have you ever seen the sea

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In just a few seconds, a lifetime has passed.

We won't see each other again, whether she and him have a good relationship for a hundred years, whether they have a full house of children and grandchildren, or whether they are really happy, we will never see each other again.

I used to really really, really like her.

She is my muse, someone I love.I can't say love her because that would be too heavy and would burden her.

I don't want to imprison her, no one can imprison anyone in the name of love.Everyone should be free, but someone is lucky enough to meet a lover who is willing to be imprisoned by love.

The word lover never applies to me and her.I know, she doesn't love me, I know from the beginning to the end.

Maybe there is a little bit of liking, but it's just a little bit, and I can't see it.

The sea is blue and really beautiful.The waves are magnificent, as if there will be a huge storm at any time.I know how dangerous the sea is, and I also know how hard it is to love her.

But people will not give up what they like because of these.There is no reason, just because of love, so the danger and pain that comes with it are also fully accepted.

The feeling of love is greater than the price paid.I thought so.

I don't regret it, but if I could do it all over again, I would never love her again.

The price of loving someone is too high, and now I find that I can't afford it.

After she left, I was depressed for a long time, and I never picked up a paintbrush again, the ideal I once regarded as a treasure.Since my muse is gone, what else can I paint?

Later, my sister couldn't stand my appearance of being neither human nor ghost, so she boarded a flight to the UK, trying to find the person who made me look like this.

But she never came back.

Probably buried in the Atlantic Ocean, because even the body was never found.

She hates me, my sister should hate me, hate me for letting her die in a foreign land, and even the dead body cannot return to her familiar hometown.

So to punish me, I haven't dreamed of her once in so many years, and I am not allowed to see her.Leaving me really nothing.

It was I who killed her, and it was I who prevented her from returning to her hometown.It was I who fell in love with someone I shouldn't love, that made her who loved me fall into this fate.

My eyes are also about to go blind, because I have been crying day and night for these years.I don't want to cry, but I always bleed all over my face without knowing it.

I haven't been to a doctor, it's just how it feels.Today is probably a rare happy mood, and the eyes are not so blurred.

I'm so happy because she's married because I can finally let go.

Biggest mistake of my life.

I walked barefoot on the beach, stepped on a string of footprints, and walked to the beach.

The water that washes the beach rolls in and touches my feet, cool, cool.

If I hadn't entangled her, would everything have been different?

As I thought this way, the sea water did not reach my calf.

It doesn't matter, from now on, I will never miss her again.

The water didn't reach my legs.

Will my sister forgive me?I'm really sorry, but please see me again.

The waist was also soaked.

No more guilt, no need to be tormented by longing day and night.No, I think I may still feel guilty until the day my sister forgives me.

The water was up to the chest.

I think I might be really short.

Thinking like this, I finally completely submerged my head, my breathing and my body all sank into the sea.

I tried my best to open my eyes, and there was sea water in front of me, boundless blue, and I couldn't see the sky.

Maybe I'm going to sink in the boundless darkness.

The sea is so wide that it can bury everything.