Chasing

Wei Yi managed to recover from the shock, the first thing he did was to shake off Han Jifei's hand. "What did you say?"

After all, Wei Yi never imagined that someone who has been treated like a younger brother and a junior would come to tell him that he likes him.And they are both of the same gender, yes, this is called homosexuality, right? Wei Yi knows something about it, and he does not discriminate against homosexuality, but he is not, but he cannot accept it. This shock to him is equivalent to someone telling him tonight The earth is about to be destroyed.Wei Yi himself doesn't even touch a woman, let alone a man, a man of the same gender as him.

"Stop making trouble, today is not the April Fool's Day that you young people like to celebrate." Wei Yi said.

Han Jifei seemed to be mentally prepared to be rejected, he just smiled and said nothing.I turned around and went to the wall, bent down to get the thermos, and went to the water room to fetch water, as if nothing had happened.

Wei Yi heard the door being closed, and footsteps came from the corridor, step by step, not as calm as before.Wei Yi put his hands in the pockets of his coat and paced back and forth in the room, but after walking around for a while, he felt bored. Before Han Jifei came back, he planned to go to the office to calm down.

On the way to the office, he saw Han Jifei returning from fetching water. The two of them missed each other like strangers, and neither of them spoke.It was as if a strong friendship built up over the past few months suddenly fell apart.

When Wei Yi arrived at the office, he quickly lit a cigarette and puffed it up. He felt that only tobacco could calm him down. He really couldn't figure out why the relationship between good colleagues became like this.I didn't do anything that made Han Jifei like it, and Han Jifei was like this, did his parents know?Thinking about it, Wei Yi felt something strange on his lips, so he wiped it with his hands.

In a blink of an eye, the cigarette was exhausted, and the smell of tobacco covered the smell of strawberry cream left by Han Jifei's kiss just now. Seeing that this method was effective, Wei Yi lit another one, and he hadn't smoked twice yet. There was a faint knock on the door.

"Brother Wei." Unlike the confession just now, Han Jifei resumed addressing him.

Wei Yi ignored him, but the door was unlocked, so Han Jifei pushed the door open and came in.

As usual, Han Jifei sat across from him and looked at him with some reservations. He was very nervous, even more nervous than the first day he came to this unit.

Wei Yi wanted to leave for no reason, but his butt seemed to be glued to the chair, unable to move.In fact, he still wanted to hear Han Jifei's explanation.

"Brother Wei, in fact, I have already foreseen the consequences, and I am quite tormented if I say it or not."

"Then don't say it." Wei Yi said angrily.

Han Jifei pursed his lips and showed a wry smile. "I didn't want to say it later. You didn't force me to say it."

"That's still my fault, you really don't know what to do." Wei Yi turned his head away awkwardly.

"Brother Wei, I came to your office just to tell you, can you just pretend that nothing happened just now? When I farted, we, we still get along like before. In this case, I will never say anything in the future. gone."

Wei Yi didn't speak, Han Jifei stood up, and said to Wei Yi: "It's getting late, I'll go back to boil water, Brother Wei, your office is very cold, go back."

Wei Yi still didn't move, but when Han Jifei was about to go out, he asked Han Jifei, "Do your parents know?"

"Yeah. I know."

Wei Yi was shocked, and he asked again, "What? You said they all knew?"

"Yes, my mother knows it's you. My dad knows it too, but don't worry, my dad doesn't know it's you. In fact, he can't accept it, but because my mother is sick and my mother protects me, he also Say nothing more."

When Wei Yi heard it, he didn't say anything, and waved his hand to let Han Jifei go first.But Han Jifei was standing at the door, as if he didn't move, and neither did he.

Wei Yi thought he was annoying, so he said to him: "You go back first, I will stay in the office by myself, and I can't sleep on the sofa."

"Oh." Han Jifei's voice was weak, he unscrewed the door, walked out, and gently closed the door again.

Wei Yi rubbed his face vigorously, but the scene of Han Jifei confessing his love to him was always in his mind.He felt more and more puzzled, he was a nice guy, why... and the object was himself, even his parents knew about his sexuality!Wei Yi thought of the way Han Jifei's mother looked him up and down the last time Han Jifei asked him to go to his house... My God, this made Wei Yi, who was not originally dull, his brain completely shut down.

Not long after, the ashtray on Wei Yi's desk was full, he got up and turned off the lights in the office, and returned to the dormitory with the smell of cigarettes all over his body.

The lights in the dormitory had already been turned off, and before ten o'clock, Han Jifei had already gone to bed, which was even better so as to avoid embarrassment.Wei Yi took the kettle, basin and toothbrush to the water room to wash up. After finishing everything, he returned to the bedroom, took off his coat and trousers, and got under the covers to get ready for sleep.After entering, he found that it was warm inside, probably Han Jifei turned on the electric blanket for him.Their dormitory is on the shady side of the office building, and the unit's heating is not too hot. Since the deep winter, every time they are on duty, Han Jifei will help him turn on the electric mattress first, and ask him to turn down the temperature before going to bed, so as not to If you sleep overnight, you will get angry.Although it was quite embarrassing today, Han Jifei still didn't forget about it.

Wei Yi closed his eyes and wanted to sleep, when he heard Han Jifei turning over. If before, Wei Yi would definitely ask if he disturbed him, but today he really can't ask.

Han Jifei said that we should get along as before, how should we get along?Wei Yi even thought that if Han Jifei is like this, should he let his son get close to him? After all, his son is about to reach puberty, and now he is ignorant. He is really worried that his son will go astray. It is a kind of sensitivity of being a father.

Wei Yi thought a lot, and when he was about to fall asleep, Han Jifei said, "Brother Wei, are you asleep?"

Han Jifei's voice was a little hoarse, Wei Yi wanted to pretend to be asleep, but didn't hear it.

Han Jifei ignored this, and just muttered in a low voice: "If you really care, I'll go to the leader. The civil affairs department has been trying to get me to go there. Also, I'd better take the commuter bus to and from work in the future, after all It's also quite embarrassing. If you are worried that I will affect Xiaoxi, I will not give him tutoring after school starts in March. I am really stupid to make things like this."

Hearing this, Wei Yi was disturbed and sat up abruptly, but Han Jifei let out a cry of surprise.

"Are you annoyed? You're whining." Wei Yi went to turn on the light, and he saw Han Jifei also sat up, his eyes were red, probably crying while he wasn't there.

"Your sexuality is a mess, I can't say anything, it may be innate, no one wants it. But like you said, I pretend nothing happened, put away your so-called likes, don't Talk about it in front of me." After saying this, Wei Yi turned off the light again, lay on the bed, turned over, and turned his back to Han Jifei.

"Yes." Han Jifei gave him an answer like this.

After a long time, Wei Yi tossed and turned and still couldn't fall asleep. Originally, he decided to live in peace, but he still couldn't help asking: "When did you find out?"

Han Jifei also didn't fall asleep, and answered him honestly: "High school."

"... so small?" Wei Yi asked in surprise.

"Well. It was quite troublesome during that time, and my grades dropped quickly, but my mother is very good. She is a home decoration designer, the kind who is very powerful. She majored in art in college, and she is also very romantic. What did I grow up with? I was willing to tell her everything, and I told her about it, thinking she would beat me up, but who knew, she rubbed my head and said I worked hard. I cried so much that she kept comforting me, Said that if you meet someone you like, you must take it back and show it to her."

"So you had to let me go upstairs that day?"

Han Jifei said: "Yes, I want her to see you, because I don't know when she might leave me."

"Your mother...what's wrong?"

"At first it was breast cancer. After the operation, it recovered quite well. Before I came to work, it metastasized to the lymph nodes, and then underwent chemotherapy, which temporarily controlled it."

Wei Yi was silent, and Han Jifei said again: "When I was about to be in my third year of high school, my dad accidentally found out about this secret, and he reacted very strongly. Fortunately, it was a holiday at that time, and I was locked up for several days. My mother would say nothing. It didn’t work. He even slapped my mother, saying that she got me used to it. At that time, I hated him so much and swore that I would stay away from him when I was in college. I passed the exam, whether it was winter vacation or summer vacation. I have never been home. My mother misses me, so she buys a plane ticket to visit me. Every year, she spends the New Year with me in Hunan. If she is not sick, I may not go back. After I go back, my dad His attitude towards me has also changed, perhaps because my mother's illness came too suddenly, he couldn't accept it for a while, and he was afraid of putting pressure on me, my mother would get angry, no matter how serious the illness was."

Han Jifei spoke very calmly, as if he was telling someone else's story.As Wei Yi listened, he felt that the corners of his eyes were wet and his nose was a bit blocked.

"I really didn't want to tell you. After my mother saw you that time, she actually didn't understand me very well. She thought you were old and straight." Han Jifei laughed when he said this, his voice He became brisk, "Things have become very bad anyway, if my mother finds out, she will definitely laugh at me for what I deserve. But many things, since they have already happened, can't be changed."

Wei Yi remained silent all the time. Hearing Han Jifei talk about this experience, his heart became heavy, and he even felt a little sympathetic to Han Jifei.For a while, he didn't know what to say, whether he should comfort him, but once comforted, would Han Jifei misunderstand him?The whole room became very quiet, and they were only accompanied by the occasional sound of the north wind blowing outside.

The young man next to him usually seemed to be well-behaved, but in fact he also had a lot of depression in his heart. His mother who loved him was seriously ill, and he didn't understand that his father was in a high position. He must have no sense of security in that family.But Wei Yi felt that this was just sympathy, and there was no other emotion involved.

Wei Yi was about to fall asleep after thinking about it, when he heard Han Jifei say: "Brother Wei, I really won't talk about it in the future. But... my heart will never change. Even if you will remarry in the future or something .”