sleep in your heart

People who can't drink are often more likely to reveal their usually restrained side when they drink alcohol.

Like You Zeyi, when he was in high school, he often wished that he would have no sense of existence in other people's world, and later on, he was tortured by life and various encounters to treat everything with a low eyebrow, and when he was wronged, he had Emotions are also barely shown.

He always felt that if he tried not to argue with anyone, his life would be more stable.

But it is precisely because of this that You Zeyi hides too many things in his heart, suppresses them, and can't find an outlet to vent.

After drinking some wine, he immediately became dizzy. You Ze stared at the glass in a daze, and Zheng Zhi looked at him. He didn't expect this person to drink so badly, and he became unresponsive after drinking a glass.

"Are you okay?" Zheng Zhi was a little worried, fearing that he was allergic to alcohol.

You Ze shook his head: "It's okay."

After he finished speaking, he paused for a long time, then looked at the glass and said, "The last time I drank was when I was in college."

His words hit Zheng Zhi's most curious point impartially. It stands to reason that no matter how bad the university is, it would not be able to do security work. Go to a school where you can't even find a job.

"Choose one, can I ask you a question?"

You Ze looked up at Zheng Zhi.

Zheng Zhi put down his chopsticks, put his hands on the edge of the table, hesitated for a moment, and asked him, "Did you think of me in these few years?"

You Zeyi's eyes flickered for a moment, then blinked a few times in a row, then lowered his head again.

"When I saw you that day, I recognized you right away. You really haven't changed much, but you've become thinner." Zheng Zhi said, "But I didn't dare to recognize you, because I really didn't expect to meet you here. "

They are no longer eighteen or nineteen-year-old high school boys, and they no longer live in the city where they met at the beginning. They have traveled around the world and met in another place without returning to the original point. Is this fate?Zheng Zhi thought about this question over and over again.

You Zeyi lowered his head, remained silent for a long time, then suddenly smiled, and said to him, "I don't dare to admit that it's because I'm wearing that outfit, right?"

Indeed, but Zheng Zhi did not answer.

Although You Zeyi was dizzy in his head, it seemed that this moment was the most lucid time for him. Many things were more clear than usual.

"Eight years? We haven't seen each other for eight years, right?" You Ze suddenly had a sore nose after asking, raised his eyes to look at Zheng Zhi and said, "Eight years, we seem to have taken completely different paths. You, Me, how is Zhou Tong? We have lost contact. And Ning Lu, do you still remember Ning Lu?"

Zheng Zhi hadn't heard the name Ning Lu for a long time, and when You Ze mentioned it suddenly, he was still in a daze.

"Didn't he drop out after the third year of high school? Are you in touch?"

You Zeyi bit his lip, forced a smile and said, "Well, I'm suspended from school, and I will never go to school again."

Zheng Zhi frowned, and asked puzzledly, "What happened?"

He looked at You Zeyi's flushed eyes, and suddenly had a premonition that the matter of Ning Lu would have a profound impact on You Zeyi.

You Zeyi shook his head and poured himself a glass of wine: "It's the first time we've had dinner together today, let's talk about being happy, you're amazing, I heard Brother Wang say that you are now a manager. "

The more You Zeyi was like this, the more uneasy Zheng Zhi felt, and he said, "Eat more, don't just drink too much."

You Ze squinted his mouth, bit the edge of the cup and said, "It's great to be able to drink with you..."

What he said made Zheng Zhi's heart sour. After chatting for a few words, he became more and more curious about what happened to the other party in the past few years.

What can be the matter?Zheng Zhi couldn't imagine it.

"By the way, I forgot to tell you," Zheng Zhi tried his best to bring the topic back to the past, so that it would be easier to talk about the past, and it would be easier for You Zeyi to tell what happened afterwards, "That year in the college entrance examination, you How did you do in the exam after you went back? It should be good, right? You said that Zhou Tong and I were really destined to pass the exam together."

The smile on You Zeyi's original face froze, he slowed down for a while, and said softly, "Really, it's good to be able to pass the exam together."

"What about you?" Zheng Zhi felt that he was very immoral at this moment. He knew that the other party was unwilling, but he was still like an executioner with a knife, forcing the other party to say something he didn't want to say.

But he wanted to know You Zeyi too much, and only by understanding could he find his knot in his heart. He wanted to give him a hand, even if he couldn't be a lover in the future, at least he would still be a good friend.

You Ze frowned, and finally laughed at himself and said, "It's definitely not as good as yours, but it's not bad."

Under Zheng Zhi's inquiry, You Zeyi mentioned the name of the school, which is not a famous school, but in Zheng Zhi's impression, that school is the key point, so it is even more strange, students from key universities come to do it after graduation The security of the building is unreasonable no matter how you think about it.

Zheng Zhi didn't continue to ask further questions, he needed to give You Ze some time.

"It's not bad." Zheng Zhi picked up the wine glass and looked at You Zeyi with pity in his eyes, "Your efforts were not in vain."

After saying this, he immediately became annoyed.

Was it not in vain?

It was not in vain to work hard to get into a good university, but ended up working as a security guard?

Zheng Zhi, who is usually impeccable in his work, makes mistakes repeatedly when he is in front of You Zeyi. He wants to bite off his tongue to apologize.

But You Zeyi clinked glasses with him as if he didn't hear him, and drank the wine in one gulp.

For You Zeyi, after one cup, he starts to feel dizzy, and after two cups, he is about to fall down completely.

However, no matter how Zheng Zhi told him to drink slowly, he didn't listen. After putting down the cup, he glanced at Zheng Zhi, and then leaned against the wall next to him and closed his eyes.

Zheng Zhi was a bit dumbfounded, the two of them hadn't started to eat well yet, the other one fell down first, he was really a defenseless person, if he was with someone who had a bad intention, he couldn't tell what would happen afterwards Woolen cloth.

"Zhe Yi, how are you? How about we go back today?" Zheng Zhi spoke in a tone as if he was coaxing a child, as if he was afraid of scaring the other party.

You Zeyi, who closed his eyes, took a deep breath. Seeing that he was not asleep, Zheng Zhi asked him, "Shall I take you home?"

"Zheng Zhi." You Zeyi said suddenly, "Aren't you very disappointed seeing me like this?"

He didn't wait for Zheng Zhi's answer, and continued, "I'm really worthless. I've worked so hard, but I'm still like this."

Zheng Zhi didn't know if his eyes were dazzled. He felt that the corners of his tightly closed eyes were moist. He sat down next to You Zeyi, patted him on the back, and said comfortingly, "No, I know you must have your own. reason."

As soon as You Ze opened his eyes, he rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand: "Yes, there is a reason. I didn't regret what I did at first, but after seeing you, I started to regret it."

He looked ahead, stared at the paintings on the wall, and said slowly, "Zheng Zhi, I feel bad..."

When Zheng Zhi paid You Zeyi out of the restaurant, his heart tightened, as if an invisible hand was holding his heart tightly, and his breathing was almost difficult.

You Ze closed his eyes and fell asleep as soon as he finished saying "I feel bad", but those words hit Zheng Zhi's heart abruptly, obviously he didn't understand the truth, but he still seemed to see the scars on Zheng Zhi's body.

Zheng Zhi always feels that as a man, it's okay to suffer a little setback, and he can become stronger only after going through some tempering, but in his opinion, You Zeyi has experienced things that others may not experience in his entire life. Well, he has suffered enough.

Zheng Zhi wanted to protect him, wanted to help him, and thought that even if the two of them could no longer find the feeling of excitement they had in the past, and just be friends, they should do their best to make this person's life better.

The valet driver arrived, and Zheng Zhi supported You Zeyi to sit on the back seat, and he asked softly, "Zheyi, where is your home?"

You Zeyi didn't respond, he frowned and fell into a deep sleep.

The surrogate driver was waiting, but Zheng Zhi had no choice but to report his home address.

It's okay to stay overnight, he thought, it's too normal for a friend to stay overnight when he's drunk.

However, the closer he was to home, the faster Zheng Zhi's heart beat, as if he was a big bad wolf who had gone hunting and finally came back with a little white rabbit. thing.

When he got home, he paid the driver, Zheng Zhi took You Zeyi upstairs, when he entered the elevator, You Zeyi woke up, leaned against Zheng Zhi to react for a long time, and then asked: "Where is this? "

Zheng Zhi smiled, and purposely whispered in his ear to tease him, "Hotel."

You Ze looked at Zheng Zhi in a daze, and then hiccupped.

Zheng Zhi was amused by him, and after the elevator stopped, he walked out with his arms around him.

"Hey, why are you in the hotel? I'm going home..." You Zeyi finally regained some consciousness, grabbed Zheng Zhi's wrist and said, "Zheng Zhi, I can't...I..."

During the pushing and shoving, You Zeyi almost fell down, but Zheng Zhi reacted quickly and grabbed him.

"Okay, what are you thinking?" Zheng Zhi felt that You Zeyi's words seemed to reveal something. He didn't have time to think about it. He pulled the person and opened the door. "This is my home. I just asked you for your address. ,You fell asleep."

The door opened, and Zheng Zhi turned on the light: "You are so drunk, you can stay here tonight."

You Ze followed the people in in a daze, leaned against the wall, and Zheng Zhi had already helped him take off his shoes by the time he realized it.

No one has ever treated him like this before, he subconsciously retracted his feet, but failed to stand still, and supported Zheng Zhi.

"Come in," Zheng Zhi pulled him in, and said to You Zeyi who was blushing, "Do you want to go to sleep directly or take a shower first?"

You Ze looked around, and finally his eyes fell on Zheng Zhi, and he said, "Zheng Zhi, you just brought me back like this... Do you know who I am?"

Zheng Zhi smiled: "Who? My old classmate, is it possible that you are a thief now?"

You Ze shook his head and said to him, "I'm gay."