After Hell

The moment Qin Yijie saw Zhang Xiaoheng crying and crying, he was stunned.

Facing Zhang Xiaoheng who was crying heartbreakingly, he didn't know how to comfort him at all.Qin Yijie had never seen Zhang Xiaoheng break down emotionally.In my memory, Zhang Xiaoheng always has a calm expression, and when he sees his classmates, he will greet them with a smile.In Qin Yijie's memories, Zhang Xiaoheng's whole body was as fresh and warm as the sunshine in early spring.The elegant and gentle temperament on his body has fascinated me more than once.

But now?

Now, this person who I have been thinking about for seven years, this young man who has always been very good and decent, is under his persecution, bursting out unprecedented sadness and despair.

How did that happen? !

How did it become like this? !

How could it become like this... irreparable? !

When Qin Yijie looked at Zhang Xiaoheng's tearful, fragile and trembling appearance, apart from shock and doubt, there was also a wave of distress in his heart that was stronger than waves.This kind of heartache was tens of thousands of times more serious than Zhang Xiaoheng gave him any time before.This kind of scorching pain, as if the heart was cut with a knife, and then sprinkled with strong wine, almost made Qin Yijie faint.

Qin Yijie really felt very lost and confused.Even the first time he obtained Zhang Xiaoheng by force, Zhang Xiaoheng never showed such a completely defeated and collapsed look.Every time I met him, except when Zhang Xiaoheng occasionally showed patience and reluctance when he was addicted to desire, the rest of the time when they were together, Zhang Xiaoheng always treated himself with a stubborn and mocking attitude.

This person he has been obsessed with for a long time is always so proud and perfect.

Therefore, Qin Yijie was deceived.Whether it's Zhang Xiaoheng's defensiveness and pride deliberately displayed, or Qin Yijie's self-deception that Zhang Xiaoheng is used to this relationship between them and has accepted himself.Qin Yijie was deceived, deceived by Zhang Xiaoheng and himself.In addition to this, a possibility that Qin Yijie had never imagined grew faintly in his heart.If, if he had completely misunderstood that Zhang Xiaoheng was the money boy, and that Zhang Xiaoheng had been sold to him because of his own threats, then...he had misunderstood him from the very beginning.No, that's not possible, it's absolutely not the case.The fear in Qin Yijie's heart became more and more intense, as if it wanted to swallow all his reason.Qin Yijie stopped this speculation in time, and he absolutely did not admit the error of this guess.Because...if this is true, then what he has been doing to Zhang Xiaoheng all along...is a complete asshole.This is really... too fucking guesswork!

Qin Yijie immediately suppressed the possibility of this guess in his heart without leaving any trace.

Qin Yijie sat beside Zhang Xiaoheng in a daze, flustered.It wasn't until he saw the perfect person in his mind showing such vulnerable fragility, seeing this person not hiding his tears, that Qin Yijie knew what kind of love he had brought to Zhang Xiaoheng in the past two months. kind of pain.

It was himself who personally destroyed Zhang Xiaoheng's self-esteem and the smile of this person who had been missed and loved in his heart for seven years.

Qin Yijie looked at Zhang Xiaoheng who was crying, his whole body began to tremble, his face became pale, and his voice was full of panic: "You...don't cry like this. I...I just don't touch you today." Qin Yijie quickly said from Zhang Xiaoheng Standing up, his legs were shaking violently at this time. After standing up from Zhang Xiaoheng, he couldn't stand still for a while, and sat directly on the edge of the bed to prevent himself from falling in front of him.

Seeing that Zhang Xiaoheng's face was flushed, Qin Yijie stretched out his hand to wipe his tears.But the moment his hand touched Zhang Xiaoheng's cheek, the scalding temperature spread along with the touching skin.Qin Yijie was panicked and at a loss for a moment, his upper and lower lips trembled and almost bit himself: "You, your forehead is so hot! Do you have a fever?!"

Zhang Xiaoheng was out of breath from crying, and at this moment he could not hear what Qin Yijie was saying or doing at all.He completely let go of all the depression and grievances in his heart, sobbing unabashedly.

Seeing Zhang Xiaoheng crying so much that his expression was in a daze, Qin Yijie felt terrified.In his mind, a picture of Zhang Xiaoheng going to vanish in pain like a shattered bubble appeared in his mind.Once this idea of ​​fear arises, Qin Yijie leans over persistently like a demon, and holds Zhang Xiaoheng tightly in his arms.

Qin Yijie saw that Zhang Xiaoheng seemed to be tired from crying. After crying emotionally just now, he was curled up in his arms like a cat, sobbing faintly.So he could only clumsily put one hand around Zhang Xiaoheng, and gently patted his back with the other to help Zhang Xiaoheng calm down.

I don't know how long it took, when Qin Yijie's fear of Zhang Xiaoheng's disappearance in his heart finally dissipated, he found that Zhang Xiaoheng had fallen asleep crying in his arms.

Qin Yijie didn't feel tired until this moment.Both physically and mentally, utter and hopeless fatigue.Qin Yijie stared at Zhang Xiaoheng's peaceful sleeping face at this moment, and seeing the thick dark circles under his eyes, his heart ached beyond measure.

He moved his body slowly, trying to spread Zhang Xiaoheng's hands and feet curled up so that he could sleep more comfortably.Just at this moment, a piece of paper slipped out of Zhang Xiaoheng's torn shirt pocket.

Qin Yijie frowned, covered Zhang Xiaoheng with a quilt, made sure that he was tightly wrapped, and then picked up the pale yellow paper in doubt.When I opened it, my heart skipped a beat.

HIV testing? !

This... what does this mean? !Is this... is it the reason why Zhang Xiaoheng was so abnormal today and caused him to break down emotionally?

Qin Yijie pinched this thin piece of paper, his knuckles turned white with force, and his mind was also in chaos.

The lounge was eerily quiet.There is only the slight ticking sound of the second hand of the wall clock hanging on the wall.As if waiting for the death sentence, it makes people feel depressed and powerless.

Holding the piece of paper, Qin Yijie stared at Zhang Xiaoheng without moving his eyes from his face for a moment.He kept this posture like this until intermittent birdsong sounded outside the window, and he sat stiffly beside Zhang Xiaoheng like a statue for a whole night.

The sun gradually rises from the east, and the warm sunlight dispels the coldness of the night inch by inch.From the gaps in the curtains, its light and heat are slowly and firmly projected into the room.

Zhang Xiaoheng gradually woke up from his sleep and slept all night. He felt the warmth around his body.He hadn't slept so soundly and contentedly for a long time.

Zhang Xiaoheng stretched his limbs a little bit, rubbed his eyes that were still a little foggy, and finally saw Qin Yijie who was sitting numbly next to him.

"Are you awake?" Qin Yijie's voice was very calm, and the speed of his speech was not fast.There was a calmness never seen before, which surprised Zhang Xiaoheng.The situation in front of him was too weird. After he and Qin Yijie got acquainted, as long as the two stayed in the lounge of After Hell, they would definitely do some ulterior things.But looking at it now, he and Qin Yijie actually stayed together all night in peace.This made Zhang Xiaoheng, who had just woken up, somewhat confused about the current situation.

"Woke up." Zhang Xiaoheng sat up from the bed, only to find that the red blood in Qin Yijie's eyes was obvious, and the lower eyelids were obviously blue and black.

Qin Yijie... Didn't he close his eyes all night?

Thinking so in his heart, Zhang Xiaoheng didn't ask.At this moment, he finally remembered everything that happened last night.For a moment, Zhang Xiaoheng felt quite embarrassed. After losing his temper last night, he just fell asleep like that, and he vaguely remembered that he fell asleep after being held in Qin Yijie's arms.

Now that the two are sitting opposite each other, Zhang Xiaoheng doesn't know what to say to Qin Yijie.So he can only keep silent at the moment.

Qin Yijie looked at Zhang Xiaoheng silently for a while, and after taking a deep breath, he stood up from the edge of the bed.He stretched out his hand to pull the collar, and stood by the bed to arrange Zhang Xiaoheng's shoes: "Hurry up and put on your shoes and go to the staff locker room to change your uniform. I will accompany you to the hospital later."

Zhang Xiaoheng stared at Qin Yijie's series of movements, and his brain was still a little bit hesitant: "Where are you going?" Qin Yijie's series of movements were natural and quick, how did he look like his lover?

"Accompany you to get the inspection report, is it today?" Qin Yijie's tone was calm, but also firm.

That kind of natural tone made Zhang Xiaoheng stunned, and acted in accordance with his words.

"Uh... well."

The author has something to say:

The upper part wants to work hard to abuse the little angels into crazy_(:зゝ∠)_

However, I, the author of the sweet article, is a soft-footed shrimp... Mina-san will just take a look at it.