This attack is poisonous

Then I went to school to pick up Dan Weng Fan, and waited for a while after arriving home, but Weng Jie and Da Liu came back.

Xiaofan saw his elder brother, who was running faster than Chen Rong, jumped on Dan Weng Jie before Chen Rong, guided him like yesterday, and led him into the house.

Chen Rong tactfully did not bother them, but called Da Liu over to ask Weng Jie about the situation that day.

After dinner, taking advantage of Xiaofan being called to take a bath, Chen Rong called Dan Weng Jie upstairs to the study, found the two death certificates of his family and handed them to him.

"You can go through the formalities anytime you want, Da Liu will accompany you there, don't be too tired." Chen Rong said carefully.

But Weng Jie hummed, took the two documents and went out with his blind cane.

Chen Rong still had some documents to deal with, and stayed in the study to continue working after watching him go out.

But Weng Fan came out of the shower and saw that Weng Jie was still sitting in the living room, so he ran over and asked him in a low voice, "Brother, have you gone to find your father and grandma? Did you find them?"

But Weng Jie took him into his arms, touched his head, and said in a tired voice: "I'm sorry, my brother hasn't found them yet, can you wait for me for another two days?"

After he confirmed the death of his father and grandma, he thought about how to tell Xiaofan.

Xiaofan nodded and hummed again, "Brother, are you tired? Go and rest if you're tired. I can wait a few more days, it's okay."

But Weng Jie looked down at him and smiled, "Thank you Xiaofan."

"Thank you brother too." Xiaofan said sensiblely.

After the two talked for a while, Xiaofan went back to his room to do his homework.

But Weng Jie had been tossing around for so many days, and he didn't sleep well at night, so he was really tired now, so he went upstairs to wash up after Xiaofan left.

When Chen Rong heard him going upstairs, she put down her work and followed him into the bedroom, watched him after taking a shower, and when he came out and saw that his hair was wet, she quickly went to find a hair dryer for him, plugged it in, turned on the switch and handed it over. He watched him dry his hair, and he didn't go back to the study to continue dealing with work until Dan Weng Jie packed up and lay down on the bed.

There was no Chen Rong lying beside him, but Weng Jie fell asleep quickly, and he didn't have nightmares like yesterday.

In the next few days, Weng Jie went through the formalities of inheriting the inheritance, and Chen Rong was busy with work, so the two of them didn't have much time to see each other. They only had contact when they got up early and after dinner. At night, Chen Rong waited but Weng Jie took a bath outside and entered the room after falling asleep, for fear of disturbing him.

Chen Rong knew that Weng Jie didn't want to see him. Although he didn't say it directly, he just didn't talk to him very much, and he probably wanted to get as far away from him as possible.

For Chen Rong, this kind of cold violence made him feel more painful than directly hurting him physically. At the same time, he knew that he deserved what he deserved, which made him swallow the pain forcefully, unable to vent.

Every night, when Weng Jie fell asleep, he dared to climb into bed carefully. The person he liked lay next to him but he didn’t even dare to touch him. If he had desires, he could only bear it. For Chen Rong, such days were no different from physical and emotional love. Mental torment.

But let him take the initiative to tell Dan Weng Jie that he can't sleep in separate rooms. Without Dan Weng Jie by his side, even if he took sleeping pills and finally fell asleep, he would sleep very unsteadily, especially afraid of people waking up. Gone again or something happened.

But Weng Jie was free after completing the inheritance procedures. During the day, Xiao Fan had to go to school, Chen Rong went to work, and Da Liu had other things to do. He was alone in the room.

So after Chen Rong got off work that day, Weng Jie took the initiative to talk to him and said to him simply and clearly: "I want to learn Braille."

Chen Rong didn't hesitate much, and readily agreed, "Okay, I'll find someone to teach you."

But Weng Jie thanked him, and then went to talk to Xiaofan.

Chen Rong froze on the spot, and suddenly wanted to cry. Ever since Dan Weng Jie knew his identity, he had never spoken such polite words to him, and rarely took the initiative to talk to him. He would be flattered if he would talk to him. .

He didn't know if it was because of his wit that Weng Jie disliked him a little bit less, if so, he could continue to be so patient.

In the evening, like a few days ago, he returned to his room after finishing his work and taking a shower outside. Unexpectedly, Weng Jie was still awake this time, as if he was sitting by the bed in a daze, and his face was twitched when he heard his footsteps. turned around.

"Why haven't you slept yet?" Chen Rong asked with some doubts.

"Waiting for you." But Weng Jie said.

Chen Rong's first reaction was not happiness, but nervousness. He asked cautiously, "Is... what's the matter?"

But Weng Jie stood up with no expression on his face and said, "I'm healed from the injury."

Chen Rong didn't understand what he meant for a while, and soon he saw that Weng Jie had pulled off the belt of the nightgown, and it was only then that Chen Rong noticed that he was wearing the old nightgown.

"You..." Chen Rong's brain became confused again. He felt that this situation was abnormal, but he couldn't control his eyes, and his eyes were fixed on Dan Weng Jie's body.

"Don't do it?" But Weng-jae asked him.

The moment Chen Rong saw him take off his clothes, his body had a reaction. Remembering the scene in the bathroom downstairs last time, he used his rationality that had not yet completely collapsed to force himself to control himself, and said duplicity: "If you don't want to do it, you can't do it." Do."

But Weng Jie got up and walked towards him. Chen Rong was afraid that he would fall, so he hurried to help him, but Weng Jie threw himself into his arms, hugged him and kissed the side of his neck.

Chen Rong's whole body was stiff, and she couldn't believe it, but Weng Jie would take the initiative to kiss him, which rarely happened in the past years.

But Weng Jie's kiss made him unable to maintain his last sense of reason. Even though he was confused, he still couldn't hold back the desire to get close to But Weng Jie, so he held his face and exchanged a deep kiss with him.

After a lapse of three years, the bodies of the two people came into contact again at a negative distance.

After the end, Chen Rong took advantage of the short period of physical indifference, and ran into the bathroom as if he had escaped. He was afraid that if he was delayed for a second, he would not be able to bear it again, but Weng Jie's current body should not be able to bear it.

Chen Rong took a cold shower, went out and saw that Weng Jie was still lying on the bed to calm his breath, and asked him nervously, "Are... are you okay? Do you want me to wash it for you?"

But Weng Jie hummed in a nasal voice, probably because he had just done it, and his voice was very different from usual.

Chen Rong almost couldn't control himself when he heard it, he walked over with complicated emotions, took Dan Weng Jie to the bathroom and took another shower.

During this period, Weng Jie didn't speak any more. He closed his eyes, looked a little tired, and his body was limp, with no strength.

Chen Rong tried his best to restrain the urge to come with him again, and carefully washed his body for him. Weng Jie didn't react until the end of the wash. He frowned slightly and pursed his lips slightly, obviously feeling uncomfortable, but still He didn't say anything.

When he returned to the bed again, Chen Rong hadn't completely calmed down, he looked at Weng Jie tangledly and said, "Why don't I go to sleep in the study."

Of course he was unwilling to do this in his heart, but he was afraid that if he stayed, he would not be able to resist doing it with Dan Weng Jie again, and he was afraid that he would accidentally hurt him.

But Weng Jie closed his eyes and hummed.

Chen Rong took the quilt from the cabinet and went to the study. He really couldn't figure out why Weng Jie was like this. He obviously hated him and didn't want to get along with him, so how could he take the initiative to get close to him and want to have sex with him.

This is undoubtedly a kind of mental torture for him.

Chen Rong kept his eyes open until five o'clock in the morning and did not fall asleep. Anyway, his body had calmed down, so he simply slipped back into the bedroom.

Lying beside Dan Weng Jie for a while, listening to Dan Weng Jie's very light breathing, he finally began to feel a little sleepy, but he can only sleep for two hours, and he has to go to work during the day, and he can get up after seven o'clock.

Although Chen Rong often suffers from insomnia, her biological clock in the morning is still very accurate. No matter what time she goes to bed, she will wake up at that time.

Insufficient sleep caused him to have headaches early in the morning, and the exercise last night consumed a lot of energy. He is already in his 30s, and he suffered from severe internal friction a few years ago. The tiredness made him want to fall back and sleep for a few more hours, but he didn't have the time.

But Weng Jie hadn't woken up yet, Chen Rong turned to look at him for a while, and finally gathered enough energy to get up.

He still didn't want to understand why Weng Jie did this, and there was nothing he could do about it, so he could only take one step at a time, let him go.

But Weng Jie couldn't get up in the morning, he didn't wake up too late, but he was still lying on the bed until Chen Rong packed up and went to work.

Although I only did it once last night, it took more than an hour. This was beyond the physical load for him who hadn't exercised for a long time and had just experienced a blood loss not long ago.

But he didn't regret it, and this was just the beginning.

Chen Rong was very efficient and sent the Braille teacher to Dan Weng Jie in the afternoon.

The teacher he chose was a retired old lady, who was younger. Regardless of gender, he was worried about letting Weng Jie be alone with others.

He can't change his narrow mind no matter what.

The old lady's surname is Yang. Although her hair is graying, she is very energetic and well dressed. Wearing reading glasses with a chain, she looks very elegant.

However, Weng Jie couldn't see these things. He could only tell through his voice that the teacher was quite old, and his tone of voice was very gentle, and he always had a little smile. It was very easy to get along with.

But Weng Jie studied Braille with this teacher Yang for an afternoon, and the old lady left before the meal time, saying that someone at home was waiting for her to go back for dinner, so Weng Jie didn't hold back much.

Although Chen Rong is busy with work, he refuses to work overtime in the company. He must come back to have dinner with Dan Weng Jie. Even if he watches Dan Weng Jie making out with his younger brother and intentionally neglects him, it doesn't matter, he just wants to see him.

The author has something to say: the repeated part is due to the modification of the locked chapter, and I am very sorry for affecting the reading experience

Chapter 46

But Weng Jie studied Braille with this teacher Yang for an afternoon, and the old lady left before the meal time, saying that someone at home was waiting for her to go back for dinner, so Weng Jie didn't hold back much.

Although Chen Rong is busy with work, he refuses to work overtime in the company. He must come back to have dinner with Dan Weng Jie. Even if he watches Dan Weng Jie making out with his younger brother and deliberately neglects him, it doesn't matter, he just wants to see him.

Not long after dinner, Dan Weng Fan's tutor also came over. She was a girl who was studying for graduate school. She spoke softly and with a strong bookish air, which was easy to be liked by others.

Chen Rong originally didn't want to choose this person to tutor Dan Weng Fan, he didn't want any young people who might attract Dan Weng Jie's attention to come in here, but Xiao Fan was not satisfied with the previous teachers who came to try to teach, only this made him Accepted quickly.

But Weng Fan does seem to be a little autistic and wary of strangers, except for Weng Jie, who rarely talks to anyone, and the same is true for his peers. He has basically never talked to his classmates after transferring to another school for so many days , The teacher tried to communicate with him many times but failed.

Chen Rong probably knew a little about why Xiaofan behaved like this, but after Ling Feng severed ties with Dan Weng Jie, he almost pinned all his hopes on this hard-won young son.

But because of the illness he suffered when he was a child, Weng Fan's intelligence level has not kept up with his peers, he can speak very late, and he has no mother's company since he was a child, but Ling Feng is the kind who only strictly requires his children to understand As a person who communicates, this kind of environment lacking in love makes Dan Weng Fan very insecure, and his personality is also relatively introverted.

After he went to school, because his grades were often at the bottom, Ling Feng's attitude towards him was even worse.

But Ling Feng originally wanted to do his best to raise a better child than Dan Weng Jie, so he could feel proud, but Xiao Fan couldn't meet his expectations, so naturally he didn't get his care and attention.

Moreover, an introverted child with poor grades like Xiaofan in school is easily isolated and bullied. If this happens for a long time, introversion will develop into self-enclosed, which is actually a kind of self-protection.

After thinking about it for a few days, Chen Rong decided to let Song Qi get in touch with Xiaofan. If Xiaofan didn't reject him, he would let Song Qi give him psychological counseling slowly.

Now he finally understands that the human heart is actually very fragile. If you don't get enough love, if you are hurt too much, you will easily suffer from mental illness.

As for the psychological problems, the sooner they are resolved, the better, otherwise, if left unchecked, a monster like him may grow.

Thinking of this, he couldn't help laughing at himself. If he hadn't fallen in love with Dan Weng Jie uncontrollably, he probably wouldn't feel that there was a problem with him in his whole life.

When Song Qi was chatting with him a few days ago, he mentioned a mental illness called complex post-traumatic stress disorder. People who are often painfully neglected physically and emotionally by attachment figures (e.g., caregivers, older siblings) tend to develop a sense of their own imperfections and of others' unreliability.

This kind of trauma will affect the personality of the individual as an adult, and it is not easy to detect the source of the problem.

He didn't know if Song Qi said this because he was implying something when he mentioned Dan Weng Fan.

He subconsciously resists recalling his childhood, but to find out where the root of his problems is, he must force himself to revisit the past.

Chen Rong was born in an authentic wealthy family. His father, Chen Jianyang, and his mother, Zheng Haiping, got married not because of free love, but because they were well-matched and arranged by the elders of the family to become husband and wife.

In Chen Rong's first blurred memory, his parents got along fairly harmoniously, and they didn't quarrel much, so it can be said that they respected each other as guests.

Chen Jianyang didn't care much about him, but he still knew how to act, so before his mother passed away, he didn't notice that there was anything wrong with his father.

The accident happened in the summer when he was five years old. He still remembers that there was a lot of rain in that summer, and it often rained heavily.

One day it rained harder than before, just like Nezha killed Prince Long.

He couldn't remember when Zheng Haiping left the house that morning, and he didn't know why she drove out alone in that kind of weather.

All he knew was that there was chaos at home that night, and someone told him something had happened to his mother, but he was not allowed to go out.

He could only wait uncomfortably at home. After waiting for a long time, someone finally told him what happened.

Zheng Haiping was suffocated to death in her car.

Because of the heavy rain, the car was soaked in water and couldn't start. The road where she was forced to stop was heavily flooded, and the water almost submerged the roof of the car.

Moreover, the location of that place was relatively remote, and by the time the search and rescue personnel pried open her car window, she had already died of suffocation.

No one knew why she drove to that place alone, and there was no evidence that she was murdered, so the matter fell through after the Chen family gave her a funeral.

The young Chen Rong hadn't recovered from the pain of losing her mother when she watched Chen Jianyang bring back another woman. It was less than two months before Zheng Haiping died.

His grandfather quarreled with his father because of this matter, and the family was up and down every day. No one cared about his feelings. He was young and had no right to speak at all, so he could only hide in the corner and watch.

Later that woman stayed because she also gave birth to a son for Chen Jianyang. His grandfather was dissatisfied with that woman, but he would not want a grandson.

After Chen Zheng and Zhou Yanqin moved in, Chen Rong became the redundant one. It was fine for the mother and son not to see him, but Chen Jianyang also thought he was in the way, as if he was not his son.

Chen Rong didn't understand why this happened at first, until he accidentally heard a servant at home chatting that Zhou Yanqin was his father's first love, and when the two fell in love, his grandfather forcibly separated them because his grandfather didn't like her. Zhou Yanqin's background, Chen Jianyang was forced to marry his mother.

Moreover, Chen Zheng was three months older than him.

Chen Zheng, Chen Rong...

Haha, Chen Jianyang really knows how to choose names.

In the years that followed, he often heard people praise the love between Chen Jianyang and Zhou Yanqin, saying that it was not easy for the pair of fateful mandarin ducks to get together in the end, and that Chen Jianyang was a rare lover who only loved one woman in his life.

And Zheng Haiping seems to have been erased from people's memory. Only when they saw Chen Rong, did people remember that Chen Jianyang had married other women back then.

Yes, even though his mother was the first wife, she turned out to be another woman in everyone's mouth, as if she was the third party who broke up others.

And his legitimate child has also become a stumbling block preventing the reunion of other people's family of three.

In the first few years, Chen Rong often wondered why he was born and why two people who did not love each other brought him into this world.

From being sad and angry at the beginning, he slowly transitioned into self-doubt, feeling that he was redundant.

His mother is dead, no one loves him, no one needs him, so why on earth does he exist?

He thought about committing suicide, but he was unwilling. He had done nothing wrong, so why should he be treated like this?

If no one loves him, then love yourself, only you will never abandon yourself.

He no longer relies on or trusts anyone. Only the power in his hands is reliable. If he becomes stronger, he will not be bullied by others.

The so-called feelings, whether family affection or love, can be used to deceive people.

What is infatuation?Is it to marry an unsuspecting woman in order to inherit the family business, and at the same time keep true love outside?Or go back and sleep with the original partner who broke up with their true love when they can't have sex in the first three months of pregnancy?

Chen Rong didn't understand how people could be so disgusting, and because of this, he hated so-called love since before puberty.

Hormones bring him only sex and impulse, he will not treat his body badly, so he does what he wants, changes his bed partner when he gets bored, and never develops a relationship with anyone.

He always thought that he would never love anyone but himself.

But people are born with emotions, love or not love, many times it is beyond their control.

When he figured out his feelings for Dan Weng Jie, it was too late. He hurt the person he loved, and he knew clearly that those hurts could not be erased.

Sometimes he felt unlucky for Dan Weng Jie, why was he targeted by a monster like him?

Chen Rong leaned on the sofa, closed his eyes and suppressed the tears that were about to pour out.

He rubbed his temples, thinking that he was probably really old, and he was starting to feel a little weak in work, and recently he always suddenly wanted to cry uncontrollably.

When he was in his twenties, he never imagined that he would be where he is today.

Chen Rong adjusted his mood for a while, then went upstairs to find Dan Weng Jie, intending to discuss with him about Xiaofan.

When he entered the bedroom, he saw Dan Weng Jie sitting on the sofa with his back straight, a braille board on his lap, and a pen in his hand. He should be practicing the braille he just learned.

This set of braille writing tools was chosen by Chen Rong himself. Compared with the previous writing tools that can be used to write and write backwards, it is much more convenient. The tip of the braille pen is concave, and the dots can be read directly without breaking On paper, the writing order is also consistent with the reading order, from left to right.

Before that, Chen Rong deliberately learned a little Braille and knew the basic rules of writing and reading.

The basic unit of Braille is a rectangular braille character, with six dots at fixed positions, and the dots can be raised or sunken, so there are 64 arrangements.

The current domestic Braille is a phonetic alphabet, which is represented by the Braille characters corresponding to the Chinese Pinyin.

But Weng Jie heard the sound of him coming in, and subconsciously turned his face to the door, but the movement of his hands didn't stop.

Chen Rong walked up to him and looked down at him typing on the braille board, which was the braille symbols corresponding to the initials in Pinyin, and was speechless for a while.

"What's the matter?" But Weng Jie stopped and asked him.

The author has something to say: the part about complex post-traumatic stress disorder refers to the information posted by the blogger @complex post-traumatic stress account, and the Braille part refers to the Wikipedia entry.

Enter v on the 15th, there will be three updates on the same day, and it will be posted around 11:[-] in the morning, so there is no need to wait for the update at night, okay?

Chapter 47

Chen Rong was silent for a moment before saying, "I want to discuss with you about Xiaofan."

But Ong-jae stops writing, faces him, and waits for him to continue.

"Song Qi, do you still remember? He is a psychiatrist. You should have noticed that Xiaofan is a little autistic. I want him to get in touch with Xiaofan." Chen Rong said deliberately.

But Weng Jie thought for a while, "Okay, but I want to be there, and let them talk alone after Xiaofan can accept him."

"Then I'll make an appointment with Song Qi, can this weekend be okay?" Chen Rong asked again.

But Weng Jie hummed.

Chen Rong still wanted to talk to him for a while, but she didn't know what to say, so she only reminded Weng Jie to take a break earlier and went out.

After Xiaofan's tutor left, Dan Weng Jie entered his room.

But Weng Jie thought about it for a few days, and decided to truthfully tell Xiaofan that grandma and father had passed away.

This kind of thing can be hidden for a while, but it can't be hidden for a lifetime. Instead of lying to him, it is better to tell him the truth earlier.

After listening to what he said, Xiaofan didn't cry, but was very quiet, which made Weng Jie even more worried.

He hugged Xiaofan into his arms, stroked the back of his head, and said softly: "If Xiaofan feels sad, just cry, it's okay, it'll be better if you cry."

"Don't be afraid, brother will accompany you in the future."

"Dad and grandma will also watch you in the sky, and mom, they just went to another world."

"Everyone is mortal, and we will die in the future. This is the law of nature."

……

Xiaofan finally sobbed softly, pressed his face to Dan Weng Jie Dan Weng Jie's chest, hugged him tightly and cried, "I don't want my brother to die, I won't be able to see you after I die, you promised to be with me Mine, stay with me all the time, I don't want to be alone..."

But Weng Jie was affected by him and couldn't hold back his tears, "Okay, my brother will always be with you. But, when you grow up, you will meet someone you like. If that person likes you too, ta I'll be with you too."

"But I only like elder brother." Xiaofan said stubbornly.

"You're still young, and when you grow up, you'll understand that it's not the kind of liking that brother has, but the liking between lovers." But Weng Jie patiently explained to him.

Xiaofan raised his head, looked at Dan Weng Jie's face, thought for a while and asked, "Does that brother like someone? Is it an uncle?"

But Weng Jie was taken aback by the question, he didn't expect Xiaofan to think in this way.

"Brother, do you like Uncle? I know Uncle likes you, but I can't tell if you like Uncle." Xiaofan said again.

But Weng Jie was once again surprised by Xiaofan's sharpness.

He felt that he had dug a hole for himself unintentionally, and he didn't know how to answer Xiaofan's question at all.

Xiaofan waited for a while, saw that Weng Jie was a little distracted, and said: "Brother, it's okay if you don't want to talk, I won't ask, just don't want me."

"Brother won't want you." But Weng Jie said quickly.

Xiaofan feels too insecure, wondering if he heard something bad at home before, always afraid of being abandoned.

The two talked for a while, but Weng Jie found that Xiaofan was starting to feel sleepy, so he let him go to sleep.

"Brother, can you sleep with me tonight, just this time, I'm afraid alone." Xiaofan begged, holding his hand.

But Weng Jie didn't hesitate for a long time and agreed, "You go to bed and rest first, I'll go up and take a shower and then come down, is that okay?"

Xiaofan hummed obediently.

But after Weng Jie went upstairs, he first went to the study to find Chen Rong, and told him that he would spend the night with Xiaofan.

Chen Rong was not happy in his heart, but he still rationally did not object.

Then, like a few days ago, he took care of Dan Weng Jie after taking a shower, then sent him downstairs, watched him enter Xiaofan's room, stood outside for a while, and then turned to go upstairs.

But when Weng Jie returned to Xiaofan's room, Xiaofan was so sleepy that he couldn't fall asleep.

He is young, growing up, and needs more sleep time. Even if he just learned the news of the death of his father and grandma, he still feels sleepy.

But Weng Jie walked to his bedside according to his memory, bent down to touch the edge of the bed, put down his blind stick, and sat down by the bedside.

"Brother, you're finally here, I'm so sleepy..." Xiaofan said aggrievedly.

"Then go to sleep, you have to get up for school tomorrow, and my brother is going to sleep too." But Weng Jie said softly, and then lay down beside him.

Xiaofan's bed is not big, barely able to sleep the two of them.

"Well, good night, brother." Xiaofan slipped into Dan Wengjie's arms and muttered.

"Good night." But Weng Jie hugged him gently and closed his eyes.

After finishing his work, Chen Rong went back to the bathroom in the bedroom to take a shower. Since Dan Weng Jie moved in, he seldom took a shower here.

After tidying himself up, laying down on the bed and turning off the lights, he suddenly felt an unprecedented loneliness, far worse than the kind of "a man in a lonely boat, fishing alone in the cold river and snow".

Obviously, Weng Jie just went downstairs, and told him that he would only stay with Xiaofan for one night, and that he was not far away from him in terms of space or time, but he still felt empty and uneasy, as if the next step would be It's like falling from a height.

After closing his eyes for a long time without a trace of drowsiness, and the intense restlessness did not ease in the slightest, he realized that this might be one of the symptoms of anxiety.

In the past, he just often suffered from insomnia and tinnitus, and rarely felt fear, but now he feels fear, an indescribable fear.

Chen Rong turned sideways, facing the side where Dan Weng Jie had slept before, hugged his used pillow into his arms, and then his body curled up a little bit.

The air conditioner is turned on in the room, which is 23°C, which is in golden proportion to the surface temperature of the human body. Chen Rong is still covered with the air conditioner quilt, so he would never feel cold at ordinary times, but now he is shivering from the cold.

Moreover, the familiar muscle twitches during anxiety attacks also started. The muscle groups in the legs, arms, back, and even hands and feet twitched from time to time, making him feel as if something was scurrying around in his body. The law is completely out of control.

I don't know how long it has passed, but he finally couldn't bear it anymore. He touched the bedside lamp, turned on the light and got up to look for medicine.

Song Qi reminded him that psychotropic drugs should not be stopped casually, and they must be taken for a long time according to the doctor's advice to be effective.

But every time he couldn't hold it any longer, he thought of taking medicine, and he stopped after the symptoms eased a little.

He knew it was not good, and he had experienced the side effects of stopping the drug many times, but he just couldn't take it honestly for a long time.

Anti-anxiety drugs are the same as anti-depressant drugs. There are many side effects. The most obvious one is drowsiness. After waking up, the mind will be unclear all day long, thinking slowly, as if suddenly becoming stupid .

In that state, even Chen Rong couldn't handle his work well, not to mention that his position as the chairman was not secure, and Chen Zheng and those old shareholders were staring at him every day.

Chen Rong swallowed the medicine distractedly, drank another half a glass of water, then lay back on the bed, turned off the light and waited for the medicine to take effect.

This process was not beautiful, his spirit could not relax, but his body was slowly falling asleep under the effect of the medicine. He couldn't help himself not to resist the disappearance of consciousness, but the more he resisted, the more uncomfortable he became.

Losing control of his body exacerbated his insecurities and fears, and even though he had gone through the process many times, he still suffered from it.

This pain is not lessened by having experienced it.

This period of time was actually not long, but it was extremely difficult for him.

In the end, he still couldn't overcome the effect of the increased dose, his consciousness began to become confused, he even had hallucinations, and his body couldn't move at all, even if he wanted to move his fingers, he couldn't even breathe after opening his eyes. Everything became difficult, and the terrifying sense of dying enveloped him again, and the intuition that he would never wake up after a deep sleep was very strong.

A long time ago, he was not afraid of death. For him, living is not much fun. If he is destined to die, he should die. He is indifferent to whether it is him or someone else.

But when he experienced this near-death feeling for the first time, he hadn't found Dan Weng Jie, and he died like that unwillingly. Now, he finally found someone, even though But Weng Jie would never forgive him, he still wanted to Stay with him for a while longer.

Because of this obsession, he was more panicked and more painful when faced with the feeling of dying.

He was desperately trying to grab something like a drowning person, but his body was completely out of the control of his brain, and all his struggles were invisible and destined to be futile.

It was probably because Xiaofan was by his side, but Weng Jie slept very well this time, didn't have any dreams, didn't wake up in the middle, and fell asleep until Xiaofan's alarm clock woke up.

He hadn't slept so soundly in years.

When Xiaofan heard the alarm clock, she closed her eyes and shrank into Dan Weng Jie's arms again.

He usually doesn't stay in bed, but today with his brother around, he doesn't think much about it.

But Weng Jie followed the sound, reached out to touch the alarm clock, turned it off and said softly to Xiaofan: "Xiaofan, are you awake? Shouldn't it be time to get up?"

Xiaofan grudgingly hummed, and lay in Dan Weng Jie's arms for a few more seconds before reluctantly getting up.

But Weng Jie also sat up. He wanted to help Xiaofan put on his clothes, but he couldn't see, so he probably would only add to Xiaofan's confusion, but he still asked worriedly: "Can you do it yourself? Do you want to call me?" Auntie is here to help you."

"I can, I will take care of myself a long time ago." Xiaofan said confidently.

But Weng Jie suddenly remembered that he seemed to have started shooting at Xiaofan's age, and was sent out for training by Dan Lingfeng when he was less than ten years old.

It seems that he has been an adult for a long time, and like many people, he will underestimate the independent ability of children.

He smiled and praised: "Xiaofan is awesome."

Xiaofan scratched his head embarrassingly, then got out of bed to find his own clothes to wear.

But Weng Jie's toiletries were upstairs, so he had to go back to Chen Rong's room.

After he went in, he didn't hear a sound, and thought that Chen Rong had already woken up, because Chen Rong would have already gotten up at this point to tidy himself up.

But Weng Jie went into the bathroom, went to the cloakroom to get a set of clothes to change after washing, and then went downstairs to have breakfast with Xiaofan.

Seeing him coming down, the nanny asked with some doubts, "Isn't Mister up yet?"

But Weng Jie was taken aback, Chen Rong is still in the room?But why didn't he hear a sound at all.

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Chapter 48

"I don't know, you can go up and have a look." But Weng Jie said.

The nanny then went upstairs and entered the master bedroom. Seeing that Chen Rong was indeed lying on the bed, she hesitated for a while and called him softly, but Chen Rong did not respond at all.

The nanny's intuition was wrong. She knew that Chen Rong didn't sleep well. It was rare for her to wake up and wake up.

As she approached, she yelled a few more times at a slightly louder volume, but it still didn't wake her up.

This is not normal.

She shook Chen Rong's arm tentatively, but Chen Rong still didn't respond at all.

The nanny panicked and hurried out to call someone.

At this time, apart from Dan Weng Jie and Xiaofan in the villa, only the driver Lao Zhang who is waiting outside to take Xiaofan to school can help.

Lao Zhang went up to check on Chen Rong's condition, and immediately called Da Liu and an ambulance at the same time.

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