King of People

Zhu Yilin's heart was paralyzed for a few seconds, and the blood all over his body became hot.

The rare feeling made him a little uncomfortable, he held back and didn't move, as if Lu Jiachuan couldn't exert any influence on him, he said nonchalantly in the tone of an elder: "You are not a little boy anymore, Lu Jiachuan, why are you so spoiled like an adult? Don't be so gay, get up."

"What's gay in gay?" Lu Jiachuan didn't listen, but still held him down with an innocent look on his face, "Are you gay? Brother?"

"..."

Zhu Yilin's throat moved, and he quickly denied: "Of course not."

Lu Jiachuan paused: "Then it's over. You're not, and I'm not. What's wrong with us getting closer? There's no outsider here."

He supported the sofa with one hand, and when he lowered his head, the distance between Zhu Yilin and Zhu Yilin was getting closer and closer. Due to the closeness of his body, Zhu Yilin could feel his heartbeat that was so fast that it was almost crazy under his calm appearance——

Is it his?Or your own?

Zhu Yilin was dizzy and not sure.

Lu Jiachuan is already 24 years old, he is not shy at all, he is even more daring to act like a baby than before, and even pressed his forehead against the tip of his nose.

This kiss-like posture made Zhu Yilin almost suffocate, he finally couldn't help but push Lu Jiachuan to save his life: "What are you doing? Don't mess around."

Lu Jiachuan was quite aggrieved: "You are really angry. I blamed me for my careless words and scolded you. But it's not like you don't know. How could I think you're bad? It's too late for me to like you."

He pronounced the word "like" very softly, and fixed his eyes on Zhu Yilin. Seeing Zhu Yilin's eyelashes tremble, Lu Jiachuan seemed to be greatly alarmed, he spoke faster, and seemed a little flustered.

"I only have you as my friend!" He patched incoherently, "It was only you before, and now it is only you, no one likes me, no one cares about me, and we haven't seen each other for so many years, I... I'm a little afraid of you. "

Zhu Yilin was taken aback.

Lu Jiachuan said: "I'm afraid you've changed and don't like being close to me as much as before. If you don't want me, what should I do?"

"...I didn't." Zhu Yilin's chest tightened, and he was a little out of breath, "I'm not angry."

"Really?" Lu Jiachuan looked at him so closely, as if his heart and eyes were all about him, and he was the only one in Lu Jiachuan's entire world.

I wish Yilin silence.

As early as many years ago, he understood that he was not an ordinary friend of Lu Jiachuan. This boy had never received a mother's love or a father's love, nor had he made close friends. He had no one who cared for him and took care of him. Filled in his emotional vacancy for more than ten years.

Lu Jiachuan relies on Zhu Yilin, this kind of dependence cannot be measured by simple friendship or love, so Zhu Yilin often can't tell whether Lu Jiachuan regards him as a friend or as a family member?or something else.

Maybe Lu Jiachuan himself couldn't tell the difference.

In the third year of high school, when Lu Jiachuan blushed and cautiously said to him, "I have someone I like", Zhu Yilin fell into an ice cave.

For the first time in his life, he came up with dark thoughts, and subconsciously wanted to threaten Lu Jiachuan: You are not allowed to like her, if you dare to like others, we will break off our friendship, and I will never be with you again.

Because he knew that Lu Jiachuan couldn't do without him.

If Lu Jiachuan had to choose between "the person I just fell in love with" and "the little brother I rely on the most in the world", the answer would be obvious.

But after thinking about it, Zhu Yilin couldn't do such a thing.

He could only pretend not to care, and said coldly, "Okay, congratulations on finding your first love."

Lu Jiachuan pulled him and asked, "Don't you want to know who it is, brother?"

Zhu Yilin held back his temper, and asked lightly, "Oh, who is it?"

As soon as Lu Jiachuan's spring heart sprouted, he turned into a deer running around. He stared at the ground with a flushed face, like an international friend who couldn't speak Chinese, and didn't hold back a word for a long time.

He didn't say anything later.

After so many years, Zhu Yilin didn't want to ask any more.

——Zhu Yilin wished to completely forget about this matter.

It's a pity that things backfired, and Lu Jiachuan decided to take the initiative to bring up related topics.

"Brother, last time you asked me if I was alone all these years." When Lu Jiachuan spoke, his arms slowly tightened, and while supporting the sofa, he made a gesture of hugging Zhu Yilin, "I forgot I ask you, are you too? In the past seven years, have you... been in love?"

He seems to be very nervous all the time, his eyes are fixed on Zhu Yilin all the time, if he is on a prey.

But because of his low posture and well-controlled attitude, even if he was firmly on Zhu Yilin's body, making the latter unable to move, it would not make people feel uncomfortable, without any feeling of being violated or oppressed.

Zhu Yilin replied truthfully: "I haven't talked about it."

After thinking about it, he added: "In our line of business, falling in love is difficult, there are many troubles, and it is not easy to find a partner."

"How come?" Lu Jiachuan interrupted him, "As long as you open your mouth, the whole world is willing to fall in love with you, so why is it difficult to find someone? Have you ever liked someone?"

The tone of Lu Jiachuan's last sentence seemed to be that of an elder who was concerned about his life's major affairs. He was quite earnest, but if the tone was too obvious, it seemed deliberate, so it revealed a bit of temptation.

This temptation was like a slender needle, piercing Zhu Yilin's heart, it didn't hurt, but it made him shudder.

Zhu Yilin and Lu Jiachuan looked at each other, seeing himself in the latter's pupils.

It's too blurry, he can't see what he looks like now, is he pale?Are you flustered?Still didn't show anything, as cold and perfect as usual.

Oddly, Zhu Yilin said, "Yes."

Lu Jiachuan was stunned for a moment, Zhu Yilin said: "There was someone I liked, but they weren't together."

Lu Jiachuan's fingers trembled, his right arm slid up against the sofa, and his fingertips brushed his hair.

Zhu Yilin's scalp went numb, and Lu Jiachuan inserted his fingers into his hair as if caressing him, then cupped the back of his head, lowered his head and stuck him very close, and said heavily, "Brother, who do you like?" ?”

"..."

An inexplicable shudder rose from the tailbone and crawled all over his body, Zhu Yilin moved uncomfortably, he felt a little out of bounds.

But he and Lu Jiachuan had done more intimate actions before, and after getting used to it, it was difficult to judge the boundaries.

Zhu Yilin didn't know if this was considered abnormal, he suspected that it was because of his own ulterior motives that he saw everything as abnormal.

Lu Jiachuan's expression was obviously very ordinary, he was no different from acting like a baby.

"You...someone you don't know." Zhu Yilin had just said something casually, trying to win back the whole night of losing control of his emotions, so he couldn't make up his name.

But Lu Jiachuan took it seriously, with a stagnant voice: "When did it happen? Exactly six or seven years ago?... It turned out that you abandoned me at that time because you had someone you liked, and you never contacted me again... So it's like this, my brother forgot about me when he was tempted by others?"

Lu Jiachuan's eyes turned red, and he lost control of the strength in his hands, which made Zhu Yilin's scalp hurt from grabbing.

This action was too ambiguous, Zhu Yilin's bathrobe was messed up while he was struggling, he had just finished taking a shower, and his body still felt damp, which was already uncomfortable, but Lu Jiachuan made it even more uncomfortable.

Zhu Yilin's mind was in chaos, he decided to keep a safe distance from Lu Jiachuan in the future, if he did this a few times, he would definitely go crazy.

——At the age of 17, it’s fine to pretend to be pure, but at 24, it’s not appropriate to be so pure, right?

Lu Jiachuan's clingy habit must be corrected.

Zhu Yilin felt depressed, and couldn't help being distracted for a few seconds, until Lu Jiachuan's tears suddenly fell on his face.

Zhu Yilin was startled, Lu Jiachuan seemed to have been greatly wronged, stared at him, and said angrily: "You suddenly ignored me that year, I couldn't sleep for days and nights, and I couldn't go to you, and you I changed my phone number and disappeared from my world, do you know how scared I was?"

"..."

"Why do you ignore me? Do you ignore me when you have someone you like? I'm not important to you at all, am I just a dispensable high school classmate?"

Lu Jiachuan was reminded of sad memories, so he leaned on his shoulder and said in a low voice: "After you disappeared, grandma also left, and I went back to Jiangcheng alone to hold her funeral. I sat at the door of my house that day and replaced the Called with an empty number, but still can't get through...Zhu Yilin, have you thought about me even once in the past seven years? If I don't ask, don't you think I should explain a few words? You...you dare to like me other people!"

Finally, Lu Jiachuan's politeness and obedience could no longer be maintained. Countless resentment in his heart poured out on Zhu Yilin through his teeth, and Zhu Yilin's neck hurt from biting him.

The past seven years should have been the seven years they lived together.

But what did you think at the beginning?

Zhu Yilin remembered that at that time he had nothing, and they all had their own things they wanted to pursue. They wanted to achieve success, return home, and then gritted their teeth and ran in different directions.

Only after setting off did I realize that the time and distance are so cruel, and the road to success and fame is so difficult to walk, and the person I was frightened and admired when I was young, like a white moonlight, can only remain in the memory, and he can no longer grasp it.

Zhu Yilin didn't know how to explain what happened in those two years. Life was trivial and boring, but it was a blunt knife that smoothed out his self-confidence and arrogance little by little, and made him smoke cigarettes, recite lines, fantasize, Ask yourself: When is it okay?

can be successful.

can go back.

can see him.

But I dare not think about it, and I will not regret it later.

——If you didn't leave at the beginning.

But even if he doesn't leave, Lu Jiachuan will leave.

Lu Jiachuan returned to his biological father's home and had someone he liked, all of which had nothing to do with him.

He also didn't want to hear what Lu Jiachuan said every day, how good he was at Lu's house, how well the people around him took care of him——

Those words made Zhu Yilin suffer deeply.

And after being separated for a long time, the two people live in different environments, and there is less and less common topic.

After all, I was young, full of emotions, and easily painful.

In the past few years, Zhu Yilin's emotions have been poured into the movie, and he himself outside the movie has become more and more cold.

For example, now that Lu Jiachuan was crying on top of him, he didn't know how to comfort him, so he had to let Lu Jiachuan cry for a long time before saying, "Why are you so imaginative? I lied to you. I have never liked anyone, let alone Maybe it's because of this that they abandoned you."

"Then why are you?" Lu Jiachuan bit a row of teeth marks on his neck, not polite at all.

Zhu Yilin stretched out his hand to touch it, and it hurt a little, "Can I not mention the past?" He said, "Take it as I'm sorry for you, sorry."

Lu Jiachuan was stunned for a moment, annoyed: "No more? Just this sentence? Do you think being sorry is useful?"

"Then what do you want?" Zhu Yilin suppressed the turbulent emotions, packed them up, locked them, and threw them into the corner of his heart, so that the surface became calm again, as if nothing had happened.

Zhu Yilin raised the corners of his lips and smiled lightly. The rare smile made Lu Jiachuan almost dizzy. He only heard him say, "What compensation do you want? As long as I can do it, brother will satisfy you."

Even so, Zhu Yilin really didn't know what Lu Jiachuan wanted.

He thought Lu Jiachuan needed to think about it, but unexpectedly, the latter put his arms around his neck and blurted out, "I want you to sleep with me."

Zhu Yilin: "..."