I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

Xu Jiao silently ate the breakfast in her hand. In the previous few worlds, she had the halo of the Creator, not to mention the food, even the stones on the roadside would come to get close to her. Even if you take two steps on the road, your eyes will be dazzled by hundred-dollar bills.

Exams, work, debut...everything went smoothly, basically there were no setbacks, even if people with unsophisticated thoughts were expelled from her side, there was basically no retaliation, as if she should be so smooth as long as she entered that world of.

Until recently……

In the book "Preference", firstly, the ultimate god is not her, and the will of the whole world no longer favors her, and then in this world, Xu Jiao's life is almost as miserable as the heroine she once wrote. The terrible life experience seemed to be hers naturally, and even the only accident in her life, Zheng Zhiyu, was full of conspiracy when she arrived in front of her.

Xu Jiao was not moved by it at first. After all, in the previous world, Lilith pestered her to do all the things a lover should do. She didn't have too many inner fluctuations, and all her reactions came from physical familiarity. That's all.

But here.

Seeing Zheng Zhiyu sticking to her body without moving, and even liking her with seriousness, Xu Jiao rarely didn't know what to say to her heart.

For a long time, her calmness and rationality have been built on a place that stands above the crowd. The way for people to keep calm is very simple, that is, never put yourself in the crowd.

Because once you put yourself in the majority, you will easily follow the sounds around and in your ears, and finally gradually lose your ability to think, and follow the sounds you want to hear.

Keeping calm is not an easy task. First of all, you need enough knowledge reserves to be able to form your own ideas, but in this world where there are mouthpieces everywhere, a person who is used to socializing or trying to communicate through the media People who understand things will inevitably bring other people's ideas into their thinking.

The reason why Xu Jiao is able to be calm now is inseparable from some of her experiences.

Or, in fact, she has some natural advantages in this regard.

just.

This advantage is not conducive to love.

what is love?

From ancient times to the present, the great love praised by people is deeply affectionate and moving, or it is as tragic as a moth flying into a flame for a while, or it is a long-lasting stream of water, and the love is not deep enough.

A person who is too indifferent and doesn't have much empathy for the emotions of others, his own affection is pitiful, like a shallow pond, how can he pretend to have such deep affection?

Xu Jiao asked herself that she couldn't bear a relationship.

In other words, she felt that she didn't need love in her life. Ever since... that person disappeared from her life, she never had any hope for the relationship between people. She planned to Die alone.

In contrast, falling in love with the person in her book... This kind of thing sounds very difficult, and there are many thorns and obstacles in the process. She asked herself if she wanted to engage in a vigorous love type, and she felt very tired just thinking about it Things that Xu Jiao didn't want to do.

So even if you like it a little bit, so what?

This little bit, nothing can change.

It would be better not to say.

……

Xu Jiao didn't say a word, and Zheng Zhiyu really didn't ask anymore, she just watched Xu Jiao finish her breakfast quietly, staring at her plate more than waiting for her answer.

This was the case the week before the May Day holiday.

Zheng Zhiyu followed Xu Jiao's own pace, supervising Xu Jiao's three meals a day, listening to Xu Jiao's two roommates recommending new nearby restaurants to her, and always teasing Xu Jiao after her morning self-study or after class Go grab a meal and see for yourself.

So reluctantly fattened Xu Jiao up to two catties.

The night before the May Day holiday, there was a little heat in the dormitory. Xu Jiao didn't want to cover the thick quilt again, so she kicked half of it off, exposing her long legs in plain shorts, and even hugged the quilt beside her to prevent students Sleeping on the upper bunk dishonestly turned over the iron railing.

At this temperature, it is too cool to turn on the fan and air conditioner, and it is slightly hot when not turned on.

Zheng Zhiyu finally found a place where she could shine, hugged Xu Jiao from behind, and got into her bed to cool her off, this time she was not kicked out.

Xu Jiao was about to fall asleep in a daze when she remembered something and whispered:

"Five o'clock tomorrow morning, please."

Zheng Zhiyu asked her, "Why do you get up so early?"

Xu Jiao said casually, "Go home."

Qian Ai, who was in the opposite shop, was still playing with her mobile phone and was not sleeping at all. Hearing the rustling movement in the room, she couldn't help but wondered: "Xiao Xu? Are you asleep?"

Xu Jiao didn't say a word.

Qian Ai thought of the two sentences that seemed to be muttering to himself just now, and used his mobile phone to illuminate Xu Jiao's position, and found that there was not much change, so he said to himself: "Oh my god, Xueba, you This dream scares me to death.”

Xu Jiao curled her lips silently, closed her eyes and quickly fell asleep.

……

It was still dark when I got up.

Xu Jiao's movements are very light, and she doesn't have any big suitcases to pack. After all, she doesn't have a lot of clothes to bring. She needs to bring more underwear and the like for a change of clothes, and one or two sets of the rest of the clothes. Yes, summer is coming soon, these thin clothes are curled up, and a schoolbag is enough to hold them.

She easily packed her luggage and sent a message to her two roommates to leave. She didn't even unzip her schoolbag. She waited until she closed the door softly before checking her luggage as she walked down. There was a loud "Whoah!"

Zheng Zhiyu blended into her shadow silently as usual, and only asked in her ear when she walked out of the dormitory:

"Going to have breakfast?"

Xu Jiao shook her head: "No, I have to catch the earliest bus to the train station. If I miss breakfast, I won't be able to catch up."

Zheng Zhiyu immediately reminded: "There is a convenience store on the right side of the school gate, buy two breads and a bottle of milk, and take them with you on the way."

Through the past few days of getting along, Xu Jiao also knows that Zheng Zhiyu is always unwilling to make concessions on her food. She tried to argue with the other party or protest silently before, but in the end Zheng Zhiyu used a more rogue way Threatened, now I know that answering is the most convenient way, so I quickly responded:

"Ah."

Zheng Zhiyu was really satisfied and didn't want to interfere with her anymore.

There were not too many passengers on the bus in the morning. After Xu Jiao got on the bus, she always felt that the temperature inside the bus was lower than outside. There were not many people in the bus. They were either sitting in the last row with their heads down, or Sitting by the window, wearing a plush hat to look outside, everyone is wearing tight clothes, making Xu Jiao wonder if she has not received the news that she has cooled down recently.

She scanned the seat of the bus, and found that the chair was a bit strange. The armrest at the top was actually fluorescent, some orange and some green. After searching for a while from the memory of the original owner, Xu Jiao found out I don't seem to have the impression of this aspect.

Is this bus reformed recently?

It's just the two bars of this color. Is it an advertisement that she can't understand?

Xu Jiao's expression was calm, but there was some hesitation in her heart. She paused in her walking steps, and was always stuck in the position where she had just boarded the bus from the front door. The bus moved smoothly, as if no one noticed her just got on the bus.

Xu Jiao stood for a while before realizing the weirdness of the situation.

The driver turned a blind eye to her, didn't say a word, and didn't respond when he saw her blocking the aisle. He didn't even give the most basic notice of getting off at the stop, and the radio in the car was dead silent.

At the same time, Xu Jiao was clutching the two one-dollar coins she found out of her bag, and realized that she hadn't seen anything like a conductor or a slot machine.

This bus is so weird.

When she realized this, Xu Jiao vaguely sensed that the passengers sitting in the back row seemed to be sluggish for a long time, and finally realized her existence. They moved their heads one by one and looked in her direction.

Before Xu Jiao met their faces, Zheng Zhiyu suddenly came out of her shadow without a sound. The blood-colored red dress became a dazzling bright color in the dark space in the early morning. She raised her hand to Xu Jiao's shoulder, He casually pushed her down on an orange seat, and then stood beside her, with one hand on her shoulder.

As if to enclose the space between her and the entire seat.

Xu Jiao looked up at her, and saw that she mouthed the words "don't talk" to herself, so she didn't continue to explore this bus, but rested her head on the back of the chair, taking a nap to regain her composure up.

As soon as Zheng Zhiyu lowered her head, she could see her appearance, including her beautiful features, delicate face, thick eyelashes, straight nose bridge and light-colored lips.

There is a light blue color under the eyelashes.

It seemed that her whole complexion was not very good.

Thinking of the width of the waist that Zheng Zhiyu was hugging last night, Zheng Zhiyu moved her fingertips slightly, as if she was gesticulating something, moved her lips for a long time, and sighed silently:

"Too little..."

not enough.

Xu Jiao is suffering so much now, the flesh on her body seems to be barely squeezed, Zheng Zhiyu is always afraid that sometimes the strength will be light or heavy, and she will hurt the other party, and she has never had a good time with Xu Jiao.

She licked her bright red lower lip to block the sight of other passengers, and only greedily traced the person who belonged to her with her eyes over and over again. She didn't take a picture of Xu Jiao until the bus stopped at the train station. shoulders.

Xu Jiao didn't fall asleep at all. After all, although Zheng Zhiyu didn't have the scorching temperature of a living person, her chilly gaze stared at the back of the person and tightened. Besides, this car was very weird, no matter how dull she was, it was impossible for her to be in such a place. He fell asleep heartlessly.

wait until

After getting off the bus and being shrouded in the slightly hot air of the whole city again, Xu Jiao realized that her body was cold. While walking, she looked at the shadow beside her, and said casually:

"What car was that just now?"

Zheng Zhiyu answered her slowly: "Hearse."

Xu Jiao was silent for a second: "What is that?"

Zheng Zhiyu explained her doubts in a leisurely tone: "To put it simply, after the accident, the bus keeps repeating the same route, from the driver to the passengers, and occasionally there will be people who don't care much and get on the bus. , but it doesn’t matter, as long as you stand up and down quietly and don’t yell and disturb the order, nothing will happen.”

Xu Jiao raised her eyebrows, as if she understood.

She didn't ask any more, but Zheng Zhiyu sighed: "I haven't seen anyone who attracts these things like you. Dirty things from a hundred miles around can line up to touch you, you soul... What the hell is it?" What's going on? Was it like this before?"

Xu Jiao hadn't looked at the complete memory of the original owner before, but now hearing Zheng Zhiyu's sigh, she couldn't help but start from this aspect, and searched the memory carefully. After a few seconds, her brows slowly frowned.

"Maybe not."

Zheng Zhiyu didn't quite believe it: "Are you sure?"

Xu Jiao nodded, and carefully looked at the life of the original owner who was bullied by the family, only to find something suspicious, except for the time when the original owner was pushed into the water when he was a child and almost drowned, there was almost nothing. Encountered something particularly spooky and weird.

And those things in the river are too exciting to remember.

Xu Jiao shook her head slightly, and came up with an affirmative answer: "I'm sure, I never encountered these things when I was young."

Zheng Zhiyu, who had always been willing to communicate with Xu Jiao on everything except emotional problems, suddenly fell silent. Xu Jiao wanted to ask her what was wrong, but she happened to walk to the entrance of the inspection and had to show her ID card. Documents, at the same time put the salute on the track to pass the security check.

This bus departed at 06:30. After Xu Jiao got up, it took more than ten minutes to wash and tidy up. She walked and waited for the bus for 7 minutes. It took another 15 minutes for the bus to walk to the train station, excluding the time for closing the ticket gate in advance. , she even had to walk quickly to the ticket gate when she first arrived at the station.

Lin Lin always came down, and finally got on the train, and it was the cheapest ticket I bought. Xu Jiao sat by the window, and there were two middle-aged people with big bags and small bags next to her. The person sitting rubbish pushed the person on the outermost side, pointed at Xu Jiao and said:

"I think that girl is quite thin. You should be able to sit in this crowd, right? Move in and give me a seat, thank you."

So the people on the outermost side automatically squeezed in, and in the end, like a can of sardines, only Xu Jiao, the most petite of the sexes, looked like a pitiful little girl. Infected by the messy smell.

Zheng Zhiyu just felt as if he had no place in her shadow.

She leaned on Xu Jiao's ear and whispered, "Jiaojiao, shall I change the soft berth for you?"

Xu Jiao shook her head slightly, hugged her bag and fell asleep. After all, it was not too long to take the train back from school, and it took five or six hours to reach the city over there.

Later, there will be subcontracted cars, motorcycles and the like.

Xu Jiao was too lazy to bother, but Zheng Zhiyu wanted to make her sit in this place more comfortably.

……

Ten minutes later—

Xu Jiao noticed that the people around her were constantly rubbing their feet, and even took out a smelly blanket from the green nylon bag under her feet and put it on her body, complaining casually:

"What's the matter with this car? Why is it so generous today? The air conditioner froze me to death."

This voice attracted the approval of the people in the nearby seats. On the opposite side, a man was puffing and puffing deliciously while holding spicy beef noodles, and the instant noodle soup foamed out of his mouth as he spoke:

"Yeah! I think so too! My noodles became cold after soaking for 5 minutes, which is very strange!"

But they were just complaining, and they didn't make any big moves. At most, they put on their thick clothes and quilts.

Half an hour later, a person who couldn't stand the cold went to the train attendant and wanted to change seats. The one who had finished eating instant noodles before felt too crowded and wanted to buy a hard sleeper, but unfortunately...

May Day is originally the peak period for travel, and there are not many seats left.

What's more, there are still some people standing around who are about to move.

Ready to pay at any time

Xu Jiao felt that Zheng Zhiyu's little action was a little funny for no reason. She opened her eyelids and saw Zheng Zhiyu raising her hand expressionlessly to help her block the instant noodle juice splashed by the man opposite her. What she originally wanted to say was "forget it" When it came to my mouth, I temporarily changed it to another sentence:

"Buy a soft sleeper when you come back."

Zheng Zhiyu looked at her with pure black eyes, as if she didn't know why she suddenly changed her mind, leaned over and put one hand on her neck, looked at her for a few seconds, and quickly said:

"So it's settled then?"

Xu Jiaozhong closed her eyes again, and nodded slightly.

Zheng Zhiyu didn't torment these people any more. Soon after, the physiques of the people in the nearby seats seemed to rejuvenate, and soon they were made sultry by the crowded air, causing Xu Jiao to spend most of the itinerary listening to those in her ears. People complain that the air conditioner of this train is broken.

……

It was the hottest time to get off the bus at noon.

Xu Jiao raised her hand to block the sunlight in front of her eyes, stood in front of the station, followed her memory to find the driver of the chartered car to ask the price, and carpooled with someone towards the village and town of her hometown, and the mountain road turned eighteen bends in the van It took two hours to reach the town, and by the time the pack motorcycle returned to the entrance of the village, a few sporadic twinkling lights had already hung in the sky.

She was walking on the field ridges in the countryside, turned on the torch function of the broken mobile phone, and carefully illuminated the road under her feet. Some places were a little wet, and there was still mud when she stepped down. People in the village did not have any entertainment at night. They all play their own things at home, occasionally visiting, and mostly playing cards and bragging.

There were very few people around where she was walking at the moment.

Zheng Zhiyu got out at this moment, picked her up by the waist, walked through the tall corn stalks around, and walked in the direction Xu Jiao was walking. Xu Jiao was picked up by her, took a look at her, and changed Instead, focus on the nearby environment, so that you can find out whether there is anyone nearby in advance, so that someone who is doing farm work in the middle of the night will find someone floating in the air when he looks up.

That effect is amazing.

Zheng Zhiyu didn't even hear a word of protest from her, and teased her in a cool tone: "Why are you so good today?"

Xu Jiao replied lazily: "In the end

In the face of the right power, all struggles are useless. "

Zheng Zhiyu chuckled, kissed the top of her hair, and said with a bit of praise in her tone, "I just like how smart you are."

Xu Jiao let out a "hmm" and said casually, "Yes, I quite like the way I look."

Just finished saying this, she patted Zheng Zhiyu on the shoulder, signaling him to put her down, because across the cornfield, the original owner's house was in front of her.

Seeing that she was obedient recently, Zheng Zhiyu felt that she was in a good mood at first, so now she naturally did not hesitate to follow Xu Jiao, let her go obediently, and at the same time slipped back into her shadow.

Xu Jiao walked step by step to the door of the lit earthen house, stood and looked at it for a while, and then opened the door and walked in.

……

"Which night did you come here... Oh, are you willing to come back?"

Xu Dashu walked out with a cigarette in his mouth, his original tone was a bit happy, he thought it was his old friends coming over, but when he saw Xu Jiao, his tone immediately lowered by eight degrees, the disgust and contempt in his tone were very obvious.

With his attitude, Xu Jiao naturally didn't bother to talk to him, she just said: "I promise you to come back, so don't think about going to my school to make trouble in the future."

Xu Dashu knocked on his cigarette-gun-stick, smiled, his face was too old to wrinkle, squinted at her and said: "I think you haven't cleaned it up for a long time, your skin is itchy, you come back It should be, don't mention those things that I don't have."

This is just not wanting to admit it.

Xu Jiao looked at him clearly, not surprised by his attitude, followed the original owner's memory to go back to her room, when more people in the room heard Xu Dashu's movement outside, a male voice raised his voice The voice said in a local accent:

"Father, who are you talking to? My mother called you to come and collect the table."

"Little bastard dared to order your father, the wings are very stiff——Xu Jiao is back, let her take them."

Xu Dashu stared at Xu Jiao's back and raised his voice to answer.

The curtain of the main room was lifted, and a tall boy saw Xu Jiao, looked up and down at her, and said teasingly, "Hey, life at school is pretty good, and you got rich, right? They are all so fashionable, and my sister is so rich, why don't you spend a little for my brother?"

"What money? If she wants money, she has to give it to me first." The sound of the original owner's mother washing the pot with a brush came from the kitchen.

Hearing this voice, the boy rolled his eyes, and while Xu Jiao was passing by, he suddenly reached out to grab Xu Jiao's schoolbag. Xu Jiao reacted in time and avoided it, but he was still caught by the strap of the schoolbag.

The next moment, the boy took advantage of his natural strength and suddenly made an attack. He pulled Xu Jiao's schoolbag off his shoulder and said with a smile:

"Sister, Dad told you to clean the table, why don't you go quickly?"

"You have worked hard all the way back, I will look at this bag for you for a while, don't be so polite."

Xu Jiao looked at him expressionlessly.

Sensing her gaze, the one in front of her didn't look like her at all, with a square face, a slightly slumped nose, and downturned eyes. The whole person who didn't know what to look like said to her:

"Sister, don't look at me like that, I'm so scared."

Xu Jiao raised the corner of her lower lip slightly.

She took two steps into the room, and glanced at the mess on the table, and there was a basin of pale purple

Vegetable egg drop soup, it is rare to reply this sentence:

"Don't worry about it yet."

The boy turned to look at her——

Just this one.

In front of him was a pot of purple-yellow steam that was steaming towards his face.

With a swipe, dripping soup fell from his head, and he subconsciously licked it, the salty taste was still there.

She didn't seem to realize what happened. The tall boy was still holding her bag in one hand. Laver and egg flowers were dripping down his hair and neck. His whole figure looked ridiculous.

He heard Xu Jiao raised her chin unhurriedly at him, and said in an announcing tone:

"Now you can start being scared."