I don't want to cry and I want to die for love[Comprehensive]

Hanazawa Asahi has not yet reacted from the fact that she was kissed by her best friend.

The brain turned into a paste, in a daze.Everything is mixed together, and the order of things can't be figured out.

Dazai Osamu couldn't think of Hanazawa Asahi's personality even if he tried his best, and he could see the epitome of others in his inner world.The epitome of this is me, with all my character and action.And I don't have miniature memories.

Of course Dazai Osamu didn't know what [he] had done, he just watched Hanazawa Asahi running fast instead of following the routine.

The smile froze on the face, and the outstretched hand also stayed in the air, not knowing whether to move or not.

"..."

Hanazawa Asahi covered her mouth, and subconsciously crawled and ran several steps behind, keeping a distance from Osamu Dazai.

The space on the rooftop seems to be stopped by some mysterious force in time and space.

Hanazawa Asahi didn't dare to look at Dazai Osamu, for fear that his abnormal state would be discovered.

He was so big, he kissed someone for the first time.

There is a certain gap between the inner world and the real world. Logically speaking, Hanazawa Asahi's first kiss still exists.

but.

Hanazawa Asahi felt her lips were burning hot, and her heart was beating violently and fast.

He didn't find it annoying.

Hanazawa Asahi screened out this information and shocked himself.

Like an ostrich, he wanted to bury his head in the ground.He hugged his knees with his hands and buried his head in his arms.The belated heat swept his whole body, Hanazawa Asahi felt that his ears, lips, and fingertips were hot and red, like a steamed prawn.

"...Wait a minute, let me take it easy." Hanazawa Asahi said sullenly.

Osamu Dazai got up from the ground silently.

He is like a flower peacock that has packed its feathers, showing off its beautiful feathers, blooming enthusiastically, and the peacock's blue tail feathers are so beautiful.Attack towards courtship.As a result, Hanazawa Asahi's reaction was beyond his expectations, which made Osamu Dazai somewhat frustrated.

Hanazawa Asahi didn't raise his head until the heat from his whole body dissipated.

In fact, he has some thoughts that he doesn't understand Osamu Dazai, and his inner world does not represent his true thoughts. Even if some people think this way, they may not do so in reality.

Maybe his shyness is just wishful thinking. If you really ask him in front of Osamu Dazai and get a negative answer, it would be embarrassing.

Hanazawa Asahi was restless, and said awkwardly: "...Mr. Dazai. That lady just now..."

He chose to ignore the topic just now, and turned to other topics.

"Aso Toshie." Osamu Dazai had a high EQ, but he knew at a glance that Hanazawa Asahi didn't want to talk about that topic again, so he dutifully explained, "It's the landlord's daughter."

Aso Riede is the landlord's daughter.

Even so, the number of exchanges between Osamu Dazai and Toshie Aso can be counted on the fingers.Osamu Dazai lived in this apartment for only half a year, but he rarely saw Toshie Aso. She was very busy at work, leaving early and returning late, and shy by nature. Every time she saw Osamu Dazai, she could hardly speak a few words.

Osamu Dazai knew that Toshie Aso would occasionally spy on him nearby, but he never did anything out of line, so Osamu Dazai let Toshie Aso peep at him.

However, things changed three months ago. The mother and landlord who depended on Aso Riede passed away due to an accidental car accident.Aso Toshie and Osamu Dazai are not much different in age. She has just graduated from university not long ago and is currently only 21 years old.

She is not a self-reliant person.

The moment his mother died, Aso Toshie lost all his courage.

I also resigned from my job in the company without authorization and severed contact with others.Living alone in the house where I once lived with my mother, I live in a muddle and muddle through every day, and I don't know the joy of life anymore.

To Aso Riede, mother is the last hemp rope, the only tie in this world.

Aso Riede, who has lost his ties, has no strength to face the world.

In such a life, she was completely habitual to see Osamu Dazai.

His decadent temperament assimilated with Aso Lizhi, he lost hope for life, and longed for death, all of which attracted Aso Lizhi.

Everything becomes natural.

Aso Toshie's ties have shifted from his dead mother to Dazai Osamu.

Aso Lie thinks that he is going to die, even if he wrote down the extortion statement, whether he intends to do it, or just exists in fantasy, everything Aso Lie does is wrong.

Hanazawa Asahi was dumbfounded.

When people's endurance exceeds a certain level, they will seek other sustenance by themselves.

For Toshie Aso, who was unwilling to contact the outside world at the time, she was attracted by Osamu Dazai, and she didn't know whether it was a bad thing or a good thing.

Aso Lizhi should accept the correct psychological guidance and get out of this state as soon as possible.

Hanazawa Asahi thought for a while, the doctor friend he could contact.

Although he is currently in the medical school, he is not proficient in the knowledge he has learned.But because of this reason, he met a lot of doctor friends with good means.

If Aso Toshie is willing to cooperate, Hanazawa Asahi will definitely find a doctor who suits her and get out of this state as soon as possible.

Osamu Dazai patted the dust on the hem of his clothes, and the bright camel-colored windbreaker was covered with dust, making it very conspicuous.

He walked up to Huazawa Asahi step by step and looked down at Huazawa Asahi: "Asahi, I have finished understanding about Miss Aso, do you want to consider the issue between me and you?"

Hanazawa Asahi broke away from her thoughts, looked at Osamu Dazai blankly, and got stuck.

Normally, shouldn't two people fool each other to avoid embarrassment?

Look at the air, Mr. Dazai.

Just as Hanazawa Asahi complained countless times that Dazai Osamu is a KY, Dazai Osamu also did a KY as he wished, showing a persuasive smile, and he stretched his voice: "Hmm...? Have you thought about how to stagger this topic? ?”

"..."

Can't miss it.

Osamu Dazai obviously intends to hold on to this topic.

Hanazawa Asahi still maintained a squatting posture, and there was a clear gap with Dazai Osamu who was standing tall. Hanazawa Asahi felt the great oppression Dazai Osamu gave him, and couldn't help but want to back away.

The footsteps had barely moved a centimeter before Osamu Dazai grabbed his shoulder and firmly fixed him in place.Osamu Dazai bent down, and slowly approached Hanazawa Asahi.

Hanazawa Asahi recalled that only 10 minutes ago, [Dazai Osamu] did the same thing, when he was defenseless, [Dazai Osamu] kissed him.

A blush climbed up his earlobe, burning hot.Hanazawa Asahi wanted to distance himself from Osamu Dazai, but Osamu Dazai didn't give him any chance.The hand on the shoulder was full of strength, Hanazawa Asahi turned his face away, not daring to look at Osamu Dazai.

"..."

Osamu Dazai did not speak for a long time.

Hanazawa Asahi didn't dare to speak, he slowly peeped at Osamu Dazai from the corner of his eye.

I noticed that Osamu Dazai restrained all his smiles, exuding a shockingly huge aura.

It is always the scariest when the person who has been smiling in front of his eyes restrains all his smiles.

It's just that when Osamu Dazai's vision touched a certain point, the expression on Osamu Dazai's face was no longer tense.

His fingers touched Huazawa Asahi's red earballs, and his cold fingers touched the rising temperature.

The temperature difference is too great.

Both sides were stunned.

Hanazawa Asahi took Dazai Osamu's hand off, and the weakness was discovered.He had no choice but to turn his head away in embarrassment, trying to escape reality.

Osamu Dazai let out a muffled "poof", feeling that his irritability just now was fake and unnecessary.

Although I don't know why Hanazawa Asahi reacted so strongly, Osamu Dazai didn't care.

The distance between him and Huazawa Asahi was only a little, and when he spoke, he seemed to stick to Huazawa Asahi's ear, and said slowly: "Is it disgusting?"

"..."

Hanazawa Asahi was silent, stretched out his hand to push Dazai Osamu's face away, and looked at the distant buildings eagerly, as if he could see a beautiful flower coming out.

In fact, it is not objectionable.

He found himself thinking a little bit about Osamu Dazai, and that little thought frightened him.I don't know how to deal with such emotions, everything came too fast.All his affairs have not been sorted out, and he can no longer tell whether it is friendship, love, or both for Osamu Dazai——

Osamu Dazai is not a suitable object of love.

Hanazawa Asahi thought this way countless times, but when he was a friend, he would always be frightened, not knowing when something would happen to Osamu Dazai.I can't keep up with Osamu Dazai's brain circuit. If they really fall in love, will the two of them part ways in the future.

"...No objection." Hanazawa Asahi muttered for a long time, then he said, "But I don't want to fall in love with Mr. Dazai."

He has self-knowledge and knows that he is just a fledgling kid who knows nothing about love. If he falls in love with the experienced Osamu Dazai, he will have more things to worry about.

Friendship and love.

What separates them is not a thin line, but just a word, the meaning of which is very different.As a friend, Hanazawa Asahi can easily tease Dazai Osamu, once changed to another identity——

Hanazawa Asahi did not have the confidence to do well.

"It's the first time I've been rejected seriously." Dazai Osamu knelt on the ground with one knee, lowered his head and put it on Hanazawa Asahi's shoulder, looking very sad.

Hanazawa Asahi extended his hand to comfort Osamu Dazai, and finally stopped.

As a person who has just rejected someone else's confession, one should not give others kindness at this time.

"Asahi, how do you know if you don't try it." Osamu Dazai said, "I'm not at the point where I want Asahi. I like you now, and Asahi doesn't dislike me. This state is enough, not talking about marriage Marriage is serious and solemn, falling in love is two people touching and testing each other."

Dazai Osamu hooked Hanazawa Asahi's finger, "Just try."

Not disgusting is superficial discourse.

Hanazawa Asahi is tempted, but it is far from the point where Dazai Ji is absolutely necessary. He can control this relationship and face everything rationally.

Both of them are 20-year-old adults, not like teenage high school students, full of blood and desperate, just for the burning love.

The two of them are mature in mind, even if Hanazawa Asahi has never been in a relationship, they can tell right from wrong.

Can be biased.

[Just try. ]

These three words, like feathers, stirred Hanazawa Asahi's heart slightly.

He was tempted and seduced by Osamu Dazai.

Fingers were faster than words, his index finger hooked Dazai Osamu's little finger quietly.

Give each other a little affection as the price, as the price for the beginning of the relationship.All the development of the relationship is entrusted to the running-in between the two in the future.

Maybe they will be together forever, maybe they will break up because of a certain thing, these are all things that belong to them in the future.

Osamu Dazai smiled, and he tentatively kissed the corner of Hanazawa Asahi's mouth.

"Give me three months, Asahi."

"?"

Osamu Dazai's hand intersected with Hanazawa Asahi's five fingers.

"Let's go elope."

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Everyone in the comment section yesterday was hahaha, smiling as if he was a black man (shaking his head) Save some face for Da Zai

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What I wrote yesterday was a bit rough, I’ll edit it when I have time on Saturday and Sunday ww

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