crush again

"Do you regret raising me?" Ye Lang said, "I know I have a bad temper, disobedient, and not very attractive..."

"No." Huo Yang interrupted him.

"Then why do you ignore me?" Ye Lang asked hoarsely, "Why do you ignore me?"

There was no sound.

The pale light seeping through the window cast the shadow of the person standing by the bed on the wall.Huo Yang didn't turn his head completely to look at him, but turned half of his face, as if avoiding seeing his eyes.Every twist and turn of that line of outline is graceful, but very vague, as if far away.

Ye Lang was so stuffy that he couldn't speak.He has always had this temper since he was a child, he can't do things that are unreasonable and violent, and when he gets angry to the extreme, he becomes angry and wronged to the extreme, like a self-refrigerating refrigerator, which slowly freezes from the inside to the outside, blocking the constant invasion Disappointment, so strong to hold on to the last bit of pride and conceit.

"I won't trouble you again in the future." He was very sad in his heart, but still made his tone sound nonchalant, "... Anyway, I have no heart."

"Ye Lang..." Huo Yang whispered, "I am your brother...do you understand?"

"It's not a kiss." Ye Lang didn't quite understand the complicated thoughts behind this sentence, he blurted out what was on his mind, "So what if it's a kiss?"

His words were ignorant and blatant, directly breaking through the night when both of them tacitly covered up a fig leaf, Ye Lang's 15th birthday, the night when both of them were drunk.Huo Yang simply didn't have the courage to look back at him, his fingers curled up into fists, and his nails made red marks on his palm.

Ye Qiru entrusted Ye Lang to his care, and Yu Liangyue trusted him so much, she refused to speculate on him with any malice, how could he... how dare he?

It was hard for him to catch up with Ye Lang's growth, and he tried his best to pull him back from another road.When Ye Lang was injured, he hurt hundreds of times; when Ye Lang was crying, he hid in the bathroom and smoked secretly all night.I don't want him to suffer a little grievance, I just want him to grow up carefree.

How dare he have a speck of distracting thoughts to cast a shadow over everything he has worked hard for so many years?

Dirty, shadows that seem to have an ulterior motive.

Ye Lang heard Huo Yang say calmly: "You are still young. That kind of thing... I don't care where you read it or learned it. It's not a joke, even with me. .It has a lot of special meanings, you can't understand it yet, but you will know it when you grow up."

"..." Ye Lang twitched the corner of his mouth.He originally wanted to laugh, but found that his facial muscles were extremely stiff, "You treat me like a child?"

"I regard you as my younger brother."

"Brother?"

Huo Yang answered without any hesitation, "Dear brother."

After a while, the boy said "good" and didn't speak again.He fell back on the bed, ignored Huo Yang, turned over and covered himself with the quilt,

Huo Yang went downstairs to sleep on the sofa again.He was so upset that he tossed and turned and didn't fall asleep for half the night.I closed my eyes and thought about what I just said, and then realized that I might have hurt Ye Lang's self-esteem.

Let's just pretend nothing happened.he thought.

Lang Lang is still so young, he doesn't understand anything, he doesn't know what those intimate contacts mean, boys at this age only know how to mess around regardless of the consequences.He speaks up, and that's all.

That's it.

Huo Yang finally closed his eyes and sighed softly in the darkness.

These days, Ye Lang has been studying hard, preparing for the senior high school entrance examination.He called Ye Heling and said that he planned to enter high school and didn't want to go abroad.After talking on the phone several times, he went back to his home, and when he came back, he told Huo Yang that his grandfather agreed.

Huo Yang saw that his expression was as usual, and there were no messy injuries on his body, so he didn't say anything.

Ye Lang usually studies, and is not at home on weekends. He said that there is a stage play for the school's graduation report performance, and he is asked to act in it, so he uses weekends to rehearse.Of course Huo Yang had no objection. He rehearsed until five or six in the afternoon, and then called to go out with his classmates, but he didn't interfere.

He seemed to be letting Ye Lang go, letting him stay a little further away from him.Ye Lang was heating milk in the kitchen, and he watched the printer spit out paper in the study; Ye Lang was eating fruit in the living room, and he stayed in the yard to water the flowers and plants; Ye Lang went to the study to get a book and put it under his arm When he went up the stairs, he had already returned to his room, lying on the bed, doing nothing, just dazed.

Farther away, farther away...

Occasionally when he was at home, Huo Yang would hear Ye Lang's half-closed door when he passed by, saying: "People here will plant five thousand roses in the garden, but they can't find what they want. What they are looking for may be hidden in a rose or a little water..."

Huo Yang stopped unknowingly.

Looking through the crack of the door, the boy was bathed in the orange light of the evening, with his head down, walking in circles.The crown of the tree outside the floor-to-ceiling windows was also dyed brilliant golden green. Like that tree, he was tall and straight and clear.

A little further away... a little further away from him.

He is so dazzling.

"But the eyes can't see it," said the voice of paper flipping, the voice of a young violin, "you should look for it with your heart."

When Ye Lang was about to turn around, Huo Yang remembered to leave.He turned around almost hastily.

On the day of the high school entrance examination, Ye Lang was not very nervous, but Huo Yang was much more nervous than he was when he was in the high school entrance examination.In his previous life, he had no direction for the future, no matter where he passed the exam, but in this life, he knew everything in his chest and didn't feel anything.Now he has checked the "examination admission card, ID card, card pen, rubber, Huoxiang Zhengqi water..." four or five times before he really realized the sense of doom when the big exam is coming.

He even checked Ye Lang's hand four or five times, "Is the injury really healed? Does it still hurt? I said why did you remove the gauze so early..."

"It's not easy to hold on to it." Ye Lang waited for him to finally relax, took out a ticket from the middle of the bag, and handed it to him, "June [-], are you free? We... have a performance."

"Is that stage play?" Huo Yang took it and saw the words graduation performance, "What did you play?"

"The Little Prince." Ye Lang sat opposite him, tilted his head slightly, stared at him for a while, and suddenly spit out a string of syllables on the tip of his tongue, "Marose, jet'aime."

"Huh?" Huo Yang raised his head, he could only vaguely recognize that it was a French sentence, "Don't you understand molesting your brother?"

"This is a line," he smiled. "The stage play we performed was originally French, and our teacher translated it. This line is a line from the original script."

"What means?"

Ye Lang pointed at a graphic printed on the ticket, and lazily drank his coffee, "Guess this, and I'll tell you if you guess it."

Huo Yang got closer and saw what looked like a hat printed on the ticket.Just as he was about to ask why he wanted to print a hat, he suddenly had a vague impression that it wasn't a hat...

"Is this a snake?" Huo Yang's first reaction was a snake, and he was puzzled again, "Is this snake too fat, pregnant? Female snake?"

"No," Ye Lang stood up and picked up his schoolbag, "I won't tell you."

"..." Huo Yang raised his eyelids and glanced at him, "I'll ask Google to translate."

But in fact, he even forgot the first sound of the string of spitting sounds.

A few days after the senior high school entrance examination, it couldn't be calmer, and Ye Lang was fine.Huo Yang booked a suite in advance at a hotel near the test center that was still available, and the company asked for leave. In the past two nights, apart from studying, Ye Lang just memorized lines, walked around, and ate fruits.

He also told Huo Yang the story of the little prince: "Once upon a time, on a very small planet, there lived a little prince. The little prince's family was very poor. There were only three volcanoes that were less than his waist height, and a tree that could be destroyed at any time. The baobab tree that his family demolished, the little prince had to get up early every day to shovel off the roots, stems and leaves of the baobab tree. One day, a seed may have floated from another planet or outer space, and the little prince found his desolate In the ground, a flower grew..."

As soon as Huo Yang heard this tune, he wanted to sleep.But since Ye Lang hadn't heard anyone tell him a story, now he was excited, he couldn't save his face, so he had to force himself, "Cactus?"

"A very beautiful rose, so beautiful that the little prince no longer looks at the sunset, but only looks at her." Ye Lang put the script on his back and paced back and forth slowly, "Rose is delicate and proud. The little prince likes roses and serves her every day." She, water her, and take a glass cover to shield her from the wind... But after a long time, I don't like being ordered by her all the time. Finally, the little prince left, leaving the rose and the baobab tree on the small planet. "

"The little prince went to many places, saw many people, strange adults. He met foxes, snakes, and pilots on the earth. He saw countless soulless people, living a life without pursuit The little prince said, I was too young at that time to know how to love her."

"Oh..." Huo Yang leaned his upper body on the head of the bed, yawned, and then slowly slipped down, "The little prince has always liked roses? Then why doesn't he go back?"

"The rose must be dead, because if the little prince doesn't shovel the baobab tree, the tree will destroy the planet." Ye Lang said, "The snake killed the little prince, and he did it voluntarily. He didn't fulfill his duty to protect the rose." Promise, he will go to her in the end."

Huo Yang rubbed his tears with both hands, before falling asleep, he expressed his only opinion, "Isn't it appropriate for you junior high school students to play this...?"

Drowsy, he saw Ye Lang bent down, and his voice was softer, with an unprecedented gentleness, as if coaxing him to sleep, "Then you come and see?"

"Of course..." Huo Yang's eyelids were so heavy that they almost fell off, "Come on..."

That must be my own illusion.He was so sleepy that he had no time to take off his clothes, how could he have time to listen to Ye Lang's tone?

Besides, the little wolf dog can become gentle, and the fish can also grow hair.

All he remembered was that someone had turned off the bedside lamp and the headlight.The desk is next to the bed, facing a window, and there are many books and handouts spread out on it. The last scene Huo Yang saw was the back of Ye Lang sitting in front of the desk.

And dim and warm desk lights.

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