Fragmented

The heat wave calmed down after a few heavy rains, the emerald green rice began to turn golden, and the wind by the river turned chilly in the morning.A few cicadas that missed the opportunity are neighing in this autumn, sucking the juice that is about to dry up.When I was still trying to find the answer, it had become irrelevant.

I don't know if any teacher said this: You read the book again, and I will read you again.In a trance, the third year of high school came.

Whether the numbers written by the nib of the pen are the answers obtained by our calculations is still unknown. In a tense atmosphere, people call it the pressure necessary for hard work.The college entrance examination, this sixteen-stroke word is about to come when we are eighteen, or it may have already arrived.

"I'm exhausted, exhausted, with so much homework every day."

"That's what brushing questions is all about."

"But when we come to reform, don't we have to be guinea pigs again."

"Shh, the teacher is here."

afternoon.The cool wind blows from the window, and the smell of soil after the miscellaneous rain, wanders in the sweet-scented osmanthus on campus in autumn.

next door class.

"Nan Ke?" Shentu Zhouzhou patted his deskmate on the shoulder, she seemed to have been in a daze for several hours.Nan Ke didn't hear the voice of her deskmate, she frowned tightly, and kept digging the elbow of the other hand with one hand, the dander fell on the table, at first it was a small powder, and gradually It turned into small pieces, and finally a few drops of bright red blood dripped on the table.Shentu Zhouzhou stared at her movements with wide eyes the whole time, looking at the blood on her fingers, and fresh blood was continuously overflowing from the crevices of her skin. "Ah!" A slight exclamation echoed throughout the classroom, and everyone looked at Shentu Zhouzhou and Nan Ke.Nan Ke suddenly realized a trace of burning pain, her frowning brows drooped slightly, she grinned and looked at her elbow.Trembling, she covered the blood that kept spilling out with her hands, and Shentu Zhouzhou stood up, "Go to the infirmary!"

"Yes, go, go." The other people in the class immediately urged, and the originally quiet classroom suddenly became commotion.

"Didn't you hurt just now?" Shentu Zhouzhou looked at Nan Ke whose elbow had been bandaged.

"..." Nan Ke stared blankly at the gauze and the overflowing red syrup.

After dinner time.

"Welcome to this campus broadcast..." Shentu Zhouzhou looked at the empty seat beside him and at the clock.

The top floor of the teaching building.

There was the sound of the wind blowing in her ears, and Nan Ke was lying on the platform beside the fence. As long as she turned over and sat up and jumped, she would fall down the 6th floor.Unfavorable things kept appearing in her mind. She had been in this state for a whole month. Although she tried to talk and laugh with her brother as much as possible, she never stopped thinking about life and human nature.It's not that she pretends to be deep, she can't drive these thoughts away, it spreads like cancer to every corner of her body.Although her younger brother has lived with her for a long time, he has never let go of his burden, just like her parents did not put him on the same level as herself from the bottom of their hearts.She couldn't figure out what kind of people lived in the school, why they were always so good at expressing one thing and another, what was the meaning of all this, why there was a college entrance examination, why a person's life was determined by such a college entrance examination, What about after being admitted to a university, and what about after finding a good job? Is there only one benefit at the end of everything?What the hell is money? They say that money is something outside of them, but they keep being chased by it.You need money to live, you need money to call a friend, you need money to get married, you need money to have children, you need money to study, and you need money to buy a safe place even after you die.The meaning of people's struggles, why there are always people who want to meddle in other people's lives and make irresponsible remarks about other people's lives, those people are not that person, those people know what that person is and just say groundless nonsense there.Why do women have to like men, have children and get married to be complete? Why should people care about gender?Why is there gender discrimination, discrimination of skin color, why people are divided into different categories, why do you know how to cherish only when you lose it, why do I want these things?The inexplicable Nan Ke began to cry, and the slight raindrops mixed with salty tears began to moisten from the corners of his eyes.

"What are you doing here?" Nan Ke was startled by a strange voice, she jumped up and squeezed her eyes, took a breath and then exhaled slowly, sniffing.

"Nothing?" Nan Ke didn't look up, she didn't know who the person in front of her was, and the voice seemed a little familiar.

"Aren't you cold?" The one sat next to Nan Ke, with a distance of one person between them.

"It's okay," Nan Ke gradually looked up, seeing a familiar face, "Do you know me?"

"I don't know." She lay down like Nan Ke before.

"Then why did you greet me?" Nan Ke also lay down.

"All knowledge comes from ignorance. Did you have a lover or friend when you were born? Everything is your own choice," she used her arm to block the raindrops from falling into her eyes. "You have to choose now." Do you know me or don't you know me?"

"I choose not to know you," Nan Ke cried with a smile, tears gushing out inexplicably.

"Why?" She propped herself up and watched her cry quietly, reaching out her hand to touch her brow.

"In this way, I can be like this without any scruples." Nan Ke's voice gradually became hoarse, dry and fuzzy.She wiped her tears vigorously, and when she opened her eyes again, the face in front of her gradually approached, from blurred to clear.

She turned sideways, tilted her head, and gently touched Nan Ke's cheek with her lips.Nan Ke felt the wetness on her cheeks, she couldn't tell if it was tears or her lips, but she felt the calm breathing of the person in front of her lingering in her ears.In comparison, she already felt her heart beating irregularly, and her wild thoughts finally stopped at this moment.The bell rang, and Nan Ke came back to her senses. There was only icy wind and never-increasing rain all around.

If you don't move forward, the world will come to you.The fate of life cannot be avoided, it can only be faced actively or passively.

The footprints are already like an unreachable ribbon, drawing a undulating curve calmly and comfortably, and a section of the curve is tied tightly to the foot.