I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

two months later.

Xu Jiao sat on a small bench in an open space outside the filming of "The Sapphire Case" and was in a daze. The shooting scene is actually a little simpler than imagined, which is convenient for post-production special effects to be placed on the screen.

There are some pure green and pure blue background walls, and actors occasionally need to install some equipment on their bodies, so that they can arrange the vivid future world scene on the 3D screen.

There are not enough scenes, so we can only make up emotions.

In fact, to shoot this kind of sci-fi film, you have to add your own feelings in it, and put it on the big screen for the audience to immerse themselves in it. The test of acting skills for actors is very high, because every frame of yours will be captured. The MAX screen is enlarged. Once the emotions are not full enough, or the transition is not natural enough, the audience will easily play.

This is why movies test acting skills more than TV dramas.

In this movie, her role is Zhizhi. Qiu Yongli is playing the bionic Xia Weiyang who will be a hundred years later. It's not difficult for Wei Young, she just needs to be happy and pampered like an ordinary youth school drama, but Xu Jiao's acting skills are difficult...

It's about how to express your suppressed emotions.

The part I took just now was the part where Zhizhi was teaching Xia Weiyang how to fall in love. Zhizhi looked at the face in front of him that was exactly the same as his former lover seriously, and suppressed the pain in his heart. Memories were picked out bit by bit and spread out for the other party to see. She was patient and careful when teaching, but in fact she was full of grief in her heart.

Those memories are like the scabs on her heart. Seeing that there will be scars left soon, she tore off those scabs with her own hands, and showed the bloody traces to the other party——

Xu Jiao recently tried not to use that 'immersive' aura, which means that she must always immerse herself in this repressed and unable to release emotions. She wants to regard herself as Xia Weiyang, so she joined the group of these two In the past few months, she has lost ten catties directly.

Now she is sitting by the side and did not participate in the filming, because she was emotionally broken just now, and she couldn't hold back her tears where she shouldn't cry, so the director asked her to go to the side to calm down alone.

Qiu Yongli was liberated from the emotionless state of the bionic man, looked at her worriedly, and then whispered to her manager who came to visit the class:

"Sister, I thought I was at a disadvantage in taking the role of Xia Weiyang. After all, I know that I am the real heroine. After all, now I see Teacher Xu like that, I am suddenly very lucky..."

"If I knew how to act as a cicada, I might collapse on the first day, and my mentality would collapse."

She felt sorry for her small chest, but her eyes were still focused on Xu Jiao, as if she wanted to enlighten her, but she didn't dare to approach her, she just watched from a distance, even keeping her hands warm The red dates and white fungus soup is not sweet anymore.

The manager glanced at her, and sighed helplessly. Qiu Yongli is considered to be a very lucky type in this industry. She just made her debut and immediately became popular with a work, and then she starred in the big star "Willow on the Palace Wall". heroine's play.

However, it was obvious that Xu Jiao had better luck than her.

Although he was wandering on the [-]th line before, it turned out that a marriage fell from the sky first, and he took off directly with Feng Qingyu's resources, and then he participated in "The Willow on the Palace Wall". It was originally just a role similar to the female fourth, but she was played by Feng Qingyu This year's most abusive life-and-death relationship, the popularity directly surpassed the male and female protagonists. In the relationship line, the audience only remembers the concubine P, but how can they remember the male and female protagonists?

It's even better now. She directly took advantage of the popularity of the previous film to become one of the first-line magazines of the year. She took the cover of the first-line magazine in November, and now she won the number one female title of "The Jade Case".

but……

The manager glanced at Qiu Yongli, who didn't show much jealousy at all, and couldn't help but sigh.

fair enough--

There are already too many ambitious people in this circle. Although they are a little higher than those who are not ambitious, they are too tired.

It's good that Qiu Yongli is so open-minded, stupid people have stupid blessings, he is a rare happy type in this circle, the manager thought.

……

Qiu Yongli walked towards Xu Jiao's direction, holding another bowl of red dates and white fungus soup in his hand, and when he approached, he also moved a small mat for himself, and sat down beside her.

Xu Jiao heard the movement, turned her head to look at her, and saw the hot soup handed over to her face, thanked her with a smile, then took it, raised her hand to hold the spoon, and stirred it slowly, when she heard Qiu Yongli Asked in a low voice:

"Are you still sad?"

Xu Jiao's movements stopped for a moment, she turned her head to look at Qiu Yongli, for the first time she was glad that Qiu Yongli was not the protagonist of the book "Starlight" and didn't have the face she likes, otherwise she would devote herself to her pouring into it, there will always be a moment when you will mistake Qiu Yongli for... someone else.

The words Feng Qingyu said before are still echoing in her ears:

"If you have other sweethearts in the future, don't take them as others, okay?"

Qiu Yongli shouldn't be one of these 'them'.

Xu Jiao took a sip of the white fungus soup, and when the faint sweetness melted in her mouth, she suddenly said, "It's actually not sad, because some emotions have been deposited for too long, as if they have melted into your heart. It's the same in the blood, and I don't feel any special sadness."

But also not happy.

Just like a traveler walking in the skyline of the canyon, when she looks up, she can see a line of blue sky through the height of the cliff, and the bright and clear sun is just above her head, which makes people feel familiar It seems that she can touch it with her hand. The sky is her good mood, but the road under her feet is the road she has been walking. She tried her best to run back to the past, but this deep canyon has no end. .

So she will always be at the bottom of the valley.

But now, this work requires her to condense this long road into one point, so that all her emotions from the past years are piled up together, which only makes her feel out of breath.

She didn't want to cry because she was sad, but because if she didn't cry anymore, those accumulated emotions would make her collapse.

Seeing the concern in Qiu Yongli's eyes, Xu Jiao hooked her lips, and said, "It's okay, don't worry about me, I will be freed from this state after the filming of this movie is finished."

Qiu Yongli nodded, and suddenly suggested: "Do you want to ask for leave and go for a walk?"

Xu Jiao drank the bowl of soup in her hand in one gulp. The tremella soup didn't contain too much sugar. I don't know if it was because Qiu Yongli's manager was afraid that she would gain weight. The sweetness just lingered on the tip of my tongue, and after a while, I couldn't find any aftertaste, only the faint fragrance of white fungus and red dates remained.

Putting down the bowl in her hand, Xu Jiao smiled and shook her head at Qiu Yongli: "No need."

Relaxation is of no use to her.

It's better to finish the filming early.

Qiu Yongli looked at her a little hesitantly, but there was a sentence stuck in her throat and she didn't say it.

She wants to ask, you are filming here now, and you are in such a bad mood, why doesn't Feng Qingyu come and see you?

But the situation in the past two months told her that there might be some conflict between Feng Qingyu and Xu Jiao, and some gossips on the Internet began to spread rumors about their marriage when they saw that they hadn't appeared together in public for a long time. The relationship is broken, and the news of the divorce is ready.

Although Qiu Yongli felt that most of these things with noses and eyes were fake, she also knew that she shouldn't call Feng Qingyu here on her own at this time.

Seeing that Xu Jiao continued to be in a daze after drinking the soup, she had no choice but to go back to her manager. It happened that Lu Xun came back from abroad at this time and sent her a message to ask how she was doing. The situation revealed a few words.

……

After asking the assistant to help wash the bowl in her hand and send it back to Qiu Yongli, Xu Jiao took a breath, stood up and gestured "ok" to the director, and then walked towards the camera.

Qiu Yongli also put down the chatting phone, returned to the indifferent and polite bionic appearance, and went to Xu Jiao from another direction.

This scene is the scene where Cicada took the bionic Xia Weiyang to the shopping mall.

The two were walking in a high-end supermarket with people coming and going, and Zhizhi looked at all kinds of products that dazzled her. She put her hand on the handle of the intelligent shopping cart that recognized the road and could turn automatically, and her pace involuntarily slowed down.

Xia Weiyang asked in time: "Is there anything you like?"

Cicada looked at her, blinked, and said seriously, "No, you shouldn't ask me what I like—instead, throw all the ones I just looked at into the shopping cart."

in memory.

When she was shopping with Xia Weiyang, as soon as she passed the snack shelf, she couldn't walk, and when she saw chocolates, potato chips, spicy sticks, etc., she deliberately put down her steps. Sometimes Xia Weiyang didn't notice how she was walking slowly, and would be puzzled looked back at her.

Then Cicada's footsteps will be slow, slow, slow to a complete stop.

At this time, Xia Weiyang would walk over helplessly, take a casual look at the snacks on the shelf, and throw all the ones she likes into the car, and when she knew it, she would raise the corners of her lips and say:

"Oh, I haven't finished eating the snacks at home, will I buy too much?"

Then Xia Weiyang would look at her acting like she got cheap, sneered, picked up the corner of a potato chip from the car, and made a gesture to put it back——

Cicada rushed over: "If I want to buy it, I will buy it! Throw it back and try it, and I won't leave today!"

now.

The bionic Xia Weiyang took a look at her, and then moved all the things that she glanced at just now, because it was too precise, so even the things that Cicada accidentally glanced at from the corner of her eye were thrown into the car.

Cicada: "!"

She hurriedly stopped and said, "Hey, hey, I don't want this one. I'm not interested in this nutrient solution or mustard biscuits. I'm just curious to take a look."

The bionic Xia Weiyang obediently put everything she said back on the original shelf.

After walking two steps, Cicada lowered her head again and did not move.

Bionic man: "?"

She glanced up and down and asked: "I remember I taught you one hundred and eight ways to tie shoelaces. In today's society, even three-year-old children can tie their own shoelaces. With your current hands-on ability See, it shouldn't bother you if your shoelaces fall off."

Cicada: "..."

She looked at the bionic man expressionlessly for a long time, and said, "I want you to be the one."

The bionic person Xia Weiyang looked at her twice, confirmed that this was really an order she gave him, so he walked over, bent down, pulled up the two shoelaces she had loosened, and tied a standard bow.

While tying their shoelaces, the bionics in the supermarket and ordinary humans who were shopping all cast their gazes in the direction of the two of them.

Knowing that she pretended not to notice, she only said in her heart:

What will happen to the world 100 years from now?

Have you never seen a relationship with a bionic person?

As a result, when the two of them went to check out, Cicada realized that everyone around him looked back at him, and then gave way to the two of them one after another, wanting them to go to check out first.

Cicada calmly asked the bionic man next to him: "...Is today a special day? Why do they all give way to me?"

She was clearly no longer the person who had no common sense when she just woke up, but she still didn't understand why this happened.

Xia Weiyang tilted her head, casually connected to a channel with a bionic person around her, and after a few seconds, she replied sincerely: "Because you asked me to help you tie your shoelaces just now, it is considered a handicapped person, so Everyone has kindly decided to give you priority access."

Cicada: "..."

Cicada: "Me!"

She hesitated to speak, and finally, under the friendly and caring eyes of everyone in the supermarket, she pulled Xia Weiyang to hurriedly settle the bill and fled. After walking two steps, she said: "Aren't you people in this society too unfriendly?" I understand romance now! Can something like tying shoelaces be misunderstood as a couple!"

Cicada looked at her, thought for a while, and answered seriously: "Because no one in this society will fall in love with a bionic person."

Cicada was choked.

After walking a few steps, she suddenly threw down the shopping bag in her hand in discouragement, and glanced at Xia Weiyang next to her, she suddenly said: "I don't want to leave, Xia Weiyang, you carry me on your back."

"Even if you are regarded as a disabled person by everyone again, do you insist on me carrying out this order?" Xia Weiyang asked sincerely.

Knowing that she was in a panic, she broke the jar and said, "Yes!"

Then, there were two overlapping figures on the road.

Xia Weiyang carried Zhizhi on her back, and walked steadily forward step by step. The man on her body was around her neck, and was still carrying a big shopping bag on her chest, ignoring the gazes of passers-by who were walking their dogs.

Knowing that she buried her head in the other party's neck, she suddenly said sullenly:

"Xia Weiyang."

"I didn't let you recite mine before, because there would be many people watching on the side of the road. I was afraid that they would think we were abnormal, so I didn't want you to recite it, but..."

"But now I don't care."

Hearing her words, Xia Weiyang replied calmly without any fluctuation in her voice: "Miss Zhizhi, this is the first time I am walking on the street with you on my back."

Knowing that she had no voice, she just buried her head in her neck and said after a while, "I know."

……

"Card."

In this scene, Xu Jiao finally didn't cry in front of the camera, because the content of this part was funny and sad, so it was not suitable for the protagonist to cry in the corner to exaggerate the sad atmosphere.

However, when Qiu Yongli put her down and fell to the side lifelessly as if exhausted, he couldn't help but raised his hand to touch the back of his neck.

There are water marks there.

Xu Jiao was still crying just now.

It just doesn't show up on camera.

Managers and assistants surrounded her and patted her on the shoulders and arms. After all, it was Omega who performed such a strength scene. Although Qiu Yongli was dragged to the gym to work temporarily a few days ago, they were still worried that she would lose strength .

After all, Omega is so delicate.

But Qiu Yongli didn't pay much attention to their massage, but stared at the direction Xu Jiao left, and then sighed very maturely.

……

Xu Jiao went to wash her face near a sink outside.

When the coldness washed her face clean, she felt that there was someone more beside her. Of course, it was not because she was so sensitive to breath, but because the pheromone smell of the other party entered her nose.

A little sweet, a little bitter.

It's a smell I haven't smelled in a long time.

She hooked her lower lip, her face was still wet with water stains, and there were no traces left in her eyes. No one could tell that she had just cried. She smiled at the other party and said:

"How did you come?"

Feng Qingyu wore a brown windbreaker, a classic style from the B family, and a plaid patterned scarf. Her whole body was indifferent, and she looked at her calmly. After two seconds, she said:

"Someone told me that you are not in a good mood in the crew, let me come over and take a look."

Xu Jiao exhaled softly, "You see it now?"

"It's actually fine," she said.

Feng Qingyu didn't answer this topic, but just took out a candy from her pocket as if by magic, and handed it to Xu Jiao.

Xu Jiao looked at the candy. The candy wrapper was reflective, like colorful colors, and the inside was pink, which made people feel that it should be an ordinary strawberry flavor.

She was a little dazed and didn't raise her hand in time to pick it up.

I heard Feng Qingyu say: "When I was filming this kind of tragedy, I was very sad, but I couldn't let go of this energy, so I would eat a candy, so that I would feel much better between filming."

Xu Jiao's throat twitched, and finally raised her hand to take it, thanking her in a low voice.

Then, as if reminiscing with an old friend, she followed Feng Qingyu's tone and said briskly: "I thought you wouldn't want to see me again."

After all, the two of them went through the divorce procedure a month ago.

Now Xu Jiao is reminiscing with Shi Weiya, always asking people out, or going when Tiaofeng Qingyu is not around.

Feng Qingyu lowered her eyes and replied casually: "Yes, but anyone with a normal head will never ask for humiliation again."

Xu Jiao thought she was called by Qiu Yongli, so she didn't think much, she peeled off the candy wrapper, and then ate the candy inside, as she expected, it was strawberry flavored.

She squinted her eyes, waited for the sweet smell to dissipate, and waved to Feng Qingyu, indicating that she could go back, and then she walked towards the crew.

Take two steps.

There were footsteps following behind.

Xu Jiao thought she was going to say something, so she looked back, but Feng Qingyu didn't leave, instead, she glanced at her and said calmly: "You are acting like this again because the person you like is gone, and you put your emotions into it." , so I was too depressed."

The feeling of looking up and finding someone I like no longer in the world is too cruel.

Xu Jiao didn't answer the question, but just looked at her.

Feng Qingyu continued patiently: "Don't you think I resemble the person you like? Go and act, and I will watch you by the side."

In this way, when you turn around and see my face, you may not be so sad and collapse.

Maybe you can lie to yourself, in fact, the person you like is still there, and just watching you quietly not far away.

Xu Jiao understood her unfinished words, and suddenly smiled: "Feng Qingyu, didn't you just say..."

But anyone with a normal head would never take the humiliation of himself again.

Feng Qingyu interrupted her, her expression was still calm, as if she didn't feel anything: "Well, my head just happens to be a little abnormal right now."

She glanced at Xu Jiao calmly, then turned her gaze away, and said:

"so."

"I don't know when I will return to normal, so hurry up and take a second look."