Love with a difference of 24cm

It didn't take long for the news that he was gay to spread throughout the school, followed by endless ridicule and bullying, and that social youth disappeared without a trace.At the beginning, I spoke for him and tried every means to prevent my classmates from bullying him, but gradually I was afraid of being threatened and bullied, so I alienated him and watched him go to the end.

I once advised him that as long as he publicly denies that he is gay and says that he was threatened by the young people in that society, he will surely gain everyone's understanding and stop being bullied.He asked me, "What's wrong with me?"

His helpless questioning tone, dark but stubborn eyes, and thin figure are deeply burned in my heart, and every time I think of it, it burns like fire.

The day he committed suicide and passed away happened to be the last day of final exams.After the exam, he jumped off the school roof.

Ironically, although he was bullied, he far surpassed No.30 me by 2 points.

Later, the name "Luo Huaizhen" and this person became an untouchable taboo in the Luo family. Your second grandfather's family didn't feel so oppressive until after you had Uncle Huaicheng.

This incident hit me hard.I always felt that his death was inseparable from me.I regret not being able to stop him or help him at the beginning, and I suffer a lot every time I think about it.I have been pressing this matter in my heart, afraid to touch it, thinking that I will never have a chance to touch it again, until that day.

You looked exactly like him that day.Your firm eyes and tone, like needles, pierced my chest one by one, breaking the seal.

The old past suddenly overwhelmed me, making me breathless. When I came back to my senses, I had been sitting alone in the study for a long time.

When I watched your mother pull you into the house, which was frozen, I felt relieved and at the same time fell into deep self-blame and panic.

I think the main reason for his desperation is the contempt, indifference and alienation of his relatives.So, I was terrified of repeating the same mistakes, terrified!

Under your mother's grilling, I told her the whole thing.These days, with her help, I've been battling my past.

It's not that I can't accept homosexuality, it's just that I don't know how to face you because of what happened.Seeing you now, as seeing him, pains me so much.

I'm sorry son, because of me, the atmosphere at home has become very depressing, which makes you sad.

The unit established a branch in City C and needed to transfer people from here. I took the initiative to apply and was approved, and set off on the day of the Lantern Festival.By the time you read this letter, I should already be on my way.

This business trip will last about half a year.Taking advantage of this time, I will try my best to adjust myself and strive to face you honestly when we meet again.

Speaking of which, our father and son haven't sat down to have a good chat for a long time, and I really miss it.

I'm relieved to hear from your mother that the young man treats you very well.In case, he treats you badly, tell me, I will beat him to death!

As I write this, my chest, which has been dull for many days, seems to be a lot more relaxed, and it hasn't been so relaxed for a long time.

Live well, work well, and love those who you think are worthy of love.

Son, Daddy will always love you.

Father: Huaixin

Hu Yi tightly clutched the two pieces of letter paper, feeling damp for a long time.

Luo's father's letter was undoubtedly a reassurance for the two of them, but this reassurance was wrapped in various complicated emotions and settled in their hearts, which was difficult to digest.

There is deep pain, because of Luo’s father who had such a sad past; there is regret, because of the young man who was born at an untimely time; myself; and some indecipherable mess of depressing emotions.

Luo Xiaofei broke his hand, took away the letter paper, and asked anxiously: "Senior, are you okay?"

He rubbed his face carelessly and squeezed out a stiff smile, "It's okay. I'm fine."

"Really? Your eyes are red."

"It's okay." He hugged Luo Xiaofei into his arms, rubbing his face against his, "It's really okay."

"Senior, tell me, isn't it sad that a person has to be wiped out of traces of his life after death?"

He let out a muffled "Hmm", too much emotion accumulated in his chest, as if it was about to explode, but he couldn't put it into words.

"Senior, will you leave me?"

He shook his head slowly, and replied in a hoarse voice: "No."

"That's good."

Luo Xiaofei caressed his palms ecstatically, clasped them, released them, repeatedly, and then asked in an uneasy voice: "Senior, tell me, can my dad really untangle his heart?"

He grabbed Luo Xiaofei's hand, wrapped it in his own, and said firmly: "Yes, I will, you have to trust him."

He felt that the letter full of guilt for the past and deep love for Luo Xiaofei was enough to prove Luo's father's determination.Just wait slowly, there will always be a day.

"That's fine, that's fine."

In March, Hu Yi immediately entered a busy state, working overtime almost every day until the early morning. This state lasted for more than a week. Because of an unplanned urgent demand, he had to temporarily write the demand overnight.

It was after eleven o'clock in the evening in MH, and many windows were still lit.

After he went to the toilet, he stood by the window at the end of the corridor, looking at the lights on the opposite floor, blowing the cold wind, soothing his head that was almost stuffy after a day of stuffiness.

The night wind in early spring was cool, and after a while, he felt that his breath was cold.His head was almost awake, he rubbed his face indiscriminately, turned and walked back.

"Thank you sister~"

Hearing a vaguely familiar voice, he stopped pushing the door, turned his head suddenly to look at the source of the voice, and saw Luo Xiaofei was talking to the security inspector on night shift, Sister Sun, at the security gate on the other side of the corridor.

Why is he here?Thinking of this, Hu Yi couldn't help taking steps, walked through the dim corridor, and went straight to the bright light.

"Registration is complete." Luo Xiaofei put down his pen, took out a pack of biscuits from the plastic bag he was carrying, and handed it to Sister Sun, "Sister, this is for you, the night shift has worked hard."

"Thank you, I'm not being polite. I'm just a little hungry." Sister Sun took a look at the biscuit, and then reminded: "Go in quickly, keep your voice down, don't disturb others."

Luo Xiaofei lowered his voice and said, "Okay, I know."

Then he laughed twice, carrying a plastic bag and entering the security gate.

"Xiaofei." Hu Yi called softly while standing a few steps away from the security gate.

Luo Xiaofei was surprised when he heard the sound and saw him, walked over quickly, walked to the front, raised his face and called softly: "Senior."

Hu Yi resisted the urge to pinch that face with a bright smile, and asked worriedly, "Why are you here so late?"

Luo Xiaofei shook the supermarket shopping bag in his hand, "I can't sleep, I'm afraid you're hungry, so I'll bring you something to eat."

"Follow me." Hu Yi said, turning around and leading the way.

After entering the room, Luo Xiaofei looked around and asked softly, "Are you alone in this room?"

"Yes, they all left an hour ago."

Luo Xiaofei suddenly relaxed, and his voice returned to normal, "It's quite spacious!"

Hu Yi stopped in front of his workstation, "This is my workstation."

"It's neater than expected, there are so few things."

"How messy do you imagine?" Hu Yi pulled a chair from the side, "Sit down."

"It's just full of papers, books, and so on." Luo Xiaofei looked around, "Or like them. Looking at it this way, your seat is so easy to find!"

Hearing what he said, Hu Yi also looked at it.In contrast, my own desktop with only one computer and one note is quite eye-catching, "I prefer paperless office."

He picked up the cup, went to fetch water, and came back again, seeing Luo Xiaofei sitting there looking fresh.He walked over and handed him a cup filled with hot water, "just enough to drink."

Luo Xiaofei held the cup and took a sip, "It's surprising that there are no books on the senior's desk. Ah, so there are not many books at home."

"It's all in my hometown. There are two walls in the study room at home, and the entire wall has been made into a bookshelf, full of books." Hu Yi sat down, took the bag Luo Xiaofei brought, "Is there anything delicious to bring? ?”

"Look at it."

He flipped through and found that there were snacks such as bread and biscuits that could satisfy his hunger. He couldn't help laughing, this guy was really afraid that he would be hungry.He took out a pack of energy bars, tore open the outer packaging, peeled off one and handed it to Luo Xiaofei's mouth.

Luo Xiaofei took a bite off half of the root, and Hu Yi ate the remaining half.

"Senior, do you really want to stay up all night today?"

"At first, I thought it might be all night, but now it seems that it is faster than expected. It can be done in about two or three o'clock."

"That's no different from staying overnight."

"I used to think so too. After finishing it in the middle of the night, I just slept here."

But it's different now.Ever since he was with Luo Xiaofei, no matter how late he worked overtime, he would definitely go home.The exhausted body and mind that was tortured by work immediately became refreshed as soon as it touched Luo Xiaofei.

"Isn't a man afraid?"

Hu Yi chuckled, "What are you afraid of?"

"Hmm..." Luo Xiaofei tilted his head, rolled his eyes, then approached him and whispered, "What about a female ghost?"

"There are no female ghosts, but there may be one or two male ghosts. It is said that because of too much pressure, they jumped directly from this upstairs, and their intestines and brains fell out."

Luo Xiaofei's expression became tense and stiff, "Uh...senior, can you stop talking about such things in such a serious manner?"

Hu Yi smiled, "You're kidding, what the hell is there? Even if there is, I will protect you."

Luo Xiaofei flattened his mouth, muttered in a low voice, "I'm not afraid", and pulled the chair to lean next to Hu Yi.

The corner of Hu Yi's mouth curled into an imperceptible arc, and he rubbed his head, "I have to go to work tomorrow, so go back to sleep first."

Luo Xiaofei shook his head, "I'm here to accompany you. I promise to be obedient and not to disturb you."

Then, he moved the chair back again, sat upright facing Hu Yi, blinked his eyes, as if to say: "Look, I'm very good, right?"

Hu Yi couldn't help pinching his cheek, and said fondly, "Then tell me when you're sleepy, and I'll get you a bed and quilt."

Luo Xiaofei urged: "Understood, you go to work quickly. Let's go home together as soon as we finish."

"it is good."