I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

Alone.

Xu Jiao always thought that this word could only describe a lonely person, but after being with Zheng Zhiyu, she found that staring at the shadow under her feet in the crowd became a very happy thing.

Later, they encountered some things one after another, most of which were related to the mysterious power of metaphysics, and the two of them did not do that kind of unnecessary rescue work. Justice refers to people who are involved in bad things , not someone who made a deal with the devil.

For example, Su Qiang in Xujiao school used to lock the soul of her newborn child into a doll, and used it as her capital to keep grabbing other people's vitality and beauty, but in the end she suffered backlash and died miserably.

She is not called innocent.

He who makes a deal with the devil should think of the worst from the start.

Another example is the monk.

His way is the way of longevity. For this reason, he can take the lives of others without changing his face, paving the way for himself, and God will gradually lead everyone to the ultimate way.

……

"Traffic lights.

The crowd came and went in a hurry, gray and black shadows crossed the zebra crossing, and the people who came and went were all dressed brightly, each wearing the most gorgeous leather.

But what's going on inside, only they know.

Xu Jiao glanced over and saw the different colors of auras on the faces of many people. Some people's heads were covered with gray and white, some people's shoulders passed by with gray shadows crouching, and some people's heads were covered with gray shadows. The faint golden Buddha light seemed to be guarding him in the dark.

She looked back.

None of that has anything to do with her.

Going from one side of the road to the other side, at an angle that no one can see, a crimson color broke free from her shadow, and quietly covered her back, discussing with her that we should go to the commercial street tonight Which newly opened store in China will improve the food.

With tenderness and pampering in her brows, she slowly responded.

I don’t know which milk tea shop’s music was tuned a little louder, and a calm and pleasant voice came out. After careful identification, I found that it was singing:

'...It doesn't take too long to walk to the destination. People come and go, full of kindness. This is the most ordinary day. Do you miss it too?'

'Don't chase, don't rush, walk home slowly, just like this, wasting your time without worrying...'

Xu Jiao unconsciously hummed a few words along with the song.

It was indeed an ordinary day for her.

But this seemed to be the life she and Zheng Zhiyu wanted to live.

The evening sunlight shone on the high-rise building, and the afterglow reflected lightly from the glass onto her cheeks, casting a crystal in her eyes, and covering her face with a layer of jade-like veil.

There was a brisk smile on her lips, and the people behind accidentally caught a glimpse of her, and forced her to be temporarily transferred to a flower shop by the roadside, where they bought a bouquet of pure white fresh lilies that were still stained with water droplets.

When she came out, she still had a bit of complaint on her face, because the fresh lily was too expensive, and the red earphone cable was hanging by her ear, people who didn't know it would only think that she was talking to her friends.

Only she knew that Zheng Zhiyu was ripping off her earphones, arguing to her how beautiful the flower was, and what a pity it would be to miss the flowering period.

She tugged on the earphones several times helplessly, and finally succumbed to the evil forces behind her. She quietly smelled the sweet smell still emanating from the stamens of the lily, and accepted that it would not be a loss for her to spend money to buy the timely blooming of this moment. matter.

She walked away with the flowers in her arms.

The shadow is stretched very long.

When turning the corner, it seemed to be divided into two paths, and they merged together quickly. There is me in you, and you in me.

Then, that figure was submerged by the vast sea of ​​people.

——The full text of "No.18 Building"—"

……

Xu Jiao opened her eyes and realized that she was back in this false space. I wonder if it was her illusion. The keyboard on the table and the ergonomic gaming chair seemed to have become a little bit old. Because she was forgotten.

She raised her hand to touch the somewhat rough leather surface of the armrest of the chair, and her eyelashes moved. She had clearly returned to consciousness, but she seemed to be still in that dream, and she didn't react for a long time.

Even though the voice of the system rang in her ears many times:

"Congratulations to the host for successfully bringing "No.18 Building" to the end! The heroine Xu Jiao and her lover Zheng Zhiyu work together to break the villain's conspiracy, uphold justice, and save the common people. The love story of the world! It was included in the Lily Channel! This is the most perfect story I have ever seen written by you!"

Xu Jiao's eyeballs moved left and right, and slowly raised her hand to press her temple, and it took a long time before she let out a faint sound:

"Ah."

Hearing her dispirited voice, the system asked in a puzzled way: "Although the article didn't describe the later story of you and Zheng Zhiyu, and the episode only intercepted the part of your happiness, but I remember that you stayed together forever , and you still left before her... What's the matter, aren't you happy with your relationship?"

Xu Jiao let out a deep breath.

She squinted her eyes, as if returning to the time when she was about to leave for an instant, Zheng Zhiyu's pale face that would never grow old smiled at herself, holding her cheek with cool fingertips, and said to her:

"Don't be afraid."

"No matter where you are, I will come to you, and I will be with you forever, don't be afraid."

Pulling back her thoughts, Xu Jiao looked at the computer desk in front of her again, she didn't know what to think of, raised her hand and summoned the book "NO. Yes, the system heard her reply unhurriedly:

"happy."

After a pause, Xu Jiao said again, "Very happy."

It's just that there is a bit of melancholy in this happiness.

If you insist on describing it, it is like a big dream. Although you have woken up, your thoughts are still immersed in the previous yellow beam dream. The once full of happiness has become empty, as if something very important has been lost.

The system is not used to Xu Jiao's emotions. After being in a dilemma for a while, he said again: "You... look at the previous few worlds, these people who have the same face as the heroine in your mind will fall in love with you in the end, next time Maybe you will meet again in this world, why don't you be sad?"

Xu Jiao hooked her lips, and she didn't know what emotion flashed in her eyes.

When she heard this innocent speech, she said unhurriedly: "It's because I will meet again in the next world, and I'm sad."

Because the other party finally fell in love with him.

Next time, will that person continue this dream?

Did it make her dream deeper?

Or can't wait to do something when things get better?

Xu Jiao thought that she probably liked it a little bit more, that's why she thought of this, and felt a little uneasy and depressed, she needed to calm down.

"I will rest for half a day." She said to the system.

Half a day will do.

She recalled the dream one last time, and then went to meet the new task.

……

at the same time.

in another space.

The same silence spreads here.

The system held back for a long time, and finally couldn't hold back and said: "You...have you come back?"

The female voice replied faintly: "I'm back."

"You used to ask me when you came back, how much the Creator's favorability for you has risen, and why you are so inactive this time-cough cough, let me tell you the good news! This time the Creator is so kind to you Sensitivity has increased by 50! 50! This is 50 points! Following this trend, you can start making wishes after collecting 100 points! Don’t you look forward to it!”

Compared with the system's flat and passionate tone, the woman seemed to be much calmer. The annoyance and dissatisfaction she felt when she found Xu Jiao unmoved earlier, as well as the anger, all faded from her body.

She is very quiet.

There is no joy of being close to the goal.

The system wanted to say something more, but she said again: "Very good."

She said: "I have been waiting for a long time for this 50 points."

The system pointed out: "But you don't seem very happy."

The woman calmed down for two seconds, then asked: "Really? Have you ever heard a saying? If a person wants to lie to deceive another person, the more he wants to be believed, the more truthful the lie must be. What kind of lie is the best? Really?"

System: "Huh?"

She gave the answer: "The lie that can deceive myself is the most true."

There was silence again in the space.

She smiled very lightly, and the emotions in that laughter were too complex to be discerned, and then disappeared quickly. She looked down at herself, and after a long, long time, she spoke again:

"The next world..."

Having said that, she paused for a moment, as if she was struggling with something very difficult.

The system asked her: "What kind of world do you want in the next world?"

She replied: "According to my original plan, when the Creator really fell in love with me, I must give her all the sufferings and hardships I have suffered in her writing, and when I finally sit on an equal footing with her, I can enter her sight." At that time, I must make her feel the feeling of being overwhelmed and dominated, and I want to be her destiny, I want to be her god... But ..."

The system followed suit: "But you fell in love with her?"

Her rebuttal came so quickly that even the system didn't react: "I didn't."

After a few seconds, she repeated: "I didn't, I just..."

"I just... think of a child."

"I once taught that child to have self-esteem and self-love, not to easily believe in other people's feelings, and not to be soft-hearted because of blood relationship or other relationships. I think, if she is the child I taught, she will be treated like this because she was too indifferent at first. Playing around, I should be very sad."

The system couldn't understand her words that seemed to be talking to herself, so she just asked, "Then what exactly do you want?"

She was rarely confused: "I don't know... I'm a little... not sure how to deal with her."

System: "You are still very kind."

She said: "Perhaps, I found that what she shaped the most about the characters in her pen is that no matter what kind of suffering she experiences, she will always maintain a positive and positive heart. After all, I am also created by her... Some things, I can't get rid of it."

System: "Then you decide with your heart."

It was rare for the woman not to refute this time, she thought silently for a while, and then nodded: "Okay, that's it."

……

Xu Jiao opened her eyes again.

"let's start."

The system was shocked by the speed at which she adjusted her mood: "Are you... alright? Don't you need to remember anything?"

Xu Jiao smiled: "What do you remember? I'm not a widow after the death of my sweetheart. Is there anything to be sad about? I had a good relationship. No matter what happens in the future, at least it used to be good. I should be happy—— —Okay, let’s go to the next world.”

The system said to her: "Okay, the random selection starts, ready to send..."

Vertigo came.

Xu Jiao tried her best to open her eyes wide, and found that there was something about rebirth written on a book lit up with golden light...

Xu Jiao: "...????"

She was shocked and said: "Is it counted as a side story? Is this also my work? Isn't your system too sloppy? You won't want to use my diary and my graduation thesis to time travel in the future, right?"

The system was ashamed for a few seconds: "Well, what you said makes sense, let me fix this bu."

Xu Jiao: "?!"

Is this system getting worse?

The feeling of dizziness stopped, and she was about to yell, but found that her throat was a little sore.

Xu Jiao's parted lips had to hold back the sound, she opened her eyes with difficulty, and her eyes first fell on a shiny cold light, which was...a long sword.

The sword is very sharp, and her appearance can even be clearly reflected on it.

At this moment, the long sword was facing her neck.

Xu Jiao found that she was holding the sword hilt, and standing in front of her was a person in black clothes. She had a beautiful face and looked awe-inspiring. She was obviously good-looking, but the Shura-like aura on her body was overwhelming, making people ignore her beauty. , I only remember her terrifying aura.

The other party's star pupils were full of chill.

Like looking at ants.

As long as the long sword in his hand takes one step forward, it can pass through Xu Jiao's neck and send her back to where she came from.

Xu Jiao was not caught by the aura. Looking at this familiar face, she felt a slight pain in her heart, but she ignored it. Now she was in a kind of fear of dying.

Cold sweat trickled down the ears and down the neck.

Wet by clothes.

Their eyes met, and for a while, no one spoke the first sentence.