sleep in your heart

Chinese people like reunion, and many festivals in China have to be celebrated by the whole family.

It's just that You Zeyi lost his home eight years ago, and then he was counted as his aunt's family, but since he was fired because of that incident, he has never celebrated the New Year with others.

Spring Festival.

Lunar New Year's eve.

fireworks.

Even the Spring Festival Gala that everyone likes to complain about.

These have become things that You Zeyi is afraid of.

He was afraid of this festival, afraid that thousands of families would enjoy the joy with lights, but he was the only one alone.

It is said that the moon hangs alone in the sky, but the moon has those stars as companions, but he has nothing.

In the past few years, he has worked in different jobs, and these jobs belong to the bottom of the society without exception. On New Year's Eve, whenever he needs to be on duty, he takes the initiative to apply for fear that he will be idle.

But there will always be times when there is nothing to do.

You Zeyi still remembers that last year, during the Spring Festival, he lost his job.

At that time, he also lived in the shared house before. He bought instant noodles in the supermarket several days in advance. From the end of the junior year to the third day of the new year, he never left the house for ten days.

He didn't want to see people, he didn't want to watch others happily buying new year's goods, and he didn't want to hear people asking each other when they would go home even while walking.

He wants to forget this happy world, and he also wants this world to forget him who is disheartened.

You Zeyi is actually not afraid of loneliness, he is just afraid of the feeling of being abandoned.

However, when it comes to the Spring Festival, he is the poor guy on the edge of the world.

A few days ago, when Zheng's mother hadn't given any news, You Zeyi was counting the days. He was not looking forward to the New Year, but was afraid of the loss of time. He was afraid that he would be left alone in this year's Spring Festival.

Fortunately, Zheng Zhi made everything different.

Although Zheng's father was still a little lukewarm towards him, when You Zeyi and Zheng Zhi were sitting in the car, the other party held his hand very warmly, which made him feel that he could really have a family.

Just like what Zheng Zhi said, it's not really that Zheng's father can't accept You Zeyi. At least, with his quality, even if he faces someone he doesn't like, he won't show embarrassment to them face to face.

He really didn't know what expression to use to face this child.

Ever since Mama Zheng came back from Zheng Zhi's side and the two of them shared the matter, Mama Zheng has been boasting about choosing one or the other every day, and she still feels sorry for the child's difficulty.

As parents, it is easy to feel pity for those who are the same age as their children. Although at the beginning, Zheng's father was so angry that he almost flew over to ask his son to clarify, but slowly, Zheng's mother made sense up.

Father Zheng just didn't expect that at his age, he could still catch up with a "new trend" and become a person who "didn't take the usual path".

His son is gay, and it took him a lot of effort to digest it. On the way to the airport, he kept thinking about what kind of kid it was that made his son so determined.

When they met, Zheng's father looked at You Zeyi's timid look, and remembered what his wife had said, and immediately became a loving father in his heart.

But it was only in his heart, he didn't show it, because he didn't know how to show it.

On the way home, Zheng’s mother sat in the co-pilot and kept turning her head to talk to the two children, asking them if they were cold, if they were hungry, what they would like to eat when they got home, and if they slept on the plane. Sleep.

In this way, the two arrived home bathed in maternal love.

You Zeyi had lived in this city for nearly two years. For him, the year he attended Shishi High School brought him more than all his past years combined.

He has a lingering feeling for this place, and after many years, he finally came back.

You Zeyi still remembers Zheng Zhi's home, he came here once eight years ago, that night, he and Zheng Zhi lay side by side on the bed, each with their own thoughts, collecting the sound of each other's breathing.

At that time, they were still ignorant about the relationship. He used Zheng Zhi's library card to borrow books about homosexuality from the library, trying to find answers about his life from them.

Eight years seems to be a long time, but it seems to be just a blink of an eye.Eight years later, You Zeyi is standing downstairs, and he can still clearly recall the scene when he and Zhou Tong followed Zheng Zhi upstairs.

When it comes to memories, people always like to use the term "things are different from people", but now, in You Zeyi's view, everything has become better on the basis of the original.

"How about it, do you have a feeling of going back in time?" When Zheng Zhi came back from the shower, You Zeyi was sitting by the bed and flipping through a book.

You Ze put down the book and looked at him with a smile: "I had it when I was downstairs."

Zheng Zhi put the book on the table, turned off the light, and walked to the bedside.

Before the curtains were drawn, You Zeyi sat there, and Zheng Zhi leaned slightly in front of him, their faces were almost touching together, Zheng Zhi said: "You don't know, that time, you went in to take a bath, and I was there I've been listening outside for a long time."

You Ze smiled, and he said, "You don't know, that time, when I went in to take a shower, all I could think about was you."

In fact, eight years ago, both of them were full of each other, but it was only after eight years that this relationship became a complete circle.

Zheng Zhi kissed You Zeyi lightly, and You Zeyi put his arm around his waist.

The two fell on the bed. At that moment, 26-year-old Zheng Zhi and 27-year-old You Zeyi seemed to be reunited with 18-year-old Zheng Zhi and 19-year-old You Zeyi.

Time and space are disordered, between kisses, eight years hastily flowed by.

Eight years ago, on New Year's Eve, Zheng Zhi called Aunt You Ze's house and said "Happy New Year" to him. Eight years later, when the clock struck twelve o'clock, Zheng's mother took two red envelopes, One was given to You Zeyi and the other was given to Zheng Zhi.

Father Zheng asked, "I don't have one?"

Zheng's mother said: "Then you give it to me first."

I don't know who set off firecrackers outside, and fireworks lit up in the square in the distance.

Zheng Zhi took You Zeyi to watch the fireworks on the balcony, the two of them put their shoulders together, Zheng Zhi said, "What's your wish for the New Year?"

"Go to college."

Zheng Zhi was overwhelmed with joy: "It's really simple."

"Then what do you wish for?"

Zheng Zhi raised his hand, put his arm on You Zeyi's shoulder, looked into the distance and said, "I just hope that all your wishes can come true."

The Spring Festival holiday is not long, and every day at home passes very quickly.

Before the holiday was over, Zheng Zhi planned to take You Zeyi on a "memory trip", and by the way, he called Zhou Tong.

"I don't understand, you two are looking for memories, why did you bring me?" Zhou Tong yawned and drove the car, "He Ye won't come with me, am I just looking for abuse like a light bulb!"

The three of them arrived at the gate of Eleven High, and the gate was closed, only the small door on the far right was still open.

Regarding this point, Zheng Zhi has always felt that Eleven High is particularly humane.

Generally speaking, other schools close their doors when the holidays come, and no one can get in, but Eleven High has a special spirit of contribution. People in good places can come in casually.

The three of them greeted the old man on duty at the door, and entered the door swaggeringly.

"Did you come back later?" Zhou Tong asked You Zeyi.

"No," You Zeyi said, "This is the first time."

As soon as he stepped into the school gate, his heart warmed up. Nothing has changed, except that they have grown up.

The bulletin board that existed at the gate of the school eight years ago is still there, and it is still the same as before, with photos of students who won prizes in the competition posted on the bulletin board.

At that time, both Zhou Tong and Zheng Zhi's photos appeared here, but You Zeyi was the only one who had nothing.

Going forward, we arrived at the basketball court. In winter, three or five boys were playing in short-sleeved T-shirts. Their blood was boiling and they didn't feel cold at all.

You Zeyi said to Zheng Zhi: "You can see this basketball court from the study room in the dormitory building. I used to look here when I was tired from studying. I have seen you many times."

"Don't talk," Zhou Tong interrupted him, "Did you only read it when you were tired of studying? You only studied when you were tired of watching!"

You Zeyi, who was exposed, pouted, a little shy.

"You two go for a walk, I'll find a place to smoke a cigarette." Zhou Tong didn't want to come, but Zheng Zhifei pulled him over and persuaded him to reminisce about the past, and the main reason was that, He wanted to go to see Ning Lu with You Zeyi and the others later.

If he hadn't come back, Zhou Tong would have almost forgotten about Ning Lu.

But memory is a strange thing. Usually you can't remember it, but once you go back to the place where it happened, you can remember everything.

Zhou Tong heard You Zeyi said that he wanted to visit Ning Lu, and thought that he had invited Ning Lu to come with him. He thought, anyway, we haven't seen each other for many years. It's not a bad thing to meet and see how the other party is doing now.

Unexpectedly, You Zeyi said that he was going to the cemetery to see Ning Lu.

Zhou Tong didn't know about Ning Lu's death, and You Zeyi didn't tell him before. After he knew about it, he just kept silent for a while, and then said, "Take me one."

After all, it's a little different. It doesn't matter if the person is still there, but the person is no longer there. Because of emotion and reason, Zhou Tong feels that he should go and see.

After all, Ning Lu used to like him so much.

Zhou Tong went to smoke, Zheng Zhi and You Zeyi continued to walk into the campus.

Because it was a holiday, the door of the teaching building was locked, and the two of them ran along to the direction of the building, thinking that even if they couldn't get in, it would be good to stand outside the window and look at the class that year.

"In the past, after school at night, you walked to the school gate by yourself. Several times, I secretly followed behind and watched you go out the gate before I went back to the dormitory."

Thinking back to the past, You Zeyi felt that there was really a kind of beauty unique to youth. At that time, they didn't know what the future would be like, and they didn't know if the other party liked them, but they still burned their heart and were willing to be The other party is attracted.

They walked outside the classroom window, Zheng Zhi looked inside, and pointed to the table at the back: "When we two met, we sat there."

"I really want to go in and have a look," You Zeyi said, "I want to sit at the same table with you again."