There is a movie star in my family

Gu Nan was finally persuaded by Lin Jiu's words. When he entered the ward, even though the nurse emphasized that there was no need to change the sterile gown, he still insisted on changing it before going in.

In the end, Shen Xu came forward to help him get it done.

Maybe Gu Nan was really afraid that the bacteria on his body would infect An Yichen, or... In Gu Nan's subconscious mind, he had already regarded himself as the source of the bacteria.

He is an unclean dirty thing similar to bacteria, maybe he hopes that after wearing a sterile suit, An Yichen will not be infected by the dirty things on his body again.

Or maybe I want to give myself a strong psychological comfort and hint, telling myself that I will no longer be "dirty" after wearing a sterile suit.He can be close to the one he loves.

An Yichen's complexion was gray and pale, in Gu Nan's eyes it was like a thorn pierced into his heart.That uncontrollable crazy thought once again breeds in his heart.

It would be nice if he didn't exist.

When he was young, his mother didn't exist, so he didn't have to work hard to support him, which caused him to fall ill, and finally left early.

It would be nice if he didn't exist.

If he didn't exist now, An Yichen wouldn't be with him, and wouldn't be forced to get involved in these things.

He will choose to leave here after he has been playing tricks and can't get ahead, and return home to be a small civil servant or employee in other industries.There is a fixed income, a stable life...and possibly other lovers.

If he didn't exist... then An Yichen might never find that he likes men, he would marry a wife and have children, and have a very ordinary life like everyone else.

That was the life that An Yichen should have lived, but in the end he broke it with his own hands.

"But I have already appeared." Gu Nan sat on the edge of An Yichen's bed, her fingers gently slid across his face, tracing the outline of his face little by little.I don't know if it's his illusion, it seems that An Yichen's face has become much thinner than when they parted in the morning.

It looks like "skinny".

"I won't let you be like a normal person... marry a wife and have children." He leaned close to An Yichen's ear, gently blowing into his ear in his favorite posture before, and whispered to him say.The voice was so small that it didn't seem like he was talking to An Yichen, but rather like he was talking to himself.

"You are mine." He looked at An Yichen's face firmly and stubbornly, as if he wanted to completely remember his appearance in his heart, engraved in his bones and blood.

"You are already mine."

Gu Nan's hand slowly slid across his neck, then slipped down a little bit, and finally stayed on his chest, feeling his heartbeat.His heart was still beating regularly, and it didn't show a "weak beating" state as in the script.

That seems like good news, at least for now.Gu Nan laughed at himself, and finally stretched out his hand to gently lift his hand that was still in the infusion and put it on his palm, feeling his cold temperature, but Gu Nan felt that his heart was slowly recovering. The blood in his body boiled and rolled again because he touched the lover he had been worrying about and longing for.

Gu Nan just stared at An Yichen's hand, hoping that the next moment he could move his fingers slightly like those written in those film and television dramas and novels, and then open his eyes and look at him.

Those eyes may be the haze and confusion of waking up, maybe the peace of mind and joy of seeing him, or even the disgust and hatred for him...

Anything is fine, as long as those eyes can be opened again, to see the world and see him again, that's enough.

Gu

Nan couldn't help taking a deep breath, not so much a deep breath as he was pumping.He felt as if he could hardly breathe, but he dared not cry.

He was afraid that those tears would be too heavy, and that they would suddenly disturb the sleeping person on the bed.

Gu Nan suddenly remembered a long time ago, when he was a junior high school student.He told his mother that he would be a very good husband and father in the future, and he would make his lover and children happy forever.

But his lover was lying on the bed, and he couldn't do anything.

He even made him become such a person indirectly.

At that moment, Mu Linsen Gu Nan seemed to feel that he was not just sitting here, he seemed to be in that car.He was the one who was driving the car. In order to protect himself, he drove the car to the side, so that the angle of the car was hit so that he would not be seriously injured.

He seemed to be one of the people carried by Xiao He, and he sat next to An Yichen.Just a moment ago they were still sitting side by side like every time before, with An Yichen's head resting on his shoulder, and they were chatting with each other about love between lovers.

Then the next moment, when the car hit them, Gu Nan decisively pushed him away.Pushing it against the glass that the car was about to hit, he looked at An Yichen's bloody side face, thinking that he survived.

Gu Nan was completely confused by the hallucination in front of him, he even felt that he was the driver of the truck, and he stepped on the gas pedal desperately to run towards that car.

Gu Nan suddenly felt that the air in the room was stuffy, which made him feel uncomfortable.He went to the window and opened it, and looked out.

The greening of the hospital is very good. The place for patients to take a walk, rest and bask in the sun is comparable to that in the park. The sunlight outside is very strong, but it can't bring the slightest warmth to the three people in the house. .

Shen Xu first went to the doctor's office and asked the doctor to make sure that An Yichen and Xiao He's problems were not serious, as long as they cultivated well, there would be basically no sequelae before going to the ward.

Originally, Shen Xu wanted to transfer them to a private hospital in consideration of the hospital's confidentiality measures, but the doctor said that he could not judge whether they could be transferred until An Yichen woke up and made another diagnosis. In addition, it was inconvenient to move now, so he had to give up.

When he returned to the room, Gu Nan had calmed down a lot, at least on the surface.He is processing messages on his cell phone.

"The car accident was photographed, and they said there was a paparazzi nearby, and they knew that the number of the car was mine, so they followed." An Yichen took a deep breath, and Shen Xu didn't even bother to look at these things after he arrived. , directly threw his mobile phone into Shen Xu's hand.

"I just bought the news agency he contributed to a while ago. It was supposed to be..." Gu Nan stopped in the middle of speaking, "I didn't expect to use it for this first."

"You can talk to them yourself, you can deal with it however you want." Gu Nan's mind was completely out of it, "As long as he doesn't disturb his rest, it's fine."

Gu Nan always insisted on using the word "rest" to describe the unconscious person lying on the bed, as if he was really just too tired, so he wanted to rest for a while.It's like he took a nap in his arms after every filming, and he would wake up after a while, leaving a kiss on his cheek to comfort him and act as a human pillow without moving.

"Wake up quickly." Gu Nan put her face on top of An Yichen's, never daring to touch his face with the tip of her nose or lips, "You're just tired."