let him go, but his body slipped and fell forward.One hand gently opened to support him, the wet black hair was dripping water, and entered Shen Ming's neck along the way, the body under the skin was steaming with strength, carrying the breath of a teenager .He softly asked in Shen Ming's ear, "Where did the teacher go last night?"

"It's something." Shen Ming opened the distance between them and walked in sideways.

Yu Yan looked at him quietly and said nothing.However, Shen Ming felt that the child behind him was becoming more and more familiar to him.

In the living room, Shen Ming's cell phone rang again, and the word Xu Sheng lay there shining brightly.A thin layer of coldness suddenly appeared between the brows of the people standing there. When they picked up the phone, they could see the strength erupting in the bones with the hand holding the phone. "I said." I can't see his expression clearly, "You can try calling this number later, I'm serious, you try." Without any angry or threatening tone, he said this sentence slowly