Light Snow to Beginning of Spring GL

At 11 o'clock in the night, the fire started in the kitchen, the kitchen knife jumped neatly on the chopping board, the lettuce was cut into crystal green shreds, green onion, ginger and garlic, the meat was aspic hard, red ice water flowed out when the blade touched it, and the frozen human fingers burst into tears. Chills and aches.

The rice is boiled into porridge in the pot, exuding the simple aroma of food.

He Xueyan was sitting at the old sandalwood dining table at home, Bai Linyu put the food in front of her eyes, put a white porcelain spoon beside the bowl, and said indifferently, "Eat, don't you mean you're hungry?"

This must be a very stupid decision, but He Xueyan only felt that her stomach was against her, she hadn't eaten a few bites all day, and the winter night was too cold, she needed some carbohydrates to replenish her calories, otherwise she was not sure she was It's not going to freeze.

Moving her lips, she finally succumbed to her weak willpower, quietly took a bite of the meal cooked for her by the person she hated the most in her life, and this meal was also what she asked her to cook.She was hungry, didn't want to move, just wanted something to eat in a short time.

The porridge is well cooked, the rice grains are plump like white jade, and there is a slight sweetness of starch between the lips and teeth.The dishes are also very good, better than her cooking.That's right, isn't this Bai Linyu?Everything is better than her, whether it is academic or other, it is always enviable than her.

After eating a small bowl of porridge in silence, Bai Linyu took her bowl very naturally, and helped her put some back in front of her. She stirred it with a spoon, and began to chew slowly. This is her habit, halfway through eating When I am full, I will always procrastinate and not eat well.

"Eat quickly, cold food is bad for your stomach." Bai Linyu advised her.

As in the past, she thought of the school cafeteria again, and she persuaded her to accommodate her forever, enduring her picky eaters and meekness. "Are there too many problems with me? Is it annoying?" He Xueyan finally frowned and spoke while eating.

Sitting next to her, Bai Linyu turned his face to see her obediently eating with her head down, and answered the question: "Are you telling the truth?"

"En." He Xueyan nodded, eager to hear an opinion.She increasingly suspects that she is actually a failure.

"Some." Bai Linyu didn't intend to coax her, since she had already broken up, and since she was a stranger, she said, "You are full of problems, you don't like to talk, you don't look at people seriously, and you always pick things that people don't want to listen to when you open your mouth." Said. Too stubborn, self-centered, not listening to others... picky, clean, withdrawn, narrow-minded..."

There were too many, and He Xueyan couldn't hear it, so she stopped and said: "How good do you think you are." After a pause, he began to count: "You are arrogant, arrogant, cold-blooded, despicable, shameless..."

"The last two words, I'm sorry I can't admit it. Although I have made mistakes, I can't call it mean and shameless." Bai Linyu knew her temperament, and when he stabbed her with a needle, she would always grab the needle secretly and then stab her back.There she looks so easy to bully.

"Why not?" He Xueyan put down the spoon, slammed it on the side of the bowl, and looked at Bai Linyu's age-stained face under the light. Some anger rushed out of his heart and came to his mouth, and he had to spit out: "The counselor asked me to talk, he said You tell him that I'm always pestering you, and you don't mean that at all. Isn't it shameless for you to say this behind your back? "

"Oh, it's still him." Bai Linyu recalled it for a while, sighed, looked at her appearance of collecting debts, and said frankly, "That person has been chasing me and wrote me many letters. Me, I have rejected him countless times, he was very unwilling, I couldn't bear to tell him on the spur of the moment, I am with you, let him give up, I don't know what happened to him after that, after I went abroad, he still kept sending me messages Text messages, emails. I changed my phone a few times before I got rid of his harassment..." After a pause, he said flatly: "We are together, and I will acquiesce when others know about it. I have never denied my relationship with you."

I was stunned for a moment, He Xueyan had thousands of calculations, and never thought about this road.But Bai Linyu was a school belle in college, and the men who chased her were all over the place. I had seen some fanatics with my own eyes, and it was not unusual for a counselor to appear.

Closing her lips tightly, He Xueyan stuck the question she wanted to ask the most. She really didn't want to show that she couldn't let it go, but that question had indeed been bothering her all the time. She had thought about it thousands of times, but there was no result.Now that result seems to be in front of her eyes, but she is afraid to take it off...

Bai Linyu was calm and composed, helped her clean up the leftovers, turned on the faucet in the kitchen at night, washed the dishes, and did chores neatly, but kept silent about that question.

The wind outside the window was mixed with snow, and the wind howled. In the living room of He Xueyan's house filled with antiques and books, Bai Linyu put on her scarf, packed her backpack, finished the task of cooking, and prepared to leave in the middle of the night in the snow.

He Xueyan silently watched her from the side and said goodbye to her. Bai Linyu went out and told her: "Go to bed early, the promotion meeting will be held the day after tomorrow. You seem to be speaking on behalf of the magazine. The deputy editor-in-chief hopes that you will write a speech."

"Oh." He Xueyan was bored, watching people walk out of the yard.

The temperature was very low, and the snowflakes hurt my face, and there was no one in the alley, which was narrow and deserted.Bai Linyu was walking, and someone was chasing after him. He Xueyan was a bitch.

"Don't go." He Xueyan yelled in fear, stepped on the snow and ran a few steps, her feet were unstable and almost fell, Bai Linyu helped her up, and looked at her in surprise: "What's wrong with you?"

This was an abrupt question, and He Xueyan couldn't hold it back, she was annoyed that the other party was shrewd and pretended to be confused at the same time.But this is an opportunity, she still wants to pick that fruit, peel off the outer skin of the past, and get a result that may be scary.

Her big eyes, eyelashes trembling in the cold wind, snow stained her black hair, her lips turned white from the cold, and her slippers were soaked in snow, she stood pitifully at minus ten degrees and said, "You haven't said, Why don't you want me...Is it because I'm not good? "

The wind was too cold, Bai Linyu walked over and took her arm, unable to bear to look at her face.

"No, you're fine. It's all my fault." Bai Linyu dragged her to the yard, and pulled her into the dark alley until she was stuffed into the room, wrapped in her own cashmere scarf, Feed her hot tea.

"I didn't intend to ask. I always wanted to forget this matter. I know it's meaningless. No matter what, you still leave me." He Xueyan trembled and said to herself with black lips: " But I always can't believe it, and I can't believe it now...it's too sudden."

She is almost 30 years old, and she has not recovered yet.

"My father..." Bai Linyu opened his mouth slightly and spit out a word, with his delicate brows pressed down, he neither wanted to say that slowly: "Six months before my graduation, my father was found out for corruption by the procuratorate and sentenced to prison. , a huge amount of family property was confiscated into the treasury. Several relatives were also sentenced for money laundering. My mother went back to her hometown to rest..."

"You never told me." He Xueyan had no idea that not a single word of such a big event leaked out.Bai Linyu didn't say a word in front of her, his mouth was tightly fitted like an iron man.

Lowering his head, Bai Linyu didn't want to think about it and just said: "I respect the laws of the country and accept this result." After that, he didn't go into details, but he frowned more and said: "Fortunately, the matter of studying abroad has already been decided, but there is no Affected, just lack of some money."

"Then where did you get your money?" He Xueyan asked her, already feeling the fruit was falling from her palm, and it was heavy in her hand.

"Your father gave it to you." Bai Linyu said lightly, and then glanced at He Xueyan. She was still not sure whether she could bear the result, so she took a deep breath and said, "It seems that the counselor who was chasing me called You are home, he always thinks that we are not healthy, so let your father take you to see a doctor."

It turned out to be just like this...

An insignificant mouse got into the garden and ate off the prettiest flower.

"Your father may be afraid that asking you directly for questioning will irritate you, so he found me first and talked with me for a long time." Bai Linyu's tone slowed down, and he straightened his thoughts: "He is very cultivated and didn't make things difficult for me, but he loves me very much. You, there is something dissatisfied with us in your words, but there is no strong opposition. He seems to know something about my situation. He said that he is willing to provide funding to help me study abroad. As for whether to let you go with me, he will talk to you Decide later."

"He hasn't talked to me..." He Xue's words came to her lips, her eyes were sore, and she covered her mouth with her hands.Of course, my father never talked about her matter.He was in a trance for a few days, and saw that he had something to say but didn't say it. One day before lunch, he suddenly fell in the garden.

He Xueyan also knew what happened afterwards.It was she who categorically refused to go to France with Bai Linyu, and fell into the shadow of her father's illness.If she didn't leave, the He family had already made a choice.

"I'm afraid it's a conspiracy. He gave me money on purpose, and he used some method to keep you. I keep getting letters from you, but I don't see that you know that your father gave me money. I guess you don't know anything. I don't want to say it, because I'm afraid if I tell you suddenly, you won't be able to accept and hate your father. I know, you love him very much." Bai Linyu sighed, and finished speaking with difficulty.

He Xueyan can't say anything more, this matter can no longer be pursued.What her father thought was impossible to verify, because her father had long been unable to speak.

She suddenly found it ridiculous again.How did she fall into this step by step, and she couldn't extricate herself from it, and it was only because of the accumulation of such mistakes that her whole life was sidelined.

"You just gave up on me and stayed with someone else." He Xueyan trembled, but tears still came down.

"Yeah. I didn't expect... I was so bad." Bai Linyu reached out to wipe her tears, touched a trace of warmth with her fingertips, and said with great regret: "I was too young at that time, thinking that I could control the world and lose my parents Bless me, I'm nothing too, ride the subway to a restaurant job, grab discounted bread at the supermarket, atheist and go to church for free food. I see you write, you describe your life, you're living Well, there are writing brushes from Huanghuali, Zhangzi from Tianhuangshi, calligraphy and painting from a master... You are going to come to me, I am very scared. I really can’t let you see me washing dishes in the narrow seafood restaurant kitchen.”

He Xueyan closed her eyes tightly, with tears seeping into the corners of her mouth, trying to think about this scene, but she couldn't imagine it either.The scene couldn't be put together at all, it was like a lie.She would rather it be a lie.

"Joanna is a girl I met in the church. She is quite lively and from an average family background, but for some reason she is fascinated by me, an Asian. When I was having a bad time, she was always by my side." Bai Linyu didn't hide anything. Talking about cheating seems to be a story: "I live very anxiously every day, and lost my temper with her. She is not angry and comforts me. I can't bear the gap and pressure, and I can't refuse this tenderness. I still choose to be with her." She was together and hurt you, I'm sorry."

"Where is she now? Are you still together?" He Xueyan felt that this was a dream, and she just wanted to wake up.

"Because of different living habits, we separated after half a year." Bai Linyu said the problem, and wanted to hug her in his arms, but her arms were stiff and unable to reach out. She was not sure whether the other party needed such a belated comfort.

The clock on the wall is at one o'clock.

At midnight, He Xueyan lost all strength.She didn't want to listen anymore, her feelings were easily destroyed by fate.After so many years, her resentment suddenly lost its meaning.Bai Linyu had her own predicament, and they couldn't help each other at their age.

"If you choose again, will you give up on me?" She asked the last question.

"I don't know." Bai Linyu was too honest: "Maybe it will."

Nodding, He Xueyan understands, if it were her, she might also abandon the other party, facing the reality, in fact, love is not that great at all, everyone is selfish and fragile, why should she be an exception?Isn't she in this kind of fragile and helpless time, because of the appearance of Yan Fei, she feels that there may still be a little light in the world, she is too cold, so she has to chase the light.Jump from one vortex to another.

Sartre said that other people are hell.

This hell, people have nowhere to hide.

Bai Linyu was by her side, slowly getting closer to her, his stiff arms tried to be as natural as possible, as if using a lot of strength, to hug her back inch by inch.She wanted to struggle, but couldn't resist.

The hug finally came.It was very late, like a super long slow motion, so slow that everyone was drowsy.

But it came like a snowstorm outside, overwhelming and unable to hide.He Xueyan leaned on her shoulder, not knowing how to feel.She hopes that someone will give her a hand and wake her up to face the reality. She really hopes that this person is Yan Fei.

But Yan Fei was not there, like a playful and mischievous child, he didn't know where he went right now.