Slag Gong chased me after rebirth

Ruan Xiangdi turned off the light, and the room was pitch black.The moonlight was cold and bright, pouring into the bedroom together with the wind, and fell on Ruan Xiangdi's slightly thin body.

The phone fell out of his right hand and fell to the ground with a "slap", no one would care, just like him, no one would care if he disappeared here tonight.

Most importantly, he doesn't care.

Under Ruan Xiangdi's curled eyelashes, his eyes looked out of the window absentmindedly, feeling a little cold for no reason, but he didn't bother to get up to close the window, as if he had no energy in his body.

Tired all over, not just physically, but also mentally.

He loves so humblely, dedicating all of himself, he loves Lu Jingyao like a believer worships a god, like a wild dog in a ditch worships the light.

But no matter how beautiful the vows of the mountain alliance were, it could not compare to the countless handsome men and beauties in the world of beautiful clothes and shadows.Enthusiasm was exhausted day by day, the man who would clumsily please him at the beginning is gone, the best thing is what you can't get, and if you get it, if you get tired, you will throw it away like a shoe.

He is the rice grain at the corner of the mouth that was discarded, and he is also the mosquito blood.

Ruan Xiangdi had been suffering from depression for two years, and he didn't tell anyone except the doctor, manager, and Fa Xiao, nor did he tell Lu Jingyao.He was afraid that Lu Jingyao would think he was troublesome, and thought he was hypocritical, depression, just let it go if you want, what's there to be depressed about?

Can't think about it, can't think about it, can't think about it, because he can afford it and can't let it go.

That is a person who is integrated into a part of the heart, how can he let it go?Why don't you goug out a piece of meat from your heart?It hurts so much, it hurts so badly that you can't breathe.

Ruan Xiangdi raised his hand and grabbed the clothes on his chest. He felt a little suffocated. He fell into the water like a drowning person, and no one came to rescue him.He himself could not save himself.

But it was so sad... Tears couldn't stop flowing down, his face was clearly pale, but blushed due to drunkenness, he looked very weird, like a person who was seriously ill and dying.With trembling hands, Ruan Xiangdi pulled out a drawer of the bedside table, and found a small white medicine bottle in his blurred vision.

He had wanted to commit suicide a long time ago, but he hadn't told anyone, not even the doctor.Because of the long-term severe insomnia, which has interfered with his normal work and life, he always lacks energy when filming and on shows, so the doctor prescribed sleeping pills for him.

Suicide is premeditated, and desperation builds.No one wants to commit suicide at the beginning, but chooses to leave only because the fragile soul is really overwhelmed when it comes to the end.

After taking half a bottle of pills, Ruan Xiangdi suddenly felt regretful. He thought to himself: Will he be sad?He loved him so much before... he would feel sorry for him more or less, just a little bit... but he was a little bit reluctant to feel sorry for him.

"You shameless thing, I don't have a son like you!"

The mother's words suddenly burst out of his mind, deeply hurting Ruan Xiangdi's nerves.Mother didn't know where she found out about his relationship with Lu Jingyao, so she stubbornly believed that he sold his body and climbed into Lu Jingyao's bed for the sake of being popular.Ruan Xiangdi, who lost his father since he was a child, lost his mother's love because of this incident, and his mother didn't want him anymore.

... It's better to die, no one wants him.

Just like in that movie, die.