I don't want to cry and I want to die for love[Comprehensive]

Hanazawa Asahi stayed up all night and closed her eyes.A woman with an invisible face appeared in his mind, grinning at him and showing a smile.Holding a bleeding knife in his hand, he rushed towards him at any time and stabbed him in the abdomen.

It wasn't until after six o'clock in the morning of the next day that the morning sun shone through the window little by little, and the warm sunlight gave Huazawa Asahi some sense of security.Drowsiness gradually enveloped him, his eyelids seemed to be fighting, and he slowly fell asleep.

Hanazawa Asahi had not slept for long, Dazai opened his eyes, and he smiled helplessly.Covering Hanazawa Asahi with a quilt, her feet landed on the ground, and the curtains were slightly closed to avoid disturbing Hanazawa Asahi from the excessive light.

After Osamu Dazai washed up briefly, he opened the door.

One was neatly folded, the envelope was full of girlish hearts, and pink decorations were pasted on the surface of the envelope.

In this way, it was clipped cleanly and not to be ignored in the mouth of the mailbox, stuck there at a seventy-degree angle.

It's hard to ignore.

Osamu Dazai casually opened the envelope.

Among the more than 60 letters sent to him by women, he was the only one that was opened.

"×year×month×day

I knew Asahi was in Ji's house, I saw it.

Would you like to come and see me?rule.Just meet once.

It was eight o'clock in the morning.

I'll be waiting for you to come to me on the rooftop of the top floor. "

The words and sentences written in the letter are rare and calm, without too many gorgeous rhetoric, just a simple invitation.

Osamu Dazai looked down at the time on the phone, it was one hour, two and ten minutes before eight o'clock.

Hanazawa Asahi in the room fell into a deep sleep immediately after falling asleep, and if no one disturbed him, Hanazawa Asahi would not wake up in a short time.

Thinking this way, he casually stuffed the opened letter into the mouth of the mailbox.Step by step to the stairs, straight to the roof.

Few people set foot on the rooftop of the apartment, and Osamu Dazai has been there countless times.

The unplanted flower pots on the roof are filled with countless extinguished cigarette butts, the dust on the floor is very thick, and the weeds that grow in the corners make people don't want to set foot again.

In the past, the landlord would clean it once a month, because no one has cleaned it in the past few months.The feeling of abandonment is getting stronger and stronger, and weeds are overgrown.

Osamu Dazai opened the dusty doorknob with some distaste, and when he opened the door, the vast sky squeezed into his field of vision.It's just dawn and the sky isn't that blue yet.

On the rooftop where no one should have existed during this period of time, there was a young woman wearing white pajamas, with long and slender limbs, and a sickly paleness that is not often seen in the sun.

She heard the sound of the door being opened, and looked back vigilantly.

With just one glance, her face was blushing, and she shyly turned her back on Osamu Dazai.The shy one even wanted to squat on the ground as if he didn't exist.

She calmed down for a while, and slowly said: "Why... why did Mr. Dazai appear here so early." She hurriedly added, "I am very happy that Mr. Dazai came as scheduled...but now I... Not groomed, no make-up, ugly dark circles on my face, not to mention I'm still in my pajamas."

She showed an embarrassing side in front of her sweetheart, and she even wanted to turn back time.

Last night, she knocked on Osamu Dazai's door and stayed up all night.My mind was full of thoughts that Hanazawa Asahi actually lived in Dazai Osamu's house.She couldn't be more clear about the fact that Osamu Dazai lives in a one-bedroom apartment.Thinking of her beloved sleeping with someone else, the acid in her jealous stomach would corrode her internal organs.

"I came too early. Good morning, Miss Aso." Osamu Dazai walked slowly to a corner of the roof, and put his hands on the edge of the railing.

He has seen the scene in front of him countless times, just like Aso Riede watched him countless times from behind the door.

Aso Toshie felt very happy just chatting with Osamu Dazai, she peeked at Osamu Dazai's side face from the corner of her eye, and said in a low voice, "Good morning...Ji, ah, Mr. Dazai."

The state of Aso Toshie was just as Osamu Dazai thought.

Aso Riede knew very well that Osamu Dazai did not read the letter written by her.Relying on his refusal to read the written letter, Aso Riede wrote all the secret desires in his heart on it.While knowing that Osamu Dazai would not read the letter she wrote, he hoped that Osamu Dazai would open the mailbox on a whim one day, and understand the love affair between Osamu Aso and Osamu Dazai.In this way, every day, every day, the envelope is put into the mailbox with hope.

Osamu Dazai looked at the distant scene, wandering his eyes aimlessly.

Just the same as before.

But Toshie Aso clearly realized that it was different now, the distance between Osamu Dazai and her was unprecedentedly close.If you say your own words at this time, then it must be... maybe.

"...Mr. Dazai." Aso Toshie summoned up her courage, she couldn't miss it anymore.

This time it is Hanazawa Asahi, who will it be next time.When a certain woman impresses Osamu Dazai, she will never have another chance.

From the bottom of her heart, she did not want to see such a future.

"Is there a problem?"

Dazai asked back.

The words that should have been spoken by Dazai Osamu would have been logical.

The words swirled around in Aso Lizhi's mouth, but he didn't say it out for a long time.

When the words in her mouth blurted out, they had already turned into another sentence.It is a hundred miles away from what I want to express.

"Mr. Dazai, have you deviated from your original intention?"

After Aso Toshie said it, he took it subconsciously, "After chatting with Hanazawa-kun yesterday, Mr. Dazai seems to have changed."

The change of temperament was very subtle, but Aso Riede noticed it immediately.

That kind of change was the change she had thought about countless times in her dreams and fantasies, but at this moment, she changed because of Hanazawa Asahi's extremely willful words.

However, in Aso Riede, I saw Dazai Osamu looking at the sky as always, looking at the ground under the high-rise building, with a view of nothingness as if it had no boundaries.She felt at ease, expecting an affirmative answer from Osamu Dazai.

Osamu Dazai laughed, "What did you say?"

"Suicide... martyrdom, etc." Aso Toshie added.

"how is this possible."

She knew it.

Osamu Dazai will not easily change himself because of other people. No matter how many nice things others say, the world in his eyes will always be that world.

The world in Osamu Dazai's eyes is different from that of ordinary people. He seems to see it more clearly, and his whole body is in the dark world of another dimension.No one can understand, even Aso Toshie, who loves Osamu Dazai deeply, desperately wants to know, desperately and constantly working hard.

She can't see through.

Aso Toshie knew it, no one would understand Dazai Osamu.

After Aso Riede learned the answer, he couldn't help showing a happy smile.

The girl's smile is sweet and waxy, but anyone who sees it will be moved for a moment.

Osamu Dazai will always be that Osamu Dazai, and redemption is too difficult for him.

If there is anything, to be able to gain the love of Osamu Dazai, to be able to sink together with him.Aso Lizhi only knew one answer.

"Mr. Dazai." Aso Toshie said softly, "I met you for the first time half a year ago. You told me whether you want to die for love together."

"I didn't give you a clear answer at the time, but I am willing now." Aso Rizhi's eyes were tender, as if he had a spring in his mouth, "Mr. Dazai, is he willing to die for love with me?"

Half a year ago, Osamu Dazai walked alone, and inadvertently had an invitation with Aso Toshie.

Half a year later, Aso Toshie took the initiative to invite him.

If she is willing to take her own life as the price, while dying in love with Osamu Dazai.You will have the same pain as Osamu Dazai for a short time, if at this moment, in the world of pain, I am the only one who is willing to extend my hand to you...

Mr. Dazai, will you fall in love with me at that moment?

Death is terrible, and the unknown pain makes Aso Lie panic.But apart from this, she really couldn't imagine any way to make Dazai Osamu fall in love with her, and in the days to come, she didn't need to be afraid that one day Dazai Osamu would really be unable to struggle and die alone without authorization.

Such a thing is more terrible than dying for love.

The pain and loneliness of being left behind transcends everything, including death.

"Are you ready?" Dazai asked.

Such an answer made her feel more joyful than any other words. Dazai Osamu said this sentence, which was undoubtedly a disguised promise.

Tears accumulated in Aso Lizhi's eyes, and he slowly smiled, "I've made up my mind, cure."

"Miss Aso, don't you feel scared at all?"

"Of course I'm scared...but when I think of the person who is by my side is Ji, I don't feel scared at all." Aso Riede said.

The roof is very high.

For the twelfth-floor apartment, jumping off the roof has lost all possibility of survival.Their corpses will become tattered and reduced to a puddle of flesh, and no one can understand the purpose of their joint suicide.

But it doesn't matter.

Aso Lizhi had been mentally prepared a long time ago.

She wanted to take a good look at Osamu Dazai's face before the end of her life, maybe after just a while, the two of them would never see each other again.Only on the road to hell can we meet again.

Osamu Dazai is the most handsome man Aso Riede has ever seen. He has a melancholy and lonely temperament, like a gorgeous Lycoris, blooming flamboyantly.It's also very poppy-like, and you can't forget it just by taking a sip.

But all women who are attracted to Osamu Dazai, if they are not overflowing with motherhood, they have empathy.

Toshie Aso met Osamu Dazai at the most inappropriate time.

Osamu Dazai was beside Toshie Aso, and he said with empathy: "I'm not in a hurry for the rest of my life, I'm afraid Miss Aso will regret it when she jumps off. Miss Aso, please think about it for a while."

Aso Lizhi wanted to say that she would not change her mind, she had thought about it carefully for a long, long time.

But Osamu Dazai didn't give him a chance, he turned his head and glanced at his phone.Then he put the phone on the platform with a calm expression, and looked forward indifferently.

Aso Toshie had no choice but to keep his mouth shut, Osamu Dazai was right, he was not in a hurry.

Her face was hurt by the wind, and she looked into the distance of the sky. The light of the morning sun was almost more beautiful than ever.

"Actually... I've already made up my mind. Mr. Dazai." Aso Toshie looked in a trance, looking at the sunrise that might be the last in his life, "I don't think it would be bad if I died in this beautiful sunrise."

Her slender body was tottering in the wind.

"Mr. Dazai, I love you."

Aso Lizhi slowly climbed up to the edge of the roof, formally standing on the highest point of the apartment, looking down from a height.

Everything was reduced to the size of a grain of rice, nothing to be afraid of.

She could no longer distinguish between panic and fear, and Aso Toshie closed her eyes, ready to embrace the future of death.

In the not-too-distant future, everything will be worthless.

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The question I have been thinking about before writing this article, I sent a question to all my friends at the same time, and they all answered the same answer as me.

Osamu Dazai will not be redeemed, and if he is redeemed, he will not be Osamu Dazai.

Asahi grabbed Osamu Dazai and made him willing to struggle painfully in the world

In fact, it is quite cruel, but there is a premise that there is an Asahi behind Oda.Both of them wanted to pull him, and it became one willing to fight and the other willing to suffer, so it didn't matter that much.

There will be an update later, [-] words tonight, wait slowly.

In fact, it is really good to write [-] words today. If I get stuck in this chapter, I feel that I will be hunted down by countless people (.)