Yep

It is one thing to decide to help the wrong, and quite another to decide how to help the wrong.

Xu Jianian had never been exposed to such things, and he didn't have any good ideas for a while.In the blink of an eye, it was Sunday afternoon, and Xu Jianian was sitting on the sofa at home, absent-mindedly watching TV with his mother.

Mama Xu is a fan of variety shows. There is a sissy guest in this variety show. When holding things, she has to raise her orchid fingers, speaks in a weird way, and walks with hips and waists, which is not natural.

Xu's mother watched with great interest, while commenting: "Boys and women, the old saying goes that this kind of life is the wrong gender, and it will be fine if you want to be born as a girl."

Xu Jianian felt a little uncomfortable in his heart. Now he can easily associate with everything he sees and hears: it's just that his actions are a little girly, and others judge him that he should be a girl.Cuo Cuo likes the same sex, and if someone finds out later, wouldn't he also laugh at Cuo Cuo for turning into a girl?How sad it must be.

gay... gay...

Xu Jianian stood up from the sofa in an instant, and walked quickly to the next door!

His actions startled Xu's mother, and Xu's mother shouted: "Stop watching TV?"

Xu Jianian replied: "I'll supervise the wrong reading!"

After one sentence, he had already rushed into Sheng Xunshu's room, and pulled up Sheng Xunshu who was lying on the bed, "Wrong, it's been a week, you should cheer up!"

Sheng Xunshu felt that he was terminally ill, and looked at Xu Jianian speechlessly: "Is this what I just want to cheer up?"

Xu Jianian glanced cautiously at the corridor, Sheng's father and Sheng's mother were all on the first floor, and he and Sheng Xunshu were the only two on the second floor.He closed the door, locked it by the way, and then sat down beside Sheng Xunshu.

Sheng Xunshu moved his position uncomfortably: "...don't get too close."

Xu Jianian said seriously: "It's not that you can cheer yourself up if you want to, but we must really understand it! To be honest, this problem is difficult, and I don't know what to do, but it will definitely not work if we don't do it, so we must first Go digging and find out: What exactly is homosexuality?"

Sheng Xunshu looked confused: "Homosexuality...isn't it just liking boys?"

Xu Jianian glanced at Sheng Xunshu.

With just one glance, Sheng Xunshu felt that he had written two words from head to toe: waste material! ! !

Xu Jianian said lightly: "Heterosexuality is nothing more than liking girls. Why have so many people studied it from the past to now? Suppose you like boys, and you want to keep the secret that you like boys, then you should always know what you are doing." Under the circumstances, you can’t help but make mistakes, and the secret will be exposed, right?”

Sheng Xunshu was speechless.

Xu Jianian pondered: "We have to make a step-by-step plan..." As he spoke, he rummaged through Sheng Xunshu's desk, found a pen and paper, quickly wrote down a few steps on it, and showed it to Sheng Xunshu.

Sheng Xunshu took a look at it, and saw that it said:

1. Actuality - watch A and G movies at the same time, and do a comparative experiment to see if you really like men.

2. Theory - call and consult a professional.

3. Reality - go to the bathhouse to see if there will be impulse (go to the swimming pool first just in case).

4. Practical - break into gay inner groups to observe homosexual behavior (but pay attention to protecting privacy).

Xu Jianian: "Finished?"

Sheng Xunshu: "It's over."

Xu Jianian immediately took the note, tore it into pieces, and shuffled it in his palm, then threw some of the pieces into the trash can in Sheng Xunshu's room, and stuffed the other into his pocket.

Sheng Xunshu was stunned again: "Wouldn't it be better to just throw the garbage in the bin?"

Xu Jianian said solemnly: "Secrecy must start with small things. The more careful you are, the less likely the secret will be discovered."

Sheng Xunshu suddenly felt that he was really a good-for-nothing!

Xu Jianian has never procrastinated.Now that the matter has been decided to be resolved, immediately start working step by step.

It was not difficult for him and Sheng Xunshu to find two kinds of movies separately. When school was over in the second week, they had successfully lured the parents of the two families out for dinner, and locked the door to watch the movie in their room.

The curtains all around were drawn, the sound of the TV set was turned to the lowest level, and even the lights were not dared to be turned on.

The two sat seriously in front of the TV, watching women's first, then men's.After watching both films, Xu Jianian didn't feel anything, so he asked Sheng Xunshu, "How do you feel?"

Sheng Xunshu faltered and hesitated in a mysterious embarrassment: "No...nor...also..."

Xu Jianian: "No response from women?"

Sheng Xunshu: "No..."

Xu Jianian: "What about the male ones?"

Sheng Xunshu: "It's nothing..."

Xu Jianian was a little confused: "You didn't react, and I didn't react, which proves that judging sexuality based on this is not reliable. How can you be sure that you like the same sex? Are you scaring yourself?"

Sheng Xunshu was silent for a moment, and when he spoke again, he responded calmly and rationally: "Yes, yes, I should really like boys."

Xu Jianian also fell silent.Then, he chose to believe in Sheng Xunshu and started the second step.

This step is much simpler than buying the film privately.

He and Sheng Xunshu found an excuse to leave home, took a bus to a remote place in the city far away from home and school, and used a public phone to call the triage office at the front desk of the hospital.

The phone was quickly picked up: "What's the matter?"

Standing in the phone booth, the two held their breaths.Xu Jianian pinched his throat and said quickly, "Well, I'm a man and I like men. How can I treat this disease?"

The nurse said angrily, "Go to a psychiatrist!" After speaking, she hung up the phone with a snap.

The nurses at the hospital really pointed out a way.Xu Jianian felt a little relieved.

He flipped through the phone book again and called the consultation number of a psychiatrist in the city.

The phone was connected again.Xu Jianian relaxed a lot this time, and even his voice returned to his true colors: "I am a man and I like men. How should I treat this disease?"

The psychiatrist on the opposite side was also straightforward and responded directly: "This kind of disease is born, and it is also caused by psychological factors. The natural ones cannot be cured. The psychological factors need to cooperate with face-to-face psychological counseling. When you are free, come to me. Come to the clinic, I'll give you a questionnaire to fill out!"

Xu Jianian wouldn't bring Sheng Xunshu to see a psychiatrist. Could it be called a secret if a third person knew about it?He was holding the phone and chatting with the other party. At the same time, he placed the microphone between the two of them. Sheng Xunshu, who was standing next to him, could hear everything the other party said clearly.

Sheng Xunshu listened to it, and then looked at Xu Jianian, with mixed feelings gradually.

Xu Jianian is so kind to me...

Why did Xu Jianian treat me so well?

I don't want...he is so nice to me...

A phone call with a psychiatrist helped Xu Jianian and Sheng Xunshu a lot.

When they took a bath in the school bathroom again, Xu Jianian and Sheng Xunshu dared to look at other students' naked bodies.

Everyone is a boy, and it is common for them to fight and rub their backs in the bathhouse. Some of them even make nasty jokes when they have a good relationship. In the past, Sheng Xunshu often did this with his friends. It was only after he suddenly realized that he liked men that he bowed his head to take a bath.Now he was trying to get back to normal again, and he didn't see any strange feelings about these shining bodies. He was relieved, and his friends were also relieved, and rushed up to drown Sheng Xun with crackling towels. book, laughed and said:

"What's the matter with you recently, are you acting weird?"

"Let me tell you, Sheng Xunshu must be uncle. It's good that uncle is gone."

"You're also interesting. I think you don't dare to look up when you walk recently."

"What big uncle, he has obviously turned into a duck, and he is quacking when he speaks."

Everyone laughed wildly while talking.

Sheng Xunshu also chuckled, and while laughing, he looked at Xu Jianian not far away through the crowd.

Half a bathroom away, the two of them made eye contact, and Xu Jianian secretly gave Sheng Xunshu a thumbs up.

Sheng Xunshu's eyes were fixed on the other's naked shoulders, and before he even had time to look at Xu Jianian's raised thumbs, he blushed, and quickly turned his gaze back: Shit... I can't take a bath with Xu Jianian next time!No swimming!

Three weeks passed in the blink of an eye. Back then, when Xu Jianian made the plan, he had no idea, but now, everything is on the right track, and they have almost figured it out!

Xu Jianian couldn't help saying to Sheng Xunshu: "So no matter what it is, we have to try to solve it, so as to know if it will work."

Sheng Xunshu agreed deeply, and nodded in agreement.

Now, there is one last task on their schedule.

Get inside the gay community and learn about the daily life of gay people.The so-called know yourself and know the enemy, and you will never be imperiled in a hundred battles.

Xu Jianian slightly adjusted his final plan during these few weeks.He found a gay bar in the city, and on a certain Wednesday, he took a leave of absence for evening self-study with a high-sounding reason, and went to the bar in disguise with Cuo Cuo, who also took leave.

The door of the bar is closed tightly, the lights inside are flickering, but it is generally dim, and the music played by the DJ is deafening. The two of them are very close, and they have to talk loudly to hear what the other is saying. Everyone inside is talking and laughing loudly. There were also dancing on the dance floor and drinking at the bar, and there were some weird movements in the dark corner. For safety, Xu Jianian held Sheng Xunshu's hand and walked around the corner.

Even so, they also saw some very chaotic scenes in the bar. For example, a certain person was hugging with A at the beginning, and after 5 minutes, he was hugging with B suddenly!Going around in a circle, both Xu Jianian and Sheng Xunshu felt that they couldn't stay any longer, and quickly ran out of the bar again.

This bar opened in a corner of the city, and the alley outside was deserted, not even a stray cat.

The two holding hands felt each other's palms tremble a little.

They leaned against the cold wall together, trembling a little, but also thought it was funny, after looking at each other, they laughed together.

I don't know if it's the night wind or the bright moon, whether it's the darkness or the heat of the palm.

Sheng Xunshu, who was held by Xu Jianian, suddenly became impulsive.

He turned around, hugged Xu Jianian, and buried his head in the other's neck, feeling the endless heat transfer to himself along with the heartbeat of the person in his arms.

Sheng Xunshu's feet seemed to be stepping on the clouds, a little soft, a little floating, and he didn't know when he would fall into the sky if he stumbled.He could only hug Xu Jianian tightly, like a drowning person hugging the only piece of driftwood in sight.

"Xu Jianian...I..."

Xu Jianian was a little confused.

He was strangled by Sheng Xunshu, and then he felt that his neck was getting wet, and some warm liquid was sliding down his neck.

Then, he heard Sheng Xunshu slightly choked up and said:

"Xu Jianian...Thank you."

"We... we will be good friends for life."

After saying these two sentences, Sheng Xunshu hurriedly let go of Xu Jianian, not daring to look at anyone, turned around and walked out first: "Let's go back to school quickly, don't get caught."

Xu Jianian remained silent.

He touched the wetness on his neck, and looked at Sheng Xunshu's back, a hazy feeling gradually rose in his heart, but what exactly is this feeling?Xu Jianian was a little hesitant, and didn't want to delve into it for a moment.

Since going to the bar, life has been smooth.When the second year of high school was about to end, Xu Jianian deliberately took advantage of the power of the student council president, took half a day off, and then went to meet the future Sheng Xunshu.

When he stepped into the magical door, time and space changed, and something flew towards him from mid-air.

He caught it, and Sheng Xunshu's smiling voice sounded: "Are you here today? I remember you started drinking beer this year. You just took it out of the refrigerator. Would you like to try it?"

Xu Jianian played with the cold beer in his hand, he had indeed drunk it, and he tasted it when he went to the bar last time.

The future Sheng Xunshu really remembers the past... He looked up at the other party.From the third grade of elementary school to the present, there is a gap of nearly ten years between him and himself. Even the height is nearly half higher than when we first met, but the other party has not changed at all.

As it was before, so it is now.

Xu Jianian suddenly remembered the scene when he met the other party for the second time.At that time he asked:

"What does my future look like?"

"We parted."

How can I remember what happened seven or eight years ago?

Xu Jianian was also a little surprised.

But at this moment, threads were being strung together, and the answer was right in front of him, and he suddenly couldn't deceive himself.

Xu Jianian and Sheng Xunshu sat opposite each other and drank half a can of beer.Under the effect of a little alcohol, the words that he thought were difficult to utter naturally flowed out of his throat, and the sound in the room was actually very stable.

"Sheng Xunshu, do you like me?"

Outside the window, the sun is shining brightly.