you better not like me

Every word in this series seemed to be thrown at him by Chen Yan forcefully, very accurately, every word hit his heart, and he couldn't help wrinkling his face in pain.

The courage he had accumulated for thirteen days was easily dispersed by Chen Yan's few words, and then dispersed like smoke and dust, gradually disappearing.

want to escape.

But the one in front of him was Chen Yan.

I want to cover my ears.

The one who can speak is Chen Yan.

It's Chen Yan, the person he thinks about day and night, he doesn't even want to take a step back, so how can he escape.

He stood there with cold hands and feet, clutching the corners of his clothes in his palms in a daze, looking at Chen Yan with confusion and sorrow in his eyes.

Chen Yan didn't dare to look at him at all.

A few seconds later, Chen Yan raised his finger to the door and said, "Get out if you don't want to." The voice sounded less clear than before, with an indistinct hoarseness and deepness.

Zhan Ke's first reaction was - he was angry.

He didn't care about what Chen Yan said, and he didn't seem to care about the harsh "roll".

He just walked over and squatted on one knee beside Chen Yan's leg, and squeezed Chen Yan's hand that was hanging down on the sofa.

"I am willing."

This vow belongs to the wedding.

But what made Chen Yan feel this was not the sentence itself, but Zhan Ke's solemn and steady tone of voice when he said these three words.

Just like thousands of men in suits standing in the palace of marriage.

Solemn and solemn.

But he didn't care to bring up any emotions.

Chen Yan just felt sad.

He will still carefully analyze everything about Zhan Ke.

He used to always be like this, trying to dig out the evidence that Zhan Ke loves him from the details.

Then he coaxed himself for so many years.

Chen Yan wanted to speak, but suddenly felt that his throat was so dry that it hurt, and every word he uttered was torture for him.

Seeing that he didn't respond, Zhan Ke comforted himself in his heart that maybe Chen Yan was in a daze, maybe he just didn't hear clearly.

So he lowered his eyes and said softly, "I am willing. I don't care."

what.

Chen Yan, look quickly, this mighty man has bowed his head to you again.

Not only did he admit that he wanted to be a mistress, but he was willing to bear all the infamy, and he also said that he didn't care.

Fame, this was what he cared about the most.

He was afraid of ruining his reputation and refused to admit that he was gay.

Afraid of ruining his reputation, he threatens you not to disclose your relationship.

Now he doesn't want fame, he said he doesn't care.

Chen Yan, are you happy?

Chen Yan asked himself.

happy?

How can I not be happy at all.

Instead, I feel sad and want to cry.

Chen Yan felt that he was really baffled, why did he cry when such a joyful thing happened?

His eyes suddenly turned red.

Zhan Ke watched helplessly as his eyes turned red, and tears gradually flickered in his eyes.

He panicked for a moment——

"Don't cry, I'm sorry Chen Yan, I'm sorry it's my fault, I shouldn't... I shouldn't always appear in front of you, don't cry, don't cry, it's my fault..." He sat down close to Chen Yan, Hugging the lost man tightly, please gently pat him on the back with your hands, coaxing him over and over again saying "don't cry", and apologizing over and over again saying "it's my fault".

Chen Yan's habit of crying probably came from beating his mother's womb.

"Don't cry, don't cry." Zhan Ke coaxed for a long time before he dared to let go. He looked down at the eyes of the person in his arms, and then watched a silent tear winding down the corner of Chen Yan's eyes.He lowered his head, gently kissed the tear away, and then continued to coax softly, "Don't cry, it's my fault."

He kissed Chen Yan's face, but Chen Yan didn't move.

He still touched Chen Yan's lips, but Chen Yan still didn't move.

Zhan Ke can clearly feel that the person in his arms who used to love to cry and act like a baby has no reaction to him now.

He could feel the warmth of this body and Chen Yan's breath, other than that, he was like holding a rag doll.

Still fiddled with by him.

Zhan Ke felt his nose sore in an instant, and he looked up at the ceiling, trying to draw back his tears.

But within a few seconds of raising his head, he lowered his head like a collapse, and let a big tear fall directly on Chen Yan's shoulder. He kissed the corner of Chen Yan's mouth and said tremblingly, "Chen Yan, tell me something quickly." Well, I... I'm a little scared."

Chen Yan opened his mouth, but still couldn't utter a word.

He blinked very lightly, and his long and dense eyelashes fluttered slowly up and down. Zhan Ke just stared at him, then leaned over and kissed him on his eyelids.

Begging softly, "Say something, is it good to say something, you can ask me to do anything."

Chen Yan could feel everything, he just felt that his throat was so dry that it was difficult to make a sound, he just felt that he was suddenly sealed up.

He has to struggle a lot before he can escape from the closed environment.

After a long time, he kept his hoarse voice and chuckled lightly. The laughter was really ugly, as if he had aged decades.

"I'm just kidding."

Zhan Ke's body was stiff, he asked Chen Yan: "What?"

Chen Yan slowly raised his hand, caressed his face, looked at him not as cold as before, but said: "You're just kidding, what I said earlier was all joking. Just kidding, you Seriously?"

Zhan Ke grabbed his wrist and asked again, "What did you say?"

Chen Yan said: "You are willing, but I am not. Why should I lose my reputation to be crazy with you? I was already crazy enough when I was 17 to 22 years old. I just want to be safe and sound for the rest of my life. There is no I need you, and I don't need you in my love."

Chen Yan repeated: "I don't want to."

Zhan Ke unconsciously exerted some force on his wrist, "You can't play with me like this."

Chen Yan frowned, struggled twice, but didn't break away, "You sent it to the door yourself, and you still want me to be merciful, no matter what is good, you will take it all by yourself."

Zhan Ke let go of Chen Yan's wrist, turned to stabilize the back of his head, and kissed him vigorously.

Chen Yan struggled a lot, but he had neglected to exercise all these years, and that little strength was too insignificant in Zhan Ke's opinion.

His hands were controlled by Zhan Ke's other hand, but he could only bite his mouth after struggling. He bit the corner of Zhan Ke's lips until the blood came out, but the latter didn't let go, and he kicked Zhan Ke twice angrily. foot.

The kiss mixed with the smell of blood is full of painful feelings.

Soon Zhan Ke couldn't hold it anymore, he slowly let go of Chen Yan, lowered his head and buried his face in Chen Yan's thin shoulder, he stretched out his hand to stop Chen Yan weakly, not daring to use force.

"Give me some hope, okay, I can't hold it anymore."

Chen Yan didn't speak.

Zhan Ke gradually cried, "I know that my hard work is nothing compared to the years you spent for me. But I still want to beg you, Chen Yan, can you give me some hope, please, I It's really wrong, I really don't know what to do, I want to see you every day and I can't bear it at all, I don't know how to deal with feelings...Give me some hope, okay...I will spend my whole life paying back you."

"You can do whatever you want me to do. I swear I can accept it. I don't care what a mistress is. I want you, as long as I can see you...any identity is fine."

"You can't joke, I can't afford to joke... Chen Yan, Chen Yan, please promise me, as long as I can see you..."

"You used to say that you have always liked me and loved me all your life. I didn't take it seriously, I always remember it. Chen Yan, I have liked you all my life, I have loved you all my life. We have a future, and we must have a future. "

His tears seemed to burst, and Chen Yan felt that the fabric on his shoulders was completely soaked.

Luckily, the man rubbed against him twice again——

"I didn't mean to cry, but suddenly... suddenly felt very uncomfortable..."