Canary pretends to be good and runs away wearing books

For the first time in his life, without drinking a drop of wine, Ji Luo returned home in a daze, not knowing what happened.

Only then did he realize that he was also quite glass-hearted.

And... nothing.

Isn't he just...

Don't you just not live at home?

Didn't it just take away some files and some U disk?

...Why do I feel so uncomfortable.

Ji Luomu hugged his legs and curled up on the sofa blankly, unwilling to think about it, and also unwilling to think about it.

You don't want anything.

What do you mean you gave me back everything I gave you...

……

Today's teenagers are no longer as sickly and thin as they were at the beginning.

Being cared for and fed all the time, every meal is not missing a bit of nutrition, a glass of milk can't wait to be fed to his mouth... In the past few months, Ji Luo has already returned to a basically normal figure, Although the muscle lines are not particularly obvious, they have become very handsome and good-looking.

However, the appearance of him huddled up on the sofa now, in the eyes of outsiders, is actually worse than the previous appearance.

Also vulnerable.

The housekeeper was very worried, and came forward to ask Ji Luo: "Master, what happened? Is there anything I can do for you?"

Ji Luo only covered his eyes and waved his hand, motioning for him to leave.

I kept thinking in my mind...and didn't want to think about what Jian Ling said.

You do what you want.

Don't notify me.

……

Season falls.

Stop it.

The noon sun shines on the clear Swan Lake outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, reflecting the sparkling water.

The beautiful scenery is ahead, but Ji Luo doesn't care to appreciate it at all.

He seemed to grab Ji Ling and ask, why don't you want me, you obviously want me to like you too.

... But after the man said the words 'stop making trouble', Ji Luo was so shocked by his indifferent eyes that he couldn't move anymore, and couldn't speak a word.

The man's eyes have always been deep.

Ji Luo always felt that those eyes were like black holes in the infinite universe, able to suck everything in, smash everything without leaving any emotion.

Ji Luo thought that he had long been used to Jian Ling's appearance.

However, he didn't realize until today that he didn't.

In the past, no matter how deep and dark Jian Ling's eyes were, they could always reflect Ji Luo's figure.

When Ji Luo looked at him, even if he couldn't read other things in that person's eyes, he could always realize that... Ji Ling was looking at him intently.

Not today.

Even Ji Luo grabbed the man's shoulders and dangled the most collapsed, shouting that he' you can't let me go! 'when……

He also failed to see anything related to himself in the eyes of men.

A piece of clothing, a trace of emotion, no light at all.

Just pure disregard.

……

Ji Luo hugged his legs tighter and tighter, but no matter how much he filled his arms, he couldn't alleviate the emptiness in his heart.

Tears slipped down from the corners of my eyes unconsciously.

The crystal clear teardrops gathered into a puddle of water, sliding down the gully between the cheek and the leather sofa and into the corner of the mouth.

Ji Luo gently licked his tears with the tip of his tongue...

After thinking about it, it turned out that tears tasted like this.

Salty and tasteless at all.

But why, after crying so many times before, never really understood this taste?

He covered his eyes, trying to recall the past, but after thinking about it, Ji Ling's figure dangled in front of him.

When his father passed away at that time, Ji Ling would immediately wipe away Ji Luo's tears every time.

While gently erasing it with her fingers, she said in a low voice, "Luoluo don't cry, I have to meet people... don't cry, okay?" '

Later, Ji Luo would no longer cry because of that incident, only when the two of them made|loved, would they keep crying because of the unbearable pleasure.

At that time, Ji Ling would always gently kiss his eyes.

No matter how rough the action is, he will carefully kiss the tears he shed little by little, without leaving any traces of tears.

just now……

Ji Luo raised his hand, carelessly touched the corners of his mouth and cheeks, trying to imitate what the man did, and wipe away his tears casually.

But he was so stupid that he didn't know why, the more he rubbed, the more tears flowed.

Even in the end, it was like turning on the faucet, uncontrollably gurgling from the eye sockets, soaking the eyelashes, and drawing one after another tear stains.

No one can help him block all the bitterness, so he can only swallow it by himself.

Really bitter.

... But Ji Ling, why did you always kiss my tears away?

The more he thought about it, the more uncomfortable it became. Ji Luo couldn't stand the throbbing pain in his heart, he grasped the sofa with his fingertips, and sat up with his head propped up.

However, a burst of dizziness hit him, causing him to lie down again uncontrollably.

Decadent and depressed.

totally unexpected……

The person in front said so many times of 'no more', 'don't want to see you', 'go out' and other words, but none of them broke him down to this point.

Even Ji Luo could wishfully deny the man's true meaning.

However, when Jian Ling uttered the word 'Ji Luo' in the coldest tone that Ji Luo is most familiar with——

His thoughts collapsed in an instant.

These two words are both familiar and unfamiliar.

Others call him Ji Luo, isn't that normal?

Why... Ji Ling said these two words...

Just so glassy...

Ji Luo's fingers pinched hard into the gap of the sofa cushion, so hard that it seemed to pinch it to pieces.

Children who have never been in a relationship and have never started a relationship normally can't figure it out.

Things are happening so fast these days...

He can't take it.

What kept echoing in my ears was Jian Ling's voice when he coldly said the word 'Ji Luo'.

A low growl came out of his throat, and Ji Luo smashed out a cushion as if venting his anger!

Her delicate face was already stained with tears, her beautiful peach eyes were swollen into small walnuts, and her curly hair, which had always been carefully groomed, was in a mess.

Through the reflection of the glass window, Ji Luo saw himself vaguely.

"..."

pretty ugly.

He covered his eyes and fell down again, lying on the sofa holding his phone in a daze.

After much deliberation, I can't figure it out.

Simply open Baidu and search like a neurotic: Why does he not want me anymore.

The first answer: because he doesn't love you anymore.

Ji Luo stared at these six words, and almost threw the phone out and broke it.

But the second answer made him hold back the thought.

'He doesn't value you, he will regret it! '

The small Adam's apple rolled up and down, Ji Luo frowned and watched for a while.

Does he not cherish me?

……

This answer doesn't even require thinking, Ji Luo can answer directly.

He... cherishes me very much.

I didn't...

The red eyes closed impatiently, and after a while, they slowly opened.

It's because I don't cherish it, that's why he doesn't want me anymore.

His eyes became sore again, and the feeling of uncontrollable tears surged up like a sea tide.

Ji Luo wanted to control himself, so he simply gave up on this question and clicked on a related search.

【Why don't people love someone anymore? 】

There was a vast mist in front of him, and Ji Luo took a lot of effort to wipe it off, and only then could he see the answer to the question.

'Because I don't love you anymore. '

Ji Luo: ...

Why one, two, three answers are all 'I don't love anymore'!

He does not love me?

No!

……impossible!

Thinking of these words makes me suffocate like drowning.

He gasped for breath, his chest heaved and he felt that these answers were all nonsense.

Why don’t you love it? It was fine a while ago, and you went to Japan with me to play, and you kept saying that I belonged to him...

Why I like him, he doesn't want me.

Your answers are all nonsense.

Who will he love if he doesn't love me?

You people - it is you who are not loved!

But Ji Ling, he just loves me, how could he not love me?

How could you not like me.

How could you not want me! ! !

For so many years, the two of us have been together, who can have a tacit understanding with him.

So many things have happened, how can we separate...

Ji Luo really can't figure it out, he can only think that those netizens who answered are farting, you don't understand the two of us!

Swiping down the page irritably, Ji Luo saw a question that was very similar to his own mood.

[He loves me very much, but suddenly broke up with me, why! 】

... So this kind of problem can happen to other people too?

The young man pursed his thin lips into a straight line, and clicked into this answer.

'Because you have changed. ' said the answer.

Junxiu's brows have been furrowed towards the center, and they tightened even more after reading this answer.

What has changed...

Ji Luo put aside the lock screen of the phone, not wanting to look at it any more.

Everything!

It happened that the door was pushed open, and it was Ji Junde who returned home.

The tall man took off his suit coat and handed it to the butler. From the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of a small ball of fluff on the sofa in the living room not far away, and walked towards him.

"Luoluo, Dad received Jian Ling's assignment application early in the morning, saying that he would go to City S with his team..."

"Woo dad." Ji Luo covered his red and swollen eyes and interrupted him, grabbed his trousers through the gap, and let the man sit beside him.

As soon as the position beside him sank, Ji Luo threw himself into Ji Junde's arms like a koala, hugged his waist and did not let go, "Don't let him go!!!"

"..."

Although the boy didn't raise his eyes, Ji Junde's voice was so hoarse, he probably had some emotional problems, and thinking of Jian Ling's performance earlier in the morning, it was not difficult to find the conflict, "What's wrong with you two?"

Ji Luo pouted, "...Anyway, don't allow him to be sent abroad!"

"..." Hearing this childish tone, Ji Junde smiled, "If there is a problem to be solved, what's the point of just asking for orders?"

Ji Luo paused slightly.

...What's the problem?

Have we changed the question?

"Have I changed?" Ji Luo asked.

Ji Junde didn't know why Ji Luo said that, but he answered him truthfully: "Of course, the past is different from the present."

Ji Luo thought about it. After all, there is a corresponding correspondence between the character before and after the book transmigration. The depression period before the book transmigration is the appearance of the original owner after the book transmigration. Before the book transmigration, before my father passed away, it is my current appearance...

With a muffled voice, he asked in a low voice, "Dad, what was I like before?"

Ji Junde looked down at the troubled boy, and raised his hand to pat him on the back.

After thinking for a while, he said, "Didn't I tell you? I don't like to talk, and I have a bad temper."

"Is your temper bad?" Ji Luo murmured, "How bad."

Ji Junde: "According to the feedback from the teacher and the principal, it's not that people like it, but talking makes people hate it."

"...Dad, how can you say that!"

"You asked." Ji Junde laughed, "Why do you ask that?"

"..."

So I used to hate it?

Then I don't hate it now, why doesn't my brother want me anymore.

I now……

When you hated me before, you still liked me, how did you bear it?

Ji Luo frowned and asked Ji Junde: "I'm not likable, what should I do? Dad, do you hate me?"

"I hate...you have to endure it?" Ji Junde murmured 'uh' and thought for a while, "But teenagers, at the stage of growth and development, they will always do some unique things to attract the attention of the elders, which is understandable."

"...What kind of maverick thing, I don't have it. But what... attracts attention???" Ji Luo really didn't think about it.

Ji Junde: "I have consulted with adolescent psychoanalysts and parenting experts."

Ji Luo: "...?" I'm so scared?Want to consult an expert?

Ji Junde: "For example, children who lack a sense of security will deliberately do abnormal and outrageous behaviors to attract the attention of adults. For example, they deliberately skip meals, stay up late, play games, do not fit in with others, do not go to school, create worrisome panic, etc. .”

Ji Luo: "..." Wait a minute, these behaviors are very similar to what I said before? !

Isn't this all my doing?

Then Ji Ling came to force me to sleep and eat or something.

Ji Junde: "Of course, the purpose of all these actions is to attract the attention of adults, make them pay attention to me, and fill up the lost sense of security."

Ji Luo: "..."

I, I deliberately attracted Ji Ling's attention?

Ji Junde comforted Ji Luo's back.

Although I don't know why the little boy is upset, but as a father, he must give him the help he needs at this time.

Ji Junde: "Although I don't know what's going on with you and Jian Ling, you don't seem to be in a good mood? I'll go back to the office in a while and ask about the situation in detail, but I guess with his personality, he won't say anything."

Ji Luo: "... woo woo woo."

Ji Junde: "He's not very old, he just graduated from college. To be honest, when you two got engaged, I was worried that he couldn't stand you like that. After all, it's enough for Dad to tolerate you. You have a bad temper and want him to Can I bear you too?"

"... oh, oh, dad, don't talk about me!!!"

Ji Junde smiled and rubbed the soft fur that Ji Luo had buried on his waist and head. After a while, he pushed him aside, "Okay, Dad will ask the kitchen to prepare lunch. Come over for dinner later. If you If there is a problem in time, you go to solve the problem. Is it something you should do to get frustrated here?"

After speaking, Ji Junde got up and left the living room.

When the surroundings fell into silence again, Ji Luo turned over and stared blankly at the exquisite reliefs on the ceiling.

……

It suddenly occurred to me that when I was thirteen or fourteen years old, during those years in England, Ji Ling also said that he had consulted many experts.

About various growing up issues, various issues of how to deal with trauma after losing a loved one, and some other issues about Ji Luo and his own relationship repair.

He's been actively working hard to change instead of being like himself...

As my father said, use that kind of rebellious behavior to attract the attention of others and vent my anger.

Thinking about it carefully, Ji Ling was only ten years old at that time.

As big as I am now.

He not only withstood all the burdens of the consortium, but also my...

Ji Luo couldn't think anymore.

The more I think about it, the more uncomfortable I feel.

My brother is also... my brother.

He is not very old either.

In the past ten years, how much he has tolerated me...

Ji Luo closed her eyes.

In the past, it could also be said that it was because of my father's problems that I hated him.

But now Dad has come back.

I still look like that.

It's not that we've changed.

It's that he expects me to change, but I don't.

The skinny young master took a deep breath, got up from the sofa, walked silently to the sink, and slapped his face indiscriminately.

Then he patted his cheek, took care of his embarrassment, and then walked slowly to the kitchen.

"Pack me up for lunch... no. Got white strawberries? Get me some, and get me a nicer glass, I'm going to squeeze a strawberry and take it away."

I'll give you another glass of snow mountain strawberry juice.

Me, I want to start over with you.

Just like the first time.

Again.

... How are you, brother?