sleep in your heart

After living alone for a long time, I gradually get used to the fact that there are no other breathing creatures in the house except myself, and I also get used to the darkness in the house when I come home late at night.

Zheng Zhi took out the key to open the door, and raised his hand to turn on the light at the entrance. The actions he was already familiar with, suddenly felt a little empty today.

I don't know whether it's this family or this heart that is empty.

The short reunion with You Zeyi not long ago made him feel like his heart was inflated like a balloon, but at this moment, looking at the cold home, he shrank again.

He changed his shoes, walked to the living room, collapsed on the sofa, took out his mobile phone, and stared at the saved number for a while.

Eight years, sounds like a long time, this moment seems to have disappeared, he blinked, and the high school self and You Zeyi appeared in front of him.

At that time, the vague ambiguity, unspoken feelings, and late-knowing annoyance all came up. Zheng Zhi listened to the sound of rain outside the window, recalled the past of the two, and speculated about their future.

Zheng Zhi is a very punctual person. Except for a few minutes late for class in high school, he has never been late, especially after work. He has three rules for his subordinates. The first rule is "No matter what the situation Next, you must be punctual", since he asked others to do so, he must also do it himself.

For such a long time, Zheng Zhi never asked others to wait for him no matter what happened, but on the second day after reuniting with You Zeyi, he was late for work.

Zheng Zhi had insomnia the night before, his head was full of messy thoughts, thinking about the past for a while, thinking about when to ask You to have a meal, his nerves were too excited, he lay on the bed, and fell asleep only when it was almost dawn .

However, when he was sleeping, he even forgot to set the alarm clock, and when he opened his eyes again, it was already past working hours.

He rushed to the company in a hurry, and when he swiped his card to enter the building, he took a look at the security room, but You Zeyi was not there.

Zheng Zhi didn't have time to linger, so he hurried to the elevator, and returned to the office in embarrassment under the watchful eyes of his colleagues.

When I was in school, the teacher always used the reason of "impacting learning" to stop everyone's puppy love. At that time, he liked You Zeyi. Although it was a secret love, it also fell into the scope of puppy love. It affected my grades, which were very stable from the beginning to the end. Although I didn't perform exceptionally well during the college entrance examination, at least I was admitted to a prestigious school smoothly.

Therefore, Zheng Zhi has always regarded the fact that "falling in love affects his studies" as nonsense, but now he finds that although his crush did not affect his studies back then, it has seriously affected his work status now.

Zheng Zhi, who was sitting in the office, started thinking about the person downstairs after finishing the business at hand, wondering if You Zeyi was still there today, since last night was a night shift, so he should rest today.

On the one hand, he felt that it was good to rest, because he was too tired after working all night, and he should go back to have a good rest, but on the other hand, he felt that it was best not to rest, because after rest, he would not be able to look at that person.

Seeing that the big man who is about to turn 30 has started to be disturbed by the other party like a novice in love.

After eleven o'clock, Zheng Zhi began to hesitate again whether to have dinner with You Zeyi at noon. He was afraid that the other party would refuse, but he felt that the other party should have no reason to refuse him.

It's normal for old acquaintances to join the same company by fate and have a light meal together at noon.

He stared at You Zeyi's phone number for a long time, and finally gave up.

He gave up calling and chose to go downstairs to find someone in person.

When Zheng Zhi went downstairs, he happened to meet Xiao Wang from yesterday again. As soon as Xiao Wang saw him, he greeted him enthusiastically. After all, Manager Zheng had bought fruit for them, so it was impossible not to be enthusiastic.

"Manager Zheng, are you going to eat so early?" Xiao Wang smiled like a flower, brilliantly.

"Ah, yes." Zheng Zhi glanced at the security room and said, "You're new here, isn't you here today?"

"The new one?" Xiao Wang was stunned for a moment, and then suddenly realized, "You said You Zeyi? He worked the night shift last night and is off today."

Sure enough, he rested.

Zheng Zhi felt lost for a moment, and before he looked away from the security room, he heard Xiao Wang ask: "Manager Zheng, do you know him?"

"Yes, I worked overtime yesterday to catch up with the heavy rain, and he was on duty here, so he borrowed an umbrella from me." After Zheng Zhi finished speaking, he realized that he hadn't brought an umbrella at all, "Just now I thought I should return it, but I forgot it. "

Xiao Wang smiled and waved his hands after hearing this: "It's okay, it's okay, I saw him write it down in the notebook in the morning, and you can send it back when you think about it."

Zheng Zhi nodded, apologized, and went out.

At lunch time, Zheng Zhi was not hungry at all, nor did he have much appetite. Originally, he wanted to invite You to have a meal, and they would eat whatever the other party wanted, but the other party was not there, so he wandered around alone, touching his pocket , Forgot to take the cigarette again.

Went to a convenience store to buy a pack of cigarettes, stood on the side of the road and smoked one, his originally chaotic mind finally calmed down while puffing, and some blurry things gradually became clear.

After eight years, he still remembered the feeling that he liked wandering for a while. When we met again, although he didn't have such a strong desire to hug him, he could miss him for a whole day just by looking at him.

What's this?But just like it.

He feels that he still likes You Zeyi, but he also understands that what he likes is probably the You Zeyi from back then. Eight years have passed, and both of them have changed too much. When they meet again, they might be disappointed if they get close to each other.

If you start now, brake in time, and only be nodding acquaintances, then You Zeyi will always remain in his mind that pure, hardworking, pitiful boy.

And if you go further, there will be a great risk that the beautiful memory will be erased by the cruel reality.

He hesitated.

After finishing a cigarette, Zheng Zhi's cell phone rang before he could throw away the butt. He took it out to have a look, and answered the phone with a smile.

"mom."

"Let me tell you, do you still remember Aunt Zhou who used to live next door to our house?"

Hearing his mother's tone, Zheng Zhi felt that she seemed a little excited, and subconsciously began to be afraid. This is a habit formed for a long time. Generally speaking, when his mother calls him excitedly, the purpose is usually——

"I seem to have a little impression."

"I happened to meet her when I went to buy pants for your dad just now. I haven't seen her for several years. She heard that you have returned to China, and she said that she should find time to have dinner together."

"...Why do you suddenly want to have dinner together?" Zheng Zhi had an ominous premonition.

"Suddenly what? Suddenly! Your aunt Zhou said that there is a girl in her relative's family who is the same age as you. She also came back from studying abroad. She has never been in a relationship. The two of you have similar conditions. Find a chance to meet and we will know each other."

Zheng Zhixin said, it was as I expected, and it was to introduce someone.

"No need." Zheng Zhi felt a little upset when he thought of this, "I don't want to find a girlfriend now."

"You still don't want to look for it? What are you waiting for? My son, how old are you? If you continue to wait and choose, all the good girls will be snatched away!"

"Being snatched by someone else means it's not mine." Zheng Zhi persuaded his mother, "Mom, don't worry about me. Your son is young and handsome, so handsome. You still worry that I can't find it." Girlfriend?"

"Can I not worry? After all these years, people who should get married get married, and those who should have children have children. Tell me about you. You don't even have a rumored girlfriend." Zheng Zhi's mother paused at this point, Suddenly remembered something and asked, "By the way, where is your He Ye? I think that girl is really nice. I haven't heard you mention her for a long time."

"I'm fine, why mention her?" Zheng Zhi was completely helpless, smiled, and coaxed his mother and said, "Okay, I'll do it myself to find a partner, so don't introduce me blindly." .”

"...Do you have someone in your heart? Or did you not tell your mother when you fell in love with your friend?"

Zheng Zhi thought of You Zeyi, he was stunned for a few seconds, and said to his mother: "If I really have a partner, can I take it back for you as soon as possible?"

"I hope there will be such a day!" Zheng Zhi's mother complained in a low voice, "Mom is doing it for your own good, so don't make trouble for me."

"Yeah, don't mess around." Zheng Zhi said with a smile, "Okay, I have to go to dinner, and I have something to do in the afternoon, so you can push it away from Aunt Zhou."

"What are you pushing? Let's talk about it once we meet! Besides, I already promised him, how can I push?"

"You just said that I have a date, and you only knew about it. Anyway, you just pushed it away, and I definitely won't meet." Zheng Zhi glanced at the time, "I really don't want to tell you, you should eat well, too. I'll go back to see you another day."

After hanging up the phone, Zheng Zhi rubbed his brows worriedly.

Regarding the issue of marriage and love, it is always the elders who worry about it.

In fact, he has always been quite puzzled. What are these elders anxious about? He is only 26 years old, and his career is on the rise, and everything has not stabilized. What's more, 26-year-old single people are everywhere. It's been a while since I haven't had a home, but everyone is doing well.

Zheng Zhi read a survey a while ago, saying that their generation will collectively step into the trend of "late marriage and late childbearing". In the past, the national policy advocated late marriage and late childbearing, but now the state is eager to let these young people get married and have children quickly. Solve the aging problem as soon as possible, but these young people are unwilling.

The growing awareness of independence and self-awareness makes it difficult for them to live in perfect harmony with another person. Everyone is too individual, and no one wants to change their original life status for another person.

Zheng Zhi thought the same way before, he didn't want to fall in love, and he didn't want to accept living with another person, because no matter how he thought about it, he felt that forcing someone into his life would do no harm.

But after he met You Zeyi, he began to waver.

If the 27-year-old You Zeyi can still move his heart like he did when he was 19, he really wants to seize this opportunity and try to keep the other party in his own world.