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Xu Jianian's freshman life was particularly pleasant and relaxed.

He doesn't have any pressure in his studies, and he already has vague ideas about the future.So he consciously transferred a lot of time originally spent on study to Sheng Xunshu, and took Sheng Xunshu to eat, drink and have fun in Beijing.

Many places in the political center of this country are not as prosperous as he originally imagined, just like his hometown, ordinary and ordinary.

But the strange thing about people is that they are often affected by emotions. As long as they are with the person they like, even a stone or grass on the side of the road will have extra charm.

It took them three months to visit all the places they wanted to play and eat all the things they wanted to eat.

They have also been dropped by the same bicycle, hit by the same branch, choked by the same bowl of chili, and they always smile at each other with joy. After laughing, they feel that they are so stupid, so they laugh again.

While playing, Sheng Xunshu also took his own camera and took countless photos.After entering a school that is not particularly famous but has a particularly good photography department, Sheng Xunshu's photos are not only full of vitality, but also have a lot of exquisite scene selection and composition. Xu Jianian often loves watching them. I know that the best photo taken by the other party is not the scenery, but myself.

These lovely images often flashed in Xu Jianian's mind day and night, sometimes when he was lying under the quilt, looking at the plain white ceiling, he would smile knowingly because of a fleeting image.

Later, when they had explored the new city, the first snowfall of the dead of winter came.

At this time, even Sheng Xunshu was reluctant to run around the city in the cold winter, so they had a new date place: the library of Xu Jianian's school.

The interior with floor heating can revive people in an instant.

They always like to choose unoccupied corners covered by bookshelves in the library.

When Xu Jianian was reading, Sheng Xunshu also read.However, Sheng Xunshu's concentration can only last for one class. Every 45 minutes, Xu Jianian, who is still concentrating, always faces some harassment: maybe someone kicked him under the table; maybe someone suddenly He put another book on top of the book he was reading; it was also possible that someone ignored him and dragged him to the tree-shaded path downstairs to step on the snow for a while.

It's like a big dog. If I want to play, I have to drag you along.

At that time, it was snowing heavily and the ground was full of ice crystals.The students and professors who came and went hurriedly rushed back to the warm room.They did the opposite, walking in the wind and snow in their overcoats, looking at the dry branches with no leaves on both sides.But these slanting branches are full of snow, and looking from a distance, they seem to have re-bloomed holy flowers.

Just like them.

Obviously shivering in the heavy snow in winter, but holding another person's hand is like kicking a small stove in the palm of your hand, warming your heart all the way.

However, there are still some dissonant notes in the middle of the cheerful music.

When the winter vacation was approaching, Xu Jianian had already noticed something was wrong.

Maybe not a little, but a lot is wrong.

I often bring wrong wrong to my school to play, the classmates in my dormitory all know wrong wrong, although it is impossible to really know the relationship between wrong wrong and me, but I am not too shy and close to wrong wrong, they may be more or less Or at least guessed some.

Wrong and wrong but against me.

He hardly invited me to school, and occasionally he would consciously restrain his daily intimate behavior when I went to his school.I can't quite name his dormitory classmates now, because he hardly let me get in touch with them.

Why is that?

Xu Jianian murmured inwardly.

Sheng Xunshu could feel the confusion in Xu Jianian's heart.

He wanted to explain many times, but the words were on the tip of his tongue, and he swallowed them silently.

This is my thing, and it's something I should try to solve.

I will first separate the couple from my circle of friends, and prevent him from having any contact with my dad. This is good for both of us... I will slowly convince him when my dad is in better health.

It's the last week before the holidays.

The coldest days in winter are coming, even the cats and dogs that occupy the garden every day are hiding in the downstairs of the dormitory.Xu Jianian was eating hot pot with Sheng Xunshu and his classmates in the dormitory at a small shop nearby.Several young people ate from seven to ten in the afternoon.The dense heat smoked the glass into a mist, blurring everything outside the window.Everyone was drunk, the boss was having a hot fight with a senior, and he was in a very good mood, so he didn't say anything: "Fourth, I remember you said that you have someone you like when we first got together, why it's been so long Never seen it?"

The table was silent for a moment, and the other two were a little embarrassed. This question was too private, and it was all due to the mistake of drinking!

When the sound reached his ears, Xu Jianian was eating slowly.

He was a little surprised, but there was no element of shock or anger. He just glanced at Sheng Xunshu who was sitting next to him.

Sheng Xunshu had stopped talking and laughing, his lips were slightly pursed, his eyes touched Xu Jianian lightly, and he immediately seemed to move away.

Xu Jianian was still chewing slowly, he thought:

Now comes the problem.

Do you want me to announce it, or do you want me to conceal it?

He changed his mind again:

What about me?Do you want to reveal it or hide it?

The ball chewed in his mouth was finally swallowed by Xu Jianian.

Xu Jianian put down his chopsticks.

The chopsticks collided with the chopstick rest lightly, and there was a "dang" sound.

Crowd: ?

Xu Jianian said flatly, "Don't you sit together every day?" He paused and turned to Sheng Xunshu, "It's a bit late, I'll take you back to school first."

Everyone was dumbfounded:? ? ? ! ! !

Xu Jianian stood up from his seat.He extended his hand to Sheng Xunshu, and saw the person sitting next to him almost jumped up, stuffed his hand into his palm, and walked out with his feet on the cotton.

In the blink of an eye, Xu Jianian has changed from being led to being led.

He looked at the person in front of him. At this time, the other person's ears were flushed and his face was full of smiles. Even the hair on the back of his head was singing "I'm very happy".

Wow!

Xu Jianian cheered and applauded himself a little perfunctorily, his heart full of reserve.

I made the right choice!I just said that I will not misread the wrong inner world!

So……

The snow outside has just stopped, but the street is still covered with a layer of white, shining in the neon lights at night.

The two held hands, and Xu Jianian asked, "Sheng Xunshu, do you have something to hide from me?"

Sheng Xunshu categorically denied it: "No!"

Xu Jianian dragged his voice: "Is that so - where is your father?"

Sheng Xunshu's heartbeat became violent at this moment, but he heard his own voice, so calm, with a little bit of extremely natural impatience: "You mean to say that he disagrees with us? When did he agree with us? ? We have to pretend that we don’t know each other when we go back during the Chinese New Year.”

That's true.Xu Jianian thought.

Why didn't Wrong Wrong introduce me to his friends?Can't I get it out?

Xu Jianian was a little unhappy.He opened his mouth to ask this question, but the cold wind suddenly blew into his mouth and nose, making him sneeze several times in succession!

"Why is your nose still so bad? I've checked it on Baidu. If the rhinitis gets worse, it will be very troublesome. You should exercise more, exercise!"

The familiar voice rang in his ears almost instantly, and Xu Jianian immediately felt his hands pull up the zipper of his coat, and tucked the scarf into the coat by the way.

This thoughtful gesture made Xu Jianian feel calm again.

He swallowed back the question in his mouth, dragged Sheng Xunshu's hand again, and walked towards the station.

But today's time was not very good. When they arrived at the station, the last train had just left.The two looked at each other.

Xu Jianian: "It feels like you won't be able to get into the dormitory in time when you go back to school."

Sheng Xunshu: "What about you?"

Xu Jianian: "Time is a bit tight..." He flipped through his wallet, "I have my ID card, so I can find a hotel on the roadside to stay overnight?"

Sheng Xunshu has no comment.

There are still many small hotels around the school, so Xu Jianian and Sheng Xunshu walked out of the station and came to a hotel closest to the station.This hotel was unexpectedly so popular that there were no standard rooms left, and there was only one double room left.Fortunately, both of them didn't care, they entered the room after registering their names.

The rest of the king bed room is quite interesting.

It is located in the attic, the room is not big, the bed is quite big; the bathroom is not big, the water is very hot.

The two quickly took a battle shower and lay down together on the big bed in the middle of the house.The ceiling of the attic is very low, and the beams are hung in rows, and there is a feeling that they may fall down at any time.However, at the bedside of this big bed, a window was opened, facing the sky directly, with a waning moon and two stars in the sky.

So cramped suddenly turned into Shulang, the two of them lay side by side on the bed, and at first they talked back to each other, but then they didn't know who was crushing whom, or maybe it was just that the wine they just drank finally dissipated in their bodies, It flowed into the mind along the blood, and finally "boom—" it turned into a raging flame!

Xu Jianian pressed Sheng Xunshu on the bed first.

He twitched Sheng Xunshu's forehead, then twitched Sheng Xunshu's nose, then twitched Sheng Xunshu's mouth, and finally twitched Sheng Xunshu's eyes.

Those eyes with a little nervousness and more excitement and anticipation suddenly closed, and then opened again.

The stars are scattered.

In the scattered starlight, everything is like a river, sneaking silently, meandering and flowing, always seems to have no end.

It wasn't until the end that Sheng Xunshu lost all his strength, his eyelids were clenched, and he yawned one after another, before Xu Jianian lay back on the bed unsatisfied.

He silently recalled the feeling just now, and felt that although his body was exhausted, there was an inexplicable impulse in his heart. This impulse kept colliding in his chest, and Xu Jianian finally opened the conversation: "I applied for an exchange student at Peking University before. If there is no accident If so, maybe I will go abroad for a year as an exchange. But..."

"But what?" Sheng Xunshu asked vaguely.

"But have you ever thought about going to a foreign country to study or live for a period of time?" Xu Jianian asked, "Overseas see our affairs relatively flat, and you won't be under too much pressure there. If you have this idea , I also took the exams for studying abroad this year, and my grades are not bad. It shouldn’t be a big problem to get an offer. Uh—don’t keep talking about me, what do you think about the future? You have to tell me in advance, I Only then can I run into the plan with you."

His shoulders were suddenly heavy, and Sheng Xunshu's head was buried in the hollow of his shoulders.

Xu Jianian: "What?"

The heart beat with strange emotions, Sheng Xunshu felt his eye sockets heat up, and something was rumbling and steaming in his chest.For a moment, he almost told Xu Jianian about his father's illness.But in fact, what he blurted out was:

"How about we stay in Beijing for a while after the holiday?"

There's nothing wrong with that, of course.

Xu Jianian happily stayed in Beijing with Sheng Xunshu for a while after the semester ended.When they returned home, half of the holiday was over, and the Chinese New Year was not far away.

At that time, there was no ban on guns, and the taste of the year was still good. There were children holding cannons and fireworks everywhere in the community.When Xu Jianian came home on a familiar street, his mother was making dumplings, and the familiar scent spread all the way to his nose, turning into a small hook, which made Xu Jianian yell, "Mom, I'm so hungry!"

Mother Xu's laughing voice came: "Eat some fruit first, and the dumplings will be ready in no time!"

At the same time, next door.

Sheng Xunshu also returned home.As soon as he entered the house, Father Sheng confronted him and asked, "School is over early, what did you do when you came back late?"

Trial me like a prisoner!

Sheng Xunshu was bored and tired, and casually said: "Didn't you say it earlier? I stayed in school with a few classmates to do a project, and even the classmates called you, what else do you want?"

Father Sheng stopped talking for now.

He stood at home with a suspicious light in his eyes.

2013, United States.

The well-dressed young woman hangs up her mobile phone, shrugs her shoulders, and adjusts her badge with "Sue" in front of the desk mirror, and continues to sit at the desk and work.

It's too late.

She absently turned a pen in her hand, looking at the big clock hanging on the wall from time to time.

When the hour hand of the big clock points to the number "9", there is a jingle, and the pendulum strikes the chronograph. At the same time, Sue picks up the bag and opens the door of the laboratory behind: "Boss, it's time to get off work. I'm leaving first. Just now you have a An incoming call from a contact in square characters. But the person on the other end of the phone didn't speak."

The light intersects.

The people in the room were sitting diagonally opposite the door, playing chess.

He lit the chess piece and remained silent for a long time before he gently pushed the chess piece forward and said casually: "Oh."

In 2013, China.

Sheng Xunshu came to his parents' residence.

Father Sheng was quite surprised by Sheng Xunshu's return. In the past four years, Sheng Xunshu had returned only a handful of times, perhaps not even four times.

This was also the first time Sheng Xunshu took a serious look at his father in recent years.

Compared to what he remembered, he was much older, with gray hair, creases around his eyes, and his straight and broad shoulders had become stooped and thin.Sitting like this, he was even taller than the other party.

"You still know to come back?" Father Sheng said, his expression was indifferent and tired, but today, the anger of choosing someone to eat has finally disappeared, and instead added three points of helplessness, "Your mother told me, you give that person People call... haven't we had a good time these past few years? Why do you have to go further and further down the wrong path?"

Sheng Xunshu was silent for a moment: "Father, your thoughts are exactly the same as at the beginning. You said Xu Jianian seduced me, and you said I was a pervert... Over the years, you haven't changed these two thoughts for a moment, have you?"

He didn't wait for Father Sheng to answer, and said again: "I am your son, you raised me, even if I owe you what you did to me. But what about Xu Jianian?"

"All these years," he asked calmly, "is there a day when you feel that you are really sorry for Xu Jianian's family?"