[HP] Reason is still chaotic

"Gordie."

After the three of Dumbledore left, Sara looked at Godric who was caught in the memory, hesitated to speak, hesitated a few times, and then said, "...the dead cannot be resurrected."

"I know," Godric smiled bitterly, "Thal, I understand."

"You understand..." Salazar smiled sarcastically, "If you really understood, why did you target him like this?!" Both of them knew who this so-called 'he' was!

Godric looked at Salazar's tightly closed eyes, feeling powerless and bewildered.He himself knew it was wrong, but every time he missed Sandra more, he hated Sephian more.He always thought that if it wasn't for this child, maybe Sandra wouldn't have died...but this child was entrusted to him by Sandra, so he could only hate Malfoy even more.

But Salazar didn't know that the anger he radiated today was not just because of Malfoy, but...

Godric looked at Salazar who was vaguely dissatisfied, and suddenly felt very tired. This was not the first time he felt this way.This kind of exhaustion that seemed to have exhausted all his strength, but he still didn't want to let go.After all, the person he caught was Salazar!

Sarah looked at Godric, hesitated to speak, and finally remained silent.He and Godric could never see eye to eye when it came to Serfian.He didn't understand, what could make people hate their own family members?Even Godric, the Gryffindor who took office, didn't do anything to him.Why is it Sephian's turn to...

Salazar sighed deeply in his heart, he felt that he couldn't understand Godric more and more.How much disgust would it take for Godric to take his anger out on such a distant descendant?The previous life...it should be considered the previous life, and the panic when he left in the previous life came to his mind again. What if the love between him and Godric could not resolve their differences?

The two were immersed in their own thoughts, wildly guessing about each other.It perfectly expresses a love motto - when you love deeply, you will be terrified.When a person falls in love with another person, he always learns to be afraid of losing him.

In fact, the biggest difference between Godric and Salazar in this life comes from their childhood experiences.

Godric witnessed his parents' failed marriages when he was a child, and he no longer believes in marriage.He will not be a good husband, let alone a good father—or in his opinion, only Emmaris is his child.As for Dideri and Leda, they were the sons and daughters of the Gryffindor family.He has witnessed the failed marriage of his parents, and his wife can only be a symbol to Godric, and can no longer stir up half a ripple in his heart.

However, it was precisely because of his parents' failed marriage that Godric adored love even more.

He advocates the love of soul fusion, so when he falls in love with Salazar, he can tolerate him with infinite tenderness and patience, and at the same time he is infinitely eager to understand him.He wants to be close to him, rely on him, longing for the sweetness of the connection between two people.

But Salazar always kept a distance from him, and there was an isolated part between them-the Slytherin family.For Salazar, his responsibility is more important than anything else, and the Slytherin family will always have a supreme status in his heart.It was a holy place that Godric could never touch.

Salazar's attitude towards love is due to the precepts and deeds of his parents when he was young.

Salazar's parents are very loving, but one of them is the patriarch of the Slytherin family and the other is the leader of magical creatures. They cannot live like ordinary couples.They don't share all their secrets, especially the secrets of the Slytherin family and magical creatures.Even, when two people deal with things, they will consciously avoid Salazar who may leak the secret.

When Salazar was young, the three of them lived in Hogwarts.Prudence Slytherin and Cecelia at the time, like Salazar later, occasionally found time to deal with family affairs.Salazar at the time would not have understood this.He only knew that even if the two of them were hiding things from each other, the relationship between their parents was still very good.Salazar lived with his parents in Hogwarts, which was almost isolated from the world. From the very beginning, his definition of family was only parents and children.He believes that the relationship between parents and children should be the same as that of their family of three.

However, the previous Slytherin head, who clearly understood that not everyone can marry true love, was deeply worried about this.Therefore, he deliberately let Salazar learn to distinguish the difference between a wife and a lover.From then on, Salazar saw family as lovers and children.Therefore, Salazar didn't care about his wife, but he cared about the pair of children with Slytherin blood.

Salazar's mutual non-interference with Godric is because Salazar's parents also belong to two camps, and what Salazar sees is the mutual non-interference of parents in handling affairs.But Salazar was too young at that time, he could only see the superficial respect of his parents, but he couldn't see the deeper tacit understanding between them.He also didn't notice the difference between Godric and Cecelia—if Prudence and Cecelia hadn't handled this relationship so rigorously, no matter how powerful they were, the wizarding world and magical creatures would still be in danger. They will not be allowed together.

Later, when the previous head of the Slytherin family died, he was not worried about Salazar, who was sheltered by his wife, but worried about the Slytherin family who had lost their leader.Therefore, under the teaching of Cesarea in order to fulfill Prudence Slytherin's last wish, Salazar attached great importance to the Slytherin family to the point of paranoia.

Because of this, during those days at Hogwarts, even if Salazar was only away for a few days, just to meet his tribe for a while, Godric would worry that his mind would change.The Slytherin family was the source of his uneasiness. He was worried about Salazar's departure. He was also jealous of those Slytherin clansmen. Just because their surname was Slytherin, Salazar would always care about them.Even if Salazar came to Hogwarts for him, it couldn't change the fact that he was the head of Slytherin.

Godric was too frightened of the result of Salazar's departure, he subconsciously rejected everything in the Slytherin family, and subconsciously expressed it.Sara found out Godric's dislike for the Slytherin family, and she didn't dare to let the two parties have contact.He excluded everything about Slytherin from his and Godric's small home, and carefully concealed everything about the Slytherin family from Godric.The more Salazar kept Godric away from the Slytherin family, the more Godric loathed this untouchable 'sacred place' between him and Salazar.Under the vicious circle, the two became more and more cautious towards each other, for fear that they would accidentally mention something that would displease the other party.The tacit understanding that they talked about almost everything when they were friends gradually receded, and the two who were tortured by love were almost exhausted physically and mentally.Salazar, unable to remain optimistic about the future, was afraid. He would rather leave temporarily when he was in love, than part ways after the love was polished.

And Godric, he loved Salazar, and nothing in this world - including the Gryffindors - meant anything to him except Salazar.Until the appearance of Amaris, this is the crystallization of his love with Salazar, and it is the proof that Salazar loves him.With this child, Godric can believe that Salazar will not leave suddenly, because Amaris is also of Slytherin blood.Therefore, to Godric, Amaris was completely different from those two children who appeared only to stabilize the situation.Godric even gave her the phoenix of the Gryffindor family, Alice.

But to Salazar, Godric was his lover, something special.Emaris is his and Godric's child, and Emaris is also very special emotionally.However, he still tries to treat the three children equally intellectually-because they are all his family.

Thousands of years ago, everyone who knew the whole story thought that Godric and Salazar quarreled because of their different ways of treating Amaris, but they didn't understand that the root cause of their quarrel was their attitude towards love.Godric's love is hot, like a fire, and he would rather burn everything to be with Salazar, just because they love each other.Salazar's love is calm, like ice, a thick wall of ice separates his emotion and reason, and he can't abandon his responsibility.

Godric's eyes stared deeply at Salazar, and the words clanged, "Salazar, I love you. In my heart, nothing is more important than you, what about you?" Only when I fell in love with you did I realize what I miss. The taste, the pain of separation and the torment of jealousy, and the endless possessiveness.Your every move makes my heart fluctuate. I am always afraid that time will fly by and I will not be able to stay with you for the rest of my life. I am always afraid of being abandoned by you.Salazar, tell me, what shall I do?Salazar, why is it so hard to be your only one?When will I become the most important existence in your heart?Do I... still have this chance?

Sarah looked at the pain in Godric's eyes, and the bitterness in her heart almost overwhelmed him.Godric, am I causing you so much pain?Is it our love that drove you to this situation?What should I do to make you happy?Even if you are in such pain, I am not willing to give up!Salazar closed his eyes, "...I'm sorry, I love you." There is nothing worse than losing someone who is so close to you but so far away.

The heart that had been pulled up was put down in vain, and the chest hurt from the blow.Godric smiled with relief, fell back on the bed, and didn't say a word.

The author has something to say:

Sorry guys, I couldn't get in backstage yesterday.I'm in a hurry to go back to school today with some things.Sorry for posting this chapter only now.I just did the math, and the update is still one chapter away, so I will try to update it today.But everyone, don't wait, even if it is updated, it should be very late [Maybe no one will wait at all, I am being sentimental.Everyone just wait until tomorrow.

After these two weeks of update practice, I decided to update every Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday night starting from next week. Holidays [especially those that are on holidays will be updated.Then the update at noon is all about editing or catching bugs.