my name is nothingness

The lotus is blooming, the crowded lotus leaves set off the delicate flowers, and the fish are playing faintly in the water.Lianmu sat in the pavilion on the pool and drank wine alone.He thought about some things for a long time, but he couldn't figure it out.At this time, it would be fine if the big one was hidden.People are like this, when they are together, they desperately want to leave him, but when they leave, they miss him all the time.

"What's wrong with you?" Ever since Lianmu came back from the outside, he has been silent and unpredictable, which she hates the most.

"It's nothing." Lianmu smiled at her, seeing Yuduo's feminine curves, for some reason it reminded him of the word motherhood, and he couldn't help but feel disgusted.

"Did something happen?" Yu Duo asked with concern.

"It's really nothing." Lianmu said perfunctorily.

"If there is anything, you can tell me. Since we met, you never said anything about you. I don't know anything about you. At first I thought we were friends, but it doesn't seem to be true with you." It’s not like that.” Yu Duo originally wanted to comfort Lianmu, but ended up talking about his own feelings.

"Yeah." Lianmu didn't want to answer her at this time, because what she said was the truth, and he rarely regarded a person as a friend.Maybe until now, in his opinion, no one can be called his friend.

"You are always like this. When you ask about your affairs, you always look like you don't care." Yuduo growled loudly, "Do you know how much I care about you? Everyone needs to communicate. I hope I know exactly what you're thinking."

"But I didn't want your concern." Lianmu said blankly. He didn't understand why Yuduo suddenly became like this. Maybe he could understand Yuduo's thoughts, but he didn't like this kind of forced The feeling of peeping into someone else's mind.

"You mean I've always been self-indulgent? I regard you as my best friend, what about you? Have you ever cared about me?" Yuduo cried.

Lianmu looked at Yuduo in disbelief, without saying a word.It stands to reason that at this time he should start to comfort Yu Duo.But now he doesn't want to do that, and even wants to see what Yuduo's reaction will be next.

"What do you think of me? I left my hometown and my parents for you. But you are like this. Have you ever cared about me? Have you ever worried about me?" Yuduo's voice became louder , began to become hysterical.boom!Lianmu threw the jug in her hand onto the pillar next to Yuduo, still staring at Yuduo with indifferent eyes, he just wanted her to shut up.

"What do you mean? Do you still have a temper? I still want to lose my temper. I just want to talk to you. What's the matter if you lose your temper without saying a word? Are you the only one who loses his temper?" Yuduo continued to live in desperation.

Lianmu looked at the fish in front of him, and suddenly fell straight into the pond, and the lotus and lotus leaves beside him were pushed aside by his body.The pool water surrounded his body, and slowly he calmed down.

Yuduo stood on the pavilion blankly, looking at the admiration in the water, embellished by the things in the pool, there was an indescribable sense of beauty.After a while, she realized that she jumped into the water and scooped up Lianmu.

At night, Lianmu opened his eyes, looked at Yuduo who had been sitting beside him, and then raised his eyes to the ceiling: "We just love to separate."

Yu Duo was a little dazed, and he didn't know why Lian Mu suddenly said this: "Do you think I'm too annoying? I promise I won't be like this in the future."

"Let's separate now. I will give you some money and let you go back to your parents. If you like this place, I will choose to leave here." Lianmu wanted to understand one thing, he seemed not to fall in love Everyone, interacting with others is just a trick for fun.He just wants someone to see him and care about him, but soon he will hate the person who cares about him.

"You talk like that, I'm scared, everything will be fine tomorrow."

"Well, everything will be fine tomorrow."

At dawn the next day, Lianmu left the house without taking anything with her.