Cambridge Love Weekly

Lu Sheng's Memoirs 23: Cambridge, you must not disappear.

I have no intention of chasing her, and I have no intention of explaining.

So we each immersed ourselves in our own lives.They started a hard struggle with the boss.All night and all night preparing, reading documents, studying, doing homework... They work when I am awake, work when I am asleep, go to the workshop when there is no electricity in the dormitory, and go to all places where there is no electricity.

I started my day alone, and the sudden silence made me feel a little empty.It seems that the days are no longer 24 hours. It seems that I don’t know how many hours are added. I always feel that I can’t finish it.

Is it that time is secretly increased by God without my knowledge?Sneakily turning my day into 48 hours?Or longer?I can't figure it out, it's just that the emptiness makes me sad.

Lu Sheng has not slept in the dormitory for a week.I can't help but think of the workshop: there are all kinds of machines everywhere, a few tables are inserted obliquely among the machines, there are no stools, no beds, almost nothing.

where will she sleepIn the arms of the boss?

I don't like to sleep anymore, the night is always longer than the day, so long that it scares me.In the empty dormitory, I was alone, and I never heard Lu Sheng's laughing and cursing anymore.

I don't dare to think about it anymore, and I don't want to sit still.I put on my clothes and fumbled out of the dormitory.

The lights in the workshop were still bright, and I stood at the door, not daring to move the hand pushing the door.Their laughter came from inside, very lively and hearty laughter.

Should I not bother them?I stood at the door of the workshop and withdrew my hand that was halfway out.

But I miss Lu Sheng.Want to see her, even if only to see her.

I dare not stand at the door of the workshop anymore, I am afraid they will come out suddenly.In this way, I stood under a big tree not far from the workshop entrance.I'm glad I'm wearing a black dress, no one will notice at night.

Some of them really came out, not one, but all together.Lu Sheng was chatting and laughing with everyone. In that smile, there were the little tiger teeth that I often see.They talked and laughed all the way towards the school gate.

"Let's go, boss treats you to dinner!"

"Yes, yes, starving to death!"

"I can only eat McDonald's again!"

……

They disappeared from my sight, and Lu Sheng hadn't eaten yet.I wanted to go up and talk to her, but my feet were on the ground and I couldn't move a step.Don't move if you can't move, I'll just wait here for them to come back.At that time, I could always see Lu Sheng, and then I would hold her back.

While waiting, the time was longer than when I was alone, and I was already sitting on the steps of the workshop waiting.The blackness of night is helpless blackness, all blackness surrounds everything, no one can be spared except light.But the street lamp in front of the workshop was broken, and the only light was gone, only the wind kept crying to me.

I don't know how long I sat there.Suddenly I saw a figure approaching, so scared that I got up and hid under the tree.Through the light in the crack of the door, I saw clearly that it was Lu Sheng.She wanted to go forward, but she subconsciously looked behind her, but she couldn't see anyone else.

At this time, Lu Sheng had already entered the workshop, and I looked under the tree to make sure that they really hadn't come back.Lu Sheng came out of the workshop again at this time. She stood at the door and looked around. Then she seemed to see me and walked over.

"What are you doing hiding here?" She stood in front of me, looking at me deeply.Obviously I can't see her expression clearly, but I can feel it like this.

"I miss you, Lu Sheng." I mustered up the courage to step forward and hug her, my heart beating like a drum.

Lu Sheng didn't push me away, she hugged me. "What are you doing here? How long have you been here?"

"I came to see you. I came when you just left." I remembered their talking and laughing again, "Are you still hungry?"

"Why are you looking for me? Obviously you are going to leave me."

"I..." His throat was blocked suddenly, "I... didn't intend to abandon you." He uttered these words with difficulty, but even he didn't believe it.

"Hmph! Forgive me for the sake of coming to me! If one day you leave me behind, you must come to me like today! Do you know?" She hugged me with one hand, and poked me with the other. my heart.

"I……"

"You know how to answer, right?" She started to grab the white again, she was still the same Lu Sheng, "Don't say what I don't want to hear."

"Oh," I could only reply, "I will definitely come to you."

"Then let's go." She withdrew from my arms, took my hand and walked forward.At this time, I couldn't go back to the dormitory, she pulled me, and I didn't want to ask her where she was going, I just wanted to follow her.

She yawned as if tired. "Lu Sheng, let me carry you." I said, "Where can you tell me to go?"

"Dahuo 401." She didn't intend to be polite to me, she lay on my back skillfully, but she never pulled my ears or pulled my hair.

She fell asleep, and she never answered my words.

I climbed up to the fourth floor with her on my back. The light in 401 was still on. I knocked on the door and went in. The boss and the others were sleeping soundly in a corner of the sofa and the camp bed.At this time, they all looked at me in unison.

"Ah, it's Lu Sheng who's back. Find a place for yourself." The boss yawned, "Remember to turn off the lights when you sleep."

They seemed to have not slept for a long time, and everyone just glanced at it before closing their eyes again.At this time, I found that Qian Yuanyuan and Li Yun by the door were leaning against each other. They were holding hands and leaning together on a double sofa in the corner.

I searched around and found that there was only a small desk in the middle of this room, the door of the room was on the south side, and there was a row of cabinets on the east wall, where Lu Sheng and the others' previous competition works and some documents and books were placed.

To the west is the military bed where the boss and Sun Hongyan lay together, and to the north there is a single sofa and a stool.The rest of the place was filled with various sundries. I carried Lu Sheng to the single sofa, put her down gently, took off my clothes and covered her, and used a stool to pad her feet.

I can not sleep.That's what I planned too. After turning off the lights, the room fell into darkness. I returned to Lu Sheng's side with the dim light, and then sat on the ground beside the sofa and started playing mobile games.Playing until six o'clock the next morning, Lu Sheng woke up.

"Are you awake?" I saw her move, put away the phone and stood up and asked her.

"Well, what time is it?"

"Six o'clock, the dormitory opens."

"Then go back." She wanted to stand up and move her body. I was afraid that she would fall and help her quickly. How about sleeping in a strange position all night?

She woke up the others, and we went back to the dormitory together.Back in the dormitory, everyone fell on the bed again. Before going to bed, Lu Sheng only reminded them to wake up for class at 07:30.I haven't said no yet and she's asleep.

It's just me standing in the middle of the dormitory out of place.Everyone squeezed into the lower bunk to catch up on sleep, and no one even cared where they slept.I put the quilt on for them, then went to wash my face in cold water to refresh myself, and then walked out of the dormitory to buy a can of coffee from the vending machine.

After drinking coffee, he went back to the dormitory, squatted beside Lu Sheng's bed and watched her sleep.At this time, my heart is quiet, without any disturbing thoughts.

Because Lu Sheng's curtain was closed for a long time, I never saw her sleeping face, or maybe it was because I never thought about it.

When Lu Sheng fell asleep, it was the same as usual, except that the eyelashes, which were not noticed normally, could be observed carefully now.Those were slender, thick, long, curly eyelashes, they were trembling, and I reached out to touch them like a maniac.

I can hardly feel their existence, but they exist so softly in front of my eyes, like Lu Sheng, so softly in front of my eyes.I asked myself, can I really not feel their existence?If you don't feel it with your hands, can you not feel it?

I try to close my eyes to feel, so Lu Sheng exists in any corner of my consciousness.I didn't dare to feel it anymore, I opened my eyes suddenly, and I didn't want to stay in the dormitory any longer, so I left the dormitory in such a disturbed manner.

I have never had a good look at the campus in the early morning.The air is so fresh, the world is so open.I shuttled in the small park, the flowers and grass looked much more delicate than usual, and even the lake seemed much more beautiful.

I have been wandering around the campus, walking from the west to the school gate, then to the east, and then back to the west, watching the time approaching 07:30, I bought a dormitory breakfast in the cafeteria and went back.

They are still sleeping, I will put it on the table early and call Lu Sheng.She turned sideways to me, her lovely face was thinner than before, I couldn't help but bent down and kissed her on the cheek.

Her scent stopped my approaching body. I gave up my original intention and just called her softly: "Lu Sheng, Lu Sheng, get up. Lu Sheng, get up."

Maybe it was because I yelled too softly that she didn't wake up.I reached out and gave her a gentle nudge, and she woke up.What a light sleep.

She is still confused.

"Wake up. It's 07:30." I said to her, "Come on, I bought breakfast."

In a short while she was awake.It's just that she looked at me, and suddenly her hands hung around my neck, so that I had to support myself on the side of the bed to stabilize my body.She slammed her hands hard, but I still fell in front of her eyes.

She hugged me happily and said, "Kang Qiao, I want to see you every morning when I open my eyes."

"Good morning, Lu Sheng." I suddenly wanted to say this in my heart.

"Good morning, Cambridge!" She smiled happily, revealing the little tiger teeth and eyes as bright as purple grapes that I miss.

"It's time to get up." I gave her a naive smile, then lifted my body abruptly, and even brought her up, and she fell into my arms and kept smiling foolishly.

"You two abused the dog early in the morning and abused it outside." The boss walked behind us at some point.I turned my head, everyone got up, and said indifferently: "Your breakfast is on the table."

"Your ones are here too." I licked Lu Sheng's nose.She bit my nose mischievously and said, "Kang Qiao, what's wrong with you today? You got up so early and bought breakfast?"

"It's okay? Get up and wash up, you'll be late later." I got up to let her change clothes, and she closed the curtain happily.

Eating and washing are quick, but I am very sleepy, I went to the balcony to blow the cold wind, tears flowed from my eyes when facing the wind, I was already so sleepy.

The roommates felt that it was wrong to disturb me and Lu Sheng to abuse the dog, so they consciously took the first step.Lu Sheng got into my car, but I knew she was very tired, so I didn't talk anymore.

When I got to the classroom, Lu Sheng still sat in the first row, but I didn't dare to sit next to her anymore, I was almost too sleepy to keep my eyes open.

"Where are you going?" She looked at me and asked me why I didn't sit beside her.

"I'll go to the back." Although I thought about it all the way, I still didn't think of any excuses to fool the past.

"What are you doing behind? Playing games? Sleeping?" She seemed to suddenly think of something, "Where did you sleep last night?"

"I, sleep next to you."

"There is no extra space in the house." She approached me, making me dumbfounded.

"Let's go, I'll accompany you." She didn't press anymore, but just pulled me to sit in the last row.

I fell asleep in class and couldn't stop the drowsiness from coming.And this sleep until the bell rang at the end of the last class.When I woke up, only Lu Sheng and I were left in the classroom, and she was lying on the table facing me.

"Are you awake?"

"Yeah." I didn't think about it, so I just looked at her like that.At this time, her long eyelashes had some halos. I stretched out my hand to feel it lightly, but I still couldn't feel the existence.Perhaps this was originally the dream of a non-existent Shuiyue Jinghua.

"Cambridge, are you going to disappear?"

"will not."

"But I think you will?" Her hand caressed my face, from my eyes to nose to lips, and finally on my chin.She came closer, I smelled her unique fragrance, and I was shrouded in her shadow.Her lips slid over my eyes, over my nose, and finally landed on my upper lip.

One touch and back.

I stared blankly at her, and she stared blankly at me.

"Let's go." She said without looking away.

"Okay." I stood up.

We go to eat together and go back to the dormitory together.The days go slowly, as if it is a holiday specially arranged by God for us.We are glued together every day, almost all the time.As long as she doesn't go out with the boss and the others to run business or meet some big shots, then we are always together.

In the classroom of Dahuo 401, there is no shadow of Lu Sheng at night. Either she comes back to the dormitory, or I go to the workshop to hold her and sleep until dawn.Sometimes I feel that I am tireless, and I can see the dawn just by looking at her sleeping face.Sometimes I feel sleepy again, but my eyes are already blurred with tears just after hugging her.

The junior year passed quickly, but I didn't have this awareness at all.The coming of summer vacation makes me a little confused, isn't it too fast?It's too fast!

Summer vacation is no different for me, but it is different for Lu Sheng.She stayed at school and started a business with her boss.I also thought about whether I should stay or not, but I couldn't help at all by staying, so I had to go home.

When I got home, I could only stay at home, without the slightest thought of going out.My mom thinks I'm going to get moldy at home, but she doesn't have time for me.Dad's attitude is always that Kang Qiao has grown up and she knows what she should do.

But do I really know?I sat on the couch watching TV and asked myself, do I really know?What exactly do I want?I hold the cup, but it doesn't feel like the cup really belongs to me.

Just like when I hugged Lu Sheng, I hugged her but couldn't feel that she belonged to me.

Dad said: "If you don't fight for it, she will never be yours."

But how do I fight for it?Lu Sheng will take care of research, and Lu Sheng is starting a business.But I'm just an ordinary person, I don't want to go to graduate school, and I can't start a business.

I have no idea of ​​going to graduate school. If I only study for Lu Sheng, then what is the point of such further studies?If I really do this, when one day she doesn't want me, how should I face myself at that time?How to face the future study career?

I couldn't help sighing, a paper airplane rolled down in the air outside the window.Anything without a heart will fall.So where is my heart sinking?